in my own collective thoughts hurting rn

featuring @luvwillow
produced by @imxofilo

@imxofilo
look me in the eyes and tell me everythings ok
tell me that u love me, idc if its all fake
cuz i be at my lowest, i cant handle all this pain
yea it will never ever ever ever feel the same
(x2)

@luvwillow
tell me that u love me
ur love is sweet like honey
girl i think its kinda funny when u try to touch me
ur so toxic im in love
my hearts flying like a dove
do you see that when i cry?
thats how i know ur all mine
cut ur name into my arms
do u wanna see my scars?
baby i'd do anything
cuz baby ur my everything
shoot me in the heart girl
u know that ur my world
in the backseat of your car
i think were goin' way too far
shoot me in the heart girl
u know that ur my world
in the backseat of your car
i think were goin' way too far
look me in the eyes and tell me everythings ok
tell me that u love me, even if its fake

@imxofilo
im so lost in the dark
there is no light
tell me that u love me idc if its a lie
cuz ur the only thing thats keeping me alive
and if ur not here with me, i think i might just die
i wanna disappear but idk what to do
i dont feel alive
the only thing i want is u
ur like a drug to me
i love u endlessly
i might be ending me
it might be recklessly
i feel like i have nobody to go to
everyday i come home crying here to u
darling dont leave me
hold me in ur arms
tell me ur here for me pls dont break my heart

even if it's fake +luvwillow (xofilo)

(gurushawty + cloudbxy)

maybe i should call
i dont wanna bother you
dont bother you at all
maybe its all my fault
im sorry for it all
i try to think of words to say
but they wont come at all
because of you
i know that i fucked up
you
have never gave a fuck
you
i tried to risk it all
you
have never gave a fuck

yea im finna get to the cash now
yea im finna get to these racks now
we hit up saks and we get the racks out
you dont want smoke so you better pipe down
switch up on my bros i cant do
walk into the trap looking brand new
switch up on my bros i cant do
walk up in the function brand new
rhinestones on my jeans and they shine
oh how you so beautiful and you so fine
and im wondering still if you are mine?
oh why do i try?

maybe i should call
i dont wanna bother you
dont bother you at all
maybe its all my fault
im sorry for it all
i try to think of words to say
but they wont come at all
because of you
i know that i fucked up
you
have never gave a fuck
you
i tried to risk it all
you
have never gave a fuck

Maybe I Should Call?

the water is an oil spill waiting to happen

entry

not it v1

instant

in my head [prod. acey]

(@prodnomu)
comic art by https://www.instagram.com/jigglytofu.art/
sample is 'adventure spirit' by yvette young 

always love u guys for all da support
//
Ill admit it im a little jealous 
When were together  
theres no problem no not whatsoever
But when im texting 
u i feel a stupid fucking pressure
My fucking head hurts 
Desperate times just call for desperate measures
Were both depressed and
Lately it feels like a lack of effort
In our affection
Lately it feels like there's been a sever
in our connection
Wish that you and me dint have this distance
So we’d feel better
cuz it all comes back when were together
Like hell to heaven 

dam hate how im selfish and full of myself
Manipulation’s not good for your health
I keep my mind off this sht but its always right there when im wishing that im someone else
someone that always jus knew how u felt
That way id take care of u by myself
I hate the feeling of helplessness tired of being a burden thats useless as hell
Stay by ur side
You say ur good but i still see u crying
You say its fine
Break out a smile
But i see through it i see that ur dying inside every time
But “its o kayyyy”
Thats what u say
But the fact that i know that ur hurting
Is the worst thing
Please jus go away
Cuz this feeling of familiar heartaches
It destroys me
But its okay
Buts its okay
Tell me its okay
yea its okay
yea its okay
yea its okay

yvette

spotify

was it something i said?
is it still all my fault?
i look back at whts left
were we still here before?
and i know u too well
know tht u cant let go
was it all just a game?
that we cant win no more

was it something i said?
is it still all my fault?
i look back at whts left
were we still here before?
and i know you too well
know that u cant let go
were your smiles all just fake?
i feel nothing no more

i acted out of love
i cannot help but to be with u
not looking back is hard
when all im thinking bout is just u
i hate to see u cry
i see it all the time
i see the pain when i look into ur pretty eyes
dont kno what 2 say
i like u too much
tell me honestly
is this just a crush?
i hate this feeling
of loving someone
that dont love me back,
my heart weighs a ton!!!!!

