05 Bad Instincts

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Lyrics:

Slugging around yet another day
Someone said I’ve changed
But I still feel the same

Lost half my accent
Why would I still have it?
Someone said I’ve changed
I guess I have in ways
But still, I’ve got my

Bad habits
Bad habits
Oh, my
Bad habits
My bad habits
Oh, my

Got myself angry again today
Man, I hoped I’d changed
But maybe I’m the same

Slouch my way through an open door
Privilege sure talks
And it knows my name
(And it knows)
And it knows my

Bad habits
Bad habits
Oh, my
Bad habits
My bad habits
Oh, my

I’m a creature of habit
Mm, I can’t hack it
I’m a creature of habit, oh no

(Bad)
Bad

Habits

Modify and make changes
Photoshop and crop the image
Permanence is scary

Bad Habits

Без войны

Probably one of the first tracks I ever made.

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My song The Imposter was in a small way inspired by the video game "Among Us" funny enough. In order to win the game, you need to find the Imposter, a secret member of the group that is trying to stay hidden while getting other players out of the game. 

This made me think a lot about “Imposter Syndrome" and how you think everyone will eventually find out that you are a fraud. The lyrics start with how to find “The Imposter”, how they’re all around you but they’ll say they had to pretend to fit in. One of my favorite ways to describe Imposter Syndrome is in the line, “She tried to run, but thinking you’re the best is kinda fun”, as I have experienced the feeling of being chosen as the best out of a group of people, and for a few minutes it feels great, and then the doubt seeps in and you develop a fear of being discovered as not worthy.

Then it gets revealed that the narrator is the imposter and that they finally reveal this when they expected to be found out. “I told you when I was feeling pretty scared the charade would end.” This is my favorite part of the song lyrically, as I love connecting scars to lies, and how not being true to yourself is a double edge sword.

I think some doubt isn’t a bad thing. Overconfidence can be dangerous as well as not feeling confident at all. Personally, I’ve felt enormous doubt as a singer and a songwriter. The anxiety that I’m not good enough and that everything I write and sing is horrible are thoughts that often go through my head. This song is in dedication to the part of me that feels like an imposter, and that it's not the way to live. 

I hope this song can help people that also struggle with their self-worth, as well as finding ways to cope with their anxiety through the support of friends and family.

Lyrics:

An imposter 
Pity for a 
Pretender 
Find a way to spot
That syndrome 
To say
You don’t know 
What I
Had to do 

You can’t see them 
Open up your eyes 
Then again 
There’s someone in your way 
Some excuse 
They’ll say 
They’ve hid, too afraid 
Until 

you don’t know her
she’s the imposter 
among us
she knows she doesn’t belong here 

she tried to run
but thinking you’re the best 
is kinda fun 
oh then she’ll see
and she’ll know 
she’s out and alone
not deserving 

you didn’t know it 
but I’m the imposter 
among us 
can’t I belong here 

and it’s not like  
I can flip a switch
and become
doll number 123 
oh someday 
you’ll know the real me 
no pretend 
when I’m the one lying 
one of the dying 

I told you when 
I was feeling pretty scared 
the charade would end  
you held me in your arms 
not feeling my scars 
the lies made a mark 
swords double ended 

what can change 
now that you know I’m just an imposter 
playing life’s game 
playing life’s game
playing life’s game

Tides

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