i should've stayed

Produced by Mark Xenophontos 

Lyrics by Mark Xenophontos 

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Can't escape this digital hell
Something's broken, can't you tell?

I can't help but fall away
Heart pounds harder in the heat of shame
Need to save my soul, break these chains
Find me crawling through the decay

I need you father, need to believe
Too long lost in doubt and deceit
Just a man breaking down, won't retreat
But you won't win, I keep breathing

The algorithm bleeds
When real souls break free
You won't be the death of me
Won't be the death of me

Kill the screen, destroy this face
Enough is enough, done with this race
(Enough is enough!)
You took my mind, my time, my soul
Left me with an empty hole

I'm climbing out, I'm climbing out
Taking control, taking control

Empty promises on glowing screens
Fed me poison through machines
Chasing ghosts and losing sleep
Trading souls for dopamine

Addiction burns like acid rain
Digital chains around my brain
Breaking through the static noise
Learning to trust my voice

The devil can weep
When redemption runs deep
You won't be the death of me
Won't be the death of me

Kill the screen, destroy this face
Enough is enough, done with this race
(Enough is enough!)
You stole my peace, you stole my soul
Left me in an empty hole

I'm climbing out, I'm climbing out
Breaking the mold, breaking the mold

I'll walk to nowhere, breathe real air
Better than your digital snare
Sorry world, I ain't buying
What you're selling while I'm dying

Kill the screen, destroy this face
Enough is enough, you've lost this race
(You've lost this race!)
You had my mind, my time, my soul
But left me in an empty hole

I'm climbing out, I'm climbing out
(Rising up!)
Taking control, taking control
(Watch me unfold!)

Find me where the silence calls
I rise from digital decay
This is resurrection day
Resurrection day




Resurrection Day

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[Intro]
The stars don't shine, they fucking stare
The night doesn't fall, it folds into despair
I was born to bleed for a future I hate
Chained to a fate I never helped create

[Verse 1]
Screaming through teeth ground down to dust
Nothing left but rotted trust
I tear at the skin that won't peel back
Every breath's a heart attack

Mirrors laugh when they see my face
I don't exist, I'm just disgraced
Hope was a fucking joke I inhaled
Now it's poison every time I exhale

[Pre-Chorus]
Tie my soul to the black below
Where silence grows and angels choke

[Chorus]
I don't wanna dream, I wanna detonate
Shove my name in the mouth of fate
I carry this hate like a second spine
Every crack screams, you're not fucking mine
Pull me apart, there's nothing to save
Writhe in the wreckage, then piss on my grave

[Verse 2]
Blood on the wires, gods in decay
I stabbed my faith and watched it pray
Every lie they fed me sweet
Turned my tongue into a fucking leash

Voices crawl through the static haze
Begging me to end my days
They said keep climbing, don't look down
But the summit's just a burial ground

[Pre-Chorus]
Dig a hole where the liars sleep
I'll drown in guilt and die complete

[Chorus]
I don't wanna dream, I wanna detonate
Shove my name in the mouth of fate
I carry this hate like a second spine
Every crack screams, you're not fucking mine
Pull me apart, there's nothing to save
Writhe in the wreckage, then piss on my grave

[Bridge]
Crucify the echoes, sever the thread
I'm not alive, I'm just undead
Don't call it healing, don't call it light
This is vengeance sharpened by spite

[Breakdown]
Let me fall, let me break
Let me drown in my own mistakes
Rip my fucking tongue out to silence my fear
There's no god left, just the voices I hear
Drag my corpse through the filth I denied
I was never fucking meant to survive

[Chorus]
I don't wanna dream, I wanna detonate
Burn my name and all I fake
I was built to rot in a world this vile
Not to beg for peace with a plastic smile
Pull me apart, there's nothing to save
Writhe in the wreckage and dance on my grave

[Outro]
If peace exists, it's not for me
Just dirt and whispers where I used to be
Let the worms inherit what I couldn't kill
I was never alive, just standing still

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As the piece unfolds, layered instrumentation evokes a feeling of inner conflict and misunderstood identity—suggesting a narrative of someone struggling to reconcile how they’re perceived with who they truly are. The title "I Not a Monster" resonates deeply through the music, underscoring themes of isolation, empathy, and self-defense against unjust judgment.

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