"Us And Them" by Palma Louca

Lyrics:
Baby I just want to see you
Just need to find a place and time
Is it crazy that I want to meet you?
Define a saner state of mind

Lately I'm a little inconsiderate
I'm not a fucking idiot
I seen you with that other guy
Baby I just want to feel fine

It didn't even cross my mind
That you would try and waste my time again

Now I'm stuck outside
Stuck outside, in the pouring rain

And you just try to change my mind
But I just want to make you mine again

Now I'm stuck outside
On the other side
And the other side is all I am

It's not what I'm going to be
Alone again
I just need you here with me
It's all I am
It's all I ever want to be
Just us and them

I see you at the bus stop daily 
Watching from the other side
Feels like I'm going crazy 
Last night I saw you stood outside 

Maybe this is more than just suspicion
Missing pictures from my kitchen 
Cupboard doors left open wide 
Leave me, I just want to feel fine 

It didn't even cross my mind
That you would try and waste my time again
Now I'm stuck outside
Stuck outside, in the pouring rain

And you just try to change my mind
But I just want to make you mine again

Now I'm stuck outside
On the other side
And the other side is all I am

It's not what I'm going to be
Alone again
I just need you here with me
It's all I am
It's all I ever want to be
Just us and them

In the city at night
He wonders alone 
She's lost in the lights
He's lost in her glow 

As the city turns bright 
And the lights go out 
The glow lives on 
In the mind of the man 

He hasn't even tried 
But he doesn’t know why 
Now he's stuck outside
On the other side
And the other side is I am

It's not what I'm going to be
Alone again
I just need you here with me
It's all I am
It's all I ever want to be
Just us and them

Us And Them

Palma Louca - Us And Them

Hologram

Dirty driving bass, pulsing synths, shimmering and sawing guitars. Topped with twin harmonies crying out for love.

Produced by Gavin Monaghan. Recorded at Magic Garden Studio.

Mastered by Jason Mitchell at LOUD Mastering.

Harder Now (For Love)

You Give Me Chills

Vinson Massif

Apparition

Qlowski - A Woman

Pleasures of Peace

Pleasures Of Peace

Sinister Minister

My song The Imposter was in a small way inspired by the video game "Among Us" funny enough. In order to win the game, you need to find the Imposter, a secret member of the group that is trying to stay hidden while getting other players out of the game. 

This made me think a lot about “Imposter Syndrome" and how you think everyone will eventually find out that you are a fraud. The lyrics start with how to find “The Imposter”, how they’re all around you but they’ll say they had to pretend to fit in. One of my favorite ways to describe Imposter Syndrome is in the line, “She tried to run, but thinking you’re the best is kinda fun”, as I have experienced the feeling of being chosen as the best out of a group of people, and for a few minutes it feels great, and then the doubt seeps in and you develop a fear of being discovered as not worthy.

Then it gets revealed that the narrator is the imposter and that they finally reveal this when they expected to be found out. “I told you when I was feeling pretty scared the charade would end.” This is my favorite part of the song lyrically, as I love connecting scars to lies, and how not being true to yourself is a double edge sword.

I think some doubt isn’t a bad thing. Overconfidence can be dangerous as well as not feeling confident at all. Personally, I’ve felt enormous doubt as a singer and a songwriter. The anxiety that I’m not good enough and that everything I write and sing is horrible are thoughts that often go through my head. This song is in dedication to the part of me that feels like an imposter, and that it's not the way to live. 

I hope this song can help people that also struggle with their self-worth, as well as finding ways to cope with their anxiety through the support of friends and family.

Lyrics:

An imposter 
Pity for a 
Pretender 
Find a way to spot
That syndrome 
To say
You don’t know 
What I
Had to do 

You can’t see them 
Open up your eyes 
Then again 
There’s someone in your way 
Some excuse 
They’ll say 
They’ve hid, too afraid 
Until 

you don’t know her
she’s the imposter 
among us
she knows she doesn’t belong here 

she tried to run
but thinking you’re the best 
is kinda fun 
oh then she’ll see
and she’ll know 
she’s out and alone
not deserving 

you didn’t know it 
but I’m the imposter 
among us 
can’t I belong here 

and it’s not like  
I can flip a switch
and become
doll number 123 
oh someday 
you’ll know the real me 
no pretend 
when I’m the one lying 
one of the dying 

I told you when 
I was feeling pretty scared 
the charade would end  
you held me in your arms 
not feeling my scars 
the lies made a mark 
swords double ended 

what can change 
now that you know I’m just an imposter 
playing life’s game 
playing life’s game
playing life’s game

The Imposter

Apparition

Mere Child