actual songs

acoustic

You Were All I Ever Had [original]

live from Ob's house

lyrics:

i'm writing this in the book that your mum gave me 
how weird is it now that she's just a distant memory 
the empty slots in my brain 
filled with pointless facts i don't need
like your home address, your future wedding dress, or how your dad likes his tea

what do i do with the unnessecary
how do i unthink you from my memory
does he hold you close in the dark
does he even know who are

maybe i'll see you again one day
and i will be just another nameless face
but we could've had it all 
we could've had the world to share
but your name doesn't sound the same in my mouth anymore
you dont care

where does all the love go 
now its gone and you are not my home 
does he hold you close in the dark?
does he even know who you are?

and you mean nothing to me now 
apart from the times i miss your familiar sounds
stuck in between hurt and love is a very lonely place to be 

but i meant what i said 
when i said that you mean nothing to me 

cos you need 
somebody more than me 
and uni 
made you realise i was nothing

Nothing To Me Now demo [original]

original song from a while ago (:

lyrics-

how can you convert the gentiles
and help moses split the sea
know each and everyone of your followers 
yet you forget about me 

the dead awakes 
the lame walks
and the blind sees
i just cant fathom it
i'm like the pharisees

and those that judge me the most
proclaim it as love
i'll do my best 
but i cant be what you want 
an eye for an eye 
doesn't make a whole face
and i will try,
to live under grace


i don't mean to sound disrespectful
but saviour i'm crying out 
in you i'm supposed to find peace 
all i found was doubt
in you i'm supposed to find peace 
all i found was doubt

cos its your will
and its your way 
but if its you who made me
why am i this way

cos its your will
and its your way 
but if its you who made me
why am i this way

why am i this way?

Doubt [original, dry mix]

cover of lucy dacus' song i recorded a while ago :p

LYRICS:
Daniel made a pass
We started flirting after class
Stealing hats and trading jackets
Locking lips and braces brackets
After dinner, before dark
We'd meet at the same bench in the park
Sweaty palms, averted eyes
Wasn't sure if he and I were going out
Going out
Going out, ooh
Going, going, out
The sunset threw a tantrum
It wasn't ready to go just yet
Mother Earth said, "Time for bed"
It resisted and the sky went red
The color filtered out
Like pulling teeth out of a cloud
The bloody battle ended
No, the sun can't break the habit of going down
Going down
Going down, ooh
Going, going, down
Daniel in ten years
Grabbing asses, spilling beers
Another ten and he'll have a daughter
She'll grow up and he can't stop her
Back on the bench, making plans
Watching the day end hand in hand
I always had to be home by eight
My dad would kill me if I was late
I'll be going now
Going now
Going now, ooh
Going, going, now
Going gone
Going gone
Going gone, ooh
Going, going, gone


creds to :
-lucy dacus for song 
-mabel foster circa december 2020 after stumblilng through the lyrics to 12 days of christmas

Going Going Gone (lucy dacus cover)

lyrics-

 you're gonna miss me when im gone 
at least I hope im right  kinda knew something was wrong
 for the longest time

I dont care its just not working 
kinda feels like im not worth it  
I dont care its just not worth 
it  it feels like we're not working

and its just hit 3pm  im expecting a call again
  something about my mental health  
self soothing tasks she suggests might help
she asks when id next like an appointment
  I see her faced with dissappointment

the cut is fresh but not bad
you were all i ever had 
and its stinging at the start 
and its something cliche about healing 
nothing is linear you know  something 
in the middle of my mind

you're gonna miss me when im gone
 at least I hope im right

longest time [original]

told me to wait
step on the breaks
tell me im not the first person to feel
like life is a waste

cant live in the dark 
why did i let this start
you froze up my time 
convinced yourself we're right

i took your advice 
and held it in my hands
took your advice

why must the final act of love 
be letting go
watched you chew her name 
i hope your name 
hope that you choke

the only resolution is time 
i cant seem to get you off my mind 
the only resolution is time
i cant seem to get this right 

frozen time [original demo]

excerpt from frozen time but less janky guitar

the only resolution is time,,,,, [original]

hate my hair  [original voice memo demo]

Lyrics inspired from a poem that somebody wrote about me years and years ago: 

In the morning the Sun, it leaks
The days apart bleed into weeks 
All these miles that lay between us
I still worship you more than jesus

She said to bask in time until you blister
Looking in the mirror I see my sister
 She was always so inquisitive 
Indisputably opinionated 

You tell me how your life feels so small
Things are now so cynical 
You blew up our life, inexcusable
I begin to feel irrefutable

We marvel at the collective gravel
How rough material can be so fragile 
Reduce me to my vulnerability 
spell out my soul out in fears swimmingly 

Strangers have pictures but I see you poise 
You witnesses me like background noise 
I’m twice as tall You’re half as kind 
When you saw me last it wasn’t nice 

You are the single most beautiful thing
Destruction and worry is all I can bring 
You love me like it’s a duty 
You are an indestructible beauty

Irrefutable// [original voice memo demo]

all music by me ! 
drenched in reverb 
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Irrefutable// [original voice memo demo]

milly foster