DEATHWISH 

Lyrics:

Man it’s all fucked
Fuck this misery 
I tried to drown it with love
But that made me turn to drugs
Magic touch 
Serpentine 
Filled with lust 
Medusa turn me to stone
I am alone
Chrome in my mouth 
Blast through my dome
Blast through my DOME

Devil wishing me luck with love 
But I wanna go back
Never thought about it
Left it all in the past 
Never wanted to die
But I guess I’ll turn to ash

Yeah my fate is sealed
My date decided 
Here I am confiding 
In a pew 
Pleading screaming 
What can I do
Repent for what 
My soul left
with the Devil too

I was always reject
Even gave them respect 
Earned 13 reasons 
But I could never die
Wanna multiply 
But scared of my bloodline
Use the sun to burn my eyes
Masochist of the family
Love to hurt myself 
Even when they can see
Prying eyes be watching me

Wanna kill myself 
But don’t wanna go to hell
No way out 
Only problem 
Is with myself

Wanna kill myself 
But don’t wanna go to hell
No way out 
Only problem 
Is with myself
(With myself)

People be afraid of me
I guess that’s what I get 
For looking like a young Charles 
I can’t handle it 
Still fathom it
How can I live with myself
23 years
I’m in still down in hell
Metaphoric Shit 
I kept it on a shelf
Hanging by a wire 
Cutting my hand 
Wondering where the fuck is neverland
If I fall I will never land
Only fall until I create another abyss 
Man it’s all fucked 
Wanna scream 
But no one can help
Knowing this shit
I should die 
Make it a closed casket
Cause ima cut my face 
Hate myself so much 
Id love to make the others cry

DEATHWISH

Lyrics: 

Sitting here in fear of myself
Thinking back I can’t deal with my health
I been dying for a long time
I Can’t remember when I smiled 
Where’s the sunshine

Been feeling sick lately
I quit the drugs 
But I want them to save me 
I’m running out of ways to end the pain 
I know it’s temporary 
But it’s better than to escape 
Permanently
That feeling alone 
Is eating at me 
Hurting me 
When I’m alone 
By myself 
No one to call for help 
Kicking back thinking who the fuck can help
Stuck in a trance staring at the ceiling 
Waiting for a way to advance 
MOVE FORWARD 

But I keep looking back
All the smoke around me 
Make me wanna relapse 
Fall back into habits 
Ruin my life 
Yeah I might crashhhhhh out 
Go from doing small time drugs 
To getting promoted now 
I’m moving up
Along the way meet H 
Put her in my arm 
Maybe fuckin escape
Pain is un-wavered  
I’m Sinking deeper 
No taper
I don’t wanna save myself
And I ain’t weaning off 
I’m going head first 
No bitch you can’t save me 
from myself 
I know I can’t backtrack 
from the road to hell
I can’t even stick around 
long enough 
To start feeling well again
I can’t fucking understand 
It’s like I’ve been fated from the beginning 
To fast track to the end 
Now It’s all I think about 
And I know myself too well
But this time there’s no way out
Only one path to walk 
And I gotta move forward
Maybe it’ll get better 
But I fuckin Doubt it 
But I don’t wanna be 
stuck in my head 
Any longer 
No more 
No more

Relapse

1st track on “Hate, Love, & Death”

Lyrics:

I think ima need some distance 
I can’t deal with this instance 
I’m tired of communicating 
When all I ever get is snippets 

I can’t get a fucking read on you 
I can’t even tell if you wanna be with me 
Are you 
dying inside
Just tell me please 
So many times I’ve tried to ask why

Bring up the same problem
for a different reply
My emotions switchin up
I think I’m changing personalities 

Eye color changing like a fuckin mood ring
I can’t take all the indecisiveness 
Sitting in my head tryna figure out 
How to cheat death
I’m stuck beside myself 
when I’m tryna be alone 
I only run away 
Cause I feel like I have no home 
You pushed me away when you wanted communication 
Now you mad because I’m in a mediation 
With all this shit 
I don’t fucking get it you switching up too much
My emotions getting reckless 
I’m in the abyss with all my decisions 
I can’t fucking tell if there ever was a vision 
for us
Are you wasting my time 
Are you scared because I just wanna die
It feels like it’s been a lifetime since we spoke and since we looked each other in the eyes
you got me in a bad way 
I thought about going ghost 
But I wished for another way 
I’m just trying to save us 
My fuckin heart is broken 
N/A trust
Im having fuckin doubts 
if I’m the one who was chosen 
Just stop wasting my time 
Tell me what you want from me 
Tell me what you want from me
Tell me what you want from me
Or ima have to leave you sidelined 

The deafening sound of my mind 
Rewind the time
Phase through space and fly
Took another piece of my mind 
Swirling down the drain in my brain 
Though my pain has been 
Over the Rainbow
I’m just tryna live 
Day by day
Live and let die
Wasting my time 
Wasting my life
Wasting my time 
Wasting my life
Wasting my time 
Wasting my life
Wasting my
Time
Time
Time

Romance Is Dead(ly)

Too Many Chances(Feat. Out$kirt$)

Lyrics:

Demons on my shoulder 
Angels cross my mind 
Devil taking hold of me 
I’m running out time
Looking in the mirror
Now I know it’s fucking time
Empty shells surround me
Gunpowder in my mind
Re upping on the drugs 
Cause I love them more
Then my heart in a box 
That she crushed on the floor
I ain’t going back in time 
I’ve already been through a cycle 
Of love then heartbreak 
For some reason I still smile
When I see her 
I hate that it’s coming back
The love that I felt 
I wanna strike it with a match

Burn away
Burn away
Entice me with your flames
Devil man 
Demon boy
Lock me into a cage

I swear that I found the one 
But I think I’m second guessing 
Too much pain in my heart
It’s got my mind stressing
Seen it replay in my mind
it’s like a lethal weapon 
If you really ride or die 
Show me your perspective 
I’ve seen these bitches say that 
But quickly switch up
I ain’t giving up my heart 
Without the proof of your love
Need it in a contract 
(Sign it)
Need a drop of blood
(Make it a vial)
Otherwise ima stay in denial 
I deserve nothing 
I collect dust in the aisle 

Demons on my shoulder 
Angels cross my mind 
Devil taking hold of me 
I’m running out time
Looking in the mirror
Now I know it’s fucking time
Empty shells surround me
Gunpowder in my mind
Re upping on the drugs 
Cause I love them more

Re upping on the drugs 
Yeah I need some more

Re upping on the drugs 
Cause I love them more 
Cause I love them more
Cause I love them more 
Than you

Devils In The Details

Lyrics:

Spilling my feelings 
Undoubtedly 
Rewrite the words 
That stick out to me 
I saw all of your fears 
While you doubted me 
I won’t ever grow 
I got too much inside of me

Holding me down 
Can’t turn around 
Can’t look at my face
My feelings they drown
Out 
every ounce of energy

One day I’m happy
The next I’m a memory

One day I’m happy
The next I’m a memory

Swerving off the drugs 
Filling up my lungs 
Drinking so much that I quiver 
I know that it will end up
Destroying my liver 

But I don’t fear consequence 
Cause I’ve remembered I’m dying 
Tryna speed it up 
And it’s feels like I’m flying 
I’m going too fast
No point in rewinding
Live and die fast
I’m past surviving 
Humble myself like an old man
Pride in my health 
Not really I’m dormant 

