(prod. Chill Sebs)

now you see I have a problem
but my mind tells me lies its so hard now, hate me
used to bake in the night, don't forget me
its so sad, but i cry and it breaks me

why is everything so blacked out
I cant even feel my heart, when you're gone now
soul partner, in the night, how did I allow
you to leave me all alone in my sorrows
I'm blinded baby

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

I'm drowning in our memories
echoes of your touch
sleeping here at night
while you're out having fun
connected like the stars and moon in the night
you're the only one who I love, that's right

baby you're my soul partner, everything
I see when I dream
phone calls, and videos, sent from you to me
every little text I get from you makes me think 
of the little things, you do and how much they mean to me

cant you see
that I love you
now its hard
to get by
without trusting you
(baby)
babe you're so special
now its hard to deny
I don't need you, with me

aches in my bones
cold in the night
heart all alone
you're not by my side

you're precious
sweet as diamonds and candy
I cant imagine you leaving

soul partner

and we all know happened
 I think It all burnt down in auburn 
And I won’t warrant that reaction 
but you can tell me all about it while we go

check out consignment and every store 
It’s not replacements but holding places 
we cherish more than we know in the core
choose the new ones it’s hard to face it 

adjust the ocular focus what’s ahead and I credit 
those before me chose adore me 
open the levy let’s start this out  
we gotta start letting this go to start living out our lives oh 
better said than done put the effort in we’ll get it right this time 

And if we don’t then I won’t hold it against you 
No I won’t 
I won’t 
I said 
Just Sever everything 
I thought I could 
I doubted through it all 
I called I talked 
It didn’t solve a thing 
I crawl along it’s staying underneath 
and we grew this outward 
distance claimed by forces 
outlawed from the trinsic
Plains and we can just get out of there
Out of reach again this time 

adjust the ocular focus what’s ahead and I credit 
those before me chose adore me 
open the levy let’s start this out  
we gotta start letting this go to start living out our lives oh 
better said than done put the effort in we’ll get it right this time

we all know what happened (King Theta)

Wake Up w/ Brecken

prod yunnygoldz

lyrics ⬇️ 
lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat
just look at my characteristics 
i swear i got nothin to show
a lot less than most
not what you expected not even close
when i look in your eyes mine dont wanna close
if i love you then everyone knows
that i wont make it there without a new dose

yea i swear you look beautiful in every single pose
not an angle to imagine that i think uou could blow
but everything explodes when your over 
and nothing ignites as we planned
i can tell how tonights gonna be in advance 

ive lived half my life like this oh man
oh god why cant i forget what im missin most
itchy throat that i cant pass by so im sinkin another boat

whys it so hard just to look ahead in my life for a minute 
everyones upset i dont know why theyre livid
can you tell me when it’s finished 
oh they think im trippin out on the barstreet
but really im just chillin with grayson
so when you tell me that you love me
it only seems like its partly

hardly ever wanna step foot inside house now days
and i dont wanna look up
yea
cuz i would rather hide my face
and its hard not to tear up
when i think about everything i fail in my life in your eyes
but its okay
and i cant even flinch when they hit me with those words in my face cuz i know that theyre coming
doesnt matter what i think cuz im a still a disgrace according to their wording
but im hurting, tell em everyday and only thing they say is sure thing

tell me when it’s finished

produced by @prod-dash 🖤
mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEgzoEH60Cg

harmonies construct of her in vain,
when i had felt the same, i wonder what you let slip loose
idolized in holistic refrain from scaring you away,
but it was you who had left so soon
redundancy falls on the floors of insult,
diffusion of awe is now subtle appall
when the fracturing stops, he returns to his lot
and continues to watch the forgotten responses

how long has it really been?
on everything i could've been your confidence;
wounded deep, but regardless you were gorgeous
external forces couldn't conquer this fortress,
girl i was all in,
now i'm more of like a martian,
a foreign entity ignored and made of sport in pure extortion
the score depends on those who force it,
but on my life i'll never pry into this systematic fortune

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

he's licking tears and steeling bones
from baring sights of burning homes
and of the counterparts still present, most have nearly decomposed
the oxygen persists, but the fluids marching in
wreak havoc on the aspens, now his blood is wearing thin
the centuries forgot receive his aching and distraught,
converting portions of distortion into frequencies bewrought
the ice goes in by division of his temperance
sickly to this weather, but she ain't even my medicine

it's two-forty-two as the film rolls into view
i beg your pardon, i'm enshrouded by the memories construed
just anyone won't do,
the comfort causes calluses he's unable to move
they stare at him in twos

the burial becomes attraction, and of the visitors, it's nothing but distraction
come one and all, before root is sawed, the chainsaw, it stops,
he of wooden rot, with that pandora's box, reverse the plot
the acid sat within his stomach summits to his top
begone of influence it's over 'fore it had begun
i'll never feel that same alikeness, they just read me wrong,
just to do me wrong

bare trees conceive cold leaves,
you showed me what we couldn't be
washing over me, frostridden stings
that sole breeze had spoke "don't leave"

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

the paneling glows a familiar sequence,
but it's passage won't open to those who would seek it
through timing and tamper he had managed to enter
unaware of it's contents, he treads a bit deeper
in awe of the contrast from seeker to aether
he's welcomed to stay, but he's covered in shivers
for those it abducts are reduced down to neither
so backwards he goes, where his soul doesn't meet her's

come the night i'm allotted what's divine
i got bugs up in my head,
they always scratching, leaving bites
ain't no energy to waste on those unkind
only time you talkin shit is when you're doing it online

november (dash)

took me a bit to make this, but it was a ton of fun to experiment with some new sounds. s/o hero for teaching me about formant shifting /o/ 
I'm gonna try and release 2 songs next month, no guarantee though c:

lyrics:

