this is probably the most depressing song lyric-wise i've ever made i promise i'm ok. it's clearly unfinished and i couldn't mix this to save my life but i tried my best

Pandora's box (demo)

trying to not use autotune the lyrics on this suck but whatever

cinnamon (demo)

yes i had trouble pronouncing apostatize and yes it is very rough AND YES the cover is poorly photoshopped stock photos together but i just want to put it out so here r the lyrics

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages

i can’t stay focused all alone
you’ve left me hoping since sophomore year
yeah it’s like i’m frozen, in the cold
and you’re in my vision, decisions
and you’re in my vision, decisions

and you’re standing miles away
but you’ve got a grip ‘round my throat
Can you let go?

I see your smiling face
and red lights, and i can’t help but go

cause i can’t stay focused all alone
you’ve left me hoping since sophomore year
yeah it’s like you’re frozen, in the snow
and you’re in my vision

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages
god, you’ve got some power to keep me hooked for ages

(i swear i) could apostatize, but couldn’t disbelieve you
i can’t forget your eyes, you’re my only faith group
god, you’ve got some power

cause i can’t make sense of your effect
it’s so offensive to conquer my head
yeah it’s like you’re right here, in our bed
and you’re my religion, my vision

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages
god, you’ve got some power to keep me hooked for ages

(i swear i) could apostatize, but couldn’t disbelieve you
i still know your eyes, you are my sole faith group
god, you’ve got some power

decisions (rough demo)

thank you to the incredible @strxwbrryfairy for doing this w me and producing it!!! if u havent go listen to our everything has changed cover on her page 🙃🙃

never grow up (cover by eve and max)

this song is from the perspective of someone with a big ego

its like im the sun
but i pull in problems
and i try 2 trillion times but i cant solve em

god im so done
ive hit rock bottom
and i try 2 million times to climb the wall up

do u know the pressure of being the biggest star in the world you think revolves around you?
do u think im better and ive got a bigger heart than the ones who are the size of the moon?
do you?

i am the sun
somehow im starstruck
by the lights and by my fire i cant fathom

how im so hot
everyone wants some
and i try 2 hundred times but i cant show them how i do it
cause my egos in the way and its growing every second and im addicted to the fame yea i want all of your attention

do u know the pressure of being the biggest star in the world you think revolves around you?
do u think im better and ive got a bigger heart than the ones who are the size of the moon?
do you.. cause i do!

do u know the pressure of being the biggest star in the world you think revolves around you?
do u think im better and ive got a bigger heart than the ones who are the size of the moon?
cause i do
cause i do
cause i do

The Sun - Demo

the sun demo

my friend's an actress in a reality show.
directors messed up the casting- its only her and their shadows!
her acting is seamless, almost like a cover up..
nobody knows what she's hiding, nobody cares enough

she's just walking to june
since may, the sun hasnt been out
her world's black and blue and gray
all the funs over now
watch the rain pour down
forever and ever and ever and ever

i think im an extra, i've only got a few lines.
my role's pretty fucked up, i make the scene come to life when it's not behind the scenes.
all the lights are only shining for the screen.

im just walking to june
since may, the sun hasnt been out.
too scared for the news to break
all the funs over now
watch the rain pour down
forever and ever and ever and ever

lights camera action, she's talking to a casket, she's had enough of this madness.
she's headed right home.. what if she turns right here? no one has to know
she's so tired of faking, thinks she's never gonna make it.
whats the point of being famous when june is creeping too close?
since when is time this slow?
we're freaking out, we're breaking down, we're losing all hope as we walk to june
since may, the sun hasn't been out
too scared for the news to break
all the fun's over now

watch the rain pour down
shadows on the ground
the sun hasn't been out
all the fun's over now
forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever...

