seen 11:23 pm

all i wanted was a bit of honesty
but u were frontin, u never really wanted me
when i asked u if u wanted to be more than friends
u went ahead and lied

now im crashing tryna get back on my feet
but it wont happen as long as ur still haunting me
so im writing all these songs to get u out my head
but the memories stay behind

“sometimes i start missin u crazy aint nothin quite like u”

so im writing all these songs to get u out my head
but my heart wont say goodbye

11:23

** special thanks to aren park for sitting through two hrs of traffic to sing w me and just being such a cool person tbh c: 
www.instagram.com/aren_park/ 
https://soundcloud.com/aren-park
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCD4jEu51I1DVkdoyu-jztKg

*** wtf dude she literally even made a cute af lyric video tho...
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SJXcYilt2a4

starin at stars
watching the moon
hoping that one day they’ll lead me to you

wait every night
cause if a star falls
ill wish to go back to the times that I loved

why do the stars shine so bright in the sky
if most of the people are sleepin at night

why do we only have one chance at life
I wish I could go back in time

pictures remind me of things i forgot
but also of all of the things that ive lost

cant get them back they wont fall from above
so I try to forget all the times that I loved

why do we remember beautiful lies
we end up regretting them most of our lives

why do we only have one chance to try

I wish I could go back in time

each time I fall asleep
I always see you there in my dreams
its like going back in a time machine
I know when I wake up your time with me will end

so dont let me fall asleep 
i dont wanna meet u there in my dreams 
i know that well never build a time machine 
its time for me to try and wake up again

I fall asleep
but honestly

I wanna see you in my dreams

im trying to wake up again

time machine (ft. aren park)

ive been goin to the places where we used to meet before
cause lately ive been feelin so confused
weve gone our separate ways I never see you face to face
but in my dreams im always running back to you

so tell me why im trippin over lines drawn between you and i
I feel like such a fool
in my mind I’ve tried so many times to run away and hide
from my memories with you

But when I close my eyes you’re there beside me on the beach that night
and when you say goodbye you’re still on my mind gotta find a way to stop thinking

even if you don’t have feelings my heart won’t let go so easily
Wishful thoughts won’t change the truth 
So I don’t know why I’m still in love with you

I know wishful thoughts won’t make it through
but I don’t know why I’m still in love with you

lines

that girl is the one I wanna be with
I didn’t know it till she was already leavin
on a train goin south ten minutes ago

im so bad at makin conversation
I couldn’t ask her for her number or her name and
I don’t know if she just wants me to leave her alone

but ill go sit in that subway station
open a book to look sophisticated
maybe she might come to me one day
I’ll probably say something dumb like “do you come here often”
cause I get so stupid in love when im talkin to her
but ill try my best to say more than a few words

because I want to know just what she’s thinkin
her favorite food and the drink shes drinkin
why she wears that puffy sweater
when its so hot in this midsummer weather

I wanna know her past and be her future
I know right now I don’t mean much to her
but if we ever meet again  
ill make sure I don’t ever lose her

when I felt my heart fall 
I thought it wouldn’t last long
I didn’t think I’d like you that much

but when you were around me
the more I felt my heart beat
and then I knew you were more than just a crush

I told myself im dreamin to push away those feelings
that I didn’t want to have since you didn’t have them back
one day I moved on and forgot all of the promises 
I made to you back then

but even if I don’t remember all of it 
I cant erase it from my heart
ive tried to brush it off
but I never could
cause every time we talk
I know I never lost
the feelings I forgot

I wonder what youre up to
wish that I could ask you
and catch up on the things I don’t know

but if I never go to see you
I swear that I don’t mean to
I’m just scared that my feelings will show 

I tell myself im dreamin to push away these feelings
that I wish I didn’t have makes it hard to message back
I wanna be your friend and forget all of the promises
I made to you back then

but even if I don’t remember all of it 
I cant erase it from my heart
ive tried to brush it off
but I never could
cause every time we talk
I know I never lost
the feelings I forgot

I know im thinking way too hard
but ill keep this deep inside my heart
im missin you a lot
but I’ll never call
cause if we ever talk
you’ll know I never lost
the feelings I forgot

seen 11:23 pm

mj apanay