She Hates Me

credit to https://twitter.com/sh1nd3 for the cover art

fucked up
my life
and theres no going back

burning
all my time
and i feel so trapped

everyone hates me
feel like im going crazy
i feel stupid i fucked up theres not much else that i can do

i just dont want to feel this way
its getting worse everyday
these feelings i just cant contain 
i think that i am going insane

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

fucked up
my chances
and now theres no one left for me 

i just want
to end it
then i can finally be free

my friends and family think there is no saving me
nowhere left for me to go be better off six feet below

i just want to redeem myself
but cant admit that i need help
from everything that ive been through
i just dont know what to do

i feel so dejected
im always rejected
i cant do anything
i just wanna scream
i feel so embarrassed
all my life so careless
gone downhill since 18
i just wanna scream

dejected

pen pals cover

feel no shame about shape
weather changes their phrase
even mother will show you another way

so put your grasses on
nothing will be wrong
theres no blame, theres no fame
its up to you the first words should be finded
whatever hold you back I can, I can get it off

tell me what, tell me what, tell me what you want
i dont know why, dont know why, dont know why you afraid
tell me what, tell me what, tell me what you say
i dont know why, dont know why, too late, its too late

have no fear for real, its just a turning wheel
once you start up, theres no other way
dont put your eyes on boots, step toward your roots
theres no aid, theres no trade it belongs to you

before you miss something given
you should know what's the truth
i can, I can make it out

tell me what, tell me what, tell me what you want
i dont know why, dont know why, dont know why you afraid
tell me what, tell me what, tell me what you say
i dont know why, dont know why, too late, its too late

before you miss something given
you should know what's the truth
i can, i can make it out

tell me what, tell me what, tell me what you want
i dont know why, dont know why, dont know why you afraid
tell me what, tell me what, tell me what you say
i dont know why, dont know why, too late, its too late

tell me what, tell me what, tell me what you want
i dont know why, dont know why, dont know why you afraid
tell me what, tell me what, tell me what you say
i dont know why, dont know why, too late, its too late

tell me why

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getting fucked up every day
brains in a state of decay
tried to change my ways but i said fuck that
been alive for way too long
i dont think anybody will care when im dead and gone

never getting better
ill be fucked forever
got no friends dont leave my home 
i guess that i am dying alone

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

crashed my car into a wall
no one really cares at all
life has got me by the balls i really fucked up
wake up every fucking day
dont know why its all the same 
i dont like living this way

i really fucked myself
now im stuck in hell
i fucking hate everyone
so i dont care about anything anymore

fucked my life cuz im a degenerate 
ill blow my brains out just for the hell of it
so stupid i just dont know why i am like this
why does life have to be so shit

FOR THE HELL OF IT (ft. DethTech)

I dont want to try
Fuck the world and fuck my life
I cant take this shit anymore
So sick of this life’s a chore

I wanna lay down and die
I know i cant go on
Dark thoughts poisoning my mind
Where did it all go wrong 

Now im all alone
And i did it all on my own
Nobody likes you when youre sad
So either die or learn to act

I wanna lay down and die
I know i cant go on
Dark thoughts poisoning my mind
Where did it all go wrong 

I dont want to try
Fuck the world and fuck my life
I cant take this shit anymore
So sick of this life’s a chore

I wanna lay down and die
I know i cant go on
Dark thoughts poisoning my mind
Where did it all go wrong

Lay Down And Die

i should have killed myself that day
the girl I like is afraid of me.
i should have killed myself that day
My past haunts me every day.

And now I'm alone again,
watching my life go by,
I close my eyes and feel the pain.
There is no hope, I'm a living dead.

(X2)

i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day
i should have killed myself that day

I SHOULD HAVE KILLED MYSELF THAT DAY

Theres a hole that i cant fill
And nothing will fix whats in my head
I wish i was dead 
When will it just end

ooooooo

Everythings fucked up and none of this matters
I smoked too much and my mind shattered
I should jump off a bridge and fucking splatter
Because its all fucked up and none of this matters

Everything now looks so fake
And i cant explain why im so freaked out
I let you down
Now i cant leave the couch

Oooooooo

Everythings fucked up and none of this matters
I smoked too much and my mind shattered
I should jump off a bridge and fucking splatter
Because its all fucked up and none of this matters

None Of This Matters

here on spotify https://open.spotify.com/track/7k7WhP0uact7W7TDO3iRW8 or YouTube https://youtu.be/vH_sEFJW_2g 
also merry christmas :)

Fried By Fluoride - Dead 4 Christmas

https://open.spotify.com/album/7jsLbJhaBDuL6nJIO47x4j#login%3Fflow_id=a6de5c8a-3b42-4e66-baf8-ed0e31fe3850%3A1680259362 where i got from

NEET and DethTech - Collapsing

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