NO MORE LUV

★ circa jun '21

lyric

feel like its getting crazier out there
where the lights they meet ur eyes
& u fall into the night
like i pop shit could pretend but i dont care
thats just life im not tryna hide
id just rather die on the west side

yuh yuh
with class like a necktie
dead man suit on but it fit right
i got the rings & a fit tight
stacks on me number VI
stacks on me that im wearing
a stripe and im keeping it knee high
where all the money go? dont ask me
where all the funny go? its past me
im in a rabbit hole- shit entrap me
i pull the strings on this & im pulling it down
im the ventriloquist & im fronting a clown
come back arnd

i feel like its getting crazier out there
where the lights they meet ur eyes
& u fall into the night
like i pop shit could pretend but i dont care
thats just life im not tryna hide
id just rather die on the west-

stage coach trail me round
blood flow running down
nightcrawler dig the dirt
im the grave robber
blood on my shirt w/ the pinstripes
hurt but i still like the way it burns
its like a badge that i earned

i feel like its getting crazier out there
where the lights they meet ur eyes
& u fall into the night
like i pop shit could pretend but i dont care
thats just life im not tryna hide
id just rather die on the west side
feel like its getting crazier out there
where the lights they meet ur eyes
& u fall into the night
like i pop shit could pretend but i dont care
thats just life im not tryna hide
id just rather die on the west side

hollywood clown

with @twxglord ★ circa aug '21

lyrics

when i talk 2 myself in the mirror
i say things that id never say aloud
maybe its fear or maybe i’m just proud
to be a liar, to be a fool, all cause of you
when i talk 2 myself in the mirror
i say things & i wish they weren't true
but the weight of this drink in my hand
is the reason the divide stands 
so tall, so tall
when i talk 2 myself in the mirror
i cant even look at myself
see everything that i hate, i wish it wasnt me

pouring down
i could feel the rain again
the way it dries way it dries & it settles in
i got you under my skin
if ur gonna be like this then take it to the end
hard to say u never fell of the horse when shit bends
but i’m so fucking petty i just cant let that shit end
but i talk 2 myself in the mirror
i talk 2 myself in the mirror

i dont see a reason to bother, all of it’s gonna end
back and forth a teeter totter circling again
another fucking pawn out of billions gone
and if one of us got racks but the others debt maxed
call it efficiency mental deficiency
fact of the matter is you and i different, see
why to continue if none of it matters
the room is a blur and my vision gets flatter
this drink in my hand a green bottle heavyweight
see in the mirror as i ponder upon my fate
i could be someone to fall know that i give you my all
photographs up on the wall now im awaiting your call
leaving me out in the hall
and i drink again hitting the drugs
only confronting the pain from above
i could be somebody taken aback
i sit and i ponder i look at the stack
this drink is in my hand a green bottle heavyweight
fluid as the motion cant afford 2 fucking wait
this drink up in my hand a green bottle heavyweight
drink up in my hand

tanqueray (w/ alabenda)

ft. @nsuaj ★ circa nov '20

lyric 

blowpop from the top
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
blowpop make it stop
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 

nitrous & u on a early day
oh how u just take my heart away
i still wanna cry about everyday
nothings ever been so fucking important 2 me
i made u my wallpaper, i couldnt live with myself it i put it away
so i won’t ever go thru a day of my life again
not without seeing your face 
i know that i talk way 2 much
but i only told someone like 1 time
i can be selfish with u, id just tell everyone that im taking my time
ill prolly never be as happy as when i could hug u
that hoodie still under my pillow, can only dream of u

blowpop from the top
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
blowpop make it stop
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3

and u think im only missing you rn
im waitin 4 a text, hopin u give me the time of day
i miss ur touch, theres not a chance youll go with another man
i told u that shit cuz i dont wanna wait
uh look, im stressed out, i dont really get a lot of rest now
u got me thinkin bout the past, wish i coulda made it last
but i guess this is it, time to check out, huh
if i could use my eyes 2 take a screenshot
it would show the scene of a beautiful world
if i could open my brain 2 show you my thoughts
u would see a lot of things abt a beautiful girl
i dont wanna get ahead of myself, but i'm ahead of my youth
im way ahead of my wealth
but i know 1 thing fosho, if u need me lmk
cause ill break down this door if u ever needed help

blowpop from the top
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
blowpop make it stop
take me out & pick me up
gimme something sweet
i could really use a pick-me-up
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3 
pick-me-up x3

blowpop! pick-me-up (ft. NSU AJ)

