Jessie Ware - The Kill X Kilbourne - Evnika.

"You tell me I should run but then you tell me you need me
A lot of places to hide so there's no way you can see me
I wanna swallow my pride but I choke on my own words
You wanna show me your love but forget how to reach me"

reposting my fav capricorn yearning poem from zeha/rosy timah:

"when the light glisten in the right spots, when it gets hit, when memories floats like dust, when it thickens, when wiped, when it settles again quietly after the brutal disturbance, when it builds again, when fingertips become ghosts, when ghosts brutally disturbs what was thought to be settled, when keras is not kaku because no, it is quiet, it lurks, it lingers but never stiffens into silence, when it is always there. when you are always there, even when you are not there.  

when i thought this was prophetic, when i thought ghosts were the ghosts of my yesteryears, when i thought it was over. 

ligaments melt into bones and all i could feel was the give, the giving with no security, kneecaps floating like dust, when caps became my ghosts, when you know my fingertips linger on my ghosts on you, when our bodies exists between bodies knocking into each other, never touching but always there, very aware of distance, very conscious to never make more ghosts because we both want this haunting to be over, or at least you do while i still want my fingertips on these ghosts.

what then? if not ever, then what then?"

Unknown Album

brutal remnants of you  (The Kill x Evnika)

Capturing and exploring what the subconscious couldn't express in my decaying vessel.

brutal remnants of you (The Kill x Evnika)

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