by femtanyl and cardinia road
https://twitter.com/napalmshawty

MIX 01. - PICKMEUP!

A silly little EP I wrote as an excuse to experiment a little while also exposing myself! We love to see it! Just a little something short and sweet :-) Enjoy!

Digital Footprint

M3NTALLI INSAYN3

ANOTHER FEMTQNYL FANTRACK!!!! might ve on Spotify this time around if it does as well hehe

YT MIRROR: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YuTu6Ajzfj4&lc=UgwOq7w9GUDupoNTGpN4AaABAg

0NC3 AL1V3

femtanyl drop from feb 19 posting this here bc its not anywhere else on sc yet

FEMTANYL - MIX. 02 - BOTHERED!

Fusion of hyperpop, happy hardcore and chiptune :) 

Input Control Lyrics

Insert Coin
Insert Coin

Insert the coin and take control
Press the buttons and make me move
I press start you pick the way
I’ll sit back and watch you play
If I don’t move I can't mess up
If I don’t choose I can't get stuck
Is their point if I don’t choose
Is it even a game if I can not lose

Pick the name and choose the gender
I won't admit that im transgender
Guide my hand with an analog stick
It's easy for you with just one click
I’m stuck on settings I won’t adjust
So you know I'll give you all my trust
Don't worry about me it's just a game
I'll follow your combos frame by frame

Click the square on the character select
Choose the skin that feels correct
Select my outfit choose my name
I'm like a character moving frame by frame
Hit select and lock me in
You Make the call I’ll take the win
Read the map I’ll follow through
You hold the controller make me move

(don't mash the buttons take control)

If I don’t choose I can’t regret
If I don’t move I can't forget
So press start and let me free
To become something I’m too scared to be

(don't mash the buttons take control)

Pick the name and choose the gender
I won't admit that im transgender
Guide my hand with an analog stick
It's easy for you with just one click
I’m stuck on settings I won’t adjust
So you know I'll give you all my trust
Don't worry about me it's just a game
I'll follow your combos frame by frame

You hold the controller I hold my breath
Just press start don't get in depth 
hit select and ease my doubt
Cause I’m too scared to figure it out
Select my skin pick my name
Don't think hard it's just a game
I sit still like im frozen on screen
Switch my style and make me seen

You Lose

If I don’t choose I can’t regret
Take Control
If I don’t move I can't forget
Take Control
So press start and let me free
Take Control
To become something I’m too scared to be

Dragon punch hit I flinch on impact 
Quarter circle jab don’t think just react 
Charge back forward lock me in stance  
Full rotation spin just give me a chance  

Charge left right ya move on cue  
Half-moon flick ya move cause of you  
Hold down then up my body forgets  
Quarter circle kick no signs of regrets

Dragon punch hit I flinch on impact 
Quarter circle jab don’t think just react 
Charge back forward lock me in stance  
Full rotation spin just give me a chance  

Charge left right ya move on cue  
Half-moon flick ya move cause of you  
Hold down then up my body forgets  
Quarter circle kick no signs of regrets

You Win

Input Control

7 Stages is an EP I started by accident. I had another album planned, but this EP formed itself. Earlier this year, a complicated and abusive relationship I was in for a while ended. A month after the relationship ended, I was sexually assaulted by my former closest friend shortly after I confided in them and finally felt comfortable enough to tell someone about the instances of abuse I went through in my relationship. Both these things were absolutely crushing to me. I felt like I lost everything in the span of a month. I began writing songs for myself to cope with the difficult feelings that were coming up and this EP was born accidentally. I did not know if I wanted to post this, or if I would feel safe being so vulnerable, but I feel it is an important part of my personal healing not to suffer alone or in silence any longer.

This EP shows all the emotions of going through and recovering from those events. Messy emotions, having complicated feelings for your abusers, toying with the idea of regressing just to be 'loved' once more, etc. As the EP progresses through the stages of grief, it becomes a reflection of my personal rise into power, self healing, proper boundary setting, reclaiming myself, and coming into an era of self love after not having that for myself my entire life.

If you have been through or are going through similar experiences, know that you are heard and that you are very important and worthy of healthy love, friendships, and relationships. It DOES get better, I promise.