I scream suicide
Cause I can’t heal myself
Still contemplating 
On a better route
Left me on the sidelines 
Just so you know 
I ran outta time
I ain’t finna stay here 
I’d be better with a hive mind 
Alone by myself 
It feels like a lifetime
When I run away 
I still wonder if you think about 

My feelings 
Did you mean to hurt
Or to kill me 
Either way it’s said and done 
Do you feel me 
Don’t hold the burdens
That I felt 
Since the ending

White Peterbilt

Lyrics: 

Tired of reaching out so now I stay low key
Living in a ghost town in my mind 
God telling me to take my time 
Devil inside tryna take my eyes 
So I only see pitch black

But I don’t want to have suicidal thoughts in the Cadillac 
Mood switching like you been flipping a light
When I travel a to b I stay out of sight 
Cause there isn’t a night 
where I don’t wanna be alone
Inside been feeling like I have to atone 
For they way I’m being treated
That’s why I’m grippin’ the chrome
Mistake my silence for patience
But I’ve just kind of been waiting 
I can see that everything’s about to implode 
Just waiting for the fuse to light 
So I can explode 
Cause I ain’t going out without no damage
I’m going catastrophic no healing 

Don’t worry for me anymore 
Cause there’s no saving me 
Life’s been on a tight rope 
And I swear it’s getting thinner

You ain’t ever heard me talk about anything realer
Then this shit, why do I have to be stuck in place feeling like shit
While she gets to reap the benefits of her own destruction 
Meanwhile I’m sitting at home plotting on myself 
With my smith and Wesson 

I’m only getting closer to the edge 
Only getting closer to the edge 
Only getting closer to the edge (edge)

And I’m Getting Closer To…

Lyrics: 

Depression it ain’t getting better
Found clarity in stormy weather 
Fuck change ain’t nothing wrong with me 
I’ll just continue to sever 
My fucking bonds 
That hold me to this life
Scars down my arm
I’ll make a couple more tonight
Fear in my heart 
I’m going too deep now
Feel the tidal waves crashing 
While I sink down

Too many different things up on my mind 
going supersonic
Drugs don’t hit the same anymore 
unless it’s that chronic 
I don’t have no shame anymore 
No I fucking own it 
Turn myself into a demon 
Cause I know y’all see me bleeding
No one helping me pick up the pieces 
Damage everywhere my ears are still ringing 

Heart broken and I’m speechless 
Can’t find reason to conversate 
Lot of y’all left me in my darkest times 
Maybe it’s cause you’re wondering when I’ll die 

It’s not a surprise 
When it’s all I idolize 
Any figment of my imagination 
Usually includes suicide

Why do I smile when I know I’m fucking hurting 
Why do I lie when I see it isn’t working 
Why do I hide when it could fucking save me 
Why do I cry when my feelings 
always enslave me
always enslave me
always enslave me
always enslave me

Depression it ain’t getting better
Found clarity in stormy weather 
Fuck change ain’t nothing wrong with me 
I’ll just continue to sever 
My fucking bonds 
That hold me to this life
Scars down my arm
I’ll make a couple more tonight
Fear in my heart 
I’m going too deep now
Feel the tidal waves crashing 
While I sink down

Deeper & Deeper

Lyrics:

Killa from the CV 
Keep this shit on repeat
Idolizing suicide 
Drugs I’m tryna reach 
Killa from the south side
No matter what I let it ride
Even if the sun go down
I’m still finna shine
——
Diamond boy
Heart breaker
Love attraction 
Tree shaker 
Daily sippin 
Whatchu think 
Drugs combative 
Don’t feel pain
——
I’m still the same kid 
Who want a noose
Still here grippin iron 
Chrome when I’m feeling fancy
Blood what I desire
Blood trickle 
Till it make a stream
Mouthy bitch 
We know what you mean
Bodies in the trunk
Hit ‘em with a beam
Digging holes 
6 feet deep 
Closed mouth 
Withered dreams
Figments of thoughts and feelings
Evaporate tears 
Just to Smile
Young boy he grab that rifle
Putting it straight to his head
Fire off a couple shots 
Turn everything around red (red) (red)
——
Fuck the cops 
Fuck the opposition 
Bitch I’m in position 
Took a kill shot 
Did I leave a witness?
Know they out here spilling 
Too much going on for me 
To even fucking care
No matter 
Let the brain matter slide down the wall
Yeah you know how high I am 
Fuck it man we ball
Crucifix on my chest
Yea you better believe it
Razor blade hang off my neck
Looks can be deceiving 
Pistol on my hip
Rifle on my back
Someone let the dog out 
Cause I’m constantly on attack 
Ripping joy from the angels 
When they see my heart
Taking pride from the demons 
Cause I go too hard
——
King of the hill
Turned to
Killer of the season
Bitch I’m steady steezin’
Look at me glow 
Pulled up with gold and diamonds 
Just to let you fuckers know
I ain’t here for nothing 
Even if I come from nothing 
Ima make it in to something 
Have the whole fucking crowd jumping
——
(Yea yea yea)
——
I could give a fuck 
where you keep it tucked 
Talk about it 
know your limits bruh
I’m adaptive to anything 
Turned off the limiter
——
(Yea yea yea)
——
Bitch I’m flying high 
Like a rocket 
Silk in my step 
Moonwalkin’ 
out the cockpit 
Thoughts drippin’ gold 
Alchemy in the socket
Smoke rising 
all my past sins 
start to mock it
Eye in the flame 
see the pain and I can’t stop it
Holding the world in my hands
Used to pray for a chance 
Now I’m down to nothing 
Used to have it all
now I’m stuck with my mind 
Rumbling
——
(Rumbling yea)

I’m The Dissident Voice

Lyrics:

Mr. nicotine
Liquor fiend
Soul searching 
Behind the scenes
Tryna find the light 
Where the silence leans
Shadows speakin’ loud 
In my daily routine
Mind playin’ chess
Every thought a guillotine
Watch me burn 
In the gasoline
Fire activate me 
Like demonic fiends 
Spit infernos daily
I’m burnin’ through your dreams
Smoke in your reality
nothing’s what it seems
No
Nothing’s what it seems
No
——
Hell’s my playground
chaos in my laughs
Darkness in my veins
light flickers past
Gravitate to fire
but I’m born from the ash
Eyes on the throne
but I’m destined to crash
Riding the storm
but I’m tethered to wrath
See I’ve been riding the wave 
For a fucking while
Dreams been falling hard 
So still I run that trial
Hoping for a mental win
but I’m still stuck in the wild 
Bitch I’ll never win no
NO
NO-NO-NO
——-
(Ad-lib {Conversation})
——
{Malxcxous}
I AIN’T FUCKING DONE
——
Been hiding behind my past
If I let go of the masquerade 
I might as well crash 
Bitch I’m pulling guns and knives 
Got ’em paralyzed
every move’s a twisted design
Of my mental arbiter vice
My Heart be cold as ice
but I’m burnin’ through the sky
Feelin’ like a legend
watch me rise and never die
Always advertise 
My fucking mental health
One day it’s hey look I’m alive 
Then the next it’s always farewell 
Fighting demons inside 
but they ain’t never left me well 
No
Let me out of my cage tonight 
Actually let’s make it a cell
You don’t ever wanna cross me..
Why? 
You’ll find out in hell… Woah

