This is the most interesting song I've heard in a LONG time.

songs ive written

Feel the ground that you walk upon

Go With The Flow

are u ok demo

my friend's an actress in a reality show.
directors messed up the casting- its only her and their shadows!
her acting is seamless, almost like a cover up..
nobody knows what she's hiding, nobody cares enough

she's just walking to june
since may, the sun hasnt been out
her world's black and blue and gray
all the funs over now
watch the rain pour down
forever and ever and ever and ever

i think im an extra, i've only got a few lines.
my role's pretty fucked up, i make the scene come to life when it's not behind the scenes.
all the lights are only shining for the screen.

im just walking to june
since may, the sun hasnt been out.
too scared for the news to break
all the funs over now
watch the rain pour down
forever and ever and ever and ever

lights camera action, she's talking to a casket, she's had enough of this madness.
she's headed right home.. what if she turns right here? no one has to know
she's so tired of faking, thinks she's never gonna make it.
whats the point of being famous when june is creeping too close?
since when is time this slow?
we're freaking out, we're breaking down, we're losing all hope as we walk to june
since may, the sun hasn't been out
too scared for the news to break
all the fun's over now

watch the rain pour down
shadows on the ground
the sun hasn't been out
all the fun's over now
forever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever and ever...

actress (walking to june) demo

Part of my new EP "Higher" on all streaming services

Aspartame demo

probably the weirdest song i've made

lie awake at night
wondering what went wrong and where i
could've done better

time can testify
how's it been so long, dare i
say i'm getting older?

dare i open my mouth when my head
just wants to fall asleep?
but the words pour out
who would ever want any part of me?

look at me and diagnose
if i've done enough to deserve this
tell me what i want to know
am i a good person? x2

same formaldehyde
but something 'bout it's off tonight...

so i get out of bed when my head
just wants to fall asleep
i need answers to my questions
who's gonna find them if it isn't me?

look at me and diagnose
if i've done enough to deserve this
tell me what i want to know
am i a good person? x2

(how's the silence?)
(isn't it more more violent than you thought)?
x4

look at me and diagnose
if i've done enough to deserve this
tell me what i want to know
am i a good person? x4

questions - demo

wrote this about looking into the mirror and seeing somebody so different its a literal monster

you monster
undercover
you’re so weak
you just can’t stop

these waters
i’m going under
before me
you stand too tall

im six feet down
about to sink deeper
i’m gonna drown

im Under the surface
Wondering if this is worth it
Try to swim from the danger
But somebody threw the anchor

and i’m sinking
deeper than deep ends

this feeling
it’s too familiar
it’s empty
but it’s my friend

a sweet thing
but it’s bitter
you’re the beast
inside my head

ten feet down
about to sink deeper
you’re gonna drown
me you creature

im Under the surface
Wondering if this is worth it
Try to swim from the danger
But somebody threw the anchor

i See my reflection
When i look your direction
find you’re not just a stranger
it’s me, i threw the anchor

and im sinking

this dagger
between my fingers
will shatter
this very mirror

and this dagger
will kill you creature
i’ll end you
right now and right here

if you don’t drown
my only ounce of hope
cause now i know

you are me
and im you
and we are one thing
but i dont wanna be you

See my reflection
When i look your direction
try to swim out this chamber
but somebody threw the anchor

i threw the anchor
we threw the anchor
you threw the anchor
and now i’m sinking

the anchor

"dont u cry its over now" are the only words I wanna hear
no blue skies have come around here
at least as of lately

say they're fine enough to smile..
are they really fine enough to live?
near 18 but still a child
I am truly no adult in the slightest

the the the days are re p p p peating
cant stop drinking empty feelings
(I'm an alcoholic)
the the the time is t t t ticking
still cant find a single reason like them
are they really happy?..

cause I see them fcking living
maybe they don't have to worry like me
maybe they don't have to worry like I've been lately

look in glass, I'm swinging words at my body like they're wrecking balls
i guess its what i deserve
life is truly one A-team throwing curveballs

the the the shadows are c c c creeping
on the walls and on the ceiling
(oh its so psychotic)
c cause the sun is still b b b beaming
still cant find a single reason like them
are they really happy?

cause I see them fcking living
maybe they don't have to worry like me
maybe they don't have to worry like I've been...

lately I've been wasting time
emptiness has filled my mind to the point i cant move forward
lately I've been telling lies
saying i don't want to die
but i love our apartment and my corner
i truly cant think anywhere warmer

and maybe i don't need to worry like
yeah maybe i don't need to worry like I've been lately

Lately (worry like me)

https://drenchfries.bandcamp.com/album/being-silver

'Being Silver' was written, performed, and produced by Levi Nattrass with a few exceptions:
Taylor Hayden plays electric guitar, drums, and wind sounds on "Grapevine"
Addition production by Taylor Hayden and Stephen Vincent Ibanez Jr on “Grapevine”
Additional production by Stephen Vincent Ibanez Jr on “Out my window”

Everything was engineered at home in Seattle, WA by Levi Nattrass with the exception of 1/2 of drums on “Out my window”, which were engineered by Samuel Rosson.