was it something i said?
is it still all my fault?
i look back at whts left
were we still here before?
and i know u too well
kno tht u cant let go
was it all just a game?
that we cant win no more

was it something i said?
is it still all my fault?
i look back at whts left
were we still here before?
and i know you too well
know that u cant let go
were your smiles all just fake?
i feel nothing no more!!!!!!!!1!

your fake smile (recyclebin + irby)

goodnight and goodbye

★never felt better, guess i'll see u never★

[artwork]
myself lol

[producers]
@benjithemachine
@recyclexbin

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/never-felt-better-prod-benji-the-machine-x-recyclebin-nitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
why you act so sad
guess you fucked up real bad
can't you see that

hook:
running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

verse:
they just wanna see me go and fall
a few times
guess they always did when i look back
in hindsight

never wanted anything
more than this
guess it goes to show
which friends are ur closest

if u hate on me
then ur a goofy sorry
you think i wouldnt
hear the shit u talk

ha hardly

why u such a lame bro
u should go outside tho
maybe touch some grass
but its up to you tho

bridge:
you both stay here
while i go up yeah
i dont fuck with goofys
get out of my life quick

while i cop some new clothes
i dont care what the price is

repeat hook:
running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

running out of options
so this is all i can do
write it in a song
how i wish i never met you

but thats all in the past
cause im doing better
never felt better
guess ill see you never

★streaming★

★never felt better★ (prod. benji the machine x recyclebin)

mixed matches (extended)

johnny drama

all that you get

mixed matches - alley (prod. thislandis & kassgocrazy)

☆spread your wings, just like a fairy!☆

[featuring]
https://soundcloud.com/adharmasatru

[producer]
https://soundcloud.com/uglyzucc

[nitecore mix]
https://soundcloud.com/cutemfontheblock/fairy-w-adha-prod-uglyzuccnitecore-mix

[lyrics]
intro:
ever since i heard you lost your wings
but still did your best to not give up
to try to face him regardless
i wanted to hold u just like this 

i know how hard it must've been
im proud of you

hook: (scoobert)
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

from day to day
but still i will need it
heal me with time
the pain will be needles

missing ur touch
a drug that i cant quit
say that im fine
if on the surface

i know what to say
until i see u
holding u tight
promise we'll get through

all of the shadows
as they are shallow
but who will know
as love is so fallow

bridge:
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

verse: (adha)
fairy wings on an angel
when im with the worlds less painful
i feel confident and i am able
to love myself could u make me so grateful

you build me up
and you changed my life
and i fell so hard
i didnt even have to try

years pass, tears fall
waiting for your call
but ur calling me
like every night

i wish that i could find
the words to say to you
although i tried
nothing comes closer than

i love you

repeat hook:
spread your wings
just like fairy
when ur not with me
the world seems so scary

feeling surrounds me
leaving me wary
days roll on by
the love it may vary

from day to day
but still i will need it
heal me with time
the pain will be needles

missing ur touch
a drug that i cant quit
say that im fine
if on the surface

i know what to say
until i see u
holding u tight
promise we'll get through

all of the shadows
as they are shallow
but who will know
as love is so fallow
--------------------------
happy new year ily <3

★spotify★

★fairy★ w/ adha (prod. uglyzucc)

https://twitter.com/heavnnnn
https://www.instagram.com/heavnlyheavn/



dont wanna see you coming anymore 
cut my fuckin eyes out 
but you trapped the door
this missions takin too long
but you completed me

patience 

eyes low hanging from the top of the basement 
 got these chemicals stuck up in my brain like a patient

but you know I'm jealous 
I'm really feeling selfish
talking all that shit but I cant help it
I'm really feeling helpless oh oh ohh

patience 

eyes low hanging from the top of the basement 
 got these chemicals stuck up in my brain like a patient

these missions taking too long

(your input-pu-pu-pu-pu)

Stream

eyes low

all for you, i stumble round looking for clues, looking for you, its hard to find, so hard to find, just what to do, i feel you close, i got to leave, i got to go, when im not seen, everything just hurts the most.

just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed.

im so naive, how should i compete? you made me complete, you made me complete, who am i to keep? please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me.

behind closed doors, theres nothing more, im looking for, im looking for, you make me complete, cant make you be me, i need you to leave, just leave me just leave.

please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me, please just leave me.

dont tell me what to do, ill try to let it go, you tell me everything, but i know... i know... i wonder bout my worth, if everything's absurd, i know that everything will be gone. be gone.

just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed, just let me bleed.

bleed

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goodnight and goodbye

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