U put ur shiftussy into this its so beautiful

overthinking and doubt and negativity converted into beauty

yeah we just talk like that

stems: https://www.dropbox.com/scl/fo/tjahr282r5pazzk85qjpz/h?rlkey=ua7lyotfo064jk0ua19hrpmbt&dl=0

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lyrics
I couldn't sleep last night
I plan on leaving my house
I gotta get on my flight flight flight

I'm packing my bags, packing my bags, packing my bags
I'm packing my bags, packing my bags, packing my bags

I want you here with me
Together we can flee
We're following our Dreams, Dreams, Dreams

I'm packing my bags, packing my bags, packing my bags
I'm packing my bags, packing my bags, packing my bags

Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that

Yeah we just talk like that
Yeah we just talk like that

What you gonna do to me?
I'll be at home around 2 or 3
She doesn't even smile no more
She's crying on the bedroom floor

What you gonna do to me?
I'll be at home around 2 or 3
She doesn't even smile no more
She's crying on the bedroom floor

What you gonna do to me?
I'll be at home around 2 or 3
She doesn't even smile no more
She's crying on the bedroom floor

What you gonna do to me?
I'll be at home around 2 or 3
She doesn't even smile no more

FEEL

Its not that hard.

Art shot and edited by me, and finalized by vai5000

lyrics

I claw and I tear me apart
But theres no sign of wear on my skin
I keep calling it some form of art
Yet I still don't know where to begin

Its not that hard
Its not that hard
Its not that hard
Its not that hard

The dealer, they call out my bluff
And prevent me from playing my hand
And although I don't think its enough
I'm too powerless to make a stand

I'll play my part
I'll play my part
I'll play my part (its not that hard)
I'll play my part (its not that hard)

Oh you're hurtin your hurtin your
Hurtin your hurtin your head 
I don't know how you do it just saying you're fine

And you're getting too comfortable
Lying around on your floor with no thoughts in your head
Only tears in your eyes

And I know that I've got no prescription
That will cure any of my deception
And I can't find some kind of prevention
For this turning into some fixation
So I try 
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try
And I try it again

Oh no you wouldn't get it
No you wouldn't get it
No you wouldn't get it

I admit its not really a problem (but it only serves nothing to you)
Even if you can't look at me right (cause you say what you know isn't true)
I can say that it doesn't affect me (but you think of it everyday)
When you call me the person I was 
But that's all that you see (oh but how did you make it this way)
But I look in the mirror and its not really me (so you try and you try it again)
Its counter-productive cause' I can't the words out (but the cycle it just doesn't end)
And just say what I mean 
Its so tiring

So whats all the point of this trying

And it all seems to burden my psyche
So I mask it all at my expense
Still my body deteriorates beside me
And it just doesn't seem to make sense
And the toller knows nothing about it
And it pains me to pay him the fee
The amount of my life that's been wasted and lost in the weeds
Its still just me
No its just me


And its getting too
Getting too
Getting too
Getting too close to the eminent feeling
That you're gonna die
(but you won't go yet)
(no you won't go yet)
(no you can't go yet)

And now that you are older and
Everything's smaller
Do you start to wonder "where did I go wrong in my life?"

So I lie
Cause I'm fine
No, I'm fine

And I'm so tired
And sick of trying
So why not
So why not


And it all seems to burden my psyche
So I mask it all at my expense
Still my body deteriorates beside me
And it just doesn't seem to make sense
And the toller knows nothing about it
And it pains me to pay him the fee
The amount of my life that's been wasted and lost in the weeds
Its still just me
Its still just me

Body

lyrics:

i run to you as you open the door
my eyes level and my mouth open wide
i bite your skin like an apple
you let out a cry and you tattle

little sister big brother 
i thought you a saint and you thought me a monster
locked you outside while i stole your quarters 
you gave me kindness though i gave you horrors

apple juice

extremely low effort

original song by novo amor https://soundcloud.com/iamnovoamor/state-lines

heavily inspired by @elidrinksgrapemilk

state lines

my heart's in the digital
and it keeps on beating for you
what should i do
with this electricity?
i don't have a clue, i don't, i don't have a clue
i wanna be with you, wanna be with you

my heart's in the digital, it beats for, beats for you

put my face against your screen for real
for real this time
that's all i ask
put my face against your screen for real
for real this time
just be mine, that's all i ask

