dedicated to the childhood park which molded my youth

lyrics:

and ive been trying so hard
not to speak to myself
i wonder if ill grow up
those cuts speak for themselves

and i grew complacent
between the ages
wanted to grow up
why did you change

and i've been trying so hard
so what
so what

(少し疲れました。休憩が必要だと思います。)

those times i wish i fell asleep
in your arms
why do you feel so out of reach
im so alone

all those attempts shouldnt have failed
i sometimes scream
i pray for help
god just take me home

(およそ一ヶ月ほどの間。)

and ive been trying so hard 
not to speak to myself
i wonder if i'll grow up
those cuts speak for themselves

and i grew complacent
between the ages
wanted to grow up
why did you change

and i've been trying so hard
so hard
so what

if you ever feel as if you are alone, talk to someone. please dial these numbers:

dial 988 (USA)
dial 116 123 (UK)

inspired by the foreign film 'mirrored mind' (2005) and the mental journey of figuring out personal identity

carlisle

https://soundcloud.com/brakence/nosering-ft-50landing

its a let down
really dropped the ball, a shame how it went down
it wont be no fight
u wasting time
put ya fist down
took that shit back 2 the basics
got it stripped down
back 2 talking shit now
that shits a let down
really dropped the ball, a shame how it went down
it wont be no fight
u wasting time
put ya fist down
took that shit back 2 the basics
got it stripped down
im back on that shit now

i hope u hate me
he work at walmart, they walk in like dababy
dont try that, are u crazy??
u could make a pig fly b4 u change me
im a lil selfish, fuck u and pay me
told em eat shit
lips moving 2 loose
damn plead fifth
just better like a team diff
shot after shot like a damn gif
he a bitch, he got slapped, whos ya damn pimp?

its a let down
really dropped the ball, a shame how it went down
it wont be no fight
u wasting time
put ya fist down
took that shit back 2 the basics
got it stripped down
back 2 talking shit now
that shits a let down
really dropped the ball, a shame how it went down
it wont be no fight
u wasting time
put ya fist down
took that shit back 2 the basics
got it stripped down
im back on that shit now

let down [p. imnotvrycreative]

i did nothing on this im just posting it

@imnotvrycreative

imnotvrycreative work out [p. yogic beats]

TRACK 7/11

spent too much time tryna bounce right back from it
i love it, i know its bad for me
tell me all the things i shoulda known, but never clicked, like a camera- holdup

spent too much time tryna bounce right back from it
i love it, i know its bad for me
tell me all the things i shoulda known, but never clicked, like a camera aint capture me
ive thought about a hundred ways ends bad for me
clinging onto that shit like im grappling
you dont believe me, i know
but i swear on my life that the walls close gradually

shit shifts like its tectonic
let it bend so much, that its not solid
never thought it'd be a lot from it, but i kinda thought you would be honest
getting ready for a disappointment
i keep tryna find the point, and
i thought if a door close, one open, but its locked like i missed appointment

@onlywoke

got a lot of shit to say for someone who doesnt want it
you play games, so i leave you at the bottom
talk my shit, but im just getting started
i dont need to bounce back
too much time tryna bounce right back from it
you lie, waste time, and im back again
thought about 100 ways that its bad for me
but i cant go

bad for me, its gon end bad for me (all ten toes touching rock bottom)
it would help i could breathe at least (why your words feeling so hollow?)
man i think i should probably leave

cause i spent too much time tryna bounce right back from it
i love it, i know its bad for me
tell me all the things i shoulda known, but never clicked, like a camera aint capture me
ive thought about a hundred ways ends bad for me
clinging onto that shit like im grappling
you dont believe me, i know
but i swear on my life that the walls close gradually

(too much time tryna bounce right back from it)
(i love it, i know its bad for me)
(you dont believe me, i know)
(but i swear on my life that the walls close gradually)

BAD FOR ME ft onlywoke [p. imnotvrycreative]

