i'm the villain
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villain

pov: ur a hopeless romantic

pov: it's ur villain arc

pov: ur learning to love urself

seen 11:23 pm

tokyo

lately i've been sleepin way too much
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featuring aindrea
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dreamin abt u

dreamin abt u (feat. aindrea)

052722

villain - villain edit

wonderin if i'll ever hear those words . . .
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when is it my turn

it's daylight now, and im stuck in my bed
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daylight - acoustic

i don't wanna come off too impatient, but i'm not patient at all
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can i hit you up

if i said i want you would you want me too?
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want me too

i just wanna spend some quality time
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quality time

can we dance in the moonlight 💃
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serious

can we (feat. Emi Choi)

maybe i've been fallin' out of love too often, but i've been hopin' you might be the one
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can i call this love

i hope that the story will turn out alright
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story

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too fast

if i wanna get to know her then i've gotta get to know her name
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her name

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VILLAIN

i suck at texting back

fake

make up your mind

evidence

difficult

bad thoughts

pov: ur learning how to love urself

hard to love

flawless

i think too much

in between

quiet

the narcissist

the one you want is someone i can't be

i can't help remembering you

is it so wrong if i think of us

from the corner of the room

baby, you're my type

could someone like you love someone like me

friends don't turn to lovers

could someone like you love someone like me (feat. Jacob Khalil)

friends:lovers

i'm not ever getting over you

all i wanted was a bit of honesty
but u were frontin, u never really wanted me
when i asked u if u wanted to be more than friends
u went ahead and lied

now im crashing tryna get back on my feet
but it wont happen as long as ur still haunting me
so im writing all these songs to get u out my head
but the memories stay behind

“sometimes i start missin u crazy aint nothin quite like u”

so im writing all these songs to get u out my head
but my heart wont say goodbye

11:23

** special thanks to aren park for sitting through two hrs of traffic to sing w me and just being such a cool person tbh c: 
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*** wtf dude she literally even made a cute af lyric video tho...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJXcYilt2a4

starin at stars
watching the moon
hoping that one day they’ll lead me to you

wait every night
cause if a star falls
ill wish to go back to the times that I loved

why do the stars shine so bright in the sky
if most of the people are sleepin at night

why do we only have one chance at life
I wish I could go back in time

pictures remind me of things i forgot
but also of all of the things that ive lost

cant get them back they wont fall from above
so I try to forget all the times that I loved

why do we remember beautiful lies
we end up regretting them most of our lives

why do we only have one chance to try

I wish I could go back in time

each time I fall asleep
I always see you there in my dreams
its like going back in a time machine
I know when I wake up your time with me will end

so dont let me fall asleep 
i dont wanna meet u there in my dreams 
i know that well never build a time machine 
its time for me to try and wake up again

I fall asleep
but honestly

I wanna see you in my dreams

im trying to wake up again

time machine (ft. aren park)

ive been goin to the places where we used to meet before
cause lately ive been feelin so confused
weve gone our separate ways I never see you face to face
but in my dreams im always running back to you

so tell me why im trippin over lines drawn between you and i
I feel like such a fool
in my mind I’ve tried so many times to run away and hide
from my memories with you

But when I close my eyes you’re there beside me on the beach that night
and when you say goodbye you’re still on my mind gotta find a way to stop thinking

even if you don’t have feelings my heart won’t let go so easily
Wishful thoughts won’t change the truth 
So I don’t know why I’m still in love with you

I know wishful thoughts won’t make it through
but I don’t know why I’m still in love with you

lines

that girl is the one I wanna be with
I didn’t know it till she was already leavin
on a train goin south ten minutes ago

im so bad at makin conversation
I couldn’t ask her for her number or her name and
I don’t know if she just wants me to leave her alone

but ill go sit in that subway station
open a book to look sophisticated
maybe she might come to me one day
I’ll probably say something dumb like “do you come here often”
cause I get so stupid in love when im talkin to her
but ill try my best to say more than a few words

because I want to know just what she’s thinkin
her favorite food and the drink shes drinkin
why she wears that puffy sweater
when its so hot in this midsummer weather

I wanna know her past and be her future
I know right now I don’t mean much to her
but if we ever meet again  
ill make sure I don’t ever lose her

when I felt my heart fall 
I thought it wouldn’t last long
I didn’t think I’d like you that much

but when you were around me
the more I felt my heart beat
and then I knew you were more than just a crush

I told myself im dreamin to push away those feelings
that I didn’t want to have since you didn’t have them back
one day I moved on and forgot all of the promises 
I made to you back then

but even if I don’t remember all of it 
I cant erase it from my heart
ive tried to brush it off
but I never could
cause every time we talk
I know I never lost
the feelings I forgot

I wonder what youre up to
wish that I could ask you
and catch up on the things I don’t know

but if I never go to see you
I swear that I don’t mean to
I’m just scared that my feelings will show 

