SUGAR COVER/REMIX

Produced by Cymric (@cymricxo) + Vampsta (@vvvampsta) + Larziar (@larziar) + Elxnce (@prodelxnce)

Fourth track from "midwxst mondays" :)

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RUN (MM04)

better luck next time 22
production by @dltzk 

im such a pussy
think that im fine but i move on when i know im not
all my friends hate me
and i know that they don’t but i feel that way around the clock
no i don’t wanna talk
to you the least of all
ignoring all of your calls 

im on the brink
all the sudden can’t think of a thing to say 
my mind it sinks
i got so many obstacles that i can’t seem to get out my way
i need you gone
i need you out of my life
i don’t wanna come home
id rather live in the night

think that I’d rather live in a lie
i won’t open my eyes
i know i won’t suffice 
to anything of value in my life
im surprised that im even alive

i want you to know
that you can escape all your lows

i want you to know
that i’ve conquered my lonely road

all my friends hate me

midwxst- virtue (zuko + ninetyniiine)

prod @janeremover

flaws and mistakes
we’re not human 
give me time and i’ll change
there’s some days that i hate
shit that i can’t control like acne on my face

and problems that come with my skin and my race
so many suicide notes i threw away
cus I ain’t ever wanna be a burden
people say they care for me
don’t know that shit for certain
anymore

if i didn’t text her
then I wouldn’t get a text back
but i should expect that now
cus’ friends are forever or that’s what they say
then so why my all my friends end up hurting me?
i screamed out for help while you dug out my grave
i hate the last thing that I saw was your face
and you tossed our memories and my corpse away
and nailed down my coffin to make sure I stayed

maybe finally i can finally get time to myself
got my finger on the trigger if i shoot i’ll kill the old me
i’ve been tryna move on but slowly
and yeah i may avoid home, it’s lonely :(
don’t feel like myself feel like a phony
(x2)

flaws + mistakes

fuck it me type beat one hundred emoji
producer: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCDzimQcJtXnx7Tvhvb-iqdg

midwxst type beat

midwxst , reef - mia

production + mixing by @lunamatic
recorded + written by me

words
wish i could go back and be sixteen again
when i had no worries bout my future plans
this cycle keeps going it doesn’t seem to end
wishing I cherished the time that we spent
i never noticed how fast that it went
i move without thinking my thoughts on a whim
child of god but the lord knows i’ve sinned
the nights that i tried to take my life
said that i’m fine while dying inside
it isn’t healthy i know i need help
but I’d rather suffer alone, by myself
don’t want you to care
don’t wanna share
my visions clear
talk but don’t hear
you know the rest
miss all my friends
wish it would end
the suffering begins

i’m not good at saying goodbye
too scared of death, not ready to die
but one day I know that i’ll flatline 
when i die, i don’t want you to cry
don’t be worried i’m doing alright

im tired of funerals
and wearing all black
and hospital beds
i hate this damn universe
i watched my friends die and i couldn’t even stop it
and i don’t know what’s next for me, running out of options
wish they could’ve grown up and blossomed
so this song is for them, I’m not stopping