COVERART BY @alexksmh


@imnotvrycreative
home grown, could do it by my lonely
i never wanna need too much
getting tired of all that wanting
about time make it all you got
you really think that youre up there with us?
i hate to break it youre honestly not
fell in love the money
i marry the paper, the only way tying the knot

@oxidizetunes
jumping out the maybach truck i feel different
ap prezi on my wrist, gon watch it glisten
rolling with jesus i'm dripped out in these christians
girl dont hit me on the road askin what u've been missin yea
you know that youre time is gone
singing on a different song
and i dont really care anymore

@iuniper
i dont wanna no pen
setting fire in my lungs shit aint better man
but id rather feel that, not just stab it in my back
cant take your poison back
i should stop but it feels so damn good
im burning my lungs, to forget you

@imnotvrycreative
home grown, could do it by my lonely
i never wanna need too much
getting tired of all that wanting
about time make it all you got
you really think that youre up there with us?
i hate to break it youre honestly not
fell in love the money
i marry the paper, the only way tying the knot

@penguin-burp
she dont really care about me
she just see the money coming
she too fine to fight about it
oh my god i feel astounding
got a bag, omg, partying up all night long
she so bad, omg, fucking it up all night long

@alexksmh
what you want from me, baby what you wanna talk about
i dont give a fuck no more, i dont wanna talk abt nun
so dance with me, give me your bag
dance with, give me your racks
dance with me, dance with me

@savpass9
step to me, get your shit fucked up (baby im falling with you)
little bitch, you aint it, use your luck all up 
talking shit, heres a chair for you stupid little cuck
flip a switch, bitch, said i want my bucks (said you dont know what to do)
Eeny, meeny, miny, moe, gotta line my blunt
got my greedy eyes on dough, aint no fucking time to stunt
[?] teeny tiny [?], smelly he dont wipe his butt
gotta [?], cause its ozzy on the up

@imnotvrycreative
home grown, could do it by my lonely
i never wanna need too much
getting tired of all that wanting
about time make it all you got
you really think that youre up there with us?
i hate to break it youre honestly not
fell in love the money
i marry the paper, the only way tying the knot

(home grown, could do it by my lonely)
(i never wanna need too much)
(getting tired of all that wanting)
(about time make it all you got)
(you really think that youre up there with us?)
(i hate to break it youre honestly not)
(fell in love the money)
(i marry the paper, the only way tying the knot)

home grown [p. onlywoke]

prod. @aftrrs
made for @noob song wars

(cant find a point too dull)
(i could tell that its in my mind again)
(wont lie like it aint been rough)
(but you know that id pay that price again)


cant find a point too dull
i could tell that its in my mind again
wont lie like it aint been rough
but you know that id pay that price again
right now, and you probably was right back then
my choice, i would probably take it way back when
would you rather be the last one standing
or would you rather be the first one dead?

you'd rather M.I.A
its getting hard staying in my lane (https://soundcloud.com/imnotvrycreative/stay-in-my-lane)
i dont ever wanna get complacent
maybe already in that place
"i dont wanna do too much"
only one getting in my way
duck head till its something to show for it
man i cant let it be no waste

cant find a point too dull
i could tell that its in my mind again
wont lie like it aint been rough
but you know that id pay that price again
right now, and you probably was right back then
my choice, i would probably take it way back when
would you rather be the last one standing
or would you rather be the first one dead?

lose more than you gain from it
same shit overhead stay dangaling
i dont ever wanna break no promises
but truth is i dont wanna go through with it
ironic, said i wouldnt but im losing it (https://soundcloud.com/imnotvrycreative/ironic)
might trip a little, but aint falling for no stupid shit
the best part is youre almost through with it
how you think that i dont know why youre doing it

(make sure its the worst it gets)
(tryna let it go, but i cant drop grip)
("dont kill you, it makes you stronger")
(well then i think im dead)


cant find a point too dull
i could tell that its in my mind again
wont lie like it aint been rough
but you know that id pay that price again
right now, and you probably was right back then
my choice, i would probably take it way back when
would you rather be the last one standing
or would you rather be the first one dead?

