my main playlist

hits harder than 9/11✈️🏢🏢

my mentality rn

mad professor by icp (sped up)

Let a killa - insane clown posse .sped

Cigarettes out the Window x Dangerously Yours - TV Girl

this song is literally a cry for help... but how much you want to bet every redneck in america will blast it... kinda slaps tho what do you think?

I Would Hate Me Too

Don't try suicide (𝙨𝙥𝙚𝙚𝙙 𝙪𝙥)

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written and composed by madilyn mei
produced and mixed by scrawny
mastered by joe hutchinson
artwork by kris putter

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Lyrics:
When you’re gone I feel alone again
The voices cannot hold my hand
They keep me company at very best
Distract me from my loneliness

Maybe I’m just an anomaly
Even my demons have their families
Truly something must be wrong with me
To need you as much as I do

I was never meant to win
I was never meant to win
I was never meant to win

Shut up!

Here’s the reigns
Take ahold of me
Please don’t let me go

You do the talking
Sew up my mouth if I can’t keep it closed

There’s a dog barking right around the block
And a big ol’ whistle blow

Run for it
I’ll keep em occupied for you
Cause I love you, I love you so

Left me hangin at the station
But you’ll be back for me soon

I’m ‘bout to die
Yet the only thing I find i'm worried about is you

Something tells me you aren’t coming
Guess that I’m truly doomed

I’m 'bout to die
Yet the only thing I find I’m worried about is you
I’m 'bout to die
Yet the thing on my mind seems to nearly be nothing but you

I overhear your brain when it’s close to mine
Oh, I know that we’re not the same
My heart’s on the line

I’m just a pawn in your game
Not your partner in crime

And you’re slowly killing me
Taking your time
You’re slowly killing me
Taking your time

You’re slowly killing me
Taking your- (I was never meant to win)
You’re slowly killing me
Taking your- (I was never meant to win)

You’re slowly killing me
And yet I don’t mind (You were never meant to win)
You’re slowly killing me
But please take your time

Partner in Crime

Listen

Sloppy Seconds (Ick Pt. 2)

She Likes a Boy

Faster n Harder

My Corpse Friend - Baby Bugs

Deep breath
Center yourself
Focus 
On each 
Inhale and exhale

The Art of Letting Go
The Art of Letting Go

Pay close attention 
To your surroundings
Notice the details 
Sounds, sights, sensations

The Art of Letting Go
The Art of Letting Go

Engage all your senses
Smell, see, touch, hear, and taste

The Art of Letting Go
The Art of Letting Go

Release judgments 
About your thoughts 
Let go of labeling things 
As good or bad

The Art of Letting Go
The Art of Letting Go

Turn off 
Notifications 
Set aside devices 
Full attention 
To the moment

The Art of Letting Go
The Art of Letting Go

One task at a time
Avoid multitasking

The Art of Letting Go          
The Art of Letting Go

Embrace gratitude
Acknowledge things around you 
Practice gratitude
 
The Art of Letting Go
The Art of Letting Go

Release past 
And future concerns
Remind yourself 
That the past 
Is gone 
And the future 
Is yet to come

The Art of Letting Go
The Art of Letting Go

Bring awareness 
To your movements
Mindful movements ground you

The Art of Letting Go
The Art of Letting Go

The Art of Letting Go

Bring awareness 
To your movements
Mindful movements ground you

The Art of Letting Go
The Art of Letting Go

The Art of Letting Go

Crazy Girls

Life Rips

Sorority Girls

MDRJR (Michael Dean Russell, Jr.) turns pain into purpose and reflection into rhythm. His music lives where 80s synth-pop meets post-punk soul, echoing the heart of a man who has walked through struggle and chosen love instead of bitterness. Every song he creates is a message of hope, healing, and strength.

With more than 3.6 million SoundCloud plays and a global audience from Kyiv to Hanoi to Los Angeles, MDRJR connects with listeners through honesty and emotion. He writes, records, and produces every track himself, not for fame, but to inspire. His songs remind people that they are not alone, that peace can be found through self-acceptance, and that hope is always worth fighting for.

From the emotional reflection of Confidence With Your Truth to the spiritual calm of The Flight of Peace and the motivation of Dream of Greatness, every song carries his message that strength is born from struggle and healing is possible for everyone. MDRJR creates music for the soul and for anyone who believes in becoming better, loving deeper, and never giving up.

“My music is my message: to rise, to forgive, to love again.”

#SynthPopForTheSoul #MDRJR #LotusOfResilience