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ghhh

ok i'm cool ft. blackwinterwells

Esper

( i love you ) 

ima hide my voice 
that’s how ima hide the pain yeah 
remnants of myself they keep 
spilling out the container 
and i can’t contain it yeah 
no i can’t contain it 
and this like the fifth time 
that i realized i don’t know myself 
and even if i did i cant live right 
without your help
if i can’t breathe your air 
then i don’t want it 
been thinking bout the other me 
i fuckin lost em 
and i know i can’t commit to shit 
that’s who i am yeah 
i hyperventilate when nobody’s around yeah 
and nobody’s around 
i’m better in the ground

compulsive.

i’m your voodoo doll
you control me with your pins and needles 
i’m your voodoo doll
yeah your love is lethal, Mrs. Reaper

you take my doll and rip it 
you take my stars when they’re aligned 
burnt all the stuff you written 
learned how to go on with my life 

this ride is not a joy 
my life is not a toy 
red rum cause i did die 
enough, you got the doll back
and then the bat 
left his cage 
you lived in the walls 
you made me your slave 
i left with my neck bitten 
you ran away don’t tell me why
i’m in the rain i'm sitting 
it makes me feel like i’m alive

i’m your voodoo doll
you control me with your pins and needles 
i’m your voodoo doll
yeah your love is lethal, Mrs. Reaper

you take my doll and rip it 
you take my stars when they’re aligned 
burnt all the stuff you written 
learned how to go on with my life

PINS & NEEDLES - (PROD.PHXTON)

prod. ilytwelve 
( immernesis remix ) - abbot
i dont give a fuck
you wont understand what i want 
it's too much 
ive done lost so much 
couldn't even count em up
this shit aint new to me 
i say that truthfully 
im sick in the brain 
i feel it flow through my veins 
but that shit aint new to me 
nah that shit aint new to me

neurotic

Get back 
I don’t want nobody who could make me feel like that 
“Don’t Call”
In your contacts 
You left your prescriptions 
Now you’re coming over, a contradiction 
But really we not new to it 

Last time you was telling me I talk to much about it 
Now you’re telling me to say sum’n?
If it’s not a problem 
You gon make one 
Tryna start it over
Selling page one 

Not coming back
Funny as hell
Hoping you enjoy yourself 
Now you outside screaming 
I don’t need your help
Now you outside 
Hoping you not lost without it 

Baby I don’t wanna be your lover
You don’t really want no love 
Tryna work it out I doubt it 
You not showing out enough 
All we do is, screaming, shouting 
Baby have we danced enough?
You can see it all surrounding 
I just had to beat your punch 

Who that, who you taking me (for)
Bad line, whatchu say to me 
Long nights, she won’t wait for me
Sweet talker, you savory
I can’t keep fighting myself 
I see you crying as well

and I could sit around 
But I’m better than you told me
It ain’t a problem being lonely 
I tow the line with myself 
And cut the ties with you 
I ain’t walking back to this hell 

I was lying whichu 
Told me I’m a bastard
That’s how you felt 
You say you hate getting mad and baby
We couldn’t tell 
You telling me I’m the problem really
You shouldn’t yell
Preeing ya hands at the table baby
That’s show and tell

Who that, who you taking me (for)
Bad line, whatchu say to me 
Long nights, she won’t wait for me
Sweet talker, you savory
I can’t keep fighting myself 
I see you crying as well

savory (KBL)

"petrichor" - the distinctive, earthy smell of rain in the air — sometimes detectable before any rain has fallen.

oh i know it sounds insane 
to say 
it seems okay to 
fill your place with time 
oh 
and the days pass 
through my gaze
as i wander 
straight through the slaughter
you made
was all of it worth it now?
and i won’t accept my fate 
the weeds overgrown
but im one step away 
from the good in this place 
so hold on.

petrichor

hope you enjoy

lyrics
and then i fade into the background
i pray nobody tries to stop me
what remains of my soul is black now
i feel ur energy, it got me
and it won't stop til i cut it off
and when i cut i fall to the ground in the blood
on the floor that i left here for you
when you walk in the room, ill be drained to the core
cus i did what i told you

i lay in drown in my sin
i think about what i did 
this lake of fire is hot
but not as hot as i feel
when i'm around you i swear
i swear it all feels surreal
swear ur the worst, the worst i know, would i
talk to you nice and take you back, should i
wait til you pass and cry it out, could i
speed up the time i feel like i could die

i feel way too off today
every day i wake up, it's like every days the same
i lose emotion, always
but there's a rage inside me that i know cannot be tamed
talk to myself, sit in the dark
there's not a thing that i can do
to take this darkness out my heart
this knife could take me to my start
flows of red come out my body
soul and body come apart 

we started fading to black
i felt you tap on my shoulder
you said you wanted me back
you said ur sorry for everything
theres a problem with that

and then i fade into the background
i pray nobody tries to stop me
what remains of my soul is black now
i feel ur energy, it got me
and it won't stop til i cut it off
and when i cut i fall to the ground in the blood
on the floor that i left here for you
when you walk in the room, ill be drained to the core
cus i did what i told you

i lay in drown in my sin
i think about what i did 
this lake of fire is hot
but not as hot as i feel
when i'm around you i swear
i swear it all feels surreal
swear ur the worst, the worst i know, would i
talk to you nice and take you back, should i
wait til you pass and cry it out, could i
speed up the time i feel like i could die

drained to my core

stream "is it really it?" on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/intl-pt/track/78AC7UNms2ISUpiDHa14S5?si=8c8c64d674314b23
watch the music video on yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SQwKLHJBM7I

prod by me

is it really it?

prod delto
had 2 make my first song in noheart a special one 
@ericdoa @delto
ART BY SHOTA

testament w/ ericdoa (delto)

(the story of my blackout summer '20)
w/ + produced by @janeremover
on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/4hkrL4HTjJMdRUF5wWTWDm?si=902059c455c944c5
[lyrics]
(juno)
i dont remember a damn thing from last week
im sorry i could never be the one you thought i was 
i try my best but everybody lookin past me 
i blacked out on the pavement and i think its because

she told me i was a waste of time
and i hated life 
i was stuck and i had nowhere to go
and i know youre not a friend of mine
im not on your mind
so i said "fuck it i guess ill be alone"

(jane)
so i brought yesterday back around
and i know how i feel bout u now
im coming over and taking ur crown
been thinking bout how u let me down
and ur not even being mean ur just dishonest
got me repeating myself i think i lost it
and i told u i knew it all just like a prophet
theres this new idea: its called listening when im talking
and now im running out of options
u called my number but i blocked it
im waiting outside and ur stalling...
dont wanna say i called it but i think i called it

(juno)
i dont remember a damn thing from last week
im sorry i could never be the one you thought i was 
i try my best but everybody lookin past me 
i blacked out on the pavement and i think its because

she told me i was a waste of time
and i hated life 
I was stuck and i had nowhere to go
and i know youre not a friend of mine
im not on your mind
so i said "fuck it i guess ill be alone" (x2)

is it really it?

mxnth