i jus got a weapon and it sounds like when a car starts!!!

COLLABS

F.O.Y.B. (W/ DOUBLE EM)

Say less again

Shake Sum

Grizzy (Prod. AndreOnBeat)

hey, wyd?

disco volante (GTFOMD) ft. doin' fine (prod. untilted)

GUTTER PUNKS ft. doin' fine

GOODFELLAS (+ Double Em) [SATURNULTRA]

Kurt Coat (Double Em X DJ Re:Code Blow Out! Mix)

ANGEL EYES ft. zombAe (prod. TREETIME)

produced by tejas
written by louis bedroom, ilysm
mixed by ilysm
cover art by patty hills

lyrics:

verse 1 - louis bedroom
blood's thicker than water, but I’d drown in the sea
we’re all droplets in the river, insignificantly
this life is a waterfall, and that is all it’ll be
shed blood, sweat, and tears, then I’m fallin’ asleep
don’t feel the rain ‘less it’s fuckin’ pouring
I’m dead when it’s fuckin’ morning
you fuckin’ with the process, then progress is forming
lemme remind you who the fuck I am
I’m more than skin and bone and hands
this flesh is temporary
see you at the cemetery
see you when I see you cuz we get busy when growin’ up
damage makes you old as fuck
baggage, yeah I’m holdin’ some
famished while there’s lots on my plate,
feel like time slowin’ but I’m fastin’
feelin’ static, not lettin’ go of what I’m grabbin’ 
I’m in between somewhere heavy and a Gravity Chamber
tryna bite off what I’ll chew and what I’ll actually savour 
cuz we’ll all fuckin’ die someday so why not try some shit
don’t wanna waste away my life, I’m still alive I’m tired of it, uh
blood's thicker than water, there's red in my sink
yeah bitch i drink from the tap, and what I spit is on ink
and what i think is distinct, pennies and thoughts in a cup
green tea, french vanilla, or hot chocolate mugs
I wish I still had an addiction so yall could say I need more help
petite markers with kief particles, overkill
crossfading on walks, waiting for buses
I was always munchin’ on somethin’ fuckin’ ‘round or being loud on public transport 
now I’m beginning to transform
ran my mouth like “fuck you and everything that you stand for”
feel like an early bird but I got bad insomnia 
and I can’t find the words to explain it like it’s in Narnia 
used to wanna smoke every bit of the pain away, drink til I forgot my name
now I wanna sit alone all by my own and meditate 
I saw an angel from the heaven’s gates
and it told me “wait for better days”

verse 2 - ilysm
bloods thicker than water and i still cry myself to sleep
my family tell me “rin! oh rin! you do this shit so selflessly!”
while ignoring the self interest of all of these selfish deeds
itll pass you see, think im dead cos my life is in my past to me
confess these sins to my pastor, ayo speak up
you ask too many questions i implore you to look out
fed make me red and im avoiding all that bull
dont want that heat to penetrate every crevice inside your skull
so sensual, now thats a mindfuck
bitch ill throw you for a loop cos thats how mine was
aye, my oh my may i remind us
we procrastinate our lives away a mistake until we gone
and bloods thicker than water, and i see you tote that nine
so if you make me bleed i beg you look me in my eyes
we are one in the same, swear we one in the same
our only difference is the fact that i got one in the brain

blood & water (ft. ilysm)

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dedicated to myself, who i didn't know how to love for a very, very, very long time.

buy it on bandcamp. i lost my job due to covid. https://otm-music.bandcamp.com/album/dead-birds
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written, produced, arranged, preformed, mixed, and "mastered" by autumn hill.

additional mixing on "ok." and "thanks anyway!" by deezy the animator.

cover photo by evan hill for a high school project. 

special thank you to alex, ilysm, brad, deezy, and that one girl from lewis and clark community college who gave me the violin for !sara i cannot remember your name and i feel so bad about it but i will properly credit you i am so sorry. thank u all for your help on this project.

i lost my job

mediocre (ft. yellow boy & ilysm)

Clean Slate ft. doin' fine

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swing. 

tyvm again aron for stems stream them they're crazy good https://soundcloud.com/djrecode

ty to my grandma who gave me the vinyl i ripped 4 this i love her very much.
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talk a lil more ft. dj re:code

PRODUCED AND MIXED BY ILYSM
ART BY AMIASARTS

Lyrics:

I’m so gone I’m Casper
wonder which bones I have shattered
right now to me it don’t matter
I’m more than a hazard
can’t show no bitch who is badder
I know that you ain’t got no answer
I know you’re a capper
you got no revolver you poser
I skate now so I can wear Thrasher
I sound like a rapper
I’m sweet like some honey, no badger
I’m mad as that hatter, wait fuck um
gone with the wind call me Vivien Leigh
I’m the prettiest, fuck what you idiots say
yall are hideous bitches so I look away 
yall are chicken shits, ain’t brown eggs in the hay
ain’t no fair play when you’re crossin’ the line
you should be afraid, you got nowhere to hide
there’s a lot to unwind when someone’s finna die 

IM SICK OF THESE BITCHES, SICK OF THESE BITCHES
GET THE FUCK OUTTA MY SIGHT
NOWHERE TO HIDE, NOWHERE TO HIDE
I’LL MAKE YOU PAY WITH YOUR LIFE
I MAKE EM RUN FOR THEIR LIVES

FUCK 

BITCH RUN BITCH RUN
GO BREAK YOUR ANKLES BITCH
BITCH RUN BITCH RUN
YOU KNOW I’M DANGEROUS

bitch i don’t pop no molly, i be poppin’ ollies
stackin’ trash you can call me Wall-E
skinny, pretty no ASAP Rocky
zero gloves still catchin’ bodies
zero fucks like I still got my virginity 
get off my mini me, get off my dick
i pull up toting a blade and they say i’m insane
i’m no pussy i don’t need a stick
motherfucker you got a oedipus complex
“real hiphop i am totally concious”
not everything has to be so symbolic 
i can spit fax i can also word vomit
get off my nuts, bitch
wake the fuck up bitch
no one likes your damn opinion it’s fuckshit

I keep talkin’ all my shit so you keep talkin’ yours
I am not some fuckin’ hypocrite, I like to settle scores, man
I keep talkin’ all my shit so you keep talkin’ yours
but if you talk down on my name bitch, I’ll rip out your vocal cords

bAnGkOk DaNgErOuS rEmIx !!! (prod. ilysm)

produced by ilysm
w/ bass by Double Em

Lyrics by Double Em

u ok, homie? (prod. ilysm)

THE REAL RAP CARACAL. SPACE JAGUAR. LOFI GODDESS.
~almost a good rapper & non binary angel~

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