@familypet

shinigami: you said thisll never last so now im falling apart
my face is feeling numb again 
a shattered soul
dont let me go
you killed me first
im sure you know

she said thisll never last now im left in the dark
you saved me from myself again 
after the fall
i knew it all along
i never asked for this at all

you shouldve never let me in at all
now all you can do is watch me crawl
away
isolate myself
and i still can feel it all

and you can see the devil in my gaze
i think its best you stay away from me
im weak why cant you see this

familypet: thinkin back i fucked it up
my brothers just don't give a fuck
we skate until it's dark enough
to smoke and drink
we act don't think
don't think we act our age with it
i know i always ruin shit
i hope i never ruin this
i hope we'll always stay like this
putting each other in hospital beds
remember last summer when i broke my leg
doing a jump at the gap at 18th
remember the time that i knocked out your teeth
i'm glad that you always forgave me
these are the stories and memories that made me
i know i wasn't worth saving
i was just crazy
can't help the fact that i love misbehaving

i never asked for this [feat. familypet]

@ihateshinigami

(scumby)
no quiero vivir a si 
no quiero vivir sin ti
dame todo tu amor 
solo quiero oir tu voz

i just wanna hear your voice in the morning
i don't wanna be alone 
i don't wanna be alone so can you please hit up my phone
cause i've staring at the wall and i've been wishing that you'd call

(shinigami)
quiero verte quemar
quiero verter sufrir
es sobre mi amor
alejarse de mi

let me go
its obvious i wasnt enough
go away
turn my heart into dust

you kept me up all night
i wish you were honest with me
from the beginning
i knew this would end in pain

without you w/ shinigami (prod. shinigami)

Guardin - Take Away The Pain

twitter.com/falls_boii
twitter.com/nothingnowhere

i still remember it all ft. nothing,nowhere.

@jvbeats666

in my dreams i just stand there shaking

think im better off never waking again

toxic [prod. jay vee]

you know i want it so bad
but i could never go back
things always change its so sad
but im sure that you know that

blood stains all over my off whites
ice cold smoke give u frostbite
baby we both been so sad
feel like everything has been so bad

remember way back
smoking on the weekends
broken bottles

running from the demons

falling out the backseat window
now i think im stuck in limbo

i know this isnt what you asked for
take my hand and rot away with me
you crossed my heart now youre stuck with me

thinking of ways i
could get it all back
dont wanna fallback
ill never back track

thinking of ways i
could get my soul back
scratches on my back
my vision turns black

spirits take over my mind
yea it happens all the time
stuck in a world i dont know
everyone left me behind

so bad [prod. dylan brady]

art
https://drawingartpicks.com/sketch-of-sad-boy-in-rain/sketch-of-sad-boy-in-rain-sad-boy-rain-sketch-alone-boy-in-rain-sketch-heart-touching-sad/
sadboyprolific
https://soundcloud.com/sadboyprolific
8rokeboy
https://soundcloud.com/8rokeboy

Raincoat feat. SadBoyProlific (Prod. 8ROKEBOY)

Produced and performed by king theta
Vocal mix and master by IOF https://soundcloud.com/iofmusic
Art by Love, Max https://twitter.com/lovemaxofficial

Lyrics:
I
I just wanna feel like I could fly
Give me anything that gets me high
I need you in my life cause
Shit's gonna cave in soon
Why?
Why you gotta say that I'm lyin
I swear to fuckin God I'm doin fine
The power's all mine but
Shit's gonna cave in soon

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

I got everything that I thought I wanted
But it didn't work

She said "lose
The fake personality you use"
Spent too many nights pourin Goose
So easy justifying getting loose
Attention is distraction from the noose
Sorry, not sorry for my ego
The king threw the old me out the window
I know there's no way home

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Keep fillin me up
With your love and affection
And I'll spill it right out
Call it self-protection

I need to fill the void in my heart
Baby, tell me Ima be a star
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?
I need to turn pain into art
Hate me, so I can stay in the dark
Save me, think I'm gonna fall apart
If I die to I get a fresh start?

Wish I Could Start Over

i redid it so i dont feel so bad about posting it. luv u.
beat by LXVE - https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCWouqy0lObxP_6kKIZvIiDg

voodoo [remastered]

Original song "suffocate" written and produced by Days To Waste,
Mixed and Mastered by lifehold.

suffocate

Now on SPOTIFY & APPLE etc.

