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Its not that hard.

Art shot and edited by me, and finalized by vai5000

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I claw and I tear me apart
But theres no sign of wear on my skin
I keep calling it some form of art
Yet I still don't know where to begin

Its not that hard
Its not that hard
Its not that hard
Its not that hard

The dealer, they call out my bluff
And prevent me from playing my hand
And although I don't think its enough
I'm too powerless to make a stand

I'll play my part
I'll play my part
I'll play my part (its not that hard)
I'll play my part (its not that hard)

Oh you're hurtin your hurtin your
Hurtin your hurtin your head 
I don't know how you do it just saying you're fine

And you're getting too comfortable
Lying around on your floor with no thoughts in your head
Only tears in your eyes

And I know that I've got no prescription
That will cure any of my deception
And I can't find some kind of prevention
For this turning into some fixation
So I try 
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try it again

Oh no you wouldn't get it
No you wouldn't get it
No you wouldn't get it

I admit its not really a problem (but it only serves nothing to you)
Even if you can't look at me right (cause you say what you know isn't true)
I can say that it doesn't affect me (but you think of it everyday)
When you call me the person I was 
But that's all that you see (oh but how did you make it this way)
But I look in the mirror and its not really me (so you try and you try it again)
Its counter-productive cause' I can't the words out (but the cycle it just doesn't end)
And just say what I mean 
Its so tiring

So whats all the point of this trying

And it all seems to burden my psyche
So I mask it all at my expense
Still my body deteriorates beside me
And it just doesn't seem to make sense
And the toller knows nothing about it
And it pains me to pay him the fee
The amount of my life that's been wasted and lost in the weeds
Its still just me
No its just me


And its getting too
Getting too
Getting too
Getting too close to the eminent feeling
That you're gonna die
(but you won't go yet)
(no you won't go yet)
(no you can't go yet)

And now that you are older and
Everything's smaller
Do you start to wonder "where did I go wrong in my life?"

So I lie
Cause I'm fine
No, I'm fine

And I'm so tired
And sick of trying
So why not
So why not


And it all seems to burden my psyche
So I mask it all at my expense
Still my body deteriorates beside me
And it just doesn't seem to make sense
And the toller knows nothing about it
And it pains me to pay him the fee
The amount of my life that's been wasted and lost in the weeds
Its still just me
Its still just me

Body

"Lakes"
19/01/23 - 02/03/24

Lakes is probably one of my favourite songs I've ever made. It's about doubt? or grief? in a way, I'm not entirely sure how to interpret it.
There is definitely tinges of illness in there, and reflections on myself? if that makes sense?
The lake is a pretty simple metaphor for mental illness or just, mentality in general, interpret the quiet however you want, but for me it's that sense of dread or grief when you realise you don't feel anything at all, or that you simply don't care
again, this is what I think it's about; to be honest with you, I don't really know what my songs mean anymore, the lyrics just sort of came to me and I wrote them down, and I sang them, I work out what it means later on, but with all my recent work it just seems very difficult to pinpoint what it's trying to be or represent, and whether that's for better or for worse I'm not sure.

I feel like this is one of those songs that'll outlive itself, when im long dead and the internet is a giant wasteland of dead media, maybe someone will find this and appreciate it, maybe even tell their friends about it, and just enjoy this small piece of me from my little corner of the world, and even if that never happens, that's ok too.

oh well, as always the mix and master is rough, but I think it serves this track well

See you soon!
- Faith


Lyrics:

The lake's gone quiet, my friend
(and) I'm not going where the wind goes
(you look me, anyway)

Look me in the eyes, tell me "this is living"
cast myself out, to the main beams

the lake's still quiet
the lake's still quiet, my friend

Lakes

[NOTE] Due to SoundCloud copyright issues the audio file has been pitched up 50 cents

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Produced, written and performed by Evangeline
lyrics: https://genius.com/Evangeline-au-end-of-life-lyrics

End-of-life

Soulmate is a track me and clayekea made last summer. It was originally going to be a part of Holy Spirit. Like Flowerfields, it's a song based around a webtoon clayekea introduced me to:

from clayekea: “soulmate” is a song based on a Chinese Webtoon with the same name about a girl getting a second chance at her youth, and her attempt to save the girl she loves before it’s too late. At the same time, however, her past self switches places with her current self, forcing her past self  to adjust to a brand new life, new responsibilities, and living with a girl she doesn’t know. The lyrics reflect the story, covering both the perspectives of the girls’ past and present selves, with both verses opening by showing their initial thoughts about their different surroundings.

produced by: makina & clayekea //
soundcloud.com/ex-makina
twitter.com/makmakmakina
open.spotify.com/artist/7sLsLUhs9QgM6lkOjGtk2G?si=SRPdZTmQRwGT2lnNgHdsyg

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soundcloud.com/clayekea
twitter.com/clayekea
open.spotify.com/artist/0ueOBT8FR3uXKLfNKhZRr2?si=beZ5SrguR9WiQZnA9HdoPw

lyrics by: clayekea //
she so goated

Who are you?
And where's my body?
I look at a familiar room inside this house
Look at you
With a brand new psyche
Maybe I can finally work this out
Can't let this opportunity just slip away
Can I save you from the future or is too late
I remember all the things that happened on the way
But somehow, it feels different
I think I’ve woke up as someone I've never known
With a person that feels distant but yet so close
I've traveled several years and I'm left on my own
My family's not together and I can't go home
All these years felt like days
But still have the same exact face
There's a truth, I can't say
But somehow I feel the same
Now I'm back here
And I feel so selfish
I wanna change the you I know
Save our fears
And grant your last wish
For once I'm finally filled with hope
Feels like I'm drowning deep under the ocean floor
I thought I loved you then but now I love you more
I remember all the memories we had before
But somehow it feels different
Can't let this opportunity just slip away
Can I save you from the future or is too late
I remember all the things that happened on the way
But somehow, it feels different

art by: formyths //
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