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August 31, 2025

Surrounded by those thinking the worst of me,
Outnumbered by the ones who loved cursing me,
Satisfied when they start blaming me,
Revel in every time to start shaming me,

I don't want to open doors I can't close again,  
If I start now, I don't know where it will end,
I'm scared of the tide, where it might lead,  
But these words keep tugging at me.  

I'm not perfect but I'm proud just to get by,
I'm still holding onto the guilt that it took to survive,
And It isn't your fault for all these grudges I bare,
Under all the scar tissue this person still cares,

Can't say that I'm sorry
(When I've had to pay double for every mistake)
Can't say that I'm sorry 
(I can feel the dam I'm holding back starting to break)  
Can't say that I'm sorry
(I'm afraid that I can't say it until it's too late)
Can't say that I'm sorry
(I'm not ready for the things that might escape)

I've just been punished before,
Failure held over me, By those who like to keep score,
There's a storm cloud building inside
And I can't take any more!

I don't want to open doors I can't close again,  
If I start now, I don't know where it will end,
I'm scared of the tide, where it might lead,  
But these words keep tugging at me.  

Can't say that I'm sorry
(When I've had to pay double for every mistake)
Can't say that I'm sorry 
(I can feel the dam I'm holding back starting to break)  
Can't say that I'm sorry
(I'm afraid that I can't say it until it's too late)
Can't say that I'm sorry
(I'm not ready for the things that might escape)

I still see them out there waiting for me,
Lurking for an ambush behind every tree,
Just know through all the show I'm still trying my best,
And I exist in between tolerance and forgiveness,

I don't want to open doors I can't close again,  
If I start now, I don't know where it will end,
I'm scared of the tide, where it might lead,  
But these words keep tugging at me.  

Can't say that I'm sorry
(When I've had to pay double for every mistake)
Can't say that I'm sorry 
(I can feel the dam I'm holding back starting to break)  
Can't say that I'm sorry
(I'm afraid that I can't say it until it's too late)
Can't say that I'm sorry
(I'm not ready for the things that might escape)



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Can't Say That I'm Sorry

Fading Silence is my first official album, released under the name Paulo Oliveira with the independent label PO&ElectronicBox.
It is an intimate work, where every track reflects deep emotions and moments from my life.

This album is especially dedicated to my late wife, Ana Cristina, my greatest inspiration and life companion. Every sound carries her memory, my love, and the silence that remains.

With influences from Progressive Metal, Atmospheric Rock, and experimental music, Fading Silence takes you on a journey through melody, heaviness, and atmosphere.

Thank you for listening 
For now, available only here on SoundCloud.

LYRICS

I watched the night fall, shadows take your place
Empty rooms remember, echoes of your face
Silence fills the corners, heavy on my chest
I reach into the darkness, but never find rest

Tender is the pain that never leaves my side
Fragile are the days when I can barely hide
I’m calling to the distance, waiting for a sign
But the fading silence tells me you’re not mine

Moments turn to ashes, drifting in the rain
Every breath a memory, tangled in the pain
Time has lost its meaning, hours slip away
I’m lost within the shadows of another day

Tender is the pain that never leaves my side
Fragile are the days when I can barely hide
I’m calling to the distance, waiting for a sign
But the fading silence tells me you’re not mine

And still I whisper, into the empty air
Hoping that somehow, you’ll still be there

Fading Silence

Yeah we're doing what we're doing ain't no toppin dat
Bring it to us if you wanna and we're stompin that

I could dance 
Or I could go around weeping

Together

taken from the Letter EP: https://smarturl.it/sirwasletter

on tour in 2020 

27 February, Oslo, by:Larm Festival, Ingensteds (10pm)
28 February, Oslo, by:Larm Festival, Revolver (10pm)
07 March, Gothenburg, Musikens Hus w/ Little Dragon
09 March, Stockholm, Berns w/ Little Dragon
10 March, Copenhagen, VEGA w/ Little Dragon
12 March, Berlin, Festsaal Kreuzberg	w/ Little Dragon
13 Warsaw, Niebo, w/ Little Dragon
15 Prague, Roxy, w/ Little Dragon
16 Vienna, Flex, w/ Little Dragon
18 March, Gothenburg, Oceanen
19 March, Aarhus, Atlas
21 March, Brussels, Botanique, w/ Little Dragon
23 March, Amsterdam, Melkweg, w/ Little Dragon
25 March, Paris, Gaîté Lyrique, w/ Little Dragon
26 March London, 02 Brixton Academy, w/ Little Dragon
03 May, Glasgow, Stag & Dagger Festival

sir Was - Don't Wait For Me - Single Edit

Italian Ice

Mind Eraser

Real Good Time

NZCA LINES - Real Good Time

My new single Pure Luxury is out now on Memphis Industries. It's a song about luxury, status, and pursuing material wealth in the face of environmental catastrophe. ENJOY!

Pure Luxury

NZCA LINES - Pure Luxury

Pina

Illusion (Silly Apparition)

Indie label based in North London…
The home of many fine bands indeed.  Currently home to
POLIÇA, The Go! Team, Field Music, Blue States, The Phoenix Foundation, Haley, Dutch Uncles, Stats, Warm Digits, Weaves, NZCA LINES, Malihini, Menace Beach, Rozi Plain, You Tell Me, Odetta Hartman