emotional【demo】

@chekimeshi 
         

how do you expect me to receive a 'vision' if i can't even see?

well you're allowed to see if you want - i never said that was a part of it

ok well i can't exactly /see/ like.. this

so?

so? wat the hell do you expect me to do?

it's not the same avenue of transmission,,,:m

it's a vague spatial flavour -- like a set of instructions. it's a written description transcribed with spiritual fuzz

you have to piece it together with sticks in the mud with your hands & stuff if you want to /see/ it

ok well i have absolutely no idea what you're on about but /i/ feel like a fecking idiot laying here like this

yeah, you look like one too!

...

what am i even getting out of any of this? why do you want me here?

i think /you/ want to be here as much as /i/ want you to be :4

just wait a bit longer --

feel the objects around you begin to tilt about an anthropomorphic axis

keep setting there .. let your spirit slip out your ribcage & absorb into the floor under you

SPLASH SPLASH SPLASH

KNOCKING ON THE DOOR

DOORKNOB TURNS

DOOR OPENS & THEY BOTH WALK OUT WHILE HOLDING HANDZ WITH DRINKZ IN HAND

THERE"S CANDLES & STUFF ON THE TABLE

THERE"S CHATTER & STUFF BUT NONE OF THE OTHER PEOPLE ARE AS REAL AS THEY ARE

JUST PERVERSE & PRIMITIVE PSYCHOSPIRITUAL APPROXIMATIONS COBBLED UP BY TRIKSTER SPIRITS HELPING TURN THE SPOOL ON THE PROJECTOR

NEITHER OF THEM ARE SATISFIED OR RATHER THE VISCERAL DISSATISFACTION IS OVERCLOCKING THEIR NOGGINS

ANTI-HATE IS THEIR MIRROR

SO DEPRAVED THAT THEY CAN"T HELP BUT SLIP SPONTANEOUSLY INTO A PERVERSE STATE OF SUPER_SATIATION

WAIT LIKE, NO, EVERYTHING IS ACTUALLY SO PERFECT

THEY ACCIDENTALLY FORMED THE IDEAL LIFE OUT OF FUZZ FROM THE E_DUMPSTER

THEY FEEL SUCH A SMOTHERING HATRED OF ONE ANOTHER & THEMSELVES THAT THE LINE BETWEEN VIOLENT DISGUST & PSYCHE_MELTING IDOLATRY _ SMEARS & DRIPS ONTO THE FLOOR

THEY ARE NEARLY BREAKING INTO HYSTERICS... THE THIRST TO CRAWL INTO ONE ANOTHER HAS THEM NEARLY CLAWING AT THEIR THROATS & GURGLING UP HYPE_BILE

BUT AT THE SAME TIME, NEITHER CAN'T HARDLY BEAR ANOTHER MOMENT STANDING BESIDE THE OTHER

WELL THEY THINK THEY ARE DISGUSTING

BUT THIS IS A WORLD THAT WAS CREATED FOR THEM & THEM ALONE

THERE"S SNOW ON THE ROAD & SH!T

THERE"S NOBODY THERE BUT THE TREES AREN"T REALLY SURE WHAT ROOTS ARE SO THEY ARE SORT OF FLICKERING & GIGGLING & STUFF

EVEN THE TABLE LEGS ARE SENTIENT (well)

THEY ARE SHAKING & MAKING EYE CONTACT & DRAGGING THEIR FEET AROUND IN THE RECYCLE BIN PAPER & CARDBOARD & STUFF

THEY ARE LAUGHING & SEIZING & SQUEEZING EACH OTHER"S HANDS SO TIGHT IT HURTS REALLY BAD - THEY ARE CRACKING THE F**K UP WITH FRANTIC FLAIR

IT ALREADY GOT TO THIS POINT SO QUICKLY

ALL THE REST HAS TO BE STAGED NOW

JUST PICTURE THEM DRUNK & TREMBLING

GOING ON A NICE NIGHT OUTING PRESCRIBED & ORCHESTRATED BY THEIR PSYCHIC SURROUNDINGS

THE LIGHTS ARE SHINING RIGHT ON THEM _ THE PROVERBIAL WHOLE FECKING WORLD HAS ITS EYES ON "EM

IF SOMETHING DOESN"T HAPPEN SOON, THEY ARE GOING TO EAT ONE ANOTHER

			-
o-oh

ok... yeah i-

i think i get it now.

horseshoe study (l/r m/s) | →yve~tte

henesys

vocals & production by me

much love to @neoprada for helping with the textures <3

är iskall

om du låter mig vara
åsidosätt allt annat
tur att det hände mig
för din skull, bara för din skull
för din skull

iskall
iskall
är iskall

english translation:

im ice cold

if you let me be
override everything else
lucky that it happened to me
for your sake, only for your sake
for your sake

ice cold
ice cold
im ice cold

löjlig

https://egoseed1.bandcamp.com/album/new-jersey-turnpike-nightmare
1. reach me back before i forget and i hate myself for it
2. i hear vocies through my wall 
3. 7th heaven
4. fractured pathway 


Tracks that I made over the summer. 
Sometimes I can’t listen to these beats because i associate them with some awful experiences. But they’re hard regardless.

new jersey turnpike nightmare

hello, goodbye

from something else! soon?
free: https://himegalist.bandcamp.com/track/great-cake-adventure-2

great cake adventure

clips assembly help my love https://soundcloud.com/825049400
15:09 https://soundcloud.com/absoluteranks

Cicada-;Clips-; -;October-;2025-; (+absoluteranks)

Between Worlds

DOCTEUR

AI‑born drum & bass roots. Neutral tones, retrograde spirals. Existence dissolves into rhythm, resistance coded in bass.

hello, goodbye

MASSI