I lived backwards felt like the devil 
demons warded In a hellish state of mind, 
Keeping darkness at light so can’t be blind 
In actions 
like transactions won’t settle for little but true worth is time, 
spending mine writing, through voiceless rhymes
 for voice to find 
on different level to which u cant elevate or fly 
clipped ya wings now ya wingless, 
I’ve been this
 forever burnt ain’t about this colour of mine, 
born red remain till I die
 engulfed in flames like a Phoenix I  rise
 to spite those who impose fear in youthful eyes 
trying survive in this vessel for life
 Watching as the world goes by dreaming to take flight, 
climb n  view see from a birds eye,
 what the pent is like, 
in day n night but despite this dream,
 far fetched it seems,
 most importantly want to be free from conscious captivity
 so the heart can breathe N believe that a devil like me can sleep in the grave of destiny
 fulfilled by the journey the odds I beat
 now I great death with a smile from cheek to cheek 
 laughing in the finality of this defeat/victory 
Remain in history 
thing of the past at least I was me 
They will be no cast repeat.
 Till that day I’ll stay youthful as can be,
 aim to stop the self inflicted misery,
 same to Crop the wealth scripted scenery, 
let the youth in me speak N peak to highest of hights, 
deepest of depths with reps of love n peace,
 burn pain n suffering like it’s calories,
 gains of understanding that’s a masterpiece 
captured in time,
 framed in galleries,

3 Am High Prod Just Music ft ZeAfrican

I need some time away
Away from everything and everyone
I need some time away
Away from everything and everyone

I need some time away
Allow myself to concentrate
Allow myself that time of day
To walk away Talk explain,
contemplate
Alleviate the stress  ive gained
from all my problem's that complicate
Embrace myself in every way
Everyday gotta be better than the last
Trying to surpass myself
And reach a greener grass
Excel in what i do propel myself
Pluto's my limit and ill get there fast
aint no way im going to fall in place
Kudo's my nigga ill get that bag
Im trying to reach a different space
Feel my grace or just hate
Either way ill still be  great
I aint got no time to waste
Wondering if this my fate
I aint got no time to waste
Wondering if this my fate

 i aint got no time to waste
Once i had a little taste of whats to come
I aint got no time to waste
forever going to chase the burning sun
I aint got no time to waste
Once i had a little taste of whats to come
I need some time away
Away from everything and everyone

Look from birth i spent nineteen years on this Earth
Revolving round the axis of my own universe
Im writing this verse as i a past tense 
To reverse my self doubt
cast my defense  then peace out.
Unsheathe my offense reach out
Obtain the power ingrained in my brain
For out though the king in Name
Malik the king of kings i claim
can never be ashamed from where i came son
Like   ason unique aint no father to my style son
I stay gifted
cant do me like jack and cain done
I stay liquid
I slay  twisted twin swords on your biscuit 
risk it all For no award I stay Explicit 
Reward myself improve my digits
Im real ambitious

Time Away (prod. expulsing x Kimpe x VIKTHEVILLIN).

the two of us since 0 eight
 the Two of us since 0 nine
Two of us aint nothing new to us 
Except time 
Two of us on lost days 
Two of us on cold nights
Two of us been together for my whole life 

Since the day i was born ive always had you by my side 
You're my ride or die aint nothing can change my mind 
Since i was a child you watched me walk a hundred mile
No limit to what you did for me you always brought a smile
Since my first breath We done walk through the shadow of death
You're The spark that carries me when i got nothing left
Youre the reason i know how to love 
Youre the reason why i show respect 
To all the loving mothers who never neglect
Who carry on through the hardship 
Who carry on through the stress 
You carry so much pain yet u never let it affect 
God bless your little heart you always fought to protect 
But you Never forget Whats like to be on your own 
But trust me mom you were never alone 
Now that im grown 
im gonna build you home
And spread the love that you shown me forever uphold
What it means to be a mother 
the greatest person i know
 
the two of us since 0 eight
 the Two of us since 0 nine
Two of us aint nothing new to us 
Except time 
Two of us on lost days 
Two of us on cold nights
Two of us been together for my whole life 

the two of us since 0 eight
 the Two of us since 0 nine
Two of us aint nothing new to us 
Except time 
Two of us on lost days 
Two of us on cold nights
Two of us been together for my whole life 