Mixed by Stephen Vincent Ibanez Jr and Levi Nattrass
Mastered by Connor Gilmore

Cover artwork designed by Elyse Lankford and Levi Nattrass
Back cover and insert photo by Nathan Reed
Cover artwork formatted by Elyse Lankford

Additional thanks to my parents, Olivia and Selah Nattrass, Alex Heubel, Josh Kazebee, Evan House, Garrison Zoutendyk, Scott Hermo, Emma Willer, Jonah Valenzuela, Tylre Wilcox, and many more. Without these people this EP would not have been possible <3

Out my window

halloween

you wanna know where your heart is?
last night did you feel me break in?
with a loose thread and a paper clip
i sewed the evidence right back up

i wanna know why you’re distant
i’m scared baby what are you planning?
a detective, you’ve been leaving hints
you broke our promises and my trust

well dont go looking
where you’re not gonna find it
i dug some graves
last night when we fought and i
hid the safe and i
know some places so far away from here

your eyes are facing
the wrong faces
im right in front of you
isolated
just tell me why we’re falling apart

and ill let you know where i hid your heart

i catch clues when we’re fighting
your words up for interpretation
when i asked you if im your favorite
you hesitated ‘yes’, like theres more than one

you’re responding
like there’s something that you’re hiding

you better not go looking
cause you’re not gonna find it
i dug some graves
last night when we fought and i
hid the safe and i
know some places so far away from here

your eyes are facing
the wrong faces
im right in front of you
isolated
just tell me why we’re falling apart

i need to know
where’s your suitcase babe?
half our closets has disappeared
look at my face, dont turn away
i swear i’m not crazy i’m acting out of all the fear

that you’ll leave me
with no regards for my feelings

dont go looking
cause babe i took it
and i booked a plane
to a place with no name so far away from here

oh, your eyes are facing
the wrong faces
im right in front of you
isolated
just tell me why we’re falling apart

and i’ll let you know where i hid your heart

hid your heart rough demo

if i had the motivation i wouldve re recorded these vocals but whateva
this one is just a reminder to myself and maybe u

the bridge is atrocious but its ok we will get through it


this one isnt to garner a grand reaction
im here to give you a hug
just trust, some things are larger than handy sadness
i hear you try then give up

listen to the syncopation of your breathin
don’t escape cause you can’t make it make believing

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel around, you’re moving
i see you, and i promise

get up, join me in walking along the sidewalk
sunshine and time are a cure
your love was more important than you ever thought
it’s time you love a little more

listen you don’t need the famous that you’re thinkin
you’re escaping from the places you believe in

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel the ground, i promise

and it might seem contradicting
but there’s stability in your movement
when you’ve got no motivation
just remember it’s ok to sleep in

some steps seem invisible
but they’re in your peripheral
i promise
i promise

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel the ground, you’re moving
even if you don’t think it
i see you, i promise
there’s stability
in small steps

small steps demo

oh, there is a lost year
somewhere between you and i
you smell like a garden
i want to be twisted in your vines

i just want to feel you
running around my pavement
ooh, tell me i’m your favorite
minor inconvenience
and i’ll return the feeling

just grow
and i would crack to marry your devotion
interwoven
we could be the garden and the pavement

you gave me a flower
bright red and pink, but i got you stepped on
enter infestation
the doubt that I think i’m not what you want

but i want to feel you
running around my pavement
ooh, tell me i’m your favorite
minor inconvenience
and i’ll return the feeling

just grow
and i would crack to marry your devotion
interwoven
we could be the garden and the pavement

cracks and petals cut were bound to come
when we were never meant to love
but that doesn’t mean we can’t break rules
this is filthy love but it’s golden and
the whole world needs to know it
but i dont like convincing you

the garden & the pavement DEMO

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was working a 9 to 5
when our love was gasping for air
i dont really know why
i’m standing here on my birthday night
and you’re standing over there

i gotta take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s sposed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was running out of time
when our love was dying in my arms
i dont really know why
it’s torture forcing myself to watch you cry
knowing i did the harm

and babe there’s no amount of “sorry”
to fix the wreck i made
and there’s no amount of apologizing
oh, i gotta take

take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s s’posed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll still love me still

lets still love us still (demo)

i want you to sing so beautifully
light up the world with your harmonies
take all of the time that you need
no matter what I’ll be waiting

for you
it’s true
i’ll be waiting for you

sing to me sling x2
sing to me
[repeat]

abstraction and little things hold familiarity
i swear i dedicate everything to you sling

sling

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