It fell apart
For good reason
It fell apart
It was my season

For the life to tumble
For the life to fall
For the life, I dreamt
For the life I called

Me
But, it wasn't me
It was to rot for
Someone I was not

I lived a life
For someone, I thought
Cared for my dreams
Cared for my loss

I started to build it back up
When someone who cared
When someone loved
When someone was there

They came into my life
It was great
They came into my life
I'm back to the same

Old self
Old soul
Old dreams
Old gold

It's time, it's time
To take back what is mine
It's time, it's time

Relax
Relax
It's my gold
Relax
It's my gold
Relax
It's my gold
Relax
It's my gold
Relax
It's my gold

Rebuilding Life

I write songs every morning at 7 a.m. and I have been doing it for the past 36 years. Most days I play them around 4:20 p.m. in my home studio. Over the last year I finally found the courage to share them, and the support from people all over the world has been incredible. I am humbled to know these songs connect with so many of you, and someday I hope to perform them live.

I have been playing guitar, bass, drums, and synthesizers since I was 15 years old. Now at 51, I can honestly say music has shaped my entire life. I have played in all kinds of bands, from cover groups to tribute acts, and explored rock, metal, punk, alternative, indie, pop, post punk, and synthpop. I wrote my first song after being inspired by the bands I loved in the late 80s, and that spark is still alive today.

These songs come from my 51 years of experience on this planet, and I hope they give you strength and peace. Over the past year I have also been spoken to by a higher power who has guided me through the process. I am glad I found Him again. I have been saved, and I see myself as His warrior.

Sometimes the songs arrive while I am working outside, and other times they come quietly over a cup of coffee in the early morning. The music has a purpose and it is meant to be shared. I do it for Him, and I do it for you.

I create everything at home, starting with my voice and a simple melody of hope, love, and belief, then building with synth, guitar, bass, drums, and more. I record using Logic Pro, GarageBand, and Suno, and I mix and master each track myself until it feels right. What you hear is the real result of that process.

My music is more than sound. It carries my life experiences and is meant to bring healing, encouragement, and connection. My hope is that when you listen, you feel inspired and reminded that you are never alone.

Thank you for being part of this journey. It means everything to me. I believe in family first and music second, and being able to share both with you is heaven to me. I hope you continue listening and following along as the story unfolds.

Take care,
MDRJR