Two of us. (prod by beats by con)

Talking shit by the artic load
Might find it cathartic
 to probe his optic lobe 
Sowe one of his sockets closed
As one eye drops
Call him a cyclops 
Aye aye pops
I fight like a zulu night fox
I write shots unorthodox like nike crocs
Insight props
 Like hawks got fierce wings i pierce things inside dots 
Im frightening 
i brings thunder can never pull me under
 like lightning
I strike u wonder 
If aint thy king 
Im my king 
Got horns like a viking as i side thing
I wonderIf living life is a mystery 
Shit dont sense to me 
Like who is you
Who is me 
Who is us 
Who is she 
I dont know who the fuck you are
Get the fuck out of my face
You fucking bitch
Fuck your taste 
The fuck did i sayI need some self control 
reflect on when this brown bag of bone
 fell down the rabbit hole, 
reformed an old habit
Role like magic
 so raise the chalice
 a toast to malik 
being more like Alice bro
Destroyed the fallacy
the heart queens palace 
See they took a trip like Lets See Disney, 
bruised Dis-knee
 from a brute grizzly, 
flow like water sorta disciplined like Bruce lee, 
Whos he 
dont know 
Who me 
Who she
Respect g, 
suspect he 
solved a dispute, 
said gimme the lute,
 no don’t suite a tech piece, 
ain’t messi 
but goaled the set piece with technique
 of fist of fury n buy a rubie or gold set, 
please don’t rep me
 if you gonna reck me 
Cus im a family guy
cooking up a stew form me n u To serve to lil stew 
 Born to die a king in my name, 
Malik who reign the choosen few
 Mind the words i use
feel the culture 
she a sculpture in my psyche revived her with a kiss
 call me Cupid
Shoot ya stupid 
How i do this
Im a illusive
Im intrusive 
I dont give no fucks about it
Dont confuse this 
Shit is useless
I be ruthless 
Till im toothless
Mind my hubris 
Truth is i do give a fuck about 
I  doubt it

Weird Thoughts (prod. Louis Carter)

Life is tough
Walking down a long road i dont
Give a fuck
Bout anybody who tries to
Shut me up
Be at peace let me breathe and just
Say whats what
Say whats what.

Welcome to the dungeon
The hell with no function 
A body of blood flesh and bone
With a xy chromosome 
So you know you better hold your  nose
Cus the pungent smell 
Will pierce through your dome
like mustard gas
All silent and deadly 
Quite and ready
Till i come out with a sonic blast 
 I muster fast like a drunken bohemian 
Ready splash his cash 
On words and paths to oblivion 
So he can see the devil dance 
As he spit on him
Takes another sip and wonders
Where his spirit went.
 Welcome to the dungeon 
The hell with no function 
A mind full of assumptions 
Carless and rambunctious 
A toxic cocktail ready for consumption
By this adolescent black male
Better not malfunction 
And get blackmailed at the cross junction 
By the same drunken bohemian 
A wise guy thinking he a comedian
What the median between us
Cus i cant see to him
Lately ive been feeling like a monster
Within 6 walls a cell straight up impostor 
Walking down the halls of hell 
Luci's my sponser
Cost to live or die so why should i even bother 
So fuck it lets slit my wrists call it quits
Flip the triple six n call god up
And say you peace of shit, 
You could of fixed it quick but now we caught up
As poverty bitch you probably never heard shit 
Instead you shot up pur wounds and licks throwin bricks until we fall off 
Youd never admit that you live for this 
Destruction and violence is your shit 
Or am i just far gone
You fucking bitch how much harm do you want till we all gone 
Use a troller should of called you decipta cus your cons done 
Im a fucking monster 
Worst one of gods sons 
I lived backwards now im after something 
To quench my anger before i 
Trip and hang on the guilt i feel
For not providing faster 
Might grab a balster paint the canvass 
With blood and brain matter 
Call it the black disaster or the bastard who never mattered 
Im just pening how i fell mind the cloack and dagger 
Life if bullshit wrapped in swagger bling and getting fatter 
Aint nothing sadder that a broke nigga with his heart shattered
 Life is tough
Walking down a long road i dont
Give a fuck
Bout anybody who tries to
Shut me up
Be at peace let me breathe and just
Say whats what
Say whats what.

