It's about the frustration that comes with dealing with mental illness and wanting to be left alone. 

[Made back in 2020, one of the first songs I've ever created. This one is from the first album I have planned. [There is six in total so far.] Track #1 in "Amateur".)

[This seriously isnt all that great so please have patience 😭]

Lyrics:

"Why can't you understand? 
I'm tired, I'm tired 
Of feeling this way

Of feeling this way.

(chorus)

Don't hit me up, I'm 
not at the phone right now
I don't wanna know what,
you're doing right now

(verse)

Here we are, in the dark
I just want a new restart
So I wont feel this pain
Seems like a waste

(chorus)

Don't hit me up, I'm 
not at the phone right now
I don't wanna know, what
you're doing right now

(bridge)

Stop pretending, I know.

(ending)

Don't hit me up, I'm 
not at the phone right now
I dont wanna know, what
you're doing right...

NOW (I dont wanna I dont wanna know)"

D.H.M.U (Demo)

This is about wanting to confess to your ex that you're friends with but afraid it'll ruin the friendship. 

(Made back in 2020, one of the first few songs I've made. This is Track #3 in my 2nd Album "Comfort in the rain".)

Lyrics: 

"How should I even start?
Should I really risk my heart?
It's been leading up now 
I've tried to let it go now 
but see
my heart doesnt agree with me 

(chorus)

So how do I even 
with my dumb heart beating 
Say..
Ever since that day 
I've been feeling the same 

Promises were made
Now I feel ashamed
No I'm not okay 
But I didnt want to drive you away"

Do I Even (Demo)

This talks about wanting to spend time with the person you care about ♡

(Made in 2020, Track #4 in "Comfort in the rain")

Lyrics:

"Open my eyes, feelings inside
We could go, anywhere you want to.

Going outside, greeting you with "hi"
Where are we, headed off to?

(chorus)

Could we, could we g-go-go
Someplace, someplace special 
I don't know, as long as I'm with you

With you...

(verse)

Dancing in the rain, 
Is my ideal day
Can we stay, this way?

It's always worth the while,
just to see you smile
I think I'll, stick around

(chorus)

Could we, could we g-go-go
Someplace, someplace special 
I don't know, as long as I'm with you

With you..."




With You (Demo)

This talks about feeling mentally and physically isolated, even in a room full of people.

(Made 2021, Demo finished in 2022. This is Track #2 in my third album "Counting nobody but me")

Lyrics:

"Room full of nobody 
nobody and me
Feel like I'm taking too much space with my body
Someone look at me 
please
I don't wanna be alone eternally

Room full of nobody
Nobody and me

Someone hold my hand please
and say I'm imagining

Room full of nobody
Nobody and me
I'm barely breathing why
will no one want me?

Room full of nobody 
nobody
room full of no one
no one except me
nobody (x5)"

In a room full of nobody (Demo)

Wanting and yearning for something you can't seem to reach.

(Made 2022, Track #4 in "Counting nobody but me".)

Lyrics:
 
"Why not me?
Why not me?
Even with band aids
I'm still hurting

I'm wishing for what I yearn
I reach far and in return
I'm left in a void
It aches, it burns

Intertwining and holding of fingers 
That's what I want
Concious clear and far of purgatory
thats what I want
Vessel clean and bright once again
That's what I want

But all I want, is not

Why not me? oh
Why not me?
Im yearning
Im reaching oh
WHY NOT ME? OH
WHY NOT ME?
WHY NOT ME?
WHY NOT ME  ?"

Why not me? (Demo)

Confusion upon realizing someone wants to actually hangout with you.

(Made 2022, Track #7 in "Counting nobody but me".)

Lyrics:

"Sitting in my bed 'n wondering in my head where could we have gone.

But you're here now and I'm not sure how or why you tag along 

It's not easy to know,

why you wanna be alone,

with me?


Head is going rampant with thoughts that I am wrong

Do you feel the same or am I just insane? Will I ever know?"

Wanna Be (Demo)

Not being able to recognize who you are/someone you care about/being replaced.

(Made 2023, Track #3 in my 5th album "The awakening/rebrith".)

Lyrics: 

"Who are you? 
I don't recognize who you are

"What are you?
You're not my friend

You're just a shell of, 
who you once was

A carcass devoid of,
light and love

(Verse 1)

You're not around, much

Your mouth tilts weird 

In all of my dreams even you aren't who you used to be

I'm frightened by the thought you dont care anymore 

and in the end it's just going to be me 
(and me alone)

(Chorus)

Dont go anywhere, stay right here

My ears are focused and ready to hear

To you, to your voice and your cries

Hold your hand soothingly throughout the night

(Who are you?

I'm you.

Why are you here?

To be you.

I'm always you.

No-

You're not me-

I'm you

I'm here.

No- I'm not- no-
I'm not
I'm not you
Youre not me

You're not me

YOURE NOT ME-)


( You're staring at the reflection you've made.

This, is who you've created.

This version of yourself.

This version, will always be here

This version
will ALWAYS
be
here.

In your mind

in your soul

you cannot escape. 

I. AM. HERE.)


(Verse 2)

Your eyes are void

and your hands are stiff and cold

You're not you anymore

you're not you at all

it's starting to hurt please stop

let go 

let go...."

Not you/Erased (Demo)

Wanting to be someone's misty memory after only being seen once and never again.

(Made 2023, Track #4 in "The awakening/rebirth".)

Lyrics: 

"I'm walking in and god you're so gorgeous

I feel my hands shake, heart quivering as you're standing across the room

Skin soft, eyes ethereal, aura so mysterious

and I'm feeling as if you're my downfall, my own doom

(chorus) 

Like a moth drawn to a flame

You're so beautiful how could I ever complain

for being in your light that shines so hauntingly

and yet I don't even know youre name

and it bothers me

and it bothers me..