Infernal Entity

Lyrics:

I’m 24 but I feel like I’m 80
Mind heavy like bricks
every thought tryin’ to break me
Woke up to chaos
OCD on repeat
Washing hands 
thoughts spinning
can’t find any fucking peace
Depression hit like a train with no brakes
Smile fake
soul ache
every move I make
Bipolar highs got me 
flyin’ through the stratosphere
Every week
I’m in bed
drowning in all my fears
——
Ain’t no quick fix
no magic in a bottle
Every step forward feel like 
I’m going full throttle
Fighting with my mind
it’s a war I never chose
But I’m still standin’
even when the door’s closed
No quick fix
no shortcut to be found
Still lookin’ for peace 
on battlegrounds
I’m broken’
And bent
but I ain’t out
This pain got a purpose
I guess I’ll figure it out
——
Personality split
feel like I’m five people
Can’t tell what’s real 
when I’m facin’ the evil
Schizo-affective 
got me talkin’ to the shadows
Hallucinate hope
then fall in the gallows
Anxiety creepin’ 
like a thief in the night
Can’t breathe
can’t move
can’t sleep
can’t fight
I scream out
Hoping for some silence 
Therapy in a month
still stuck in the riots
——
Ain’t no quick fix
no magic in a bottle
Every step forward feel like 
I’m going full throttle
Fighting with my mind
it’s a war I never chose
But I’m still standin’
even when the door’s closed
No quick fix
no shortcut to be found
Still lookin’ for peace 
on battlegrounds
I’m broken’
And bent
but I ain’t out
This pain got a purpose
I guess I’ll figure it out
——
I ain’t weak
I’m survivin’ with a mind on fire
Tryna build a future 
from a world of barbed wire
Friends don’t get it
they say “just be strong”
But strength ain’t that simple 
when the nights feel this long
I write rhymes in my phone 
just to cope with the pain
Ink bleeds truth
not lookin’ for fame
One day at a time
that’s the only path
Still breathin’
still hopin’ 
That this storm will pass
——

A Glimpse of My Thin Line of Optimism

Lyrics:

[Malxcxous] (Attack mode)
DID YOU MISS ME?
AHAHAHAHAHAHA!

[Hook/Chorus]
These violent thoughts, they don’t let go
They march in line, they want that smoke
No peace in my mind, just fires and foes
It’s a war inside — let the blood flow cold

[Verse 1]
Pulse like a war drum, bangin’ in rage
Been locked in this mind like a beast in a cage
Every step I take
shadows follow me close
Every breath I make
hear the devil toast
—-
I ain’t scared of hell
I’ve been down that route
Where the angels cry and the killers shout
Sleep is a myth
I rest with my eyes wide
Plotting my revenge under pitch-black skies

[Hook / Chorus]
These violent thoughts, they don’t let go
They march in line, they want that smoke
No peace in mind, just fire and foes
It’s a war inside — let the blood flow cold

[Bridge]
Say a prayer, but the gods don’t hear you
Just echoes of hate in the smoke and fear
You- Tried peace, tried love, but they just fed the flame
Now I walk with ghosts who forgot their own names

[Outro]
So if you see me in the calm
You better run like prey
‘Cause a storm like me don’t fade 
it slays
One spark
one word
and I break that chain
Let the violent thoughts speak 
let ‘em bathe in pain (x4)

Reign in blood YEA (x4)

CARNAGE 2

Lyrics: 

Murda murda
I’m bout the fucking murda
That psychopathic Killa
Triple 6 I’m a sinner
Don’t hold me down 
Got the angel of death on my back
Caffeine and nicotine 
Taking off the edge
——
Now run it back
How fast can you pull the hammer back?
Yeah you know I’m in attack mode
I’m a maelstrom from psychotics
And I swear I got no options 
Psychiatric patient 
They just want me for my profits
You don’t give a damn
About my monumental stack of problems
Blanket diagnosis 
They wanna keep me at the bottom
Funny how I’ll kill ya and think nothing about it 
Got a couple screws loose
And I lost the screwdriver
——
I’m twitchin’, 
vision flickin’, 
seein’ red in the mist and
Voices in my head sayin’ 
load another clip
Yea
Grim reaper ridin’ shotgun
swervin’ in the hearse
Every bar a body bag
I’m layin’ down a curse
No peace
just war
got a razor in my grin
Feastin’ on the pain
yeah, I’m baptized in sin
Midnight creepin’
blood drippin’ off the chrome
I ain’t never goin’ back
hell’s where I call home
——
Black cloak draggin’
I’m stalkin’ through the static
Carvin’ pentagrams in flesh
rituals get graphic
Graveyard shift
I’m diggin’ deep in the dirt
With a smile on my face
while your soul gets hurt
Hear the screams echo
I’m laughin’ with the crows
——
Sippin’ blood from a chalice 
while the full moon glows
Skin mask stitched
I’m the butcher of your dreams
Chains clank in the dark
split your silence with a scream

Malevolence > Silence

Lyrics:

Memory slippin’
like water in my hands
Blank stares
Feelin’ lost
I don’t know where I stand
Panic in my chest 
like a beast that never sleeps
I smile in the mirror 
but inside I just weep
—
Voices in my head 
got me questionin’ the truth
Did I say that
Did I do that
Can’t find the proof
Every second’s cloudy
past is like a myth
I’m drownin’ in the silence
can’t catch my drift
Woah

——

My mind gone
I can’t rewind
Tryna find peace 
That I’ll never find
Every thought a battlefield
Another breath 
Yuh
another shield
—
My mind gone 
I walk alone
Feelin’ trapped in my own warzone
I forget the day
I forget the face
But the pain don’t ever 
get erased
No

⸻

Paranoia got me lookin’ over 
both my shoulders
Even when it’s calm
feel the weight like boulders
Eyes wide in the dark
but my vision ain’t clear
Feel like somethin’s lurkin’ 
but it’s just my fear
—
Depression on my back 
like a shadow in the rain
Writin’ rhymes 
just to bleed out the strain
I don’t need a stage
I need a place to scream
Somewhere they don’t call my trauma 
just a dream

⸻

My mind gone
I can’t rewind
Tryna find the peace 
That I’ll never find
Every thought a battlefield
Every breath 
another shield
—
My mind gone
I walk alone
Feelin’ trapped 
in my own zone
I forget the day
I forget my face
But the pain don’t ever 
get erased

⸻

Time slips by
And I’m just tryna hold on…
To who I was before 
I broke and went gone…
They say it gets better
but it’s just takin’ too long…
So I bury my truth 
in the beat of this song…
I don’t know where I been…
But I’m still here.
Still writin’.
Still fightin’…
In all my tears..
——
I’m still trapped 
I’ve been stuck on the inside
Clouded judgement 
Next to the memories that I can’t find 
Everything I know is 
slipping through my finger tips
I can’t stand to watch this anymore…
I’m trapped inside my skin
Need an escape 
Need a way 
for the world 
to come back to me 
—
Need a way for the world
To come back to me

Faded Memories [Prod. SPHYNX]

Lyrics:


My willingness to live has been erased
I find no happiness in anything 
So pray that I won’t die as soon as you leave
My memory continues to fade
The more you cloud up every vein of mine
You told me to move on yet I still tried 

LOVE DOESN’T FADE
IT’S ONLY SIDELINED
BLOODBATHS IN MY MIND 
IM NOT TRYING TO DECLINE
THINGS THAT ENTER MY PSYCHE
SOMETIMES THEIR OUT OF LINE
BUT I’VE STILL GOT PLENTY OF TIME 
TO RESUSCITATE ONCE MORE

The hobbies that I’ve tried to keep
Are the same things making me weak
And I’m waiting for a lobotomy
But for now I’ll just count sheep
Fuck I can’t sleep!
My mind is clouded by every vision of you 
I can’t escape!!!
I can’t escape!!!

