this song is insane friend, you ascended in the 2nd verse

This is great I would love to work with you on a song

oh it's sickening how often I'll have this on repeat

i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

im jus speaking with my chest
i wanna runaway from this music
and one day go start fresh
cuz i think im starting 2 lose it
and my mind starts to forget
and idk if this music 
will make it any better

everyday im feeling less
got zero time and so much stress
i wonder when this all gon end
i hope that its soon idk tho
idk tho
hopefully my life gon change
where the lights go?

and im feeling so cold
and idk where 2 go
slowly losing home
so i got no hope

all them years have passed 
counting cash
im on the high road
i wish love would last
falling flat
girl im so done
ill have a heart attack
karmas back, give it to me
and ive been waiting for the day
but the days seem the same 2 me

i close my eyes
im too high i cant sleep
i was alive
but dead when u found me
u became friends with the enemy
i dont like the way that u do things
you wont change 
what the point in all of this?
talking to a wall
you dont give love its opposite
i dont like the way that u do things
i dont like the way that u do things

enemy [under the maple tree]

u got the coldest heart? thats what u think, u not seen mine

haunted house [ushanka boy]

Lyrics -

If ima fuck it up then shit, let’s do it over supernova stuffed inside this blunt
If there’s a salad in this bitch, no point to do it over lunch
But I can tell you missed the point and damn this roach is almost done 
let’s keep ‘em in rotation so we don’t run out of fun 
As I stand before the barrel of your gun 
All sensations lost my body weakens, I go numb 
It’s like I’ve seen something i know I  shouldn’t have now I’m stuck 
I was comfortable love, haven’t you ruined enough 

I get this sense of neglect right when you enter my mind 
Isn’t it obvious we’ve wasted our time 

Look how i fucked it up again 
Now the memories are ashes in the tray beside my bed 
Shit I took it to the head 
And leaves my conscience feeling fresh 
But that’s never what I get 
Now I don’t know

The Ruiner

took me a bit to make this, but it was a ton of fun to experiment with some new sounds. s/o hero for teaching me about formant shifting /o/ 
I'm gonna try and release 2 songs next month, no guarantee though c:

lyrics:

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side 
I’d die for you
  
So I tear myself apart everyday that’s fine
I know that every piece ends up entwined
with my hands tracing slowly up up spine
sewing threads so tight they won’t unwind
I

wanna know
have you ever tried to be
anything more than what you’re trying to be
need to know 
if you’ve ever tried to see
everything that I can see

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that
that

Iiiii
will love you like I know to
castle in the sky 
baby I think we should float too
I’m barely alive
but for you I wanna pull through
if you were my ride or die
there’d be so much I could show you

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright  
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side
I’d die for you

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that before?

break your fall (empty roads)

lyrics ⬇️

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me
i hate the ridicule i feel like this is hide and seek
switch perspectives for a second maybe you would see
its not really all that perfect in this deep blue sea
i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 
nevermind the thoughts i had of what it coudlnt be
cuz i dont think too much or at all when i fall asleep
and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep
ur the only thing in my thoughts I miss all the dreams
it was nice that I escaped my sick reality
but now i gotta go right back to find my inner peace 

i talk a lot about you i dont think you think of me

i checked my vitals and my heart is beating beautifully 

and im so sorry when you call i know you gon hear the beep
and its my fault that i did everything i did to you

but if you didnt jump conclusions i think wed be cool
split my body armor when you uncovered the truth
i drank that that poison every night
didn’t have nun to lose
not much else to do
like now that i can’t fall asleep

now that I can’t fall asleep (secre)