(verse)

Your presence is a gift from the earth itself

Moon's favorite child, rain is your smile

In the back of my mind, you'd be all mine

A misty memory, voice like a siren, daring to compel

(chorus)

Like a moth drawn to a flame

You're so beautiful how could I ever complain

for being in your light that shines so hauntingly

and yet I don't even know youre name

and it bothers me

and it bothers me.."


Like a Moth drawn to a Flame (Demo)

When someone close to you becomes distant, until eventually, you realize they don't care anymore.

(Made 2023, Track #5 in "The awakening/rebirth".)

Lyrics:

 "Sitting alone when you are gone
Wondering what the hell is takin so long
I'm typing and then delete
A cycle I do throughout the week

My baby is the best in the world
My baby comes home and doesn't say a word

A word

Tell me whats wrong 
I want to help
Tell me your problems 
You don't have to to do it all by yourself

My baby is the best in the world 
My baby comes home and doesnt say a word

A word

At home, in the dark alone
Wondering were you couldve gone
Its been weeks and you still havent showed
Have I done something wrong?
Guess I'll never know
guess I'll never know
I'll just be a ghost 
without a home

Sitting alone when you are gone
Wondering what the hell is takin so long
I'm typing and then delete
A cycle I do throughout the week

My baby is the best in the world
My baby comes home and doesn't say a word

A word

Sitting alone when you are gone,
wondering why the hell it took me so long
To finally see the truth
I'm of no more use to you

to you 

oh you"

My Baby Betrayed Me (Demo)

(Cover originally made back in October 2022/Finished November 2022) (Posted on yt channel)

Lyrics:
 Oh no, she likes another boy
And I'm feeling sad
And at the end of the day
I'll know there was something that we had

I see her kiss him with my eyes
And it makes me mad
But at the end of the day
I know she don't love him that bad

And if that's so
I'll wait around
'Cause it will take a little time to let you go

I watch her from across the room
She dances so nice
And if I see her again
I'm not so sure we'll just be friends

I want to get a little close
So let me in
And if you push me away
Baby, that's where I'll stay

And if that's so
I'll wait around
'Cause it will take a little time to let you go
And if that's so
I'll wait around
'Cause it will take a little time to let you go
And if that's so
I'll wait around
'Cause it will take a little time to let you go

She likes another boy (Oscar Lang - cover)

Vocals: Moth (mistakeninmyownreality)
Produced by: ilyswitch
Instrumental/Composition: ilyswitch

Go check out "ilyswitch" on yt!!! Their works are amazing :) https://youtube.com/@ilyswitch?si=Hp6G-y29DvHTW42B

Lyrics: 

"You're so soft yet so cold
Frigid heart freezing mine so
Hardly I'm surviving
I think it's time I let you go
 
(let you go)

I stuck around yet it only seemed to hurt me 
Promises of love and loyalty

There's no commitment or communication
Your lack of words feels like I've been beaten

I think it's time, 
let go

My dear, youre hurting me
I wanted to give you my love, my loyalty

Im wasting my hours online
Waiting for someone who doesn't give me the time."

Night Sky (prod. ilyswitch)

♡☆HAPPY THANKSGIVING☆♡

Originally posted on my yt: https://youtu.be/J4qTQkq_2Vw?si=i7P83ogF9RNzszAf


Lyrics:

"Walking, waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping and hating
With things I can't bare
Did you think it's cool
To walk right up to take my life and fuck it up
Well, did you, well, did you?
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise

Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside
Walking, waiting
Alone without a care

Hoping and hating
With things I can't bare
Did you think it's cool
To walk right up to take my life and fuck it up
Well, did you, well, did you?
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside
I've slept so long without you

It's tearing me apart
Till how to get this far playing games
With fist held cards
I've killed a million pity souls

But I can kill you
I've slept so long without you
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside
I see hell in your eyes

Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside."



Slept so long - Johnathan Davis  (cover)

Lyrics:

(verse 1)
"The lights are going and the music is blaring
I'm right by the speakers and it damages my hearing
But I hear you clearly, from across the bar you sing to me

(chorus) 
Skin so soft and lips so inviting
Blood red lipstick, and eyes that are glowing
I'm already in, your clutches sinking deep into my skin

Bite me, hold me, dig your teeth in
I wanna feel your claws tear into my skin
I'm not breathing if you're not there
You're my supply of intoxicating air

(verse 2)
You talk and you laugh, your hand is lightly shoving
Another persons arm, it's clear that your flirting
Is this to mess with me? You're trying to get me in jealousy

(chorus)
You said your mine and I am yours
An equal partnership, and so therefore
I'm already in, your clutches sinking deep into my skin
Bite me hold me, dig your teeth in
I wanna feel your claws tear into my skin
I'm not breathing if you're not there
You're my supply of Intoxicating air

(Bridge)

Pulling me in 
You're pulling me in
Inside of your arms I'm never leaving
You're the only one I see
But for me your never looking?
I wonder I wonder if you're my lover
Or will I be torn Asunder
You speak so sweetly
But your love causes internal bleeding

(chorus)
Skin so soft and lips so inviting 
Blood red lipstick, and eyes that are glowing
I'm already in, your clutches sinking deep into my skin

Bite me, hold me, dig your teeth in
I wanna feel your claws tear into my skin
I'm not breathing if you're not there
You're my supply of intoxicating air"

(end)

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Hi There! You can call me Moth :)

I make covers and original songs! (Also looking for an engineer to help my music sound better)

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Email: mossmoth111@gmail.com 


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