LOVE DOESN’T FADE
IT’S ONLY SIDELINED
BLOODBATHS IN MY MIND 
I’M NOT TRYING TO DECLINE
BUT I’M RUNNING OUT OF TIME
CAN I PLEASE REWIND?
PUT MY LIFE ON PAUSE 
SO I CAN SETTLE THE SCORE

I smile when I’m away
Because it’s distracting 
But as soon as I’m back home
I feel it all collapsing
I’m in the eye of the storm 
That we created 
But as soon as you left 
It became a void 
And now I hate it..

Love Doesn’t Fade

Lyrics:

Mind on fire and I’m burnin’ both ends
Life on the edge
I don’t need no friends
Smoke in my lungs
tabs melt my brain
Drift through the void just to feel no pain
Rush or rust 
I don’t do no sleep
Chasin’ death like it owe me peace
Crush them pills
sip that sin
If I see dawn
I’ll do it again
——
Heart beat racin’
mind misplaced
LSD lace got me feelin’ displaced
Nicotine fiend
lungs full of rot
Tryna find peace in a place God forgot
Pop me a script 
don’t ask what it is
If it numb my soul
then it is what it is
Weed got me floatin’
liquor bring rage
Still ain’t escaped 
From this self-built cage
(WAH)
I jump off cliffs 
just to feel alive
Adrenaline highs 
where my demons thrive
Void in my chest 
that I fill with the smoke
Friends said chill
And I just said
“Nope.”
——
I ain’t scared of the reaper no more
He sittin’ shotgun 
when I crash through doors
Life too slow
I press fast-forward
Hell ain’t hot 
when you’ve been there before
——
Flashbacks twist like a Rubik’s curse
Thought I hit bottom
then I found worse
Doctor say slow
I say not yet
I ain’t tryna feel 
what I might regret
I see colors drip from the walls
Demons laugh 
when the last tab falls
Bottle to the lips
middle finger to the sky
If tonight’s the last night
I won’t even ask why
——
I got scars that don’t bleed
Thoughts that don’t leave
All these thrills just sedate me
Every high trying to erase me
Can’t stop now
I’m too deep in
Soul been gone
all I got’s this grin
So I ride that wave till the lights go black
And if I don’t wake then I’ll just play this back
And if I don’t wake 
I’ll just play this back
Yea yea yea

So Many Vices

Lyrics: 

You ever seen fear run?
That’s what happens when death sees me comin’.
I don’t wait on fate—I walk it down.
Let’s go.
⸻
I ain’t runnin’ from the reaper
I been chasin’ that b***h
Dressed in black like the smoke 
From a full-clipped wish
Every step got weight
every breath like fire
Death gonna freak 
When I’m in that all black attire
——
Blood in my boots
grin full of grief
Made peace with the pain 
like I signed a new lease
I don’t cry in the dark
I stalk through the flames
With a blade in my voice 
when I speak my own name
——
Took L’s, 
took losses, 
buried my pride
But I ain’t never been the type 
to lay down and die
I want smoke, 
I want static, 
I want that crown
My gun automatic 
If death got a throne
I’ma walk it down
Made it fancy took em’ out with the chrome
Ah’ ah’ ah’
Made it fancy took em’ out with the chrome
Ah’ ah’
⸻
I walk it down
don’t blink
don’t shake
Don’t think
If the devil wanna dance
I’ll control the ring
No light
No guide
No path I’m going down
I made my own 
Made em bleed out with my sound
(WAH)
I walk it down
I ain’t beggin’ for peace
I came to eat pain 
and leave the feast
Ain’t no backin’ off
no turnaround
If death take a step
I’ll walk him down
If death 
Take
A
Step
I’ll walk him down
I’ll walk him down 
I’ll walk him down
⸻
Fangs out
soul raw
Taking over
My reflection ain’t human
it’s somethin’ more
It’s the look of a beast 
that’s been starved too long
Now I bite through my pain 
just to prove I’m strong
——
I don’t flinch at the casket
I stare like a drone
Like, You came for me? 
Shoulda left me alone
I been fightin’ since birth
Playing with trap since youth 
So I’ll spit in the void 
Just to show I’m ruthless
——
Ain’t no savior
ain’t no rest
Just smoke in my lungs and steel
in my chest
Tell death, 
“Lace up, meet me now”
’Cause I ain’t slowin’ down
Yeah mane, I walk it down
Yeah mane, I walk it down
⸻

Walk Em’ Down

Lyrics:

This ain’t a phase
this is fate in disguise
Blade on my lap
got the heat on my thigh
Whispers of murder 
just dance in my head
I write love letters 
With iron and lead
Twist of the wrist
now my gun starts to sing
Chrome got a voice 
when the .40 go ring
I don’t just dream it
I do what I said
My fascination 
got a body count thread
——
Polished the blade 
like I’m prepping a bride
Mirror reflections 
of red in my eyes
Every knife in the drawer 
got a tale untold
And the Glock got a grin 
like a monster in gold
I ain’t twitchy
I’m patient
surgical calm
But the silence breaks quick 
when I open my palm
——
One pull
one swipe
let the canvas scream
I turn murder to a moment
sharp like a dream
——
Blood don’t bother me
it’s part of the calm
Like a verse in the dark 
where the lost belong
——
Heart full of static
mind like a maze
And the steel’s my compass 
through crimson haze
I ain’t just loud
I let actions preach
Leave sermons in blood 
on a backstreet scene
Karambit curve 
like a predator’s grin
And the SIG never lies 
when it sinks through sin
I move like a ghost 
with a blacked-out creed
Where obsession meets justice
and vengeance feeds

Gun Metal Sickness

Lyrics:

I was hellborn
Flames in my veins
Raised in the dark
broke outta my chains
I don’t want peace
I want reign
So kiss the crown or drown in pain
——
Lucifer laughed when he saw me ascend
I’m the villain’s villain
the devil’s best friend
I spit in the sky
made lightning bend
Tore wings off of angels 
just to find a trend
No filter
no leash
I’m a beast off the meds
Turn gold to rust with the thoughts in my head
Got ops in the shadows
prayin’ I’m dead
But I thrive in the black 
where the cowards fled
——
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?
You want smoke?
—
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?
You want smoke?
—
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?
You want smoke?
—
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?!
——
They want me censored
Want me to fall
But I write my name in blood 
on the wall
I’m the nightmare 
sleep won’t recall
In the mirror smilin’ 
when empires fall
Snakes in suits 
wanna dance with the curse
But I’m poison laced 
in a sick universe
Soul’s too cold
heart too immersed
I was built for war
now watch me burst
I’m going supernova
Somebody better call a hearse 
—
I’m going supernova
Somebody better call a hearse
—
And when I die
light the fire
let it burn high
Ashes rain down
cover up the sky
——