KAGOSHIMA

CH4TR00M 848Y

GH0ST

#hyperpop #breakcore #digitalhardcore #hardcore #happyhardcore #halloween #femcore

Love Agression Lyrics

You know I love you more than anyone

I never felt this close to someone before

You know I'm trans I got that virus
Theirs no couple out here like us
It doesn't matter if you use protection
I spread my love like it's infection
You know you got me infatuated
Your loves got me intoxicating
Every time I see you
You just know I can't resist I gotta

Bite
Bite
Bite
Bite

It's the only way I feel close to you

Bite
Bite
Bite
Bite

Rip the flesh right off of you

Bite
Bite
Bite
Bite

It's the only way to get close to you

Bite
Bite
Bite
Bite

I just want to love you from within
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Giggling

Bite bite bite I show affection
Like a zombie in resurrection
I feel your pulse like an 808
I need your flesh don't hesitate
Im craving closeness like it’s flesh
Every touch turns me obsessed
My loves unhinged just like my jaw
Don't run now it's my only flaw

I can love only with agression
Like a zombie you got my attention
I only bite you cause I care
Cause you know a girl like me is rare
Don't call it hunger it’s obsession
With Every bite a new possession
Your kisses come it quick sucession
You know it's just a small transgression

I’m stitched together by obsession
Kisses are my new confession
I’m alive but barely whole
Your love has made me lose control
Spinning eyes but I see you clear
Every heartbeat drags me near
Your Brains don’t matter it’s your heat
Every a pulse I need to eat

Hunger rising out the grave
I can't resist I misbehave
I Suck the emotion from your heart
Leaving nothing but a love shaped mark
Your love has got me infatuated
You know I find you intoxicating
Every time I see you
You just know I can't resist I gotta

Bite
Bite
Bite
Bite

It's the only way I feel close to you

Bite
Bite
Bite
Bite

Rip the flesh right off of you

Bite
Bite
Bite
Bite

It's the only way to get close to you

Bite
Bite
Bite
Bite

I just want to love you from within
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA
Giggling

I can love only with aggression
Like a zombie you got my attention
I only bite you cause I care
Cause you know a girl like me is rare
Don't call it hunger it’s obsession
With Every bite a new possession
Your kisses come it quick sucession
You know it's just a small transgression

Zombie’s just another name
For loving past the point of sane
They say its metaphorical
I love to hard it get carnivorical
I Can’t kiss gentle I big dents
Bloods all over your fingerprints
I’m not dead just love infected
Eating hearts gets me connected

I just bite hard

Feel my teeth sink in

Feel me pull right off your flesh

Feel my teeth inside your chest

Love Zombie

[Intro]
I ain’t askin’ for the world, ain’t beggin’ for a crown
I just want a moment where my soul can’t drown
My mind been fightin’ wars nobody ever sees
I just want a feelin’ that brings me to my knees

[Verse 1]
Every night I stare at ceilings, wonder how I’m still alive
Heart been cut so many times it shouldn’t even beat or try
Fake love, fake smiles, fake faith in my face
I been starvin’ for some warmth in a world that’s all fake
People call me cold-hearted, they don’t know my past scars
I been lovin’ in the dark, I been bleedin’ in the car
Drivin’ circles through my trauma hopin’ dopamine gon’ hit
Lookin’ for a soul to hold me even if just for a bit

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t need a fairytale
Or forever with your name
I just want a little pleasure
Just somethin’ to numb the pain

[Chorus]
I just want some pleasure to even out the pain
Somethin’ real enough to keep me from goin’ insane
A moment where I’m breathin’, not drownin’ in my brain
I ain’t askin’ for forever — just relief from this flame
I just want some pleasure, just a drug without a name
Anything to make me feel alive again

[Verse 2]
I get lost in my addictions, tryna find a way to feel
In a world that took my innocence and never let me heal
They tell me “pray about it” but don’t know my history
Prayin’ never filled the void where love was meant to be
I want hands on my body that remind me I’m alive
Kiss my broken parts, tell me I’ll survive
I know pleasure temporary, pain always returns
But for once, let my demons crash instead of burn

[Pre-Chorus]
I don’t need salvation
Or a promise you gon’ stay
I just want a little pleasure
Just somethin’ to numb the pain

[Chorus
I just want some pleasure to even out the pain
Somethin’ real enough to keep me from goin’ insane
A moment where I’m breathin’, not drownin’ in my brain
I ain’t askin’ for forever — just relief from this flame
I just want some pleasure, just a drug without a name
Anything to make me feel alive again

[Bridge
I ain’t chasin’ lust, I’m chasin’ silence in my mind
A taste of peace before I lose my life to time
Just one night where I forget my shame
Where pleasure finally outweighs pain

[Outro]
If tomorrow I still suffer, then tonight just let me breathe
Let me taste a little heaven ‘fore this hell comes back for me
I don’t need your promise, don’t need gold or diamond rings
I just want some pleasure…
Before the pain owns everything.

Pleasure vs Pain

Hi! I'm Milky and I like making silly songs and composing for games!
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