ALL OF MY TRACKS

A Walk In The Forest

Float.

Dummy 2015 art piece, I know you love that shit.

Courage (Demo)

The morning is here.

I wish that this track were more heartfelt and emotional but that's all I've got in this creative rut right now, so please stay on the line, your call is very important to us.

Birds Outside.

Thank you to tea for this amazing song. I know it's not an amazing cover, but I'm just glad I sang on it at all, despite hating my voice. But oh well, you gotta start somewhere. Thank you <3

Tea - Flower Store (Cover)

Wait For Me.

Alive

it takes courage. I don't know what "it" is, but it takes courage.

thank you for waiting for this song, I'm actually really proud of it and believe it is one of my best songs yet if not the singular best. ty uwu <3

and the song is supposed to have rly roboty vocals btw! okaythanksbye.

lyrics:
will you
be back again for me
i can't leave without you
i hope you know
i guess it's just the way it goes

there's dust on mahogany
and I can hardly see
past the fog
it's a long
way from home

it's winding up with me
and I can hardly see
your smile
it's been a while since I heard from
my best friend (x2)

are you
still awake to hear me
you've been gone 
for so long 
i hope you're safe

goodbye
i've got to go home again
i can't stay
i'm going away
for good
i'll see you in another life 

deep breaths

courage

Courage

BIG BEATS! 
@willy4m follow them, they are super talented!!! 
This certainly wouldn't have happened without them.
Thank You <3

Off My Soul! (with WILLY4M)

See You on The Horizon...

My father
now just another
person that I'll know
when I live alone

I don't know what to say
except I'm moving away
I'd really hate to see
you and mom stare at me

Like I'm some kind of freak
damned for eternity
maybe I'll find my peace
in a place for simpler things

He was always there
and now I'll leave him here

father (bad version)

Father

(I'm not giving you another chance,
Rot in hell)

You hurt me
you hurt mom
you hurt everybody
you speak with through

those grinning, gritty teeth
think I'll knock some out when i see you
come on, yell at me
I'd love to see the beast come out

Out of his tiny cage
spit at me on my face
and fill me with the blinding rage
the rage of the abuser
the echo of the accuser
the innocence of
the judge jury and executioner
I hope you're not getting used to
me upset whining and complaining
because me hurting you isn't some kind of
daydream

My intent is to rend you
Burn you like a trend
light your stupid campfire
stuff you inside of a tent
pour gas over it all
throw the fire on pile
please fight it for your life
i want to watch you crawl

no matter how much you hate me
i will always hate you more
those grinning, gritty teeth
think I'll knock some out
out on the floor
hope the neighbors don't 
mind the sound if it gets too loud
and the decibles blast
burst your eardrums out

I hope i see you cry and weep
and beg on your knees for when you
called me a ***
I want to make you suffer
I want see you in a bodybag
whether I'm the holder or the stuffer
cause

No matter how much you hate me
I will always hate you more
those grinning, gritty teeth
think I'll knock some out
out on the floor
Hope the neighbors don't
mind the sound if it gets too loud
and the decibles blast
burst your eardrums out

you will wish you felt numb
you ignorant fuck

those grinning, gritty teeth
think I'll knock some out
out on the floor
Hope the neighbors don't
mind the sound if it gets too loud
and the decibles blast
burst your eardrums out

No matter how much you hate me
I will always hate you more
I don't care about what happens
to you anymore
nothing you do has value
and it never will

We'll find a new way to live
without you.

I Hate You More

Bad For You

Vocals by my wonderful friend: @hndshake

you said youd never leave
I knew that it was it
and I don't like myself
so I'm confused to why you did
and often times I'm hurting
and things dont feel okay
but I forgive the sorrow
and I wait for better days

and anxious mental breakdowns
arent the things I'd like to save
but I know that without them
I would never be the same
and I dont really know
why I never feel okay
feels like everything I manage
always seems to slip away

and maybe thats the worst of it
I seem to never get
why I look into the mirror
and I always disconnect
I guess I have a soft spot
for the things I want to see
i guess I have a soft spot
for the things I'll never be

and I know there are better days
I'll wait for them to come,
I'll wait for all my friends
and Ill wait for all their love
I used to be obsessive
and It left me feeling dumb
cause I dont wanna change myself
to hate who I've become

ohhhhhh
better days will come
ohhhhhhh
theres no need to run
I know that its not done
but better days will come

Thank you to one of my best friends. I love you ******.

Better Days

I'm lost inside your head
or maybe you're in mine
the flowers on your bed
I'm sure that they won't die

can I wait till the end?
When consciousness leaves me
leaves me for dead
can I wait till the end?

can I wait till the end?
can I wait till the end?
can I wait till the end?
I can't wait till the end.

Can I Wait

Lay down in the fire
embers burn in my calloused hands
you really know the way to my heart
with you i forgot all my plans

Lay Down In The Fire

I've got dreams in my bed
things in my head that i hear
they're near me

And I don't know how to
Tell you how i feel
oh oh

I don't want to
think of you anymore
I dream of you
in my nightmares

And they're so real
they're so real
to me
to me

I don't want to sleep anymore
I don't want to dream anymore
I can't stop drinking anymore
I don't want to think of you

We are here now
so welcome us
to the family

we are here now
so welcome us
to the family

Are you in there
Won't you open up
to the family

We're all out here
why won't you leave your room
We're all waiting

Conversations With Ghosts

Thanks to @draffish for helping me arrange parts of this track!

I'm drowning
Water up to my ears

Don't doubt it
I brought this on myself

You can't live
Without someone else

Just forgive
and forget
About the things you did

Please don't wake me up
Please don't wake me up
Please don't wake me up
I think I've had enough

I'm drowning
drown in all of my fears

I can't stop
can't stop shedding these tears

You think I'm
Important to your life

Well that's why
that's why I'm never right

Please don't wake me up
Please don't wake me up
Please don't wake me up
I think I've had enough

Please Don't Wake Me Up

Take a picture of yourself
and stare at it for hours

you're so useless
you tell yourself
you're just lazy and you need to start

start acting
like someone else
to make everyone love you

and i can't hold on
i need you to let me go

i need you to let me go
i know it hurts to know

and i lay here
on the dirt
and i say to myself

all the porcelain
starts to crack
and they see you for who you are

how much longer can you hold out
until you can't save yourself
anymore

And I can't hold on
I need you to let me go

I need you to let me go
I know it hurts to know
just know i loved you so

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