Hellborn

Lyrics:

Yeah I’m feeling evil
I might stunt like knievel
I got some things I’d like to invest
But I’m frozen cold sub zero 
Body becoming blue and black
Color of a bruise 
Feelings of a heart attack
pressure in my veins 
Drowning in this silence
can’t escape the pain
Lost inside my mind
thunder crackin’ like the rain
Thoughts runnin’ in circles
like I’m locked in a chain
[YEA]
Battlin’ these demons
but they already know my name
[HAHA]
(Defiant)
Still I lace my boots
marchin’ through the flame
Built from all the hurt
now I weaponize the shame
Scars on my soul
but I wear ’em like a badge
Turned every loss into 
lessons I could stash
Seeing the light now
Like I tossed a flash
Now I spit the truth
And it cuts deep like a gash
Voices in my head said 
I’d never break free
Now I’m breakin’ mirrors 
just to find the real me
Pain in my chest
but I breathe through the smoke
I was hiding the pain
Now I’m burning the cloak
——
They say my lifes a joke
But I already know
That’s why I reinvent my hurt 
You lost for words?
You should’ve known 
That I’m the master of self destruction
I’m showing new signs of early deaths
And comatoses
Overdoses
Reaching for an all new time high 
People used to plead for me to stop it 
But I’ve weaponized my pain 
So now I got a new rocket 
Bout to blast 
Then blow up
Like my my life isn’t on the ballot
Fuck it all
Cause bitch we godly
We won’t ever die 
As long as our voice is out there
Even when I’m ashes 
Don’t resurrect me

Profit From Being Demonic

Lyrics:

I used to hate the silence
it echoed too loud
Feared the empty nights 
and no space in the crowd
Chasin’ validation 
like a fix I could feel
But it never healed the wounds 
that I tried to conceal

Mirror talkin’ back
saying “It’s time to let go”
Of the hands that dropped mine 
when the world said no
Now I stand in the dark 
and I’m startin’ to see
I was searchin’ for love 
that was locked inside me

Loneliness taught me 
how to breathe on my own
Turned the fear into fire
now I’m fully honed
I ain’t beggin’ for a seat 
at the table no more
I built my own throne 
on this self-loathing floor

I’m alone but alive
not afraid anymore
I found peace in the pain
strength in the core
Need a mask 
I know I’ll hold fear in the end
But I made fear my friend
Now I’m ready for the end
Now I’m ready for the end

Alone But Alive

Lyrics:

Do you see the hurt in my smile
I’ve been Malxcxous for a while
For the past five years 
I’ve been living in denial
Death has been my idol
Shed tears like a crocodile 
Or that’s at least what they said 
—
(melodic)
I’ve been feeling dead
Yeah I’ve been feeling dead
(I’m just waiting for the day to end)
I’ve been feeling dead
Yeah I’ve been feeling dead
(Is this the end)
—
Hashing battles out 
With my silhouette 
Go from day to day
Wishing for a different end
I’m hungry for the money 
but I’m sick of all the stress
One day hopefully I’m clean 
But until then I’ll live like it’s the end 
Everyday I’m just going through cycles
Although I wish it was like before
I was drugged up to a point 
I couldn’t feel anymore
Here I am wishing away
For some things to change 
(For some things to change)
—

Cycles

Lyrics:

Motherfucker pop the trunk
Life been getting rough
Pull out the AR 
I’m ready to fuckin bust
Pop a couple pills 
Before I pop a few bullets
Master of destruction 
But you already been knowing 
Throw up the set 
They swear I be faking 
Pull up on me bitch 
Yea let’s get to spraying
White boy from the Midwest 
You fuckers better be praying 
Time to meet your god 
But you finna meet satan
———
My bullets hot 
Just like my style, it’s steamin’
Look at the boy, dead silent 
He schemin’
Ain’t cracked a smile in a sinister while
This got Malxcxous tagged all over the file
I drop Easter eggs in every line I compile
So make me your idol 
I’ll do it with guile
Swear I’ll make pain feel worth your while
Fuck designer drip
Man this my style
Never switch 
my code
my file
This my brand
bitch 
Now open wide and swallow the trial
———
I want you to taste my lead
At a point I was gonna waste it 
On my head
See the red dripping 
it ain’t paint droppin’
Violence what I’m bout 
Bodies stay plottin’
Murals on the walls
From the hearts I keep poppin’
Brushstroke with a blade 
Bitch I hope you’re watching
Got the shadows dancing 
In my gallery of slaughter
Twistin’ the fate of your karma
———
Now it’s time to sacrifice your captain
I paint the void 
No pause
Just action
(Pause)
Locked in deep
No room for distraction
Violence
Silence
What I’m plotting
Vengeance so cold
They mistook it for profit
Waltz through the blood 
All these bodies, man I’m cocky
Sent ‘em straight to limbo
back to the fuckin’ lobby
Now I’m sitting in a dim hotel lobby
Malxcxous 
I’m violent
Hair dyed 
violet
Bullet casings fall 
it’s a riot
End peace for profit 
I supply it
Freakish clown
I’m wildin’
Pulled up to the circus 
smiling
Now the tent’s a coffin 
silence

“Pop The Trunk” Freestyle

Lyrics:

Once again I’m back with a deathwish
Swear I want my body to be headless
Swerving lane to lane don’t test it
Falling in love with the drugs 
Cause they love me back
Fuck all the fake bitches 
You can keep em back
I got the devil in my corner
And he wishing me luck with love 
—
Yuh
—
Now my heart’s cold
I don’t feel a thing
Even pain got bored
stopped visiting
Eyes red
voice dead
I’m a ghost in the flesh
Got a blade in the bag 
and a cross on my neck
—
Lungs full of smoke
tryna silence the screams
Tryna die in my sleep 
so I wake up in a dream
I ain’t scared of the dark
I invite that bitch
Cause every night I sleep
I pray I don’t switch
—
Back to demon mode 
steady speakin’ in curses
I ain’t sayin’ goodbyes
I’m releasing the hearses
Thoughts of death loopin
daily like a broken tape
Paranoia in my skull 
And I always let it twist my fate
Oh no 
Oh no
Now let me open the gate to hell
Where I sit and reside in a cell
Cell 
Cell 
Cell 
—
Yeah I’m just kicking it back 
Can’t you tell? 
Born the ruler. I’m the king of this hell
When they say “demon time”
That’s my time 
I walk the flames
leave the weak behind
Crown of thorns
but this throne is mine
Now I’m capitalizing 
Rising high in the kingdom of crime
(Wah)
I used to think that it was all fucked 
But now I’m embracing 
No more static in my mind 
I fucking erased it
—
Nah I ain’t gonna chase it 
This psychosis of mine 
Gotta go
I love the dark 
But someone gotta turn on the lights 
Before I blow
I’m about to get hotter than the sun
I’m going supersonic
My lungs laced with chronic
I can feel the spark in my soul
Becoming demonic
Someone save me 
Before I am death 
incarnate

