n'était qu'une

i look away but i cant stand a world without you here
waking alone was my biggest fear

i close my eyes your still in my arms
if i were to die would it mean you no harm
i know that i lied just to cover your scars

do you ever feel as if the world is against you
the girl that i knew could never leave she would hate to
i promise ive changed who i was im more stable
~
im fucked up been here before
cant have it cant have whats yours
i ghosted shes on the floor
i woke up straight to the pour

fucked up been here before
been here before
too many times ive done this
cant think its gone ruin my stomach

im fucked up come heal me
think you know me nobody knows what im feeling
i tried to show her but she kept seeing things
i cant get involved with her feelings
lie on the floor yeah yeah

katai/trapmako - look away/heal me (prod. kurai x pyojun)

all the things x3
i cant trust x3
this aint love
its just lust
i wont fall for your lies x2
i wont fall

anō tūkari (katai, kurai)

i choose to ignore the pain, so i can
look better for you
the reason i wake up everyday, so i can
stand before you

nobody wants somebody who’s weak
so i struggle all week just to prove (just to prove)

your life isn’t worthless
i know that your hurting 
just give me some time

my pride before yours
your life before mine
i’ll make everything work
just give me some time

i choose to ignore the pain, so i can
look better for you
the reason i wake up everyday, so i can
stand before you

nobody wants somebody who’s weak so
i struggle all week just to prove

b4u (kurai)

deaddend

blxty kairo ♪♫♪ forgot ·˚ ༘ (rexiroh)

9k degrees angels we be shinin ! @angelsinthetrap

angels in the trap, dollmight, laglacewhytie - ふたりの空 (Sky For Two)

prod @kggn & @1awliet

i stay lonely
bitch dont call me
i smoke plastic
you smoke broccoli
die soon prolly
roll like trolley
we gon tax him
i like money

ur not like me
i smoke oxy
pharma, pricy
u jus copy
tails like furry
get it so cheap
girl dont worry
i jus love sleep

i dont like you
i cant trust you
you dont know me
i cant love you
give her nose bleeds
im so pretty
schedule 1 bitch
keep it on me

hoes jus want me
ex dont block me
dont reply much
she jus hurt me
dont control me
high like always
i like cashapp
try to stop me

smoked too much now im a zombie
ilove downers so ur all above me
once its not cap they all judge me
i fucked up but try to trust me
got to deep now she dont love me
drag the razor hope it cut me
free drugs cuz they all wanna fuck me
stayed alive isnt it lovely

keep a cutter closely
she go down, below me
they dont really know me
stay up late i dont sleep
i stay gone im ghostly
shawty push up on me
fuck ur girl im sorry
she jus rly want me

i stay down in philly
bitch i feel like f1lthy
she like sober 4 weeks
i dont care not really
it wont ever kill me
i stay high i still geek
fallin thru the building
i dont leave the city

spotify

trolley prod. kuru & lawliet

@ch2rms
@prodjayysoul
@pw4prez

[arid]
did it fall between my fingers
fall between my hands
I know my mind is getting real thinner
looking at my soles thinking what is my purpose
can u even tell me if its even worth it
(yeah its not worth it)
my mind is melting don't know if ill go far
tell me now don't wanna restart
u told me to come back I said we were done
left it all behind didn't wanna run

[ch2rms]
need her to show me what it takes 
i pop a perc i cant feel my taste 
my body hurts need a slower pace 
im not the best at leading the way 
cus i know that it hurts you 
i keep on trying hard just to deserve you
my secrets getting leaked i know that they hurt you
i cant deal with this no more no more no more no more 
i cant hear the fucking noise everything is too loud 
im at the party throwing up guts all over the floor 
if you got something to say im only miles away 
i got things to tell you soon i got trials in the way

go far w ch2rms prod jayysoul + sochi

Produced, written, recorded, mixed, by mental
Cover art by oddyssi

Lyrics:

So tell me that I'm right
So tell me that I'm right
So tell me that I'm right
So tell me that I'm right
So help me feel alright
So empty up inside
Tell me that I'm right
Just tell me that I'm right

I know already
You don't have to hide it
I'm scared that you're lying again
I know already
I know already
You don't have to hide it
I'm scared that you're lying again
I'm scared, I know
I hate the cold
I'll wait, you know
And break, I'm old

So tell me that I'm right
So tell me that I'm right

Hurt me then hurt me again
I don't know where I'm going
My heart just burst open come sew it
Fell on the floor I'm so broken
I fell for you deeply before I could know it
I love you, you said that you hated me back
I don't know why
There's just a chance I was dreaming
Keep telling lies I'll believe it
I'm weak on the floor and I'm bleeding
I hate those words don't repeat it
They never liked me I know, but I'm hurting
I must have done something cruel to deserve this
Might fall into pieces, my love is my weakness
You say I need it I don't
You say I need it I don't