★ circa may '22

lyric

i end up a liar
a fool 4 thinking
youd believe im flying over well
that week we were dying
only building up 2 ends
but i got scared & 1 broke down
so rlly when u closed ur pretty eyes
no it shouldnt have
it shouldnt have been a single goodbye

so maybe ill see u later 2day
u really dont seem so far away
ur stuck in my dreams ill break that cage
& know that were home once ive escaped

put it thru my wrist
get it thru my skull
no matter how long it goes arnd
it never goes back
never goes never goes never goes never goes
it never goes back

so maybe ill see u later 2day
u really dont seem so far away
ur stuck in my dreams ill break that cage
& know that were home once ive escaped

fool aka epilogue

ft. @avethegoathuh ★ circa nov '20

lyric

let down when im uptight
off fast no stoplight
it feel like much more than a picture when that shit marinates in ur mind
i cant have a witness- u dont wanna see this
i might disrespect myself & blame it on my fitness
could pretend i dont care
could get out of ur hair
you been gum in mine
im starting 2 feel like im too open
its like nightmares in my daydream
& i can’t wake up i cant scream
my phone buzz & its ur name
its been months- but i love your sick game

youuu
out of nowhere/ couldn’t see
hold the strings 2 keep me up at night
puts a shiver down my spine

i dont need you close to me
i dont need you fucking up my head
but u been ghosting me
you had my heart inside a haunted shed
im waiting hopefully
shawty know im counting my regrets, uh
add u 2 the list of all my demons like u never left
i can see the devil & he take my breath

i was moving smooth in my groove tryna keep up the momentum
looking in the mirror i feel like no one accept em
if you start 2 move ur mouth ima turn it to eleven
im the only one i fear- i ain’t looking up 2 heaven
i been feeling so looooooost
i been drowning in the sauuuuce
idc abt no cooost
pay the price kick u out cuz u fucked my life

youuu
out of nowhere/ couldn’t see
hold the strings 2 keep me up at night
puts a shiver down my spine !! woo

i bleed silently til my bloodstream starts 2 leak
& the days bleed in2 each other
pleassseee
lay me consciously on the concrete
facing up so that i see everything i did wrong
i dont wanna die yet
i havent fixed my mind yet
& the shivers they stay

frisson fka spine (ft. Ave)

★ circa jun '21

lyric

& do u ever see me the way i do?
it feels like u just look over my head 
and maybe i could change the way i find myself
but maybe ill stay like this instead 
& idk if i should trust u anymore
and idc 2 find out either way

yuh skrt
looking @ the clock i dont wanna waste time
when my phones dead i dont rlly feel alive
always back up so nothing will change
fuck my own set of claws digging deep in my brain
and i hate it so fucking bad
but im selfish i would
i would never never let u have shit

oh its not like a movie
its not all skin and bones

& do u ever see me the way i do?
it feels like u just look over my head 
and maybe i could change the way i find myself
but maybe ill stay like this instead 
& idk if i should trust u anymore
and idc 2 find out either way

i look outside & see ur bright eyes

if u could see me
whoever i am
its not like a movie
not all skin & bones
i will not let u
i will not let u
i will not let u
i will not let u go

notallskin&bones

★ circa sep '21

lyric

i kinda fucking hate getting older
birthday candles kill me like cigarettes
i wish i could wake up from this nightmare
get back to my life
where ur next 2 me & not dead
im really only stressed these days
so hard 2 find a reason anymore
yea more and more u leave my brain

but i dont wanna let u go
i dont wanna let u go
oh it shouldve been right there
shouldve been dead
but now i burn out like a cigarette

swear i think the days getting shorter
not much 2 remember fore im back in bed
but last night i dreamt that i was holding u
turns out im happier inside my head
my love under my skin
i couldnt bring myself 2 forget
but im only human

i dont wanna let u go
i dont wanna let u go
oh it shouldve been right there
shouldve been dead
but now i burn out like a cigarette

unbday song :o)

ft. @maliikai ★ circa may '20

lyric

counting time
i could wait 4 for that smile
be why it wakes
stepping out of the dark
float aimless in space
i know theres someone upstairs
but theyre not there
couldve sworn
who r u 2 complain?
u dont deserve any chances 4 pain
whys it so difficult running towards these ppl that u wish made u feel safe
but ur not so
its how I back away
how I hide my face In the fabric of my shirt
or how i tried today 2 just cry
but i couldnt care enough to hurt

stay away from me
its not safe 2 come too close
i kill everything
think im better off alone 
& they all say welcome home

this place no longer wants u to stay
but im tired of being alone no i wont wait 
no i wont listen 2 what they say
all i think about is u
buried under 6 feet
ik ur looking 4 me
i dont deserve all this pain
fighting my breathing grows weak
oh what id do
2 feel the way i used 2
oh whoa whoa whoaaa
its how I back away
how I hide my face In the fabric of my shirt
or how i tried today 2 just cry
but i couldnt care enough to hurt

stay away from me
its not safe 2 come too close
i kill everything
think im better off alone 
& they all say welcome home

counting time

stay away from me
its not safe 2 come too close
i kill everything
think im better off alone 
& they all say welcome home

stay away from me
its not safe 2 come too close
i kill everything
think im better off alone 
& they all say welcome home

welcomehome (ft. Maliikai)

★ circa mar '21

lyric

a couple days ago
it was 300 days ago
but i still dream about u
like it was still yesterday 
if i could disappear 
without having 2 go
id take it up in a heartbeat 
if i had any more
so close ur eyes
and ill b waiting 4 u on the other side
beautiful 
its a shame i didnt do it then
when i had the chance
cuz i cant live with the regret

NO MORE LUV

MILIY

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