feat @menthol100s
35 nights i been feelin like this
hope i die this time its my 85th attempt..

85th attempt w/ skeleton

instrumental by the goats @six-days-after-christmas @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

youd think everything was fake
im just one more mistake
and youve become this
feeling that i just dont think ill shake
IM SO COMPLACENT
so disruptive
cant communicate
without words and pictures
guess it figures that everyones the same
im becoming everything i hate
thats all i tell myself most days
take my pictures out your frames
all i ever did was change
must be nothing in my brain
every day feels much more fake
much more than the last one
i know ill just break

your own worst enemy is you

is it not w/ skeleton

skeleton - and im sorry los angeles

up at 5 am i was pitying myself
i stood on the folded chair couldnt even tie that belt
couldnt even tie a noose but you do everything so well
and you left me with percision holy shit the way i fell
right down to my knees i felt oh so dumb
said you wouldnt leave again but then you left me with the crumbs
of a halfway conversation now my brains so fucking stuck
on you and that fucking  morning that i snuck inside your room
yea i snuck inside your house and iwas mesmerized by you
when you led me upstairs u remember what i do
u remember what i did i was happy like a kid
u were all inside my mouth at your parents fucking house stupid bitch

your even better at leaving

what you want me to think
just realize its cuz its addictive
wash my face in the sink but im sorry you cant be the victim

never say youre sorry youre not sorry if you lie
i know about being sorry i was sorry all the time
im so sorry i was lazy now you talk to other guys
but i think i need a hobby cuz youre always on my mind

sorry throwaway

@menthol100s @mandymandymandymandy @six-days-after-christmas @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

@menthol100s
you'd think everything was fake
i'm just one more mistake
and you've become this
feeling that i just dont think i'll shake
i'm so complacent
so disruptive
can't communicate
without words and pictures
guess it figures that everyone's the same
i'm becoming everything i hate
that's all i tell myself most days
take my pictures out your frames
all i ever did was change
must be nothing in my brain
every day feels much more fake
much more than the last one
i know i'll just break

@mandymandymandymandy
i'm so paranoid and i don't know what to do
and i don't really wanna tell you what i've been going through
'cause it doesn't change a thing and it gives no fucking use
and i think you only like me when you're drunk and confused
been fixing on my flesh ever since i was a kid
i didn't have no empathy for anything i did
don't turn me to your enemy, i don't deserve that shit
my virus is infecting you but will you notice it

skeleton x mandy - your own worst enemy is paranoia 2 (mashup)

you can hop in your car, im thirty hours away
so you could see me in a little more than over a day
i was 4 years old i had a smile on my face
i know what happened you did something and it caused me to change
i dont like it when they look at me in that kinda way
you can kiss me when you leave but know i want my space
hated hugging for the longest so i pushed you away
but itll never be your fault what really happened that day
these people they all alarm you
i know it feels like they all wanna harm you
but not everyones the same as she was
youre capable and you need love

thats life though you get sick and you die

prod @i-wanna-be-a-jack-o-later

@menthol100s
put me down but im moving full force
getting tranquilized not unless by horse
all the Frankenstein drugs theyll find in my corpse
she gon leave me, know that of course
you can find me at the same spot as before
picking up glass shards that I left on the floor
by the counter top, cause I slit my wrists when Im bored
i don't got shit that Im living for 

@2005memories
you let me down and ive never felt worse
you cant hear my screams ima ghost on earth
shes so sick of me treat me like a puppet when shes bored
tell her ill just slit my wrists i cant do this anymore
cus it ended in the fall with her crying in my arms
never wanted you to leave but youre tearing us apart
and im feeling like a skeleton a body with no heart
she just used me from the start, just end me

meet me at our spot w/ wifiskeleton prod jacko

i was sick whenever i recorded this

@menthol100s
i really wish things were fine
i really wish i could just take my life
i had a dream me and mandy both died
but we survived just like the other times
bullet hole should be piercing my spine
take me out the first time im live
come up on stage and blow my mind
i fucking hate ?

@2005memories 
wanna take ur life 
thatll fill the hole thats deep inside
but i never go thru cus youll stab my back
fuck all ts ima crow wearing black
always making music to escape my thoughts
with this razor in my hand i feel so goth
even tho its been a couple years shes in my thoughts
i js really hopes she loves my songs

trying to find all these reasons to die
suicides haunts me while taunting my mind
constantly telling people that im feeling fine
knife in my hand cus i cut all the time
rot in bed dont have no where else to go
kicking lonely dogs thats on the side of the road
wander helplessly i think she might be my home
dont have no friends ima die all alone

suicide is the only way out w/ wifiskeleton

ratted w/ xen x iv (khaniz)

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