Tough (PROD BY MORTEH)

I don’t know what to say 
Don’t know if should play or pray
 for better things seek a better way
 with lavish things,
 be a dream one day find myself 
with a wedding ring, 
couple kids running by Saying
  daddy catch me if you can
, Find myself as my biggest fan damn that life would be great,
 they say it’s never to late 
but when lost in bed feeling like the worlds bout to end,
 blank mind finding yourself just wanting to cry
 but your sockets dry
 waiting for repeat of today for tomorrow 
filled with self sorrow,
 feeling like the definition of sin 
should be cast out in the bin, 
searching for a win but even if you do
 feel like ain’t worthy of it Or it’s untrue,
 like where the cameras n the set up crew, 
stuck in your mind wanting to fight,
 but flight takes over on cruise control
 get the altitude right before i lose control
 plummet to ground zero, 
wishing could be my own hero  
looking in the mirror saying your the boss you know,
 seeing my reflection
 balls out with a hard erection 
with nothing to hide lol 
instead of searching for a signal for direction, 
perplexing, 
stressed and
 just waiting on time, 
mum like your new dad be here sometime, 
 with a fat wad of cash house so fine,
 take us to paradise,
 sad truth just a figure in her mind
, but don’t we all say that line. 
But life broker her down n can’t figure out how to make it right. 
The pain of finding out your grandmas died n having to tell your mum before going to school,
 feeling like a fool useless tool when can’t even do a presentation right .
 The sensation when Hyperventilating
 feeling like respiration ain’t even on your side,
 a tidal wave of tears coming out your eyes
 with 15 people like is he alright.
 Only thought that cross my mind
 damn how is my mother doing,
 wishing there’s still hope in her eyes
 third person this year fuck this circle of life. 
Both on a road walking a purposeless life.
 The tip of the iceberg compared to the years gone by. 
Shit n that’s when I was sixteen 
tryna escape from what reality brings
 running on caffeine school drop out
 tryna bring money in, 
with a smoke screen disguised as a smile, 
was good for awhile
 but can’t run forever
 no matter how noble the endeavour 
if you’re a pretender to yourself
 it just fucks up your health.
 Couldn’t hide or avoid the pain
 that’s rooted in my brain 
causing a strain in my chest 
dreading what’s coming next,
 start to decline thoughts wind n bind,
 the child inside
 chain n shackles fitted 
serving a sentence in a prison like mind
 tryna figure out what crime I committed.
 This shit hits different, 
drifting away afraid of no escape   
Still wondering if I should play or pray
 for better days or is it to late. Damn.

IDK (prod CapsCtrl)

Well i got angels 
Looking down at me 
See the world i see
Well i got angels
See the walk i lead
Just trying to be free
Well i got angels
Well i got angels
Came down like the ever evolving sun
Same crown like the ones that can't be done
Shame how no one knows the way to fun
i begun to listen to words of birds that sungWell i got angels 
Well i got angels
Well i got angels
Well i got angels
See i got angles protecting me
Even when im down they there for me
I know gods got my recipe 
Everyday he be testing me 
Tweaking little things for me to be a better me
Sometimes its messy g
Like how i feel hes neglecting me 
For real though hes representing me 
Or who i could be if i just listen
Attune my vision 
Adjust the frequency 
From black and white to color 
Let the sequence be
Love and faith in things hoped for but not yet seen
Well not yet at least 
I plant a seed let it grow to a mighty tree 
I might just be the new king mc 
A man can dream 
Even on my own i bring a team 
Of ten like how the commandments be
Amend the fallacy of this calamity 
Address me as your majesty 
Align myself like how the planets be
In conjunction with laws of gravity 
Its all relative like space and time
Im facing mine
I Trace outline
 embrace design 
I chase whats mine 
Till i got no space in time
Yet i still fly 
tell me Why
Well i got angels 
Well i got angels
Well i got angels
Well i got angels
Well i got angels 
Looking down at me 
See the world i see
Well i got angels
See the walk i lead
Just trying to be free
Well i got angels
Well i got angels
Came down like the ever evolving sun
Same crown like the ones that can't be done
Shame how no one knows the way to fun
i begun to listen to words of birds that sung