I hope that no matter what happens to my heart
It never becomes too scarred to love
I never want to lose my ability to feel things
No matter how much it may hurt me

for a kiss

again, again

Produced, written, recorded, mixed, by mental
Cover art by oddyssi

Lyrics:

Last night my mom said your name and I cried when she hung up the phone
Last time I wanted to stay on your mind but we both had to go
The last time I thought of something beautiful was so long ago
Last night I pictured your face and I started to cry like before

I'll act like you love me the way that I love you
The way that you loved me the way that I was
So act like I love you the way that you love me
The way that I loved it the way that it was
Let's both just pretend that your name isn't special
Your face isn't special, this place isn't special to me
I couldn't forget so it's always an option to fix what we started
And bring back my heart's missing piece

And even if things never change
I couldn't dream a better place
I felt it when you went away
So never disappear
And both of us are delicate
Our togetherness is separate
Just promise you'll remember it
Before I fall asleep
And if I said I'd change it
Then that would be a lie
'Cause I would rather live this
Than any other life
I've never felt the distance
I've never felt the time
Cause they don't mean a thing to me
I'm still allowed to cry

I'll act like you love me the way that I love you
The way that you loved me the way that I was
So act like I love you the way that you love me
The way that I loved it the way that it was
Let's both just pretend that your name isn't special
Your face isn't special, this place isn't special to me
I couldn't forget so it's always an option to fix what we started
And bring back my heart's missing piece

december

Produced, written, recorded, mixed, by mental
Cover art by oddyssi

Lyrics:

Never crossed the line, is it fine if I go there?
I'm a little shy so just promise you won't stare
You turned into everyone you said you would never
You got me second guessing myself but I don't care, no I don't care

It's all fine by me, if you want
Then I'll try be someone else
That's the irony of it all
That's the irony of it all
You don't have to hide from me or lie to me
Like everyone you know
There's not anyone you don't
You're like everyone I know

I should've known that there would be no next time
I could have spent the whole of summer grieving
I could have spent the whole of autumn healing
I could have spent the whole of winter sleeping
I guess that we could wait until the next life
I said I'd change i didn't really mean it
Cause if I fell they wouldn't see it
So can I tell one of your secrets?

You're just like everyone and that's your weakness
You're just like everyone that ends up leaving
I'm just like everyone and that's my weakness
I'm just like everyone and that's my weakness

like everyone

Produced, written, recorded, mixed, by mental
Cover art by oddyssi

Lyrics:

Can't get up, you keep me safe
You could take back every word you said but
Feelings can't just be erased
I tried, you can't be replaced
It's too much I can't explain
Took my heart, you replaced it with your name
You're the reason that I wake
You're the reason that I stay
I can't lose you, not again

You and me were supposed to be forever
I know that nothing lasts but
You and me were supposed to be forever
I know that nothing lasts but
You and me were supposed to be forever
I know that nothing lasts but
You and me were supposed to be forever
I know that nothing lasts but
You and me were supposed to be forever
I know that nothing lasts but
You and me were supposed to be forever

(You were both,
Burning cold, freezing warm
Tell me and I'll never go
Never known anyone like you before
I'll sleep on the floor
I don't want to be alone)

I wish I could see you on the street without feeling sick
But I can't look at you without falling half in love with your eyelashes
I can't look at you without wishing you were stretching your hand back for mine

You and me were supposed to be forever
I know that nothing lasts but
You and me were supposed to be forever
I know that nothing lasts but
You and me were supposed to be forever
I know that nothing lasts but
You and me were supposed to be forever
I know that nothing lasts but
You and me were supposed to be forever
I know that nothing lasts but
You and me were supposed to be forever

gravity

six seven eight missed calls hanging in my phone
and i'm paralyzed thinking about what they could want
dragging my name through the dirt wasn't enough
six seven eight missed calls hanging in my phone
and i'm paralyzed thinking about what they could want
dragging my name through the dirt wasn't enough

i see monsters in the walls and the side of my bed
meet them in the eyes whenever i'm laying my head
paralyzed with fear knowing that i'm not enough
scary monsters hiding inside of the walls
in the mouth of a home that could swallow me whole
fitting my leg through the hole like it was made for me
and if you didn't see it you wouldn't believe it happened
in the belly of the beast anything could happen
it's the worst case scenario if you're afraid of what you're meant to be

darkness in my heart i can't abide by
watching from darkness sitting on the sidelines
these walls are all alive thinking like a hive mind
consuming all of me yes i know
if i'm a lost cause then i won't go
was it the right call i'll never know
and was it easier than just letting go
if it's a world away i will not go
not settlement
auspicious handling
propitious to the outcome
consolidate the feelings in your past 'til they're welcome
congratulations you can handle it like everyone
but do you really think that you're done
six seven eight missed calls hanging in my phone
and i'm paralyzed thinking about every single one
pulling myself through the hole like it was made for me