DEATHWISH 2

Lyrics:

Fuck I must be like 75 
Cause every fucking day 
I wanna die
Young and 24
But I’m paralyzed 
Look into the camera 
While I take my life
I swear the gun is like
A few inches away
Honestly there really ain’t a lot 
to make me stay
And I feel my grip loosening everyday
While I sit here and get high 
Tryna take more off my plate
I am just so desolate mane
Doesn’t matter where 
Cause I always got a razor on my neck 
(I’m talking like)
Idolize
Suicide
Cut your fucking throat
(yea)
Take yo life
End it tonight 
—
Shut the fuck up 
Demons fighting for control of my mind
Sitting on the moon while I’m fucking high
Missing you in my room 
At that time things were better in my life
Now I’m-
FUCKED UP
FULL OF DRUGS
CANT TAKE THE PAIN AWAY
SO I ATE A SLUG
FROM THE PUMP 
NOW IM BLEEDING OUT ON THE FLOOR
COUGHING UP
PINTS OF BLOOD
ITS ALL TURNING GRAY 
I CANT SEE ANYMORE
AND IM LIKE WHAT THE FUCK
AINT THIS WHAT YOU WANT
YOU RUINED YOUR OWN LIFE 
AND YOU BECAME DUST

Desolate

Lyrics:

I’ve been lost in action 
Mind been scrapped
And I’m trying to find a new way 
But I’m constantly getting distracted 
Thought that I could change 
But I lost my mind in passion
Been looking up at the lights 
Like I’m stuck in traffic 
Like I’m stuck in traffic 
Yeaaaaa
Like I’m stuck in traffic

Is this a cult transaction?
Everything that I’m drawn to 
Persuading me to take action
But I’m stuck up in my ways
X mentioned the law of attraction 
I been trying to find the meaning 
But I think I’m sinking down 
I’m becoming compact yuh
Violent acts that I’m keeping 
locked inside of my mind
If you really care just stick by my side
I’d do it all for you, I’ll put it all aside
I’m losing myself, I saw two stars collide 
And I thought that it was us 
But I’m still alone inside 
But in time I’m hoping we could reconvene
At another time 
And hopefully that’s the last time (for me)
———
Cause after that I’m done 
No more warmth from the sun 
Chains heavy, I’m throwing up
Losing hope, pouring up
Blind to feelings, don’t touch
You weren’t there, so don’t judge
If It’s empty then fill it up 
With the poison that kills love 
Heart cracked, I can’t seal it up 
Now I’m numb, I don’t feel at all
———

Traffic

Lyrics:

—
Nicotine flooding my system
I feel my blood slowing down
Too much energy in me 
So I’m still racing (harmonize)
—
Tried to put down the liquor 
But I went back to pick it up
Found my feelings in the cup
So I started mixing em’ up
Now I’m drowning in my feelings 
Never give it up 
This the only strength that I have 
Until I use it up
—
I can’t understand how things 
became so silent 
In the night walking 
I’m tryna find my peace now 
But my mind keeps becoming violent 
I can’t sleep now
I’m still walking down this path 
And it’s getting dark 
I used to have a light 
But I lost it at the start 
Of the 2 0 2 5
S U I C I D E 
I sign on the dotted line 
—
And then I tossed the lock and key 
Away (harmonize)
—
And then I tossed the lock and key 
Away (harmonize)
—
And then I tossed the lock and key 
Away (harmonize/higher octave)

Fortitude

Lyrics:

(Harmonize)

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

Thoughts moving fast
Heart moving slow
Hate the light 
So I stay in the cold
Darkness
Is where my feelings never show
I can’t breathe 
So I move in code

(Harmonize)

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

(Harmonize)

Afterlife

Lyrics:

Big gash on my right arm
Speeding down the highway 
Blood on the dash
Dying my way
Circumvent the things that 
I can’t change the right way
Shadows in my rearview
Demons in both lanes
Heartbeat in Morse code
Body splitting five ways
Lights blur past like 
Regrets 
That I can’t quite name
Gas light blinking
But I’m far from fucking empty
Soul been leaking out
Ain’t no priest that’s gon’ cleanse me
—
(Woah)
(Woah Woah)
(Fuck)
—
Tires peel truth
While the lies ride gently
Cracked windshield
Like my mind 
it’s bending
Every mile marker’s
Just another death sentence
Can’t stop now
I’m the curse with a vengeance
Slaughter- 
Everything around
now that’s my fucking penance
Don’t-
Even- 
open your mouth 
Cause I’m only bout slinging rounds 
Make the town a mess 
Scatter the blood around
Bodies in the floor while
I’m laughing to the sound
Of sirens getting closer
But I never turn around
Grinning through the carnage
Like the devil’s been unbound (Hoe)
Unlock your fucking mind 
And understand my sound 
This is murder rap
Don’t glorify this clown
Smiling in the face of death
Wished and hoped now that’s a bet
Stay ready, for the bigger threat
No ones even noticed yet
The world is burning slowly
I ain’t even light a cigarette 
Flames dance on the edge of town
And I ain’t break a sweat
Calm in the storm, I’m post-regret
No fear left, just silhouette
Of a man, who’s lost his final fucking step
Now I walk
Like death 
Ain’t a fucking threat
-
Take my soul and run with my heart away
Break my spirit and hope for a better day 
But hope don’t bloom in these lands 
that I roam
Just ashes and echoes, Bitch I walk alone
Tried to be enough, but I’m always too late
Now love’s just a whisper that I suffocate
Begging the reaper to take me away
Far away to a better place 
Or at least that’s what they saying 
-
But heaven don’t answer 
when I start prayin’
-
Demons inside
They just keep on playin’
-
These games with my mind
I’m stuck in decay
Wounds on my soul 
that won’t fade away

The Ashes Of Regret

Lyrics:

I got three faces
So I’m lookin like a Cerberus 
I paint it red
Leave the scene I’m feeling murderous 
blood in my steps
Shadow longer than a serpent is
Whispers in my head
Saying, show ‘em what the verdict is
Knife in my coat
heart colder than the underworld
Soul been broke
now I’m hunting through another world
Smoke in my lungs
I been walkin through the punishment
Angels turn back
Like they scared of what I’m coming with
—
I got blacked out wings, I’m an arbiter of only death. 
Red dot pings on the map, so you know where I’m going next. 
Sting like a bee, I’ve already killed you just ain’t notice yet. 
Funny how I’m a threat, but they worship me like an idol. 
Cut into my skin, because I’m feeling suicidal. Loading up the rounds, into my fucking rifle. Fuck you’re champions, cause ima steal their eternal title. 
—
Fuck around and find out
You gon see me lash out
When I’m like this 
Feel like my souls been blacked out 
Do you expect to run?
When I got my guns 
Locked and loaded 
Bitch I’m ready 
let the war cry sound out 
—
Shots 
Rapid steps they breathing heavy
Pump fake a pussy 
while I’m grippin’ my machetes
Split ‘em down the middle
paint the walls like it’s confetti
Voices say “kill” 
(HaHaHa)
they always ready
Eyes bloodshot
Flames burn hot
Soul been gone 
Lost in limbo
Where the screaming make me feel at home
Like the Nine tailed fox
I was born to be alone 
Madara’s rage
bringing the wars straight to your home
Rinnegan visions
see your fate unfold
Paths of Pain
I control the cold
Edo Tensei rise
from the grave they roam
Death is my kingdom 
Welcome to my home
Whispers of madness
I’m flesh and I’m chrome
Every scream’s a prayer
but God’s overthrown
I feast on the pain
on the marrow and groan
No light in this pit
just darkness full-blown
I’m the nightmare’s seed
and this hell’s my throne
I’m the nightmare’s seed
and this hell’s my home
I’m the nightmare’s seed
and this hell’s my-

