your voice kind of reminds me of sinxi really fucking beautiful voice dude <3

I want you for life

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Featuring @heylog
Produced + Mastered by @noraevelyne
Written, recorded, and mixed by @vilsynth @heylog

(Lyrics)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

I know what you know, oh-oh
I know what you know, I know what you know
I know what you know, oh-oh

I feel the blood pouring out my side
I need your touch, hold me till I die
Drain the IV from my eye
They're tryna poke more needles in my skin, I don't wanna cry

Coat my skin entirely
Fold my ends, and tie me
Hold my hand and cry to sleep
It only ends when Im deceased
It's not the other way
I could get you out my life, and see some better days
But I don't want that on my record (x2)

(@heylog)
I don't think you know how much you really meant
I take in account and confess my sins
Put a bullet on my name and on a list
Cause I know, know you can't get a grip
You were made to have a role but you don't play your part
You'll start to realize it don't work when dealing different cards
And it brought me to the fact we live in different hearts
I'm tryna see the best in you but this is hard
If there's a light inside my room please turn it on
And if I see you on tv i'll turn it off
How can I speak without having to cough
And I had to get it off my chest because

(@vilsynth and @heylog)
You hit my car today, I'm locked in pain, it's part of your game now
I spent my childish days incarcerated to watch what the fame bout
If there's a night light in my room, want you to turn it on
She's indecisive of my doom, I see her loaded gun
She already won
I just have to pick a side, and let her know which way to cross

Spotify + Apple Music

Existentialist (ft. heylog)

this is not my track !!! author is @heylog

heylog - back room

lyrics:
in the middle of the night
nothing never ever feels right
i swear i think i’m loosing my mind
a girl like you is really hard to find

and stick and stones might break my bones
and when i’m sad, you’re the only one i feel at home
and tears fall, like they say, when it rains it pours
so i stay inside to avoid the cold

love me
hate me
tell i’m dumb
fuck me
break me
after ur done
hold me
show me
what i am worth
or leave me
tell me
what i deserve (x2)

will u ever come back?
will u ever come back?
ohhh
ohhh

and stick and stones might break my bones
and when i’m sad, you’re the only one i feel at home
and tears fall, like they say, when it rains it pours
so i stay inside to avoid the cold

vivid (taymxru)

prod by me (dawsin)

lyrics:

@dawsin :
don't care abt what u say
ill take it to my grave
i never thought that you would ever do the same
and i would never let you go

i will try to find,
a piece of myself to finally realize
what you have done
hopefully you get what you deserve

maybe if we broke up
maybe i would stay up
but i could careless
cause i know that we're gonna make up
every single little thing that u ever
did
so ill just leave it here and take my chances to dip

@1m1x :
you thought you could just leave me
left me in the dust now you are my enemy
yea, i could tell you never were a fan of me
all of that for what, cause you wanted to pity me?
𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑-
i- ill break you to your core what fate has in store for you there will be no more
this the end of you, not the end of me
i come back better and im stronger then ill ever be

@dawsin :
i lost my pride,
i've followed death's footsteps
why
why must i suffer
from someone of the likes of you

break me, will you stay for me?
once alone again
stay with me, till the end of times
my friend

pride w/ mix≬

produced by heylog
enjoy

lyrics:
when my body's lying in place
every memory of you now awakes
the road was stable, now it's rough
cause i'm starting to let u back up
i'm fine
at least i tried
bright light
your piece of mind
i am okay
you wanna see what i'm made of
i'm not the same
you wanna see what i'm capable of
i start to feel like nothing
why does everything slip through my hands
people think i'm sad but bitch i'm not
it just looks like i am
can't go out 
i look like i got eczema all down my face
every time i sweat it starts to sting
even with tallow paste
flare up, then get better, do it all over again
red around the center, i'm not tryna screw with it
you don't even wanna know what it's like being me
every second always stressed and always worrying
i rest your soul by my side
cause i know i'll sleep just fine
i barely see anyone
if it's just you i don't mind
i'm upstairs makin some sounds
na this mixed never too loud
want this shit piercing my ears
until it rings so severe
until it

spotify

flare

produced by mix :<
https://open.spotify.com/track/3vsUEARbBYl2sVUUxj8BzJ?si=a8223fb7c4324dd3

enjoy <3

lyrics:

(𝔪𝔦𝔵)

boy, take a step back
before you get clapped
went and started all this shit
just to get on the

𝖒𝖆𝖕

ohhhh

just to get on the map-

shes a little bitch to be
following with all of that
you're looking through the scraps
and gnawing at the trash, you

𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

just a fucking gnat-

oh it's over, not the slightest
chance, not a four-leaf clover
but you keep going getting on closer
oh closer no, no closer

you know where im at
if you ever wanna

𝚏𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝

ill turn him to dust
so dont make me say it

𝚝𝚠𝚒𝚌𝚎

we're going blow for blow
finna make him see

𝚠𝚑𝚒𝚝𝚎

now he's bleeding from
the neck down, lost his

𝚎𝚢𝚎𝚜𝚒𝚐𝚑𝚝

(@pneuma)

left a blood trail from the scene, i vanish in the night
passing every single goal bitch, i do that outta spite
said ur bro was down to slide but we put him in the sky
kill my enemies just to watch them slowly die