actress (walking to june) demo

i've caught u falling down again
and
i’ve caught the doubts that come with

i’m tired of living here like this
and
i’m tired of wishing you would notice

i’m invisible
you’re insufferable
but i’m still here

you’re irresponsible
i’ve got doubts and i’ve got some fears
but i’m still here

for you
i’m still here and i don’t know why
i feel like you’re gonna die
if i’m not by your side
and i think i need you
i think i need you

i know i’d rue the choice i make
to move on
i couldn’t stand the possibility

of nonstop calling when you don’t
respond
you’re still my responsibility

but i’m invisible
you’re invincible
i think i’ll always be right here

for you
i’m still here and i don’t know why
i feel like you’re gonna die
without me by your side
and i think i need you

i think i need you
i don't i don't i don't i don't i
[repeat]

i should move on
you need me
[repeat]

but i think i need you

need u

"dont u cry its over now" are the only words I wanna hear
no blue skies have come around here
at least as of lately

say they're fine enough to smile..
are they really fine enough to live?
near 18 but still a child
I am truly no adult in the slightest

the the the days are re p p p peating
cant stop drinking empty feelings
(I'm an alcoholic)
the the the time is t t t ticking
still cant find a single reason like them
are they really happy?..

cause I see them fcking living
maybe they don't have to worry like me
maybe they don't have to worry like I've been lately

look in glass, I'm swinging words at my body like they're wrecking balls
i guess its what i deserve
life is truly one A-team throwing curveballs

the the the shadows are c c c creeping
on the walls and on the ceiling
(oh its so psychotic)
c cause the sun is still b b b beaming
still cant find a single reason like them
are they really happy?

cause I see them fcking living
maybe they don't have to worry like me
maybe they don't have to worry like I've been...

lately I've been wasting time
emptiness has filled my mind to the point i cant move forward
lately I've been telling lies
saying i don't want to die
but i love our apartment and my corner
i truly cant think anywhere warmer

and maybe i don't need to worry like
yeah maybe i don't need to worry like I've been lately

Lately (worry like me)

i dont even know what this is about to be honest its about being an obsessive crusher???

its in the air

you wanna know where your heart is?
last night did you feel me break in?
with a loose thread and a paper clip
i sewed the evidence right back up

i wanna know why you’re distant
i’m scared baby what are you planning?
a detective, you’ve been leaving hints
you broke our promises and my trust

well dont go looking
where you’re not gonna find it
i dug some graves
last night when we fought and i
hid the safe and i
know some places so far away from here

your eyes are facing
the wrong faces
im right in front of you
isolated
just tell me why we’re falling apart

and ill let you know where i hid your heart

i catch clues when we’re fighting
your words up for interpretation
when i asked you if im your favorite
you hesitated ‘yes’, like theres more than one

you’re responding
like there’s something that you’re hiding

you better not go looking
cause you’re not gonna find it
i dug some graves
last night when we fought and i
hid the safe and i
know some places so far away from here

your eyes are facing
the wrong faces
im right in front of you
isolated
just tell me why we’re falling apart

i need to know
where’s your suitcase babe?
half our closets has disappeared
look at my face, dont turn away
i swear i’m not crazy i’m acting out of all the fear

that you’ll leave me
with no regards for my feelings

dont go looking
cause babe i took it
and i booked a plane
to a place with no name so far away from here

oh, your eyes are facing
the wrong faces
im right in front of you
isolated
just tell me why we’re falling apart

and i’ll let you know where i hid your heart

hid your heart rough demo

matilda cover

if i had the motivation i wouldve re recorded these vocals but whateva
this one is just a reminder to myself and maybe u

the bridge is atrocious but its ok we will get through it


this one isnt to garner a grand reaction
im here to give you a hug
just trust, some things are larger than handy sadness
i hear you try then give up

listen to the syncopation of your breathin
don’t escape cause you can’t make it make believing

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel around, you’re moving
i see you, and i promise

get up, join me in walking along the sidewalk
sunshine and time are a cure
your love was more important than you ever thought
it’s time you love a little more

listen you don’t need the famous that you’re thinkin
you’re escaping from the places you believe in