(cant find a point, too dull) (dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead)
(cant find a point, too dull) (first one dead)
(won't lie like it ain't been rough) (dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead)
(won't lie like it ain't been rough) (first one dead)
(right now, and you probably was right back then) (dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead)
(my choice, i would probably take it way back when) (first one dead)
(would you rather be the last one standing) (dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead)
(or would you rather be the first one dead?)

FIRST ONE DEAD [p. aftrr]

stream on all platforms: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/strangers16/call-it-feat-imnotvrycreative-sav--terraine/
one hit wonder💔


cover art: @1mugwump
prod: @ZUUBEK

lyrics:
@imnotvrycreative
Too imperfect to want perfection
And my intention ain't to leave you guessing
It's not the plan, and it never was
And if it's broken, still count my blessings
You down on your luck, then I'd use up all the wishes that I can
And you know I would
You say the word, and I'd cut back just to cut off slack
If you need a scapegoat, then it's all my bad
And I would still call it worth
And I'd give back everything I have in exchange for a few things that you haven't
And you know I would

@savpass9
Yeah, I didn't wanna let you notice
Fall in love with the one who's closest
Got me losing track of what's important to me
Wanna be the only focus
When the night comes, will you call it?
Or will you leave our feelings dormant?
Let me stay another night, another night
When the night comes, will you call it?

@terraineterraine
When you wish upon a star
Know I know right where you are
Way you treated me was blasphemy
You're tearing me apart
You want me to play my part
Why you keeping me afar?
Wanna be my other half
You should've said that from the start
Didn't wanna let you notice me
Come stand close to me
While you're staring at the ceiling
Know I see you in my dreams
Know the act of chasing after you is not as easy as it seems
All these thoughts can cloud my judgment
It's as simple as I need you to believe

@savpass9
Yeah, I didn't wanna let you notice
Fall in love with the one who's closest
Got me losing track of what's important to me
Wanna be the only focus
When the night comes, will you call it?
Or will you leave our feelings dormant?
Let me stay another night, another night
When the night comes, will you call it?

CALL IT [prod. ZUUBEK]

written: me
mixed: me 
produced: @nerc_era

im dropping again, sooner than you may expect hehehehe

all plats: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/maxruben/need-me-more

Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lEP-fqhBkQw

Lyrics:

Now you're so far gone,
yeah you're so far gone
i cant see
if i take too long,
if i take too long 
would you leave

i just don't understand it 
i wasn't tryna change you
you got me second guessing 
i wrote those songs about you
i had to change direction
my mom still asks about you

( my mom still asks about you )

Time flies by, i know you hate that
Blind eyes cry, i can't erase that
tell me if you need me more
i'll embrace that
tell me if you need me more
i'll embrace that


yeah
its all on you my love
tell me what you want
like theres no pressure on ya

need me more (nerc)

all songs written, mixed, mastered, & performed by me
produced by plantcham
outro by aftrr
additional production by me

I packed all my bags and left my home town
And when I come I want to be something
Make my dad proud
Oh isn’t it obvious love?
That I miss you so dearly
Can you hear me?
Oh I’ll make it easy

Pulled your knife but I’m already dead
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Wore up your shoes kicking dirt in my face
It’s how it’s supposed to be love
God strike me down from above
Just tell me what you really want
What you really want

At a rest stop in a car with some people I don’t know
Maybe if we didn’t live far then our eyes would both be glowing gold
Dream girl don’t love me no more (don’t throw it away)
Threw my morals out like a whore (you threw it away)
You don’t gotta save me darling
I spent the last month getting high
Wishing I wasn’t alive and steady crying
I told myself don’t die yet
That’d be so violent

I’ve been up all night for you
Ruin my mind for you
Giving all this time for you
Peeling back my eyes for you
Oh baby can’t you see? (that my head is on the floor, bae head is on the floor)
Oh baby can’t you see? (do you love me anymore bae, love me anymore?)
Love me anymore

Pulled your knife but I’m already dead
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be? (go!)
Is heaven somewhere that I’ll be?

home

in ur head (seye)

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need me more (nerc)

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