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Added some punch to an extremely beautiful and impactful song by Ollie.

@olly-raps

Ollie - Broken Down (mindswitch flip)

lyrics:
I was zooded all the time but now the withdrawals are kickin’ in 
Lyin’ in my bed and can’t sleep, as if I ever can 
Don’t hand me a can ‘couse I might end up with a bong instead 
Junky thoughts I know but opiods took over all my brains 

And in my face, I only see the devil gets another chance 
Only gettin' by cause I don’t wanna disappoint a friend 
Still I wanna fill the void with some more fucking pills again 
You say you are a friend bitch come through and I’ll piss on your head 

Noddin’ in and out – but I don’t wonna die 
Poppin’ some more bars – this might be it this time 
Crying in a crowd – although there’re friends nearby 
And thanks to Cas without your call I wouldn’t have my life 

And sorry for every friend that I ever fuckin’ ghosted 
And I’m sorry for takin’ bars and makin’ it your problem 
And I’m sorry for repeating lines on songs and on my phone 
And I hope that my friends know my love for them is constant 

Still in my heart, there’s a big crack 
Reality gave me a bitch slap 
I will never find love, but I get that 
Yeah I get, yeah I get that 

Still in my heart, there’s a big crack 
Reality gave me a bitch slap 
I will never find love, but I get that 
Yeah I get, yeah I get that 

Recording texts inside my sm seven b 
I’m on a path but I don’t know if there’s a way that I succeed 
With my broken voice and broken heart no way that I won’t bleed 
Now that I’m perci clean I feel no floor under my feed 

And forever I accept that I’m a motherfucking broken mess 
I will never lie to you, but lying to myself instead 
I’m so asocial I could live in twenty twenty 5 times 
now that it is gone, I call it twenty twenty hindsight  

Hearing claps, high fives on my funeral 
I thought that just five more pills could maybe cure it all 
crying at least five times daily in my cubicle 
Hopin‘ at least five more people will listen to my songs  

Don’t talk to me ‘cause I’m a let down 
And please don’t text I get stressed out 
Poppin’ pills mixing alk on a brink to pass out 
How can I hope that I get love now 

Still in my heart, there’s a big crack 
Reality gave me a bitch slap 
I will never find love, but I get that 
Yeah I get, yeah I get that 

Still in my heart, there’s a big crack 
Reality gave me a bitch slap 
I will never find love, but I get that 
Yeah I get, yeah I get that 

Still in my heart, there’s a big crack 
Reality gave me a bitch slap 
I will never find love, but I get that 
Yeah I get, yeah I get that

i'm more than sorry i swear

This track of Kelly Clarkson has held a special place in my heart when I was younger. I've always felt it could have a more energetic approach. Lately I found myself coming back to it and giving it a drum'n'bass spin. 
Hope you enjoy!

Behind These Hazel Eyes (mindswitch flip)

Alternatively titled "Last walk with an old friend".
This track is dedicated to my dearest friend Henri, who sadly passed away in the beginning of this year. 
Just a few days before his departure, we were up all night, sending tunes back-and-forth to eachother, giving feedback and sharing the joys and excitement of our creations. 

This was the track that I started that night. 
Henri was one of the reasons I've been on this musical journey of mine, supporting and guiding me through. We organized events together and found ways to support ourselves both financially and emotionally through music from our early teenage years. 
Although you have departed this reality, your memory lives within me. 
Until we meet again, my dear friend and companion in this life. May your soul be at ease. 
🩵

empty streets

I started this track on my birthday, I think it was the year 2022 or 2023. It has been sitting in my drive for a while. 

I'm home while writing this, trying to recover from a humbling pneumonia, thinking of all the things I adore in this life. Making and listening to music has always been one of the few things that has comforted me in these tough times. I've realized that I cannot hold these tracks with me and it's time to release these oldies in one way or another. 

Thanks for reading and listening to my inner thoughts. I hope you find solace in them.

attention deficit

lazy day

everything feels like a fever dream lately

the heart wants what it wants

Hold On

theyre rotting my brain love </3 </3

prod. nick mira

Goodbye & Good Riddance

All Girls Are The Same

Nightcore Hey Little Girl

Wishing Well

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