oh it's sickening how often I'll have this on repeat

One of those songs that’ll still hold up years later 🖤

produced by @prod-dash 🖤
mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEgzoEH60Cg

harmonies construct of her in vain,
when i had felt the same, i wonder what you let slip loose
idolized in holistic refrain from scaring you away,
but it was you who had left so soon
redundancy falls on the floors of insult,
diffusion of awe is now subtle appall
when the fracturing stops, he returns to his lot
and continues to watch the forgotten responses

how long has it really been?
on everything i could've been your confidence;
wounded deep, but regardless you were gorgeous
external forces couldn't conquer this fortress,
girl i was all in,
now i'm more of like a martian,
a foreign entity ignored and made of sport in pure extortion
the score depends on those who force it,
but on my life i'll never pry into this systematic fortune

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

he's licking tears and steeling bones
from baring sights of burning homes
and of the counterparts still present, most have nearly decomposed
the oxygen persists, but the fluids marching in
wreak havoc on the aspens, now his blood is wearing thin
the centuries forgot receive his aching and distraught,
converting portions of distortion into frequencies bewrought
the ice goes in by division of his temperance
sickly to this weather, but she ain't even my medicine

it's two-forty-two as the film rolls into view
i beg your pardon, i'm enshrouded by the memories construed
just anyone won't do,
the comfort causes calluses he's unable to move
they stare at him in twos

the burial becomes attraction, and of the visitors, it's nothing but distraction
come one and all, before root is sawed, the chainsaw, it stops,
he of wooden rot, with that pandora's box, reverse the plot
the acid sat within his stomach summits to his top
begone of influence it's over 'fore it had begun
i'll never feel that same alikeness, they just read me wrong,
just to do me wrong

bare trees conceive cold leaves,
you showed me what we couldn't be
washing over me, frostridden stings
that sole breeze had spoke "don't leave"

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

the paneling glows a familiar sequence,
but it's passage won't open to those who would seek it
through timing and tamper he had managed to enter
unaware of it's contents, he treads a bit deeper
in awe of the contrast from seeker to aether
he's welcomed to stay, but he's covered in shivers
for those it abducts are reduced down to neither
so backwards he goes, where his soul doesn't meet her's

come the night i'm allotted what's divine
i got bugs up in my head,
they always scratching, leaving bites
ain't no energy to waste on those unkind
only time you talkin shit is when you're doing it online

november (dash)

took me a bit to make this, but it was a ton of fun to experiment with some new sounds. s/o hero for teaching me about formant shifting /o/ 
I'm gonna try and release 2 songs next month, no guarantee though c:

lyrics:

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side 
I’d die for you
  
So I tear myself apart everyday that’s fine
I know that every piece ends up entwined
with my hands tracing slowly up up spine
sewing threads so tight they won’t unwind
I

wanna know
have you ever tried to be
anything more than what you’re trying to be
need to know 
if you’ve ever tried to see
everything that I can see

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that
that

Iiiii
will love you like I know to
castle in the sky 
baby I think we should float too
I’m barely alive
but for you I wanna pull through
if you were my ride or die
there’d be so much I could show you

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright  
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side
I’d die for you

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that before?

break your fall (empty roads)

Shout out brecken and casperrr for working on this with me

heyyou w/ brecken & casperrr

lyrics<3

girl you tore up that apartment
when we started growing cold

someones daughter, needs a father
but he left her all alone

left the bar when i was carded
wasent 21 years old

took my heart, now its discarded
whyd you use it as your own?

last ditch, i rest my eyes in a parked car
so sick i left my wine on ur bar cart
time ticks and love will leave u with a dark scar
words slip and i think you just took it too far

where do we go?
im stuck on the outside
been losing control
been losing my damn mind
but you’ll never kmow
our loves on a faultline
turn me to stone
when im gazing at ur green eyes

baby i think thats toxic
maybe you think im all wrong
one word and im changing the topic
suprised myself that im moving on

yet u coiodnt care less
7 days same clothes got a loose neck
i was down on my own like a reject
pardon my problems i feel like a nuisance

last month i saw your mom in that walmart
on lunch i shed some tears on my carhartt
as kids we measured heights and left a door mark
we grew quick it’s such a shane we didn’t go far

fault line [jacob vallen]