my heart's in the digital, it beats for, beats for you

my heart's in the digital
and it keeps on beating for you
what should i do
with this electricity?
i don't have a clue, i don't, i don't have a clue
i wanna be with you, wanna be with you

what should i do

"Lakes"
19/01/23 - 02/03/24

Lakes is probably one of my favourite songs I've ever made. It's about doubt? or grief? in a way, I'm not entirely sure how to interpret it.
There is definitely tinges of illness in there, and reflections on myself? if that makes sense?
The lake is a pretty simple metaphor for mental illness or just, mentality in general, interpret the quiet however you want, but for me it's that sense of dread or grief when you realise you don't feel anything at all, or that you simply don't care
again, this is what I think it's about; to be honest with you, I don't really know what my songs mean anymore, the lyrics just sort of came to me and I wrote them down, and I sang them, I work out what it means later on, but with all my recent work it just seems very difficult to pinpoint what it's trying to be or represent, and whether that's for better or for worse I'm not sure.

I feel like this is one of those songs that'll outlive itself, when im long dead and the internet is a giant wasteland of dead media, maybe someone will find this and appreciate it, maybe even tell their friends about it, and just enjoy this small piece of me from my little corner of the world, and even if that never happens, that's ok too.

oh well, as always the mix and master is rough, but I think it serves this track well

See you soon!
- Faith


Lyrics:

The lake's gone quiet, my friend
(and) I'm not going where the wind goes
(you look me, anyway)

Look me in the eyes, tell me "this is living"
cast myself out, to the main beams

the lake's still quiet
the lake's still quiet, my friend

Lakes

made in 8 hours after thinking hard to myself for a while.
this project is in 7/4 (mb gang)

-lyrics-
**n33t and hidden contact talking**
**me recording myself in my room**

went far to see the sun rise
i saw her climb into the sky
if things go wrong its alright
i know it gets better with time

do you know what its like
to be cast aside (i know)
wanted to say so much more
im out to give the warmth

what can i do if its me
if things go wrong its alright
i know it gets better with time

what if its me

https://ffm.to/basalt 

cover art by noah greene https://temberl.in/

everything is different now
_________________________________

blood it crusts the mantle, sequence in stairs

tephra crests the marrow, applique if she cared

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me i won't open wide
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

and i told you that day, and the rust fell that may,
and the ash coned and the steel groaned saw your visage through the smoke one last time
now it's unrequited, wasn't your onus, thank god you were honest
I'll hull to the harbor i won't surrender what i had promised, won't embed it against you
but nothing can change the fact that i trust you
and nothing can change the fact that i love you

stare at the asphalt, refuse to bloom

won't cherish the basalt, a pyrrhic sige there 
backstitch the petiole, oblique she's the heir 

wading through traft bullaces solely reverie

can't rathe to rue it's ellipsis, who are we?

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me magma hit my eyes
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

faltered all at once the walls i'd woven pylons corrallings,

the fumaroles atoned it billowed oxidized recoiled on hem, i'm still terrified

but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me whither watch it writhe
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me whither watch it writhe
but you don't know me, you don't know me, you don't know me and i'm terrified

vain to scrape the tungsten, abjured alloy, but I'm just like them, no I'm just like them




contains vocal samples by https://www.youtube.com/@SouliaSora

basalt

[NOTE] Due to SoundCloud copyright issues the audio file has been pitched up 50 cents

https://evangeline.info

Produced, written and performed by Evangeline
lyrics: https://genius.com/Evangeline-au-end-of-life-lyrics

End-of-life

with @9nasu
i used the fly in the wind
i used to sing with all of my friends
but suddenly i descend

you don't wanna see this
when i don't feel like breathing
and when i close my eyes
i can barely catch sleep
i can barely feel

i won't waste your time
i won't be online
i’m trying to make it right
i'll still be home

i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't just run away

i used the fly in the wind
i used to sing with all of my friends

i'll make it alright
find me home, i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go

when i don't feel like breathing
and when i close my eyes
i can barely catch sleep
i can barely feel

i won't waste your time
i won't be online
i’m trying to make it right
i'll still be on

i'll still be alright
i know it will be just fine
know i can't go, no i can't forget you
i know it will be just fine
no i can't go

mourning dove with nasu

inspiration: sv1, elliot cleverdon, olswel, hidden contact, 9nasu

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an 18 y/o finding their way through the world of music.

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