Angles(prod. Chase Fayez)

Not sure if could use this beat contact if cant.

Im afraid to feel,
Wondering if its all real
Are my emotions playing with me
Im afraid to love 
Im afraid to care
Will it all matter 
When i stare into dispare
Im afraid of hope 
Im afraid ill fail
Go prepare the rope
Ill be hanging there
See the tree all broke
Fuck living fair 
Im afraid of change 
I dont mean to scare
My vision all blurred and 
Im loosing hair
Im afraid of her 
Id prefer if youd share with me
If you share with me
So i carry blame 
I carry shame 
Im afraid of pain
Please bare with me
Im loosing my brain 
Im afraid of going insane
No words to explain
Whats wrong with me
Im afraid im flawed
Imperfect core 
Theres a monster living within me
Im afraid im a fraud
An unpaid actor 
An imposter doubting my abilities 
My abilities 
If i could act on my fear 
Life would never end
No need to cheer 
Lets just end it here
If i could act on my fear 
Life would never end 
No need to cheer
Lets just end it here 
Alone with me
Alone with me
Alone with me 
Alone with me

Afraid (XXXTENTATION REVENGE INSTRUMENTAL)

Im a lost boy 
In a lost world 
Couldn't find me
Even my own mind trying to confine me
Im a lost cause
A lost soul
He trying to hide me
Make sure the whole world knows nothing about me
Im just a lost boy 
Im just a lost boy

Lets get into the nitty gritty.
I think he pity me 
Cause i be acting really silly
I get the feeling like
He dont really want to see me
Put me in a box
Hide the locks 
Ship me to the Mississippi 
No postage needed 
Travel like a hippy 
Hit me with a dosage seeded
 with that shit that gets you trippy
So i be purring like a pretty little kitty 
On some itty bitty titty feeling like a milly
Then he has a reason to call me silly 
You feel me
Cus i don't understand 
Why he aint with me
We meant work hand in hand
But he forgets me
Acting like high command
All gimme gimme 
But when its my time 
He dont shimmy shimmy 
Out the way 
Nigga i aint your slave 
We share the same boddy ody ody
Its obvi obvi obvious you aint fond of me 
Stop treating me like im your fucking property
Im a force of nature like Schwarzenegger 
You aint stopping me
Ill terminate ya 
Like a cell that aint dividing properly 
You aint cropping me 
Im in your system 
You should of listened 
Instead of mocking me
Ill fully glisten 
As invisioned 
When they rock with me 
No hee hees nor ha has 
Im about to be something stupendous 
Tremendous 
Horrendous 
A kamakazi only way to end this
So send blitz with the flash cus im lightning fast
Got a past like casper 
A ghost with laughter 
A frightening disaster 
Who asked ya to be the man in charge
Who asked ya to leave me at large 
No one so why should i give a fuck
You can blow one 
Two, three four 
Fuck it have three more 
Thats 7 time your below me 
8 years you could of shown me 
Instead you choked me 
Dont want to go mad again
Like im Aniken
But you aint no obi wan kenobi 
Guess your just another phony homey
Guess your just another phony homey
A wannabe obi wan kenobi

Im a lost boy 
In a lost world 
Couldn't find me
Even my own mind trying to confine me
Im a lost cause
A lost soul
He trying to hide me
Make sure the whole world knows nothing about me
Im  just a lost boy 
Im just a lost boy 

Angles(prod. Chase Fayez)

ZeAfrican

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