Why Bother?

feels like i'm wasting time
always rotting online
looking for what i can't find
i'm not too bright
don't wanna die a slow death
don't wanna leave you bereft
seems like i'm dead
dreams are all i have left

am i the only one to never make it out?
i wanna see the sun before i hit the ground

with every breath i take
don't know why i wake
grown numb to the taste
a disappointing fate
misery breeds apathy
i don't wanna bleed anymore
anymore

am i the only one to never make it out?
i wanna see the sun before i hit the ground

ngmi
i never tried
ngmi
lay down and cry

am i the only one?

ngmi

Wwwml (demo)

この辺はちょっと危ない
僕は家出をしました
お願い待ってください
疲れた

泣いてごめんなさい
毎晩僕は一人
雪が嫌い
気持ち悪い　

この辺は寒いね
夏だったらいいのにね
かじかんだ両手に
白い息

神様に祈る
弱いのは好きじゃない
もっと強くなる
助けないでください

ヘリオス太陽の神様よ
太陽が、太陽が、太陽が見たい
このままじゃ凍ってしまうよ
僕を暖めてください

this area is a little dangerous
i ran away from home
please wait a minute
i'm exhausted

i'm sorry I cried
i’m alone every night
i hate snow
i feel sick

it’s cold around here, isn't it?
i wish it was summer
i can see my breath
as I try to warm my numb hands

i pray to God
i don’t like being weak
i’ll be stronger
so please don’t help me out

helios, God of the sun
sun, sun, I want to see the sun
i’ll freeze if you let me be
please make me warm

Takeshi's Long Winter in Sapporo

Lyrics:

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do

When options are infinite
You're stuck in a limbo
Of stagnation and inaction
I won't forget

The times when I was
More than just another adult 

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do
Guess it's my fault 
I'm a broken adult
Still don't know what's good for me 

Stagnation 
Kills me deep inside
It's all on me 
It's all on me 

They told me I could be anything
So I became nothing
But this won't do, this will never do
This will never do
Guess it's my fault 
I'm a broken adult
Still don't know what's good for me

They Told Me I Could Be Anything So I Became Nothing

coming second place in a one v one
logging off, i'm fucking done
you're all better than me
and i can't believe it goes on and on
nothing ever seems to go my way
still forever i'm forced to play
fucking failure

i feel like a loser without any future
cut open my head and rip out the tumour
you make me wanna fucking end it sooner
let me respawn like a first person shooter

this everlasting dread
engraved into my head
you don't get it, you never will get it
i'm so fucking dead
fuck this
you don't get it, you never will get it
i'm so fucking dead

death by screen time
another wasted life
keep your head in a vice

i feel like a loser without any future
cut open my head and rip out the tumour
you make me wanna fucking end it sooner
let me respawn like a first person shooter

how it feels to be a complete loser

my back feels like a cutting board
too many problems i ignored
i prayed they'd fade away
if i gave it all, until the day
but with friends like these
it's kinda hard to breathe
mind the tape around the scene
sorry i left such a bloody mess

lie after lie after lie after lie
and i ate it up every single damn time
now i'm trapped down here
still wondering why, oh why
going out my fucking mind

i can't forgive a broken oath
as my blood still stains my clothes
and after all the years
did i really mean so little to you?
no goodbyes, no nothing
looking ahead you kept on running
you're being hunted by the memories
of you standing there watching me bleed

whether you like it or not
you're gonna end up just like me
you'll be sorry

lie after lie after lie after lie
and i ate it up every single damn time
now i'm trapped down here
still wondering why, oh why
going out my fucking mind

Mannequin

Minimal Sanity