I tell myself im dreamin to push away these feelings
that I wish I didn’t have makes it hard to message back
I wanna be your friend and forget all of the promises
I made to you back then

but even if I don’t remember all of it 
I cant erase it from my heart
ive tried to brush it off
but I never could
cause every time we talk
I know I never lost
the feelings I forgot

I know im thinking way too hard
but ill keep this deep inside my heart
im missin you a lot
but I’ll never call
cause if we ever talk
you’ll know I never lost
the feelings I forgot

feelings i forgot

I hope its not obvious
my friends they all called it
sayin id end up falling for u
im doin my best to hide these feelings confessing is the last thing that I want to do

I know I cant be crushin on a girl who cant be here for long
so I told myself I should just stay away
but these lyrics keep on comin out
I don’t think I can stop it now
I wonder if they’ll get to u one day

but ill sing these words ill never say
cuz that’s the only way
for me to say those words
just wait and see they’ll come for sure
im too shy to look you in ur eyes
I swear that im not lyin cuz I knew its true
from the first time we met im so in love with 

everything u say and all the doodles that u post
and every time you sing a song the people crowd a little closer to you
I wish we were closer too

but I know I should be movin on
cuz u wont be here for very long
and there's no way I could ever make u stay
but at least ill write this song for u
cuz I don’t know what else I can do
and im hopin that for you its okay

if I sing…

time flies way too fast
ive tried to make it last
but ur flyin out in a few more days
but you should know that
my time with u was all that I wanted my summer to be
and even if ur not here with me

I still mean these words ill never say
you’re special in a way to me I can’t deny it
but lately ive been tired of hiding
I know you don’t feel the same
but I need to get myself to 
say the words I’ve known theyre true
since the day we met
ive been so in love with you

since the day we met
I’ve been so in love with you

obvious

Lately, you’re never on my mind
I’m trying hard to find a way to tell myself it’s fine
But I know that baby
I’m never on your mind
And it don’t matter how hard we try
'Cause you’re never on my mind

One day I woke up with you on my bed
I couldn’t even remember a thing we said
I was wondering if I ever really liked you
Up against my body but it’s like I’m not beside you
Can’t think of a reason I should keep you close 
Can’t say you’re the one I need the most
And I know that you can’t say it either
Looking at your mirror like you don’t wanna be her

Lately, you’re never on my mind
I’m trying hard to find a way to tell myself it’s fine
But I know that baby
I’m never on your mind
And it don’t matter how hard we try
'Cause you’re never on my mind

I know it’s been hard and complicated
I know that you know but you’ll never say it
One of these days gotta face the truth
You’re not made for me I’m not made for you
The best place for me is away from you
Lyin in bed I’m never facin' you
And I'm hopin' that I might make you mad so every night you won’t wanna face me too
I could list the problems for a million years
But I don’t wanna spend another minute with you here
And I think you’ve probably had enough
I’ll go ahead and be the one to break us up

Lately, you’re never on my mind
I’m trying hard to find a way to tell myself it’s fine
But I know that baby
I’m never on your mind
And it don’t matter how hard we try
'Cause you’re never on my mind

forever.

I used to fall so hard for you
Laid out all my cards for you
Waitin' for your messages all day
You'd hit me up, I'd rush to you
And it didn't mean much to you
But you'd keep smiling at me anyway

And I was patient
I thought one day you'd say it
But it got more complicated
'Cause you didn't want my love
Now I'm done wasting my time on you just waiting
'Cause you're just having fun
You never wanted us

Don't text me
I don't wanna see my phone light up
From somebody I don't wanna think of
You had me waiting and waiting 
I've waited enough
Don't text me
I don't wanna hear from you again
Telling me you still wanna be friends
Don't text me, don't text me, yeah

Waiting and waiting and waiting for love
Waiting and waiting I've waited enough

Don't ask me how I'm doing I don't need to tell you shit
I don't care about you or the new guy that you're with
Send me a message I'm ghostin' your ass
Tell me you left him still ghostin' your ass
I don't want anything to do with your ass
I'm through with your ass
Bad news with your ass

And we both knew
The only one you're close to
Was me but you still chose to
Not care for me at all
So I'll show you
Nobody else could know you
The way I did before
Don't fuck with me no more

Don't text me
I don't wanna see my phone light up
From somebody I don't wanna think of
You had me waiting and waiting 
I've waited enough
Don't text me
I don't wanna hear from you again
Telling me you still wanna be friends
Don't text me, don't text me
Don't text me
I don't wanna see my phone light up
From somebody I don't wanna think of
You had me waiting and waiting 
I've waited enough
Don't text me
I don't wanna hear from you again
Telling me you still wanna be friends
Don't text me, don't text me, yeah

mj apanay

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