i see monsters in the walls and the side of my bed
meet them in the eyes whenever i'm laying my head
paralyzed with fear knowing that i'm not enough
scary monsters hiding inside of the walls
in the mouth of a home that could swallow me whole
fitting my leg through the hole like it was made for me
and if you didn't see it you wouldn't believe it happened
in the belly of the beast anything could happen
it's the worst case scenario if you're afraid of what you're meant to be

afraid of monsters (prod.heroz)

prod me n @starboyrob

i js need somebody to hold on to
i might have to go soon
baby take my hand and fly with me
sometimes its like i dont even know you
i just need some closure
cuz u got me down on my knees

skippin past the cracks on the pavement
theres blood on the swings
why does everything just feel different to me
can u be my lungs its so hard just to breathe
walk thru the city i feel half asleep

yea thats the mindset
walkin thru the snow we got balenci on our footsteps
#goc on our tees all my bros are p100
i been @breakfalling without him i wouldnt be nothing

im in london with my bro took a photo
why u even hating bitch we do not even know you
yea why they tryna kill my glo bro
with my best friend recording a mv out in poland

@breakfalling
Hoppin out the house, I feel I’m not enough
Sister just hit my line told me to never stop
I what u would wanna be if u just grown up
It’s something I know that U know
I woke up staring at the ceiling thinking that I’m getting older
Take a pill I don’t feel anything I’m forgetting I’m broken
It’s 2 am and I’m tryna make sense of what I have become
It’s 2 am and I forgot when was the last time I was sober
Oh shit, I don’t think that I’ll ever be chosen
Staying at the bleachers cus I’m scared of coming closer
Can’t let anybody know me, I’m scared of closure
Damn I hate my brain I wish I could just fucking blow it

@pikaxd
bitch im coming through
all these bitches looking at me like i wear designer clothes
money in my bare jeans, nobody is robbin tho
i feel like im @injurie they keep on asking me for sauce
always going back and forth like im still playing cat and mouse

and this shit is so funny to me
they keep on crying bout my past and now they runnin to me
and thats just botherin me
im tryna get myself free
and why they all around me
theres so much shit you cant see

poland w/breakfall +pika

PROD BY @MENTAL
ART BY @BLXTY

IS THERE EVEN ANY POINT
I JUST WANNA I JUST WANNA KNOW
GIRL I’M SORRY I KNOW THAT I DISAPPOINT YOU
I JUST WANNA I JUST WANNA GO 
GO AWAY I’M FEELING THIS PAIN ALL DAY
I’M POPPING WAY TOO MUCH TAGS DROPPING TOO MUCH BAGS IT’S NOT OK
MAKE ME FEEL SOME TYPE OF WAY
SHE KNOW BLX, NOT MY REAL NAME
DONT NEED CHEATS I GOT REAL AIM
GOT REAL FRIENDS GOT REAL FAME
I MIGHT HURT MYSELF IF I’M NOT CAREFUL
SHE DID ME SO BAD IT’S FINE CAUSE I GOT MENTAL 
MAKE A LIVING CRYING OVER INSTRUMENTALS 
I CAN SHARE MY HEART, BUT BABY PLEASE BE GENTLE 
IDK WHY I WOULD LIE TO YOU
IF IM REAL I’D PROBABLY DIE FOR YOU
SPEND THESE NIGHTS ALWAYS FIGHTING YOU
WHATS THE POINT TELL ME WHATS THE POINT
WHATCHA WANNA UH-
WATCHA WANNA DO
WATCHA WANNA BE
BE WITH ME
BUY YOU JIMMY CHOO BUY YOU DOUBLE C
UGH
BAE HOP UP IN MY V
HOP UP IN MY RIDE LOOK AT THE STARS
SHE SAID IM A STAR WHERE DO I EVEN START OMG

I NEED YOUR LOVE BABY
I SELF DESTRUCT LATELY
KISSES AND TOUCH MADE ME FEEL LIKE IM STUCK LATELY
THERES SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME
I NEED A 180
CUT AFTER CUT MADE ME FEEL OUT OF LUCK LATELY

CAN YOU HOLD ME CLOSER THAN YOU DID?
I SAW STARS IN MY EYES AND I MADE A WISH
IT WAS BEAUTIFUL, SWEET, AND IT FELT LIKE BLISS
AND THERES NO OTHER FEELING THATS QUITE LIKE THIS

IM SO BROKEN, FIX ME, MAKE ME WHOLE AGAIN
I NEED SOMETHING MORE THAN MEDICINE
I NEED YOUR LOVE SO SWEET AND ELEGANT
PRAYED 3 TIMES AND CLOSED MY EYES AGAIN
(X2)

two hearts ft. mental

um a different genre hope yall fw ts i defintely got more coming guys!!!

gravity

mental

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