this has me crying🥺🥺🥺so beautiful

Oh my god??? Your voice is like sitting by a campfire on a cool summer night 

when i tell you ive listened to this song about 100 times this week

this is probably the most depressing song lyric-wise i've ever made i promise i'm ok. it's clearly unfinished and i couldn't mix this to save my life but i tried my best

Pandora's box (demo)

yes i had trouble pronouncing apostatize and yes it is very rough AND YES the cover is poorly photoshopped stock photos together but i just want to put it out so here r the lyrics

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages

i can’t stay focused all alone
you’ve left me hoping since sophomore year
yeah it’s like i’m frozen, in the cold
and you’re in my vision, decisions
and you’re in my vision, decisions

and you’re standing miles away
but you’ve got a grip ‘round my throat
Can you let go?

I see your smiling face
and red lights, and i can’t help but go

cause i can’t stay focused all alone
you’ve left me hoping since sophomore year
yeah it’s like you’re frozen, in the snow
and you’re in my vision

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages
god, you’ve got some power to keep me hooked for ages

(i swear i) could apostatize, but couldn’t disbelieve you
i can’t forget your eyes, you’re my only faith group
god, you’ve got some power

cause i can’t make sense of your effect
it’s so offensive to conquer my head
yeah it’s like you’re right here, in our bed
and you’re my religion, my vision

you’re what i devour on a daily basis
i spend countless hours tryna turn the pages
god, you’ve got some power to keep me hooked for ages

(i swear i) could apostatize, but couldn’t disbelieve you
i still know your eyes, you are my sole faith group
god, you’ve got some power

decisions (rough demo)

probably the weirdest song i've made

lie awake at night
wondering what went wrong and where i
could've done better

time can testify
how's it been so long, dare i
say i'm getting older?

dare i open my mouth when my head
just wants to fall asleep?
but the words pour out
who would ever want any part of me?

look at me and diagnose
if i've done enough to deserve this
tell me what i want to know
am i a good person? x2

same formaldehyde
but something 'bout it's off tonight...

so i get out of bed when my head
just wants to fall asleep
i need answers to my questions
who's gonna find them if it isn't me?

look at me and diagnose
if i've done enough to deserve this
tell me what i want to know
am i a good person? x2

(how's the silence?)
(isn't it more more violent than you thought)?
x4

look at me and diagnose
if i've done enough to deserve this
tell me what i want to know
am i a good person? x4

questions - demo

i think i mostly wrote this for my parents and my brothers, but i hope somebody else likes it too :)

a collection of shiny things.

matilda cover

if i had the motivation i wouldve re recorded these vocals but whateva
this one is just a reminder to myself and maybe u

the bridge is atrocious but its ok we will get through it


this one isnt to garner a grand reaction
im here to give you a hug
just trust, some things are larger than handy sadness
i hear you try then give up

listen to the syncopation of your breathin
don’t escape cause you can’t make it make believing

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel around, you’re moving
i see you, and i promise

get up, join me in walking along the sidewalk
sunshine and time are a cure
your love was more important than you ever thought
it’s time you love a little more

listen you don’t need the famous that you’re thinkin
you’re escaping from the places you believe in

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel the ground, i promise

and it might seem contradicting
but there’s stability in your movement
when you’ve got no motivation
just remember it’s ok to sleep in

some steps seem invisible
but they’re in your peripheral
i promise
i promise

we are taking small steps
im here, right beside you
its ok, leave your head
feel the ground, you’re moving
even if you don’t think it
i see you, i promise
there’s stability
in small steps

small steps demo

stoned at the nail salon (voice memo)

i don't like - an original song

the night is ours
and the bonfire too
and it’s burning through

the space between
our eyes and shoes
and it’s new

as my sirens sounding
as my hope is drowning
you just do you
you just do

and if you took away college
the fear of making no profit
it’s just you

kiss me, man
kiss me, man
you’re quicksand
you’re quicksand
come close, babe
closer, babe
don’t wait
please don’t wait

cause my sirens sounding
and my thoughts are crowded
with you
just you

and if you took away music
the fear of staying this useless
it’s just you
just you

kiss me, man
kiss me, man
you’re quicksand
you’re quicksand
come close, babe
closer, babe
don’t wait
please don’t wait

don't wait

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was working a 9 to 5
when our love was gasping for air
i dont really know why
i’m standing here on my birthday night
and you’re standing over there

i gotta take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s sposed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i don’t really know why
my biggest fear was running out of time
when our love was dying in my arms
i dont really know why
it’s torture forcing myself to watch you cry
knowing i did the harm

and babe there’s no amount of “sorry”
to fix the wreck i made
and there’s no amount of apologizing
oh, i gotta take

take time
put in the work
and i don’t really know if it’s s’posed to hurt
but i hope you’ll love me still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll love me still

and love you i will
i’ll still love you still

i waste time
trying to feel
the love and all the wounds i’m trying to heal
but i know you’ll still love me still

decisions (rough demo)

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