Kingdom Of Death

Lyrics:


Fuck it all 
Thinking it might end tonight
Drinking & smoking 
Until my soul is out of sight
Thoughts moving faster 
I think I overdid it 
Now I’m losing my mind 
This ain’t a fucking figment 
Of my imagination 
I got the rooms spinning violent 
Walls closing in
You could say that I’m Dramatic
Tears they dry up
But my pain stay on automatic
Voices in my head
Telling me I’m all I got
Shadow in the mirror
Smirking like he want my spot
I been dead inside
But my body never dropped
Numb to all the pain 
Can’t tell if I’ve been stopped
No
—
Blank stare, cold veins 
Every answer I’ve given 
Has been mocked 
Can’t tell who I am now
-
Blank stare, cold veins 
Every answer I’ve given 
Has been mocked 
Can’t tell who I am now
—
Somebody just stop the clock 
My shift is done 
I’m clocking out
Brain is fried 
I’m too far now
Shadows they follow me 
Demons surrounding me 
Just waiting to watch me drop 
Stick the barrel in they mouth 
Hoping they can guess the round 
Is it 45 or 9? Time to find out.
I’ve been killing away 
Every second of time I’ve got
If life’s a loaded gun 
Then I’m stuck in the chamber (Ha)
Ain’t this gods greatest joke 
The fact that I cannot die 
I’ve fantasized about many ways 
of taking my life

Disillusion

Lyrics:

Making money moves 
But I’m never outta cash
Bitch say she love me
Now her skull is on my dash
Wish to better myself 
But it always turns to ash
Plan on killing myself 
But maybe I’ll hold back
—
Bitch I’m big steppin’
Family reppin’
I don’t need no gang 
Seen a friend turn to an opp
So I left a stain
Hoping all these dollars 
Will help cope with my pain
But I seen the ending for most
Will mine be the same 
Woah!
—
Bipolar switchin’ moods 
Constant
Heart made of ice every word feelin’
Toxic
Out here making money moves for my
Profit
Snakes in the grass always watching where I 
Walk (yuh)
Mind on the bag, can’t stop gotta,
Lock in
Steel in my hand every step I got em’
Droppin’
Yeah bitch I’m a Steppa
Every move leave the
Block thin (yuh)
—
Me and my cousin 
We Big Steppin’
Me and my brothas 
We Big Steppin’
(Yea hoe)
Me and the fam 
We Big Steppin’
(Yea hoe)
M-A-L-X-C-X-O-U-S
Forever Death I’m reppin’
—
Turn your nice neighborhood 
Into a warzone 
Cops yelling freeze 
But I’m thirsty like frozone
I don’t give a fuck 
About none of these hoes (no)
Ima catch a bag 
Then disappear into the ozone
Smuggle in the drugs 
You can call me Han solo
It’s redrum for the opps 
If they still want that 
Motherfuckin Smoke
Motherfuckin Smoke
Motherfuckin Smoke
Bitch!

(Bitch we dumb wit it)
(Bitch we dumb wit it)
(Yeah the gang)
(Real Steppa)
(Bitch we dumb wit it)
(Yeah we dumb wit it)
(Yeah we dumb wit it)
(Bitch the gang)
(Yea mothafuckin’ dumb wit it)
(Yuh)

Real Steppas

Lyrics:

Shotgun to my dome
Turn my brain into confetti
Yeah my soul is gone 
Everything fucking left me 
I’m still out here stressing
Wonder if anything will work in my life
Now that’s the question
Will suicide be the only option
If I can’t be bothered to change my ways
Stuck in my mind 
I’ll never be sane 
Fuck therapy 
I swear it’s a game 
I’ve been conned, lied to, stolen from
But I’m still out here never judging 
I know it’s so hard 
So I’m never fronting 
When it all goes sideways 
I’m on the hunt yeah
—
Mask on tight, don’t ask if I’m okay
Dark thoughts loop like a tape that won’t play
I smile but it’s all for display
Mind in a cage
I chew through the pain
Hope’s a drug
and I threw it away 
again..
Friends fade out
but the ghosts still remain
Screaming in the silence
lost in the rain
I don’t want pity
just stay in your lane
Easy way out 
Take a bullet to the brain
—
My best trait is Self loathing 
Depression is still loading up
Thought that you could change me 
But you just closed me up 
Now no one can get close
Never close enough
—
Stay the fuck away from me 
I’m going insane 
Locked up in my mind 
With all the things I’ll never change 
The time on my life 
Slowly ticking away
Every straw that broke a back 
Has multiplied for days
Simple action 
Complex consequence 
Murders not a fuckin threat 
Life = Damnation
Identity is subtle fractures 
in a flaw
Tear it all down 
Burn it all 
Burn it all
What 
are 
you 
now?

Identity Crisis

Lyrics:

Social parasite
Im the opposite
Talk no Jutsu
Yeah bitch
I offer it
It never works
No more acknowledgment 
She hurt me 
Then expect 
Apologies 
I’m suffering 
Nothing ever changes 
I’m so confident 
That I’m dead inside 
Bitches twisting stories 
Just to tell their truth when it’s a lie 
Just to tell their truth when it’s a lie
Crimes of love 
But they erase the time
I called her out 
She dropped me on a dime woah
So I’m carving my way out
Just so I can high roll
(Yuh) (Yuh)
—
If she want me back then tough luck
Fuck you bitch I don’t trust 
Looking at you now 
Inside is ugly 
So I can’t lust
Fuck
Here we go again
Back up on the drugs 
The trauma a prerequisite 
For my mental downslide 
For my brothers 
always down to ride
Now that’s it’s do or die
I’m fucking dead inside
So I can’t cry
Barely shed a fucking tear 
When I’m hurting 
Now I’m near
The hearse and-
I wanna skip the ride 
Fast travel to the dirt
(Yea yea yea)
I’m letting my soul disperse
While I give my body back to the earth
(Huh)
I travel through the air 
Just to reach the fucking sky
Then I fall apart
—
No reason to cry
(WAH)
Who am I?
Who am I?
The Bad guy 
The Bad guy
Suicide
Suicide

Who am I?
Who am I?
The Bad Guy
The Bad Guy
Suicide
Suicide until I fucking die 

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Who Am I?

