an autobiography.

loosely themed around my experiences with other specified dissociative disorder & schizophrenia as a kid.

...

inspired by:

- my lifelong consumer electronics fixation (obviously)
- the PlayStation 2
- Neon Genesis Evangelion
- the game Child of Eden
- nuphory + the wider "hypertrance" movement she started
- Abstract wallpapers I'd find on Google Images circa 2006-2010
- and, scattered memories I have personally from 2006-2012.

Bandcamp

archangel_2000

og by @madeon and @porter-robinson

inspired by https://soundcloud.com/pinkmouse/denial-pinkmouse-cover

shelter (cover)

w/ @fearozzles
[MV]
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9lVngvwNn2E

Flutter

I won't rest (w/ fearozzles)

Leave it all in a pen and a paper
(Your thoughts are not your now
The times you fought made you alone now)
Though she falls, he still feels he can save her
(In time you'll find a way out
It's crossed your mind, was it your own doubt?)

You always tend to think of what you lose
Now she writes about the things you used to do
Just a pen is what she thinks of you
And another night the story's in your view

Read those lines
That you wrote for another
Friendship or lover?
Take your time
Remind me you're stubborn
And reach for the cupboard
Just grab a knife
Or smash all the dishes
And break what I wish is
The last time
Fore you make an addition
You write what you listened

You always tend to think of what you lose
Now she writes about the things you used to do
Just a pen is what she thinks of you
And another night the story's in your view

Author

I started writing this song in the spring of ’22. This time was spent listening to the music of Yuki Kaneko and Manuella Blackburn while immersing myself in the flowering local grasslands. I was struck by the delicate, secluded intimacy of Yuki’s album “rut”, the jaw-dropping detail of Manuella’s “Formes audibles”, and how this music accentuated the surrounding landscape. I tried to capture this feeling and the sense of renewal it inspired while honoring these wonderful artists.

https://alexanderpanos.com

art in collaboration with Zachary Schwadel
instagram.com/zschwadel/

includes a sample of the title track from "rut" (and/OAR, 2008) by Yuki Kaneko
instagram.com/yuki_kaneko_bd/
https://www.and-oar.org/moar_2.html
many thanks to Yuki for generously allowing its inclusion

aperture, for meadow

contact light.

2000.
visualizer: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wFJN_l6Bbho

ultimate aurora.

shockwave flash.

drift 'n burn.

MV https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fg798mfq8eo
it's me n @trustt #mylifeisanaesthetic

Passive all the time
So can we hit rewind
Passive all the time
(Don't know who I am)

You're taking up my mind
Chasing all the lines
(Girl) You're taking up my mind
(Girl, its beautiful)

Don't you know
Dont you know
So don't you know, don't you know
Don't you know
Dont you know
So don't you know, don't you know

Passive all the time, but it's beautiful
(Girl) Please don't hit rewind
Just let me set it right
(Girl) Please don't hit rewind
It's me and you (you)
It's me and you (you)
It's me and you (you)
It's me and you (you)

You're taking up my mind
Chasing all the lines
(Girl) You're taking up my mind
(Girl, its beautiful)
Don't you know

Don't you know
Dont you know
So don't you know, don't you know
Don't you know
Dont you know
So don't you know, don't you know
Don't you know
Dont you know
So don't you know, don't you know
Don't you know
Dont you know
So don't you know, don't you know

Passive all the time, but it's beautiful
(Girl) Please don't hit rewind
Just let me set it right
(Girl) Please don't hit rewind
It's me and you (you)
It's me and you (you)
It's me and you (you)
It's me and you (you)
It's me and you

Don't U Know (Original Mix)

cheat engine.

electric bliss.

(1/_) of 'AMBLE TIDES' (always changing)

support me here:
www.youtube.com/@aquoferne
https://aquoferne.bandcamp.com
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lyrics

through the door
at the glass
the sink coats with blood

dizzy fuzz
standing tall
while covering your nose

focusing the lens
of your hazy eyes
realize
what have you done?

laughter has built in the halls
you don't know where it's pointed at all
closed behind the nearest stall
do not try to heed the siren's call

tell me it's a dream
(...)
that i'm fast asleep
(...)

can someone take me home?
i can't depend on myself, alone

oh, youth
you've started a fire
slashing down wires
while i'm scarring at the walls
i'm torn
there's a wound beneath my tongue
stinging from the salt
that's breaching through the front

can you tell me it's a dream?
and, that i'm fast asleep?

can someone take me home?
i can't depend on myself, alone

Run, river, run

Was just going through demo files and found this song I had planned as like an outro to the album, it never really came through but I thought it sounded finished enough to warrant an upload :)

for someone

PHNTMZN - crystal hearts (prod. phntmzn bR)

Dr. Calico

Session exploring the crossroads of glitchy low end melody and melancholy


Crossroads3-demo

i'm aster. i'm a black american experimental electronic producer of...sorts.

this is my audio diary / aural component to the "astroblur" project, established 2012.

ultimate aurora.

astroblur

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