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

lyrics ⬇️

out my face wit all that negative talk cuz i dont want it
u would fold if you had felt like this for even just a minute
oh i promise you that
i wish that you would just admit it
i know that its been bad but i blame you cuz ur acidic
ion even understand why u always steady trippin on me i feel the shame
cuz somehow you got rid of me
and its alright
Cuz ima see the better me in the next life

your talkin bout my timeline i think ima cry
i dont wanna fear all things i love in life
it dont just appear when ur sleeping over night
nah nah gotta work for it a lot
and i wish that i could tell u that im finna stop soon but im not
cuz i dont think that you understand all i have to lose
its a lot

run it up cuz i fear im at the ending of my life
i dont know whats coming next but i know i cant rewind
i cant show that im upset if i do then u gon cry
i know that i been real blessed but i still been feelin blind

buncha random shi-
(LEMME GO)

try to make em proud but everything i do i dont
u never know what im finna do alone
every single thing i know u do not condone
i would try to fix it but its really jus too broke
every single bone every single choke
every single throw of a punch that i dont
maybe itll mean one day that ill get exposed
maybe if i did then i would grow

mama i been feelin low
can u can u please let me leave home
yea i dont wanna be here
let me just show you one more tear
maybe i just wanna be alone
maybe i dont wanna hear ur tone
maybe i dont wanna call u back 
cuz even if i did i know that you wont atone
i dont wanna check my phone

every single bone (josiah3)

Lyrics-

I said I’m fine 
Like fuck ok 
What do you want from me 
I locked myself in here and I don’t want no company 
The silent sense of solitude was kinda comforting 
The end is just outside 
This time I feel that it has come for me 

 I just  can’t escape 
All of the calamity thrown in my face 
Shit I got enough on my plate 
But i eat it up and dont leave non to waste 
And honestly id rather rot in this hell
Than ever step foot inch’s out of my shell
Im comfortable here as if you couldn’t tell 
Now I’m getting tired of repeating myself 

I said I’m fine 
Like fuck ok 
What do you want from me 
I locked myself in here and I don’t want no company 
The silent sense of solitude was kinda comforting 
The end is just outside 
This time I feel that it has come for me

calamity p. wraithontheporch

Lyrics⬇️

its not a coincidence that i ruin everything in life
maybe if i just applied myself then they would think I tried 

i cant get myself to try if i dont think i have anything i should live for
why dont i just do more
cuz i spent way too many cold nights on the floorboards
i wish i could restore
i wish i could feel more

but i been stuck like this for longer than you know 
i dont feel like anybody even thinks that i could grow
cuz its been like this forever i dont see a place to go
i dont think that its been better but i swear that i can hope
i wish that you saw my life through my eyes and then you’d know 
that every single night since you been gone i felt broke
& i dont even tell you why i love myself, i dont
cuz i dont even tell you that i trust myself, i dont

i check my phone
its jus like a 100 messages to come home
i dont wanna do that anytime id rather be alone
 i been chillin on my own
im still happy what i chose

back then i swear i would do the most
and nowdays im not even close but you still think ill overdose

and it dont matter what i say if you dont think ill ever know
just how you really feel every time i touch the stove

all my cells have been straight burned from all the stuff inside my body
clearly i been stuck on every oerson who ever turned on me

please dont stab my back
i would rather do anything just to hear ur laugh
again 
i would do everything i never did up inside my head
i was stuck up in my bed everytime you time you said im next up
i dont wanna hear u tell me that im just the best of 3
bet those 2 other people had everything over me

best of 3 (mackk)

Shout out brecken and casperrr for working on this with me

heyyou w/ brecken & casperrr

you fell and stained the ground beneath us 


prod/master: https://soundcloud.com/vito2300

feeling my body going numb
waiting but morning never come
i hope that god will forgive me 
oh the things that i've done
hurt somebody i needed
and somebody i loved
blood loss
my vision is starred,
hold on
i'm slowly reaching my fingers over top 
don't think there's ever been something 
that i feel like i want 

it's just the way that it goes
i know you feel like i don't 
like i don't love you at all 
i know it kills you the most
i never wanted to go 
i never wanted to stop 

i called your name a thousand times
and in my dreams i saw you die 
i saw the light fade out your eyes
and i woke alone,
and cried in case you
could hear me there
could hear me 
i screamed your name 
believe me 

(baby i wanted to stop 
got me praying to god 
love i'd do anything, i've
i've got my hand round the cross) 

i can feel the warmth 
drain out of your skin 
my shirt stole red from the cracks of your lips
i held you close and you felt so thin
i held you close like the way that you did 

i held you close
i held you close

you fell and stained the ground beneath us





i held you close

kinda sorta making music

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break your fall (empty roads)

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