I can’t even tell you what this song does to me. It’s just everything. Never stop making music

co produced w @speedlmt

lyric

i don't wanna die but i don't wanna try
when your not here w me i get a teary eye
my dreams are lucid, they gonna get you 
how can i prove it, that your the issue 

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

decomposing in the mirror posing 
spooky black my father:3 stop diagnosing 
why do i bother, im controlling, im the victim. forever rolling;

a sob sandwich its kinda adequate
let me swallow it, these my bandages
songs just foru cos i said it is !
of grams not sedatives, dont know what day it is:(
pop another sedative?

i got these tissues, oh fuck i miss u
will you be here soon so i can kiss u
i can't stop shaking im forever breaking
i know you like that, its never changing::(

I DON'T WANNA DIE BUT I DON'T WANNA TRY
WHEN YOUR NOT HERE W ME I GET A TEARY EYE
MY DREAMS ARE LUCID, THEY GONNA GET YOU 
HOW CAN I PROVE IT, THAT YOUR THE ISSUE 
I GOT THESE TISSUES, OH FUCK I MISS U
WILL YOU BE HERE SOON SO I CAN KISS U
I CAN'T STOP SHAKING IM FOREVER BREAKING
I KNOW YOU LIKE THAT, ITS NEVER CHANGING

pine

@prodjpjp
@imgeist

use me for my skin, you can have it
stressed out, cant stop it's a habit
fucked up she wont talk when i'm like this
no thoughts, bringing shame i cant manage
no feelings, i feel like i might have lost it
hate my own skin get me out its getting toxic
fucked up i kinda feel like i dont want it
no feelings i feel like i'm out of options

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

i’ll leave you in the sea
i know what’s best for me
and i, held on tight when it was hard to breathe
and i,
fell apart when you crossed my name in red
and u saw how much i bled

fucked up
how she’s wanting me now
wait till i cut off all my hair and throw a fit in this town
cause i’m
stuck up
feel my ego rebound
at the end of the day
i’m a nobody with a crown

don’t waste my time
i’m wanting out
so say goodbye
leave with the crowd
every part of us is gone

these scars are more than cuts to me
i cant believe you really sat there and just watched me bleed
man he loves to talk a lot for someone so discreet
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea
i can’t believe you really sat there and just watched me leave
i’m getting anxious i can tell that no one cares for me
man he loves to talk a lot but no one’s listening
you took away from all i own i'll leave you in the sea

anxious w/ i'm geist [prod. jpjp]

use me up to tell me that u never loved me
I feel like I’m never nothing
I’m tired can u just leave me alone
Please stop staring swear my face is fucking boring
I don’t need to be important I’m swinging until I knock him cold
Staring at the mirror
Should I be alive
I’ve got reason to believe that it’s just not my time
Maybe in another life

I only eat when I deserve to
Clouded mirror sit and stare in the bathroom
I been thru it all before I’m just like you
I never wanna let you down but I had to

I’d give up on everything to be a better me
I’ve got people streaming songs
but no one listening
Every lyric that I write, you know I fucking mean
You only hmu to make a song with me

I won’t get that mad
I’m just frustrated
I can’t seem to get a break and I just hate it
If you lived in my shoes maybe you’d get it
Why I get pissed off and I’m not patient

WRITING EVERY FEELING BUT I’LL ALWAYS FORGET
EVERYTHING I EVER DID OR EVER SAID IN THE END
BUT I’M TOO FAR GONE TO CARE
I DON’T LIKE YOU
I WISH THAT YOU’D CARE FOR ME
YOU DON’T TRY TO

volume 1 on spotify, feb 3rd 

i don’t care if it’s lonely
i’m so sick of you just talking like you know me
and you could or you would if you didn’t go starting fires in this basement

oh…
hope you got everything you needed now
cause i’m burning every garden where we fell in love
and i’m killin’ every peasant that walks in this town
you know i’m painting the walls red till they scream for help

and i can bury every feeling that i’m feeling but i know that it’s just moments before i put the fucking gun in my mouth
you cut my heart and now it’s bleeding and i’m staring at the ceiling but the fuck do i expect when this is how it turns out?

oh why’d you go and make geist red
now he’s full of hate
i can’t stand to look at myself
not a fan of him
bodies scattered all across the hall
baby i don’t miss
so why’d go and makes me red
but i’m loving this...
i’ll fight an ego with a bigger one
i’ll hit another million
geistcord till the day i fucking die
but swear we’ve just begun
don’t care for anybody else
or anyone’s opinion
so go ahead and make geist red
red
red
red

i promise our love is dead [drma x lockhome]

prod hira

If I disappear 
nobody would know

I used to think i was important 
Buried in a cage I’m getting nauseous 
And the smell inside his ribs is getting potent
Leave you both together in a forest

Screaming out for help and no one noticed 

Then maybe you’d know how it feels 
I gave you the world that you’d steal 
So you can go fuck him instead 
I’ll cry till I know you’re dead

Disappear 
Nobody will know

So please don’t let it
Go to your head love 
I’ll be fighting after the war 
Do you not feel the regret from all the  blood that you’ve poured 
Psycho little bitch should be assigned to a ward 
Ruining yourself downing bleach on the floor

You don’t wanna talk to me 
You never even had to
I’d break another bone but
I just can’t seem to fight for you
But I’d die for you
Down another bottle and I’ll lay with you

