those who have been there for me from the very start know that this project has been a long time coming for real, well here it is in its entirety
thank you for the continuous support over the years, i love you all <3
i hope you enjoy your stay at the heartbreak hotel </3 - lil neel 777

demons (prod. tsuki)

@wiindigoo
@wavylouii

art by https://www.instagram.com/stitchx_o/

i can barely remember w/ wiindigoo & wavylouii (prod. splashgvng)

DESIGNER - SHMAXWELL X LIL CECE X CAM SZN (PROD. METLAST)

Nearxiety-Don’t Waste Your Time (prod.Thersx)
2022Nearxiety © 
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Lyrics:
Don’t waste your time with me 
Bby,Ima Just Lil Near
Bby, I just poppin' pills
I just fellin' like anybody else
(2x)
On night
All night
All long nights 
Fellin' right…
I got drugs on my cup
Scars on my head
When u take me out dark
Just can  put back…

I got 10 things on my head…
Just pull up and Ima gone
Come back at underworld 
Here the angels feel the pain
Ima just another one…
(2x)

Don’t Waste Your Time (prod.THERSX)

nearxiety-Why U See?(prod.p4ra)
 ©Nearxiety2022
[lyrics]
I wanna take all the stress out my mind
Bitch, I can do u find…
I can Wait every time, okay…
I don’t have a homeway
Im homefuckless
All alone I can feel all okay…
I can feel all my pain
Out my brain I’ll take it
Im Insane
Im insane Right now 
Pain bring fame right now 
I can see me shine right now 
But im still in falling ground…
Give me another way
Drugz don't let me down
Tell what you see baby?
Tell me U can see me right now?

Tell Me What U See?(prod.p4ra x 5head)

I had to make this in a hour for you guys so I’m sorry about that but here’s the lyrics

Chorus
Girl you just kill me
Fucked up for the night that’s the real me
Maybe I can see things
Voices in my head tell me that Im dreaming

Verse
One night and you said that I fucked up
Baby that wasn’t me I been fucked up
I can show you everything but it’s tough love
Maybe if we tried we can make it all up

I can hear voices tryna tear me down
Maybe if I tried I could get around
One call away but you said I was down
Said my vibe was off but your out running around

ONE CALL AWAY

Mictainn X Slashy - Dont Run Away From Me

(Chorus)
it’s gon be me and you today 
it’s the day, we can run away 
i don’t want to see you stay 
and be judged on what you say 

so late 
baby girl you know i need you 
here so 
can you make it on the bus 
it’s getting late so 
i promise i’ll meet you half way 
so do you think of me
the way i think of you 
i see you as an angel 
my words are always true 
when you’re gone 

it makes me so sad 
because of you i almost relapsed 
but you always make me feel great 
baby fuck all the fake shit 
And fuck all the hate 

girl you know that we can be more than friends 
live our life til we die in the fucking end 
girl you know that we can be more than friends 


letting go 
i cannot let you go 
letting go 
i cannot let you go

(Verse)
So please don’t run away stay each and everyday
Look each and every way so far girl you can be my star girl

So please don’t run away stay each and everyday
Look each and every way so far girl you can be my star girl

One time give yourself to me
One night is all I’m left to see
These drugs get the best of me
I’m done gone and left to bleed

One time give yourself to me
One night is all I’m left to see
These drugs get the best of me
I’m done gone and left to bleed

Dont Run Away From Me

Mictainn X Slashy - Dont Run Away From Me

@lil-bleak-239937554 & @aureolamusic

I used to give you all my time 
but ill be fine
yeah, im alright
yeah, i dont wanna be without you
no im not triyng to change

well, i could give you my life
no, im not trying to fight
i just want you to be with me
i want you to be mine

I want you to be my queen
There's nothing else that matter
When you're with me I don't mind so
I don't need my cutter

I'll pick you up, It's cold ouside,
I'll dig a fucking gutter
So I can rest if youre not here,
my life, it doesn't matter

I might take my life sometimes
Cause there is nothing to find
I'll left my demons behind
I'm fucking fine when I'm high

But right now I'm numb
I don't know where to go
Laying down on the floor
I wanna take em all

I'm trying to keep my head under control
You don't understand that

I used to give you all my time 
but ill be fine
yeah, im alright
yeah, i dont wanna be without you
no im not triyng to change

well, i could give you my life
no, im not trying to fight
i just want you to be with me
i want you to be mine

SPOTIFY

All My Time w/ Lil Bleak (prod. Aureola)

Let it Go.wav

Through one man came death
Trading gardens for eternal depth 
If you take a bite, you won't die 
But I'll make sure it takes your life 

Unholy verses formed to curses 
Longing for cradled hearses 
If you take a bite, you won't die 
But I'll make sure it takes your life 

I will put enmity 
Between you and your seed
Vile Serpent scheme 
You need protection from me
Leviathan 
Tossed in the waves 
No talk of resurrection 
No need to be saved

Covering exposure no disclosure 
even when you're getting closer 
Midnight wishes turning grey
What once was love turns to hate 

Will you take this cup for me 
Consume the salt of your sleep 
If you take a bite, you won't die 
But I'll make sure it takes your life

I will put enmity 
Between you and your seed
Vile Serpent scheme 
You need protection from me
Leviathan 
Tossed in the waves 
No talk of resurrection 
No need to be saved

This is your body broken for me
this is your blood shed for my sins
If you take a bite, you won't die 
But I'll make sure it takes your life
(do this in remembrance of me)

I will put enmity 
Between you and your seed
Vile Serpent scheme 
You need protection from me
Leviathan 
Tossed in the waves 
No talk of resurrection 
No need to be saved
I will put enmity 
Between you and your seed
Vile Serpent scheme 
You need protection from me
Leviathan 
Tossed in the waves 
No talk of resurrection 
No need to be saved

Original Sin

A true story of when my husband left for Desert Storm December 1990. I was 5 months pregnant with my daughter, Heather. 

A Soldier's Goodbye (Remastered).mp3

new music also on my backup @lasthopeinthecastle
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