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As funny and desolate it'd be to leave this blank I feel like I should write despite having nothing more to share really. I am really reaching some sort of end.. Knowing 3-4 hours of each day are now dedicated to addressing a problem should be more exciting. I can't stop saying sluuuuut. Just like that. :/ I wish I was more of a fat shlluuuut.  :/ :/ I am so repressed in so many ways. What is exciting is the thought of a future where I can be free in many ways. Listen to music slowly and emotionally, to eat gratifyingly. To make music, to play, read, sing.. Maybe the desire itself proves this isn't the end.
Also made it a point to listen to less electronic this month. ChallengeSucceeded?

May 13th EDM relapse

May 22 As I head to the end of the tunnel. 
I love being a teen and I love my friends and I can unapologetically love EDM and I love movement and I love the sun and I love to breathe and I love a good smoke in moderation and I feel like I am reaching a strange conclusion but only finite like an end of a chapter as another window opens I don't climb out to kill myself but to fly like the angels that once scooped me up when I was low. I reflect upon my interests in my teenage years and see how I've morphed and I feel nostalgic, satisfied, full of wonder instead of unease at the incongruencies. I feel as if I have exhausted dissecting how-have-I-changed and am taking a more passive approach of curiosity at how-will-i-change. Passive not lacking in investment but a necessary cut in cerebral labor. For the better. Not Kamikaze not nihilism not senseless consumerism, pleasure, ecstasy, satisfaction, slowly experiencing, existing, savoring, living. Because complacency can be contentment. Small is big and I grow every day. I can't wait to keep being me.

MaaAY ‘23

bitch music_#1

pbandj (pierre bourne and jungle)

catch me running

04.Blazing In The Dark(Master)

SPOTIFY

imogen heap - the moment i said it (dj deadhorses dnb remix)

fallen angel (dazegxd house edit)

[2020] sorryalice - leaves [Miya Lowe 2-step Remix]

On Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1JIPVs9xY7rUzojcKan7jf?si
On Apple Music: https://music.apple.com/us/artist/night-ivory/1610909059

Aeroplane (2021)

remixxin songs close to the heart is very special....
Shout out to Jersey and Philly for the sounds
This is how we do it in Florida tho........
shout out to the DJ's that inspired this shii
Pacbreezy, Swizzy Mac, DJ Bake, Lil C4.... Baglady, DJ SKETCH, K-swift...
n Shout out to DJ QUEST for PMO to this sound... 1.055 Golden ERA 239

𝙰𝚗𝚐𝚎𝚕 𝙾𝚏 𝙲𝚕𝚊𝚛𝚒𝚝𝚢

Midbooze