Why you gotta be so far
Put another s into the side of my arm
You could never be more wrong
Tryna let it go but I had nothing to start 
Why u tryna prove me wrong
I’m such a lost cause bitch u did it again
Drowning and it’s all your fault 
Fingers getting cold wrapped my hand round her neck 

I used to think i was important 
Buried in a cage I’m getting nauseous 
And the smell inside his ribs is getting potent
Leave you both together in a forest

Screaming out for help and no one noticed 

Then maybe you’d know how it feels 
I gave you the world that you’d steal 
So you can go fuck him instead 
I’ll cry till I know you’re dead

after the war

shoutout https://soundcloud.com/cay2o for helping with the ending
all the rest prod by me

lyrics:
dont talk like that, you know this
ive had it, babe im focused.
discarded. u said, "dont leave, don't go"
been up for days, I've blown it
"don't fold in" but its too hopeless
im coming to the coven, i've been numb.

slave away the day until i make it
this chest in pain feels so amazing
if you got some more, then i can take it
she said im mental, guess im crazy
IM SO CRAZY IM SO CRAZY
feeling lost, when you walked in with bleach blonde hair
i never thought we would talk now its been 3 years
on the rocks and im coughing i gasp for air
and she said, "kade, do u hate me? do u hate me?
please dont hate me!"

dont talk like that, you know this
ive had it, babe im focused.
discarded. u said, "dont leave, don't go"
been up for days, I've blown it
"don't fold in" but its too hopeless
im coming to the coven, i've been numb.

coven

spotify

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=83Bd5PWLwBA

[prod. jpjp & deadfish]

i'm geist:
a broken design
step aside and rewind
but time doesn't seem to heal
the body's inside
and the blood is on your hands
so don't tell me that this isn't real

it's not the same, no
tell me where did my mind go?
cause i seem to have lost control
why won't the pain go?
i swear i've waited the time love
but i can't seem to take anymore

so say can i save myself now?
(envy) i think it's far too late you'll drown
but i need them to hear me out
(envy) don't make a sound just shut your mouth

notenvy:
my frame is fractured like kaleidoscope
the only sense of matters left my brain
i swear i'm losing hope
i’m doing fine, oh you don't want to know
the shit that i've been going through
i'm gripping on, i've lost control
another day intoxicated
do you ever think of me
my structure’s slowly breaking
another breath is wasted
screaming from my chest
i fucking wish someone would save me

kais:
i hate it when you talk to me, but talk to me some more
hands to my ears and my face to the floor
love it when they lie to me, so lie to me some more
you fucked me up and put me through the ground
scream for help, but it never makes a sound
you took it wrong, I didnt mean it that way
silent with the pressure, but I let it stay
imma let it till it breaks me
down, I know you want me here but I never come around
im sorry and I owe you that. that’s what this shits about
I walk slow with my teeth glued to my mouth
I don’t talk cus the rooms always too loud
loud
loud

deadfish:
and i'm waking up
heart's fucking numb
it's only 7am
but I can't seem to lay down

anxious bout the day
what's gonna happen today
I just can't get a break
everything's still the same

mind is racing if today you're gon reply to me
nothing points to that but I'll wait just in case

if u had a change of mind
blood is pouring out my eyes
phone is charged all the time
cause I'm waiting for

for you to reply
please stop wasting my time
it just wasn't enough
and I can't make up my mind

you said that nothing has changed
but I don't feel the same
but I am keen to believe cause I'm
just hopeless

funeral:
i get so deep in this shit and i'll never get out
now i'm stuck and i'm waiting
i never think i just act and i ask if i'll make it
or maybe i'm wasting
my time right here, right now
blood leak, blood flow, lights low, lights out

it's way too obvious to me
the way the bodies dust, i bleed
i need one second alone now
one shot, now i'm dead, body goes down

sewerperson:
rust gives way to the chains that hold me
for yesterday could not control me
toxins permeate
the armoured skin that covers me
u poor man ur final day
is ended here from under me
woah bring out the big guns
im in the mood to erase something
huh just try to say something
u getting face fucked
blunt getting laced up
put u in swamp water face up
no matter the chaos faced
i wouldn’t give up
for time will tell
of better days
from here I smell
the autumn rainfall
it helps me stay strong

SPOTIFY

time will tell w/ i'm geist, notenvy, kais, deadfish, funeral, sewerperson

Can’t say ur not breaking me
It takes all that I have
Just to sleep and then wake again
Barely eat cause I can’t
My body’s not made for this
Cause half of it is urs
Remember when I said
“For this girl that I adore”
Ur nothing but memories
Keep
Pulling me apart
I could never be used to this
It’s only the start
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And I don’t need to see em
Cause They’re all memorised
I’m burning through these highs
u don’t even ask how I am
it feels like nothings right
Fuck this u never tried
Try to see thru my eyes
The way I suffer every morning
U don’t ask me nein
“Why u awake so late”
I’m Just talking to friends
U won’t believe a single thing my mouth has ever said

Cause it’s so late
And it’s so dark out
Are you home yet ?
It’s not safe out now

There’s no place
For someone like me
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die
How could we say it’s us till we die
How should I know
And I can say this without any lines
With my eyes closed
Cause I mean it
This isn’t a story
I can’t go back to the start
And ur leaving
Moved on while I’m shuffling cards

There’s no place
For someone like me
In ur life
So I should focus on being alone
All the time
And babe it’s okay
I promise it’s fine
I’ll be fine
I cannot shake this feeling to die
I should die

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