Lyrics:

There is a storm in my heart
Feel like I’m back at the start
It’s 2015 all over again
Drugs and alcohol in my bloodstream
Hoping to take over 
Before I become a ghost in the shell of my host 
But I know what’s gonna happen to me 
so oh well
—
I been struggling through these dark times 
Tryna look for the light 
Hoping that god will come into my room and save me during the night 
Cause everyday gets darker
And I don’t know how much longer
I can hold it in 
This storm in my heart 
Makes me want to cry to the 
(heaven above)
—
There’s a storm in my heart 
And I’m running out of time
These demons want my mind 
I’m fighting for my life
Everything & everyone competing 
And I can’t even have a soul that’s mine 
I swear I’m genuine 
But I’m tainted 
Ruined by illusions 
Altered by the broken promises 
And all the lies 
I’m still a child in the light 
Yet almost everyone betrayed me 
Now I’m holding a shovel 
Crying
(Heaven Above)

Storm 💔

Lyrics:

I’m out here waiting for you
I know dreams don’t come true

Accidentally sedated
X2

I’m out in the car don’t go away
I catch what you throw away
Ideas pilling up
Spilling out from the hole in my head

From the hole in my head

Still reaching out
Why can’t I keep it out
The feeling died 
Memory still keeps them alive
Time for a lobotomy
I’m done with this
Analogy

We’re falling out
Could you pick us up
I still fought
You weren’t the only one
Go ahead and leave me alone
That’s how I’ve walked through life 
All along
All along

I’m out here waiting for you
I know dreams don’t come true

Accidentally sedated
X4

I know it’s hard to be alone 
But it ain’t nothing 
I haven’t done before
The rain’ll keep pouring 
And everyone will ignore me
My fucked up existence 
I should’ve been done before
I didn’t listen
I didn’t listen
I didn’t listen
I didn’t listen

Waiting

Lyrics: 

At the store
Tryna spend all my dough
Decide not to buy
Gas pedal hit the floor 
Been craving some iron
So I think I’ll buy a g-lock
Stock up on bullets 
Bitch you know I had to restock
Demons in my head say 
“spin ’til the heat stop”
Voices in the wind
cold whispers when the beat drop
Every shell casing 
Like a soul that the streets got

Silencer on it
now it sound like a beatbox
Creep in the night
I been movin’ through the street blocks
Hood full of whispers
Paranoia never detox
One false move
have you stiff like a padlock
Clock tickin’ down
I ain’t talkin’ ’bout a wristwatch
Pressure on my chest
got me feelin’ like I’m gridlocked
Load another round
Heart colder than a slipknot
Hunger in my soul
I ain’t feedin’ off no peace talk

Whatchu tryna say 
Whatchu tryna say

Voices in my head
Steady tellin’ me to seek shock
Life on the edge
So I’m livin’ with my heat cocked
Rest in the dirt
if you ever think my beat soft

Another Night Symbolizing How Violence and Paranoia Keep Me Alive

Lyrics:

Feelings been abused
Possession on the rise
Substances is what I choose
Hear the reaper cry out tonight
I was born a fucking threat
Stalker in the night
I was born a fucking threat
Stalker in the night
Had that bitch lookin 
Like a deer in headlights
My mind fuckin gone
They made a sacrifice 
Heard me scream 
Going wild
Malxcxous on the chopping block
But I’m still gonna smile
I’m the face of death
Bitch 

Killer from the woods
Hang you by the neck 
Knives, guns, swords
The Fed’s just can’t ignore
Me 
They know I’m lookin like a psycho
who might kill
But I’m just a depressed fuck 
scrolling reels
Feed me a fucking sad song
You know I’ll devour
You keep coming into my dreams
In real life I’m jumping off towers
My souls been real bothered and
Now it’s something that I can’t ignore
Ignite my fucking car while I’m in it 
Hoping to explode

Everything diminish
Chunks flying
My hope is dying 
USA stuck in a riot 
And I’m the pilot
Fuck the government
Oppressing us
saying we are violent 
Peace never worked bitch
So maybe ima get violent 
Flames chains 
Surround em all again
Show em how we tame 
Show em how we tame
Chicken heads 
Wearing lion attire
We are wolves 
we are starving 
Us vs them 
And our numbers are multiplying 

Sick in the head
Call the tyrants
Murder you all 
Prioritize violence

Sick in the head
Call the tyrants
Murder you all
Prioritize violence

Pushing prejudice 
While they try to keep us docile
Division among the masses
Turning into something vile
Gold teeth politics 
With military grade crocodiles 
You claim were independent 
But I know we still live in denial
No one here is safe
Hope evaporates
Slowly go insane
Hand on the grip of the gun
As soon as we show face 
This whole world is fake
THIS WHOLE WORLD IS FAKE!

Sick In The Head

Lyrics:

Sometimes I just wanna go away
Sometimes I plot and plan to never stay
Sometimes I just wanna fly to space 
Just to see if I could find a place 
I think I wanna die today
I think I wanna die today
Nahh

I’m thinking too much 
I can’t say that
If I disappear into the mist 
Would you wait back
I think I’m coming back
But I’m not sure how
I’m hoping I’ll be better 
Before everything comes 
Crashing down 
Crashing down

I thinking I’m passing out
Head up in the clouds
Too much on my mind 
I ain’t ever coming down
(Nah)
I’m too sad, too kind
(Yeah)
I’m too mad, too blind
(Yeah)
I’m too lost to find peace of mind
(Yea yea yea)
Is it pure destruction or quiet release
I know that it’s all too far to see
So out of reach
Can’t find the key
Who these pussy boys steppin on?
Not me.

—

Bitch I’m fucked up 
Used to be drugged up
I’m still waiting for a call 
From my vices
Killing everything 
That sound like mice 
And I pulled the stopper
Now I’m draining my life 
I’ve awakened 
But I feel it getting weaker
Give me about a year
I may look similar
To the frown on the theater
Feel my heart crashing down 
My feelings can’t come around 
I’m putting up walls 
While I’m staring down 
1,000 yard stare
Heavy is the crown 
My indecisiveness is tranquillity 
Unparalleled is my unpredictability 

Changes that I never make 
Rewind but I’m out of place
X4

Fleeting Persona

Lyrics:

I don’t feel nothin’
Can’t feel no more
Waitin’ on death 
Like it’s knockin’ at the door
If I fade tonight
Just let me go
Life ain’t a gift 
When it’s hollow to the core
Every scar I carved 
Just a story in disguise
Drownin’ in my thoughts 
With a noose in my eyes
Silence feels louder 
Than the people in my life
If death is a blessing
I been prayin’ every night
(Woah)
—
Eyes wide open 
But I’m blind to the day
Dreams turn to ashes 
And the light fades away
Every breath heavy 
Like it’s weighed down with chains
Nothin’ in my chest 
But a shadow and my pain
Tired of the light
I been losin’ my war
Knockin’ on the coffin
Can’t ignore it no more
If tomorrow never comes
I won’t beg 
I won’t plead
I’ll be dead
Just a ghost in the dark 
With a heart that won’t bleed
Nothings ever what it seems
Shadows and visions haunting me
Always assume the worst case
In my dreams
Try to talk to god 
But my soul is hollowed 
I don’t give up the fight
I just swallow
All my pride
I’m losing the light
Tunnel vision
When I’m walking through the night
—
I’ve hidden the ways 
I’ve tried 
Aesthetic visions
When I think of suicide
Mixing potions 
So I kill my feelings on time
Picking up the knife 
Thinking it’s time to die
So I cut
I bleed
Now I feel again
I reap
I relapsed too many times
That I can’t hide again
Too much 
Too late
Oh why

Bleeding

This is the legacy I’m leaving behind. 

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