Produced by: @otterpop123 Feat. @beabadoobee
Suggested from Martin <3

Lyrics:

Hook

Dont stay awake for too long
Dont go to bed
Ill make a cup of coffee for your head
Ill get u up and going out of bed

v1
I don’t wanna fall asleep
I don’t wanna pass away
Thinking of r future cuz 
Ill never see those days

I don’t know why this has happened
But I probably deserve it
I tried to do my best
But u know that I’m not perfect

Ive been praying for forgiveness
you’ve been praying for my health
when I leave this earth
Hoping you’ll find somebody else

Cuz ya we still young
Theres so much we haven’t done
Getting married
Start a family
Watch ur husband with his son

I wish it could be me
But I won’t make it off this bed
Hope I go to heaven so I see u once again

Ya my life was kind of short
But I got so many blessings
happy u were mine 
it sucks that its all ending

v2
Im happy that u here w me
Sorry if I tear up
When me and u were younger
U would always make me cheer up

taking goofy videos
And walking through the park
U would jump into my arms 
Every time u heard a bark

We would cuddle in your sheets
Sing me sound asleep
And sneak out through your kitchen at exactly 1:03

Sundays go to church
Mondays watch a movie
soon you’ll be alone
Sorry that u have to loose me

SPOTIFY

death bed | Feat. beabadoobee

mix x master @paradoxraps

lyrics:
(hook)
babygirl tell me you’re staying around 
i can’t waste no time i’m starting to drown
sit on your throne and i’ll give you the crown
key to my heart is unlocked by your sound
(verse 1)
hearts is in pieces but you have the glue
love make me dumb when i’m chillin w you
when i be stressin you say it’s alright 
i turn to you cus you light up my night
shawty with yo brown eyes 
got me w the heart eyes
all the love you give me you ain’t never lovin’ part time 
got me feelin like i dropped the top in summertime
hope i never see the day you’re putting up the  brake lights 
(verse 2)
i was heartbroken til you came along
lost in my past and the exes that haunt
you show me love and the greatness it held
my heart was froze baby you made it melt
shawty make me feel right 
damn that body so fine 
you would hold me down if i got a taste of the limelight
we would sit in the car sharing music while the time fly
baby girl i love you ain’t no question if the times right

Spotify

pls stay (prod. boyfifty)

Laying up late and it’s midnight 
Cold rainy days transition to some dark nights 
When I’m home alone 
No where else to go 
Calling up my friends wish I could just go let em know 
Depression finnaly hitting i can’t do it on my own  
Drowning in my sorrows but there’s nothing here to show 

All people really fake 
lying to my face
Telling me they there but never meaning what they say 


Call me up now ask some questions 
Help me out I need  lessons 
all these games why I’m stressing 
Too much work  life’s depressing 

Only wanna check up when you hear it in my lyrics 
Say you okay but I’m not okay 
Asking do you need some help really acting like they mean it 
Say you okay but I’m not okay

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone 

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone

Hard times 
Wish I could go make time 
Never had enough went back I hadda save mine

Wishing you would pick up 
Wishing you would call back
Talk me through problems 
Say you caring hope you mean that 

Maybe I’m too sad maybe I’m not 
Maybe y’all just flexing like y’all not 
Maybe I’m just honest should I stop
Start telling lies like I’m not 

Sad and lonely no cure 
All these sins a monster 
Fix me up still not pure 
On the inside not my contour

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone 

I don’t need friends need friends no 
All they do is come then go 
Don’t come and give me hope
Just Leave me here alone

friends? [prod. kado]

Vocals and lyrics: @itsyungvan & @cozyboycries
Instrumental: @user-182805726
Mix&Master: @cozyboycries & @prodbybrody

Lyrics-

Intro (yung van) - 
"Hey, Evan I just want you to know you are an amazing person dude. If you are listening to this right now in the future, maybe you are at college dude, you're missing Vincent, you're missing summer, you're missing all your friend's dude.  It's gonna be okay, I know you're sad. *Coughs* I'm sick right now, but I know you're sad, but you've got some friends dude, wherever you're at, you've got friends."

yung van-

I’ve been trying to find a way back inside my mind
I’ve been lost inside this desert for some time
I thought if I moved away
The rain would come another day
But just as my father would say
Some friends leave, but real friends stay

I was there when you needed me but when I needed you, you were not to be seen
but when you cried you were so clean
something about you was so me
I don't wanna go like this, I don't wanna go out in the snow
I just wanna come back home, but there is something up blocking the road
Take me out, then block me out like you're used to
don't talk about what we talked about like I used you

I’ve been trying to find a way back inside my mind
I’ve been lost inside this desert for some time
I thought if I moved away
The rain would come another day
But just as my father would say
Some friends leave, but real friends stay

cøzybøy-

I always thought we would be there for each other
(for each other)
But I was wrong cause we grew apart so fast
I miss the nights we used to talk long
take long drives and sit upon the sidewalks 
smoking cigarettes breathing as the time past
drifting away, every day, we were drifting away

yung van-

I’ve been trying to find a way back inside my mind
I’ve been lost inside this desert for some time
I thought if I moved away
The rain would come another day
But just as my father would say
Some friends leave, but real friends stay

Blackwater

Vincent

Vincent Ft. cøzybøy (Prod. SaintTomorrow)

follow my instagram! - @andysanborn
and my twitter :) - @andy_sanborn
join my discord! https://discordapp.com/invite/yX4Dh5q

mixed by the legendary @oh_lucifer
produced by me 

i've been working super hard on new music, i know the amount of music i put out this year is a lot less than it's been in the past but i am working super hard for u guys, ily never forget!!!