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel the ground, i promise

and it might seem contradicting
but there’s stability in your movement
when you’ve got no motivation
just remember it’s ok to sleep in

some steps seem invisible
but they’re in your peripheral
i promise
i promise

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel the ground, you’re moving
even if you don’t think it
i see you, i promise
there’s stability
in small steps

small steps demo

have had this one written for a while now and dont really like it but still decided to work on it for some reason

on my way home late at night
high school forefront of my mind
something about it is making me numb
somehow i cant get enough

oh i just wanna put it down
but it’s glued to my hand right now
grab another
further down the gutter

just noticed how often
these thoughts are in my head
something about em is making me think
i’m addicted to these feelings x3

oh i just wanna put this down
but it’s glued to my hand right now
and forever
maybe its for the better

can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
think this bottle’s
deep as deep ends
can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
i think im an
alc c c c
can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
think this bottle’s
deep as deep ends
can’t stop drinking
empty feelings
i know im an
alcoholic

oh i don’t know what i’d be without
all this shit i pour in my mouth
i just wish i could put them down
but the bottles are glued to my hands right now
and forever
i’m gonna drown
i’m gonna drown
drown me out
drown me out

alcoholic demo

oh, there is a lost year
somewhere between you and i
you smell like a garden
i want to be twisted in your vines

i just want to feel you
running around my pavement
ooh, tell me i’m your favorite
minor inconvenience
and i’ll return the feeling

just grow
and i would crack to marry your devotion
interwoven
we could be the garden and the pavement

you gave me a flower
bright red and pink, but i got you stepped on
enter infestation
the doubt that I think i’m not what you want

but i want to feel you
running around my pavement
ooh, tell me i’m your favorite
minor inconvenience
and i’ll return the feeling

just grow
and i would crack to marry your devotion
interwoven
we could be the garden and the pavement

cracks and petals cut were bound to come
when we were never meant to love
but that doesn’t mean we can’t break rules
this is filthy love but it’s golden and
the whole world needs to know it
but i dont like convincing you

the garden & the pavement DEMO

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was working a 9 to 5
when our love was gasping for air
i dont really know why
i’m standing here on my birthday night
and you’re standing over there

i gotta take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s sposed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was running out of time
when our love was dying in my arms
i dont really know why
it’s torture forcing myself to watch you cry
knowing i did the harm

and babe there’s no amount of “sorry”
to fix the wreck i made
and there’s no amount of apologizing
oh, i gotta take

take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s s’posed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll still love me still

lets still love us still (demo)

the war is over
i’ve packed my bags and disappeared
no closure
what’s the chance that i’m still here?
and you wanna know
if there really is a chance you’re going home
well, i’ve got news for you

that i’m the single tear that starts the tide
the creeping fear that sleeps with you tonight
and when the sun decides to finally rise
i’ll catch you every now and then
we’ll talk about what could’ve been
and how you never got to say goodbye

oh your sirens
are sounding off
when i’m firing
my cannonballs
cause they’re all your sound of hope
when your feelings
are borderline
disappearing
i’m still in your mind
cause i’m all you’ll ever know
oh in isolation
there’s no point in
faking
you’re cutting it close
and you don’t know where you’re go-ing
you won’t ever know
ever know
no

take a look at you
and tell me you’re not hoping
if you want the truth
you’ll need a diagnosis
but i don’t see
you going when you’ve always thought that you have known it
so i’ve got news for you

oh your sirens
are sounding off
when i’m firing
my cannonballs
cause they’re all your sound of hope
when your feelings
are borderline
disappearing
i’m still in your mind
cause i’m all you’ll ever know
oh in isolation
there’s no point in
faking
you’re cutting it close
and you don’t know where you’re go-ing
you won’t ever know
ever know
no

single tear rough demo

you used to be so gentle and kind
now there’s a monster inside you
you’re not sure what’s all up in your mind
you’re in need of a breakthrough

now you want someone to fix you
when you know what needs to be done
and you say you’re not the issue
have you thought about growing up?
well.. no
shsh good talk

you’re bringing everyone down
“i need to sound”
you say as you’re breaking all the doors and windows
nobody cares about
your stories and doubts
you're breaking your house with every little missile

and even i don’t know why
you obsess over everything
and even i don’t know why
you’re talking to yourself like you’re not me
it’s a fear of confrontation
i cant even keep one conversation
maybe that’s why (why!)
maybe that's why i don’t see invitations

now you want someone to fix you
when you know what needs to be done
and you say you’re not the issue
have you thought about growing up?
i mean no
exactly that's what i thought

its a good talk when you don’t talk
thoughts and shots start then they don’t stop
shh its a good talk when you don’t talk
thoughts and shots start then they don’t stop ayyy

Good talk

this is from a long time ago just thought id post it idk why

Max Bass

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