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

take me out this season
this sunlight never seep thru
my window, and rarely see it
same here, i'm barely bleeding
baby i really wanna leave to jus stay alone
cause if we take it slow i know my brain might make u home

sitting back in my room 
all I do is wrong
big bowl high asf
imma get me gone
I forget all the things
all the time that we lost
is it bad i dont care
I don't want this at all

ive been on the bench
I cannot play
I sit this out
my lifes been such a mess
I try my hardest to figure it out

part ways time to time
like we're old clothes
started off a secret
like nobody knew
frown on my face
when was this world so cold?

it was always cold
situation I froze
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I feel like a burden I cant help this tho

she said that i need help like what abt it luv
better let her leave than watch it fuck me up
bruises under belt, you can see the swell
cause when i dwell in mirror never see myself

what_abt_it w/ yungcray (flyfx)

thank you for listening
thank you for being here

prodby @chillsebs

though at war, he's been indoors, the body sore, and torn, and dormant
if i don't wanna talk about it, least i'm being honest
thorns of those adored remain accomplice to the hardship
he's always fallen short of pulling swords from out the garden
the polishing of floors becomes reflective that he's tarnished
back it up before the words contort from what i wanted
evenings on a porch he's never bore of taking part in
endorsement of that orange supports the forging of despondence

time clots when you have the stopwatch break
i won't be disappointed if you show up late
the kettles had been settled in support of the weight
his temple thus embezzled of it's coriander brain

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

split at the waist, forced to guard, stood in place
and every morning that breaks subjects his soul to ablaze
he'd prefer being burnt to a pile of sage,
where the ache in the air is relieved of it's grave

missing targets that he really shouldn't
uncompressed when melodies are fluid
stake it like it's weak against the turmeric
beings want his blood for their consuming
puppet felt the tug and pull of nothing
ponders why and how he's always running
shit had changed with loss and gain of loving
mercy at the gravity of what is

i really think i'mma erode, the moment i've struck any gold, aye
just let me go, just let me go, you do not know me
hope is a torturous road, but gonna see where it goes, babe
she left me alone, now nobody knows
absent of warning

girl i was your home, guess you rent me
broken out of stone that is my bones, smithing weapons
monochrome that dome, devoid of glow yet ascending
closing of the mold would only hone in the essence

pendragon (chill sebs x poppy ozu)

honestly never really processed you were gone, but day by day i get closer to accepting it.

Lyrics:

S/M, & NTR, this shit was far from proper love
you know i did some self reflecting and what i felt 
it wasn't lust
oh i been missing you and lately i can't even fill my cup
only upping
higher dosages i hope they fuck me up
don't even look at other women even now at 14 months
you've seeded so deep in my head i feel like i can't even drop
i've written many songs in past tense and i'll prolly write some more
maybe spend my whole life coping bout the girl i wanted more

i guess the chapter closed a while ago it's time to end it off
but i've got fear of letting go and i can't take another loss
i know you'll probably listen in
i know you'll probably hear this song
i'm taking something over nothing cuz your memory is all i got
a couple friends i made since knowing you could vouch
that i wasn't doing well for a while by myself
and even through it all i honest really wish you well
and if you haven't hope you get shit figured out <3

rumination (prod. whyke)

P. nomansland 

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Lyrics~

(Swamp) 

My lifes in a spiral 
And I just can’t seem to catch a break
When I tried this shit the passive way 
they hit me at a faster pace 
It was a massacre up there on that caligo hill
Sends A shiver down your serabelem, signal the chills 

Ok yeah I’m back up on attack, there’s just no foldin us 
Grab that ammo load it up 
It’s gettin kinda quiet on this California western front 
Give it all you can until you can’t and hope the war is almost done 
Shell shocked, you’ve had enough 

There you go, you’re telling yourself that never again 
Will you put you’re life on the edge for something that somebody said 
The battle goes on in your head 
And shurly you’ll face a certain death 
But I guess you love that shit because you never left 

(Enyu)

Loaded chambers caught in a deadlock
choke on me like a tight knot
rewinding all of my future plans
hailing down on me till my heart stop
yeah, but i’m still in it
guess i’m twisted
drawn to where i fucking bled
need some god to grant my wishes
rather than be fucking dead

i scrape my wounds when its dark
a shiver down my extremities
and while the whole world fell apart
i stand upfront with serenity
and when I turn around
the time has come for confession
to learn a beautiful lesson
i’m heading outbound
to fend off my imperfections

(Swamp)

Hopefully when the dust settles I’ll be alright 
All intact and alive 
The only loss being time 
Trying to figure out another way to save myself 
From the war in my head, it’s been a living hell

break your fall (empty roads)

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