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side 
I’d die for you
  
So I tear myself apart everyday that’s fine
I know that every piece ends up entwined
with my hands tracing slowly up up spine
sewing threads so tight they won’t unwind
I

wanna know
have you ever tried to be
anything more than what you’re trying to be
need to know 
if you’ve ever tried to see
everything that I can see

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that
that

Iiiii
will love you like I know to
castle in the sky 
baby I think we should float too
I’m barely alive
but for you I wanna pull through
if you were my ride or die
there’d be so much I could show you

I would lift your head when the water’s high
I would wrap your hands when you’re cold at night
lay flat on the ground so I break your fall
And I would be alright  
I wouldn’t mind at all
I would move the sun when it blinds your sight
I would shoulder your weight and still stand upright
mutilate my body if my skin’s not right for you
if you were by my side
I’d die for you

I could be a shipwreck washed ashore
I could be approaching meteors
I could be somebody’s last resort
Did I ever tell you that before?

break your fall (empty roads)

i’ve been feeling different lately
tryna make sense of the mind that hates me
i follow the orders i’m creating
can’t ruin the flow or my body starts breaking

in the night it’ll catch me up and swallow me away
and i can't fight it off so i let it consume me easily
i wake up and cannot breathe
i’m shaking like i might freeze
there’s no control anxiety
it’s the one controlling me

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

it’s a nightmare
this phobia is eating me alive
and i can’t fight it
don’t call me just emotional since i did not decide this
and don’t remind me
the trigger’s hiding
i know it’s my head
so don’t keep talking whilst i'm dying

i tried everything i learned and nothing seems to give me peace
it’s so cruel to happen when there’s no one there to help me
wish that i could live my life without this dumb anxiety
but it’s found me now, it’s what i know only

phobia [hollowprpl]

Shout out brecken and casperrr for working on this with me

heyyou w/ brecken & casperrr

produced by @prod-dash
thank you for being here.
be as well as you can be
x

sat in the frozen
tundra of olden
letting it go, but
it want me stolen
fevered yet cold
don't see me walk in
somehow they saw me through the door

it ain't that funny
how's it the people i once put above
amass into nothing
so wrong, to think they could help
subconsciously knew they ain't know me that well
to compel every notion that i've ever felt
enough to be something

thirty minutes is the best i can do
now i'm back with a dome full of hate
can't wait on a sky that'll pass up the day
gotta make this borderless brain unrestrained
i don't sound the same; know if i could i would
put out a piece that could wipe out the rain
shambled in vain
this ain't a life for the vivid
guised in a coat, low is gold for the wicked
i get exposed and the core creates distance
the water is calm, you just gotta listen
gouging the doubt with a sleight word of mouth
from the kid who was taught to bestow this forgiveness

but i'm hittin licks, just a young hypocrite
false bliss to the lip;
ain't trip, won't fold
i'm in my room with the gloom i consume
with a tune that restore all of which that i know

i ain't felt trust like i do,
the ghost of her presence can soothe
forced into wrath, yet was taken aback
apparitions that witness the horror in view
crude to the vision, although to begin with
a soul wouldn't visit this misaligned tomb

won't sleep a wink
'cause the potion i breathe's
about all that i need to replace with a snooze

unamusing that the news is
always brewing something stupid
i rebuke this, got me puking
lacking prudence where the truth is

i couldn't be your anything
i couldn't be your anything
my temper, enamored
and plastered, in glamour
dismembered and shattered
he's scattered in laughter
the after won't seem to take him,
this plothole's been forsakened,
left stagnant and stuck waiting
burnt charcoals for the basin

bites
getting bit up in the night
anomalies pleading "arise"
indifferent to those who recline, i
know we coulda been so good
now i'm kneeling deep into soot
sight aligned where she had stood
idealism misunderstood

rainbreaker (dash)

calm luh 2023 open thingy prod @xxkingad

quiet down
smoking on this loud
i can't hear a sound
she like what u doin now
let's get outta town
bby i need u now

oj
mix w/ moscato
straight from the bottle
cell buzzin hits for a follow
so many ppl ion even know steady hitting up my phone 
imma get 2 it tomorrow
why is it tomorrow
blue and red when i want like tecca
heads up, i already kill w/ no effort 
yes sir
girly give me top, no header
letter/let her
louis, gucci, prada, fendi
baby ill get u a bentley
split up a check like my family
rest of u niggas too friendly
AD turn me up
if i pop a p3rky 30 ts good enough

if i pop a perc30 ts good enough
wait 1sec right there i’ll take my dose rn and double up
im throwin’ up
it don’t matter how im moving’
what i’m doin’
you’d still shoot me down 
even on the ground, ik you’d still be shootin’
ur stoppin me
i’m not sure what’s wrong with me
im not who im meant to be
and that fucks with me mentally
heavily
sippin moscato, shizu he poured it out str8 from the bottle
i walk outside and get top from a model
i don’t feel shit cuz i’m numb and im hollow
numb and im hollow

i said by the way
u too fine to be sippin on some chardonnet
how about u come slide my way for cabernet
you know im geeked up when you wear that lingerie
i got time today
and i know you got time to waste
i said u too fine to touch
im giving you this trust
i can give but it aint much

muted w/ residential. & epitomeoffailure (adturnup)

TALLER

kinda sorta making music

@deadwoodcollective 
discord.gg/deadwood


boo >:)

break your fall (empty roads)

mistral