LYRICS:
(intro)
you’re so far away 
you’re so far away

(CHORUS)
Do u promise to keep me alive?
Fight off the monsters that eat at my mind
Im so far away from where I belong
i overthink everything I think I do it all wrong

(VERSE 1)
Lately Ive been mixing up my dreams
Lately ive been skipping meals and talking in my sleep
Love me with ur eyes closed stuck in different time zones
I can tell ur feeling for me i’ll start to lose control

the chemicals that make me smile are upside down today
so i’ll mime my way thru conversation frown upon my own damnation crying my heart out because i broke a promise i once made to someone who i love so dearly now she can’t stand being near me 

(BREAKDOWN)
i’ll be on my way home 
see you at the payphone 
no matter how anxious i get i have you on my shoulder urging me to breathe and remain calm
remain calm
and i promise you we will get thru this 
to u i am no more than useless cuz u are an angel u already knew this 

(CHORUS)
do you promise me i always be a part
of you and of the itty bitty fragments of your heart 
cuz i can’t do this shit alone you pulled my life part 
my head is in the dark you gave my feelings all these scars 

wish you here
now im upset i got nobody near
i’m in my feels while i’m covered in fear 
it’s been a long time like almost a year
but i have a way out of sadness my dear 
when you say love i hope that you’re sincere
cuz i’ve heard it a hundred times over and over the coffin closing my thoughts are getting too severe
hold me tight and dont let me go!
falling for u with vertigo 
falling for the girl that i met the first time and now
i cannot outgrow 
the tendencies i have to dispose 
any hope that you’ll hold me close
i was once a happy kid with dreams and a heart but that’s a long time ago

promise?

Official Music Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ilj3JyIi6jo

Stream on Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XXoenvR-rcY

@vocals by supachefm
mixed and mastered by @ihateshinigami

Stream

move on (prod. brody) [video in description]

Produced by @user-949132137
Featuring @kammichaelmusic and @beabadoobee

Out on Spotify and Apple etc.

God can heal anything & everything

talk tomorrow | feat. Beabadoobee, Kam Michael (M.E.)

Original song "Breathe" Written and Produced by DaysToWaste, Co-Produced / Mixed / Mastered by SayWeCanFly.

nothing left

lyrics:
Barely breathe from the start
Rain drops hit my arms
Standing outside your car
Standing outside your car

Barely breathe from start
Rain drops hit my car
Driving somewhere so far from here
Tryna go somewhere far
Thinking back when I said
Tryna feel what you meant
Now its stuck in my head
Yeah it's stuck in my head

And I hope that I make it, yeah
I swerve feeling jaded, yeah
So hard gotta face it, see
The sunlight fading in
Im back where I began
Don't try to hold my hand
Leave me alone instead 
Leave me alone instead

No, I can't speak
No, I can't breathe
This cut me deep 
Just let me bleed
So out of reach
Not what I need
This cut me deep 
Just let me bleed

Barely breathe in the cold
Make me feel like a ghost
While I stare at my phone
And you're sorry, I know
Get me out of the deep end
Cuz it feels like I'm dreamin
Yeah the surface is fadin
Swear that I'll never sleep again

Shadows dance on the walls
Feel the weight in my arms
Till it all falls apart

No, I can't speak
No, I can't breathe
This cut me deep 
Just let me bleed
So out of reach
Not what I need
This cut me deep 
Just let me bleed

Breathe

Feat: @cozyboycries
Feat: @stationsix

Prod: @splashgvng x sadgods
Mix: @prodbybrody
Backing Vocals: @exploitedangel

https://open.spotify.com/track/3QwNluLfcFvhmxDOdOzFuq?si=Y6JT9e7aR9Gyh-lty2_MsQ

If I Die Tonight (feat. cøzybøy & thebreathingbackwards)

I usually don’t write about feelings or experiences, my music is not a vehicle for ideas and language; music is an art form that stands on its own. I put sounds there for the sake of sound, not what they mean. I’m perfectly fine with listeners feeling their own emotions or adding their narratives to my music, but that has never been my goal. Music and sound for me is a physical experience that you feel and enjoy. FIGURE BESIDE ME is the exception to the rule. After this EP I’ll go back to serving the dancefloor again - I just need to get this one out of me.

STREAM/BUY: https://objectblue.lnk.to/FIGUREBESIDEME

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brooke