im moving out after 18 years and my father doesn’t agree. we had a terrible relationship, after years of trying im turing a new leaf for my own sake. a new path for me :)

Ngl sounds like bill wurts in the begining

And once again 
My brain associates a YonKaGor song with OCs

why is it comforting to know that we are done?

The song is from YonKaGor: https://youtu.be/BK3BxASoMJc
All credit goes to them
I just wanted this song on soundcloud im going to get rid of it if he uploads it on here

Mr. Sunfish (YonKaGor)

The song is from YonKaGor https://www.youtube.com/c/YonKaGor
All credit goes to them
This is not my song
I just wanted this song on Soundcloud, I'm going to get rid of it if he uploads it on here

Lyrics;
My mind's a broken mess
Torn by the ones I thought were best
I trusted them with all my heart
And now we're back at start

Healing with time and pills
Through hurt that breaks the strongest wills
But surely it's why I remain
To suffer through this undesired pain

So here I lie in wait
For days I say it's all okay
Days fly by with no progress there
It's just too much to bear

Thoughts about you
Made me stop all the things I loved to do
Sleepless nights without a fight
But I still hope that you're alright

And so I gave myself to you
I didn't know I was used
Those strings of fate wound up my mind
My naïve heart took on that part
And said that I'll be fine

And once again I'm thrown into a maze of perjuries
I lied and turned a blind eye to your lair of felonies
And when it came the time for you to pay for all your crimes
I took it all and said the fault was mine
Though it's a fallacy

All of this blame you gave
Was just to make sure I behaved
And in the end through severed ties
I saw through all your lies

Inside your twisted cage
My blinded heart is filled with rage
This pain of mine was yours combined
And you should be the one confined

And so I gave myself to you
I didn't know I was used
Those strings of fate wound up my mind
My naïve heart took on that part
And said that I'll be fine

Now that I'm free, it's all so clear to see
That you were the one tormenting me
And in the year I thought this through and through
That I should be the one hating you

And once again I'm thrown into a maze of perjuries
I lied and turned a blind eye to your lair of felonies
And when it came the time for you to pay for all your crimes
I took it all and said the fault was mine
Though, it's a fallacy

And now I know the truth behind your weak hypocrisy
You won't chain me with your guilt cause it's all words of blasphemy
And now it's come the time for you to pay for all your crimes
I won't run right now at the end of the line
'Cause it's a fallacy

Fallacy (YonKaGor)

The song is from YonKaGor : https://youtu.be/lgzCxqQUU5g?si=jPR4yerdR37s4Dp7
All credit goes to them
This is not my song
I just wanted this song on Soundcloud, I'm going to get rid of it if he uploads it on here

Memory Merge

Waterland

Linger in the Rain

I was practicing songs that aren't so happy like what I usually make. I'm kinda happy by how this came out.
This is my first time making a song like this, so the lyrics and music might sound weird.
I hope my accent doesn't ruin the song

Music Instrumentals/Vocals/Lyrics by JonKaGor

Lyrics :

If I told some words of truth
They're 'lies' that you can't take
As if I wasn't there for you
You said my words were fake

Tho I want to give you love
You'll see them as a threat
But your eyes start to blur
And I tried to fake a smile

I saw your heart fall apart
As you were crying from the start
What I tried to cheer was something
Meaningless

But I was careless enough
To leave mistakes without a shame
And I was the only one to blame

Let's dance and swing it is a never ending play
While the audience watch us
Don't tell me what to do
Now, let the song that brought me far away
Suffocate me as I fail to stay

Tho I know that you were sad
You were no longer there
If I knew the end would be bad
I wouldn't make you smile

And now that I can't find
The things that might have changed
The memories inside my mind
They can't be rearranged

And because I was the one
Who told you something that you want
What I tried to tell was something
Meaningless

But I was stupid enough
Explaining things you can't believe
Grief was the only thing I achieved

"Please smile, don't cry!" I shouted your name from the stage
O, turn your head to me cause
I'm not pretending to love
Why can't I just give your heart a trace?
As if my voice can't reach you in this place

"I'm sorry"

Dance and swing 'cause this show doesn't have an end
While the audience mock me
Don't tell me what to do
Now, so long, goodbye you'll never be a friend
Let's watch the 'dreams' that we used to pretend

If I told some words of truth
They're secrets you can't take
As if I wasn't there for you
Your love to me is fake

JonKaGor - Unscripted Play

Music/Lyrics/Vocals by JonKaGor
Lyrics help by MelloRange
Bandcamp : http://jonkagor.bandcamp.com/track/artificial-abandonment

Lyrics :
If I was really a treasure to you
I'm deserted by the one I trusted the most 
Knowing you'll do the same as everyone
I'll be removed and you will be gone

"Please, don't ever try to leave me behind"
But clearly, I know from the start, it's a lie
Seeing you laugh with the figures you love
To all you call 'precious', replace me now

