@riensu @saiwai
here is the video on my youtube channel
https://youtu.be/He5wOAB98YA


Yonk: 

Rather waste my time, I don’t really wanna take my time with you

All this time is wasted 

You don’t ever wanna see my pov

Ah unless it benefits you

You won’t ever wanna talk to me again

And no that’s just fine

Yeah I’m so fed up, get all my bread up

I’ll do this shit at my own pace so get the flip up out my face 
 


Riensu:

Just wanna be alone

Don’t know what I could say now

Cause everything just fades out

We’re standing face to face now, I can’t hear what you say now 

Everything went right over my head

Again and again

No I don’t want this to end 

Again and again 
 
Im hanging just by a thread 

Again and again

Im looking up at the stars tonight 

Wonderin if I’m wastin my time

beneficial w/ riensu p. sai *video in desc

really lazy song w 2 much Keshi influence ngl
ill make actual music soon

trust(clozz)

Rant: I made this song in 8 hours and uploaded it here bc I'm so fucking mad at myself that I'm nowhere near as good at music as I want to be no matter how much time I've put in. I understand that it's a never-ending path and that I lack experience, but when I listen to the music of the role models I admire or even any SC artist, I genuinely wonder what I'm doing. I keep thinking about how people in SC who have less equipment make such beautiful music, and I keep telling myself that I'm not cut out for making music because I feel like it might be true given that no matter how hard I seem to try, I just keep producing things that I'm not proud of.  I'm still fucking mad, but I won't stop trying.

Edit: Arhghghg you guys really liked this song and wanted it on spotify so I uploaded it there! Thank you so much for the messages and love. I don't know how to feel. So please feel free to listen on any platform you like ;w; ♥ (Though I mastered the spotify version a bit better heheh)

[Verse]:
Lately I've been taking so much shit from no one but myself
(You wanna break it off, break it off)
I cant get anything to work,
Is it just my lack of talent and reserve?
(Boy, youre just not enough, not enough)

But I wanna cross 
The boundaries that I never thought I'd touch
All the pain that I go through for things I love
And I wanna give it up, god I wanna stop

[Pre]:
God I cant,
Waste my life
All this time, 
Have I done any right?

Dont think I wanna do this anymore
It just makes me feel miserable
Dont even know what to do
Lately I've been feeling like a fraud
Now I put my heart in the ground

"You're not cut for this, stop it now"
Ha, yeah

[Chorus]:
Mess up all the time, oh no
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 
Mess up all the time, oh no
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 

(God I cant)
Mess up all the time, oh no
(Waste my life)
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more 
(All this time)
Mess up all the time, oh no
(Have I done any right?)
Wanna stop but I cant keep it up no more

Frustrated

produced by roku
with @heyzeph
cover courtesy of starcat28
this song well over a year old

lyrics - 
[spoder]
this weight all on my shoulders
don't bat your eye
just a second of your time
"don't break these habits"
i know
you've strucken
some gold
like how would i know?
like how would i
grow
dont walk around like you're the star of the show
you've fallen
deep
hoping nobody knows

[zephyr]
And you
Got way too many bad habits
Can’t take this stress, girl this damage
Got me drinking till I pass out
If only you knew the slut that you are
My bad I ain’t mean it I took it too far
But damn all this fussin’ really got me in the fuckin mood

I’m like woah, baby where u tryna go
I could put you on a jet or I could put you on a boat
We got way too much in common to be sitting all alone
Got a man I got a girl but baby they don’t gotta know
You know damn well it’s something bout ya body that’s got me fantasizing about bein wit you

[spoder]
stop if you see the green light better go now
shoot if you shoot it too high itll fall down
life tell me whats life like when you're strung out
knife tell me whats that like when you bleed out
had a couple frens but they lost it
drama queen always love to gossip
watch it fall empty all my pockets
face down bby done w all the harming

chorus

tempts you w/ riensu (kidu)

written: us
mixed: us
produced: @heyzeph
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/zephyrandmaxrrss/girl-drama-2

Lyrics:

Cause you told me, we should wait
And I told you, I'm ok
I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr
I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr

Catch me rollin' with the top down in a week or two
Nother' nigga wanna talk down, I got beef with you
2 shots to this nigga dome, now he weaker too
I just walked out of tha store wit a glock 19 or two

Two faced, I don't wanna be right
You hate how I act when I'm tired
Come back every time that I'm fine
I know you like when I'm tryin, I won't do that for a while
Don't even care at all
You wanna see me fall
So many issues with you, I don't even wanna talk
You think you got it all
I see right through you now
You said that you been happy waiting for me keep it to yourself

Cause you told me, we should wait
And I told you, I'm ok
I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr
I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr
Cause you told me, we should wait
And I told you, I'm ok
I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr
I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr

You call it a waste I call it pickin' up the slack love
Took some time away, I realized everything I once was
If you were in my shoes you would get it, how could I say sorry
I can't wrap my head around the way you made me love to hate us
Rest your mind
I was real bad back then now I'm fine
Sittin' all pretty, alright, all nice
Say you're done with me, in my room for the night
Al- al- alright

She like baby are you done now?
is it over?
Are you past that, can I come over?
She said I'm good now, but man I know her
We gon' be right back to where we both were
(OK) I just cashed out on a panigale that's a hunnid racks
Ex bitch in my phone sayin' we should run it back
Baby you a sweetheart but I just can't make the love come back
Baby just appreciate the time that we had fun with that

Cause you told me, we should wait
And I told you, I'm ok
I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr
I'm alr I'm alr I'm alr

alr w/ zephyr (zephyr)

written: us
mixed: us
produced: @maxrrss | @heyzeph
all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/zephyrandmaxrrss/girl-drama-2

Lyrics:

Novocaine (wont hear your lies)
I can't think (no rest on mind)
Don't wanna feel my face (I might go blind)
Don't wanna make mistakes (but it feels so right)

They don't- they don't know bro
Hit me when I'm sober
Whipping that Toyota
Didn't know she novia
I don't wanna hold ya
I'm not coming over
I don't wanna do shit
I just wanna go up

Got some jack up in my cola, I'll call you when I'm sober
JZ in my motor, but I'm not talkin Hova
Shawty what's the hold up? I miss when we was closer
I was young and dumb, but lil' baby now I'm older
But girl, yo ex he needa watch just what he say to me
I got friends that keep a chop like gta for me
If she worth it then you know I'll treat her faithfully
And that pussy fit me tight like she was made for me, made for me

You think you gon break it off, I could make you turn right back
If we gon do more than talk, girl I wanna make it last
You think you gon break it off, I could make you turn right back
If we gon do more than talk, girl I wanna make it last

Novocaine (wont hear your lies)
I can't think (no rest on mind)
Don't wanna feel my face (I might go blind)
Don't wanna make mistakes (but it feels so right)
Novocaine (wont hear your lies)
I can't think (no rest on mind)
Don't wanna feel my face (I might go blind)
Don't wanna make mistakes (but it feels so right)

They don't- they don't know bro
Hit me when I'm sober
Whipping that Toyota
Didn't know she novia
I don't wanna hold ya
I'm not coming over
I don't wanna do shit
I just wanna go up

Oou
Oou (yeah)
Oou
Oou

alr w/ zephyr (zephyr)

max ruben