(@dawsin)

i dont give a fuck, so go fuck on ur man,
i saw him outside the outskirts of japan,
remember the past when i passed you with a sigh,
now i cut the head of the snake with a scythe

your a cheating bitch that's someone i cant stand,
your acting more like a whore im not a fan.
PUT A CROSS ON MY HEART AND HOPE HE DIES
NOW SHES PESTERING ME, ANNOYING LIKE A FLY

𝚊𝚗𝚗𝚘𝚢𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚕𝚒𝚔𝚎 𝚊 𝚏𝚕𝚢-

(𝔪𝔦𝔵)

boy, take a step back
before you get clapped
went and started all this shit
just to get on the

𝖒𝖆𝖕

ohhhh

just to get on the map-

shes a little bitch to be
following with all of that
you're looking through the scraps
and gnawing at the trash, you

𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

just a fucking gnat-

𝚍𝚎𝚊𝚝𝚑

𝗌𝗁𝖾𝗌 𝖺 𝗅𝗂𝗍𝗍𝗅𝖾 𝖻𝗂𝗍𝖼𝗁 𝗍𝗈 𝖻𝖾
𝖿𝗈𝗅𝗅𝗈𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗐𝗂𝗍𝗁 𝖺𝗅𝗅 𝗈𝖿 𝗍𝗁𝖺𝗍
𝗒𝗈𝗎'𝗋𝖾 𝗅𝗈𝗈𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗍𝗁𝗋𝗈𝗎𝗀𝗁 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗌𝖼𝗋𝖺𝗉𝗌
𝖺𝗇𝖽 𝗀𝗇𝖺𝗐𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝖺𝗍 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗍𝗋𝖺𝗌𝗁, 𝗒𝗈𝗎
𝖌𝖓𝖆𝖙

𝗃𝗎𝗌𝗍 𝖺 𝖿𝗎𝖼𝗄𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗀𝗇𝖺𝗍-

𝚜𝚑𝚑, 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚒𝚝 𝚐𝚘
𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚌𝚊𝚗 𝚓𝚞𝚜𝚝 𝚕𝚎𝚝 𝚐𝚘
𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢, 𝚜𝚑𝚑 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚘𝚔𝚊𝚢

gnat w/ pneuma & dawsin

sui~

one final word
stuck in a silence
finding the worst to say
nothing worth mentioning
sitting by quicksand
throwing pebbles in
i guess i might fall
but i dont wanna stop till its over
n now were spiteful
lying saying everythings alr

negative zero~

crash through the waves till I feel them break
as I wonder how much more I’ll take
as I’m
fighting through quick sand
blood covers my hands
i will not forget
this mental torment
hide behind the mask so I feel safe
take another step
a leap of faith

sui ~

one final word
stuck in a silence
finding the worst to say
nothing worth mentioning
sitting by quicksand
throwing pebbles in

i guess i might fall
but i dont wanna stop till its over
n now were spiteful
lying saying everythings alr

not worth w/ negative zero [p. essscudo]

come kiss the back of my hand
and turn away when youre mad
i fucked around and found a girl
this shouldnt happen so fast
and this is not what i planned
i walked away arent you glad
lets talk about me behind my back 
i wanna see who i am

its always some useless bullshit
something that never even bothered me
ask your friends opinion
bet theyre getting really sick of me
fabricating everything get so unhinged with it
and baby they dont even really know the half of it

its not who i am
my silence is what you get
ill runaway to the forest
never to call again
and ill regret what i did
i dont believe in an end
if nobody can compare, then how could you forget

if this was my last life, id give it to you
throw away all my body
and mark it as used
and if i told the truth 
im sort of obssesed with you
but way to scared to lose
anymore than what i do

i cant commit to something youre not sure will last
hold me close and pull your palm along my hand
whisper softly in my ear to tell me that ill be fine
i cannot make a mistake
its only you and i 

keep running your mouth
tell your friends that you know me
i would push it aside but im done being easy
this is not what i wanted 
or why im even here
i really thought you where flawless
but you disgust me dear

after all that weve been through
the solder is used
i cant keep anything together 
losing track of you
and if you want me to 
id do what you want me to
come drag me down from this pier
and fix your attitude

i dont get what you dont understand
your feelings are fine, cause im feeling em back
throwed away my life for a promise, wont last
now im staying awkward and silent and mad
i hope you dont regret all the things that you said
most of em where true but they hurt me no less
i wish you would have known me at my very best
i cant believe i turned out to be such a mess

i dont get what you dont understand
your feelings are fine, cause im feeling em back
throwed away my life for a promise, wont last
now im staying awkward and silent and mad

no less

Can’t say ur not breaking me
It takes all that I have
Just to sleep and then wake again
Barely eat cause I can’t
My body’s not made for this
Cause half of it is urs
Remember when I said
“For this girl that I adore”
Ur nothing but memories
Keep
Pulling me apart
I could never be used to this
It’s only the start
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And I don’t need to see em
Cause They’re all memorised
I’m burning through these highs
u don’t even ask how I am
it feels like nothings right
Fuck this u never tried
Try to see thru my eyes
The way I suffer every morning
U don’t ask me nein
“Why u awake so late”
I’m Just talking to friends
U won’t believe a single thing my mouth has ever said

Cause it’s so late
And it’s so dark out
Are you home yet ?
It’s not safe out now

There’s no place
For someone like me
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die
How could we say it’s us till we die
How should I know
And I can say this without any lines
With my eyes closed
Cause I mean it
This isn’t a story
I can’t go back to the start
And ur leaving
Moved on while I’m shuffling cards

There’s no place
For someone like me
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die

I want you for life

Ｍｅｆｕｍｅｔｔｏ

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