In this world, we keep lusting for something new
One day slowly all will forget with it too
Finally, we'll crave for abandonment
then end up discarding ourselves

If I was really a treasure to you
I'm deserted by the one I trusted the most
Scared that you'll do the same as everyone
I have left you before it is done

"Please, don't ever try to leave me behind"
But clearly, I know from the start, it's a lie
That time you smiled next to me who you loved
As you called me 'precious', don't leave me now

And somehow your hand is now out of my reach
My voice can be heard, but there's no way to speak
I lied that seeing your smile from afar
Will always be enough for me

And though,
In this world we keep lusting for something new
One day slowly all will forget with it too 
In the end, who craved for abandonment
Was this creature I call 'myself'

Artificial Abandonment

Music/Songriting : Jon Yudistira
Lyrics : Jon Yudistira & MelloRange

Lyrics :

I lost desire, I never meant to leave
I'm traumatized by excessive sympathy
I kept on loving the people who are wrong
Until my heart got swept along

Why do I keep on trying?
I just end up lyin'

Come on, does it matter if it's fake?
Come on, when it's real it's just another mistake
So why would you hold on til' you break?
Why won't you go? You won't matter anyway


You’re seeking answers for the toying you’ve been through
Grasping for proof that's been locked away from you
I was a dream and the one you're looking for
But now I can't love anymore

If only time could rewind
Fix my own broken mind

Come on, now it’s already too late
Come on, it’s time I reached my expiry date
Goodbye, my mind begins to break
‘Cause once I’m gone, I won’t matter anyway

Come on, does it matter if it's fake?
Come on, when it's real it's just another mistake
So why would you hold on til' you break?
Why won't you go? You won't matter anyway


Come on, does it matter if it's fake?
Come on, how I feel is just another mistake
So I kept on lying for your sake
Why won't you go? You won't matter anyway

Another Mistake

Due to demand, here's I Forgot That You Exist !

Video : https://youtu.be/f-BvvNZwgQ0

Lyrics :
So, what's your name?
What was your name?
I can't remember something so lame

'Cause I don't care
No, I don't care
That a breakup left you in despair

Keep me off your track
I don't need you back
Crusades of guilt you put me through
They make me sick

To me, your life's irrelevant
So, don't search for significance
There's nothing about you I've missed
I forgot that you exist

So, what's it like?
What is it like?
To leech on someone else the next night?

Y'know, it's fun
It really is fun
To hear you blame me for crimes I've never done

Keep me off your track
I don't need you back
Crusades of guilt you put me through
They make me sick

To me, your life's irrelevant
So, don't search for significance
There's nothing about you I've missed
I forgot that you exist

Na na na na na... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Though, I've been thinking of maybe forgiving
Am I crazy, am i strange?
You'll never change

To me, your life's irrelevant
So, don't search for significance
There's nothing about you I've missed
I forgot that you exist

Na na na na na... ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Maybe one day I'll get over this,
But for now, you don't exist
No, to me you don't exist
I forgot that you exist

I Forgot That You Exist

Songwriting, Arrangement, Music Production - Yonatan "Jon" Yudistira

Guitars - Daniel Roughley
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCoOB0IznzS-ClqhMdfK8o9A
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/daniel_roughley/

Piano - Cecilia

Mastering - Clockwork Audio Mastering (http://clockworkmastering.com)

-- LYRICS --

It's now the end of all the visions that we had
You were a friend, but we were never meant to be
Because the lane we took is now a broken path
I walk away now, to resign you as a memory

Did it hurt? To think I'd failed to care
I know you felt that wasn't fair
And you were weeping, gripping my tainted heart
While I simply sigh from afar, asking...

Why is it comforting to know that we are done?
Although these feelings are bitter and blunt?
It feels immoral that I celebrate alone
The relief is real
I'm freed from your embrace, oh darlin'

Na na na...

I'm still afraid to show when I would be upset
'Cause my emotions were for entertaining you
I saw the crossroads that leads back to where we met
Though I feel guilty, don't return me to that avenue

Did it hurt? To think I'd failed to care
I know you felt that wasn't fair
And you were weeping, gripping my tainted heart
While I simply sigh from afar, asking...

Why is it comforting to know that we are done?
Although these feelings are bitter and blunt?
It feels immoral that I celebrate alone
The relief is real
I'm freed from your embrace, oh darlin'


I feel disgusted knowing that I hold a smile
'Cause all these questions suffocate this heart of mine
You said it had to be you, who should plan all my future routes
Am I wrong to want to walk with someone else?

Wow - whoa - oh

Why is it comforting to know that we are done?
Although these feelings are bitter and blunt?
It feels immoral that I celebrate alone
The relief is real
I'm freed from your embrace, oh darlin'

(Ad-lib)

Paper Alibis

Bitter and Blunt

This music is not mine.

Cover: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uiJBLg3CMsU
Original: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Xa0Swz3X1cQ

Bitter and Blunt

YonKaGor

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