DEATHWISH 

Lyrics:

Man it’s all fucked
Fuck this misery 
I tried to drown it with love
But that made me turn to drugs
Magic touch 
Serpentine 
Filled with lust 
Medusa turn me to stone
I am alone
Chrome in my mouth 
Blast through my dome
Blast through my DOME

Devil wishing me luck with love 
But I wanna go back
Never thought about it
Left it all in the past 
Never wanted to die
But I guess I’ll turn to ash

Yeah my fate is sealed
My date decided 
Here I am confiding 
In a pew 
Pleading screaming 
What can I do
Repent for what 
My soul left
with the Devil too

I was always reject
Even gave them respect 
Earned 13 reasons 
But I could never die
Wanna multiply 
But scared of my bloodline
Use the sun to burn my eyes
Masochist of the family
Love to hurt myself 
Even when they can see
Prying eyes be watching me

Wanna kill myself 
But don’t wanna go to hell
No way out 
Only problem 
Is with myself

Wanna kill myself 
But don’t wanna go to hell
No way out 
Only problem 
Is with myself
(With myself)

People be afraid of me
I guess that’s what I get 
For looking like a young Charles 
I can’t handle it 
Still fathom it
How can I live with myself
23 years
I’m in still down in hell
Metaphoric Shit 
I kept it on a shelf
Hanging by a wire 
Cutting my hand 
Wondering where the fuck is neverland
If I fall I will never land
Only fall until I create another abyss 
Man it’s all fucked 
Wanna scream 
But no one can help
Knowing this shit
I should die 
Make it a closed casket
Cause ima cut my face 
Hate myself so much 
Id love to make the others cry

DEATHWISH

Lyrics: 

Tired of reaching out so now I stay low key
Living in a ghost town in my mind 
God telling me to take my time 
Devil inside tryna take my eyes 
So I only see pitch black

But I don’t want to have suicidal thoughts in the Cadillac 
Mood switching like you been flipping a light
When I travel a to b I stay out of sight 
Cause there isn’t a night 
where I don’t wanna be alone
Inside been feeling like I have to atone 
For they way I’m being treated
That’s why I’m grippin’ the chrome
Mistake my silence for patience
But I’ve just kind of been waiting 
I can see that everything’s about to implode 
Just waiting for the fuse to light 
So I can explode 
Cause I ain’t going out without no damage
I’m going catastrophic no healing 

Don’t worry for me anymore 
Cause there’s no saving me 
Life’s been on a tight rope 
And I swear it’s getting thinner

You ain’t ever heard me talk about anything realer
Then this shit, why do I have to be stuck in place feeling like shit
While she gets to reap the benefits of her own destruction 
Meanwhile I’m sitting at home plotting on myself 
With my smith and Wesson 

I’m only getting closer to the edge 
Only getting closer to the edge 
Only getting closer to the edge (edge)

And I’m Getting Closer To…

Lyrics: 

Depression it ain’t getting better
Found clarity in stormy weather 
Fuck change ain’t nothing wrong with me 
I’ll just continue to sever 
My fucking bonds 
That hold me to this life
Scars down my arm
I’ll make a couple more tonight
Fear in my heart 
I’m going too deep now
Feel the tidal waves crashing 
While I sink down

Too many different things up on my mind 
going supersonic
Drugs don’t hit the same anymore 
unless it’s that chronic 
I don’t have no shame anymore 
No I fucking own it 
Turn myself into a demon 
Cause I know y’all see me bleeding
No one helping me pick up the pieces 
Damage everywhere my ears are still ringing 

Heart broken and I’m speechless 
Can’t find reason to conversate 
Lot of y’all left me in my darkest times 
Maybe it’s cause you’re wondering when I’ll die 

It’s not a surprise 
When it’s all I idolize 
Any figment of my imagination 
Usually includes suicide

Why do I smile when I know I’m fucking hurting 
Why do I lie when I see it isn’t working 
Why do I hide when it could fucking save me 
Why do I cry when my feelings 
always enslave me
always enslave me
always enslave me
always enslave me

Depression it ain’t getting better
Found clarity in stormy weather 
Fuck change ain’t nothing wrong with me 
I’ll just continue to sever 
My fucking bonds 
That hold me to this life
Scars down my arm
I’ll make a couple more tonight
Fear in my heart 
I’m going too deep now
Feel the tidal waves crashing 
While I sink down

Deeper & Deeper

Lyrics:

I’m 24 but I feel like I’m 80
Mind heavy like bricks
every thought tryin’ to break me
Woke up to chaos
OCD on repeat
Washing hands 
thoughts spinning
can’t find any fucking peace
Depression hit like a train with no brakes
Smile fake
soul ache
every move I make
Bipolar highs got me 
flyin’ through the stratosphere
Every week
I’m in bed
drowning in all my fears
——
Ain’t no quick fix
no magic in a bottle
Every step forward feel like 
I’m going full throttle
Fighting with my mind
it’s a war I never chose
But I’m still standin’
even when the door’s closed
No quick fix
no shortcut to be found
Still lookin’ for peace 
on battlegrounds
I’m broken’
And bent
but I ain’t out
This pain got a purpose
I guess I’ll figure it out
——
Personality split
feel like I’m five people
Can’t tell what’s real 
when I’m facin’ the evil
Schizo-affective 
got me talkin’ to the shadows
Hallucinate hope
then fall in the gallows
Anxiety creepin’ 
like a thief in the night
Can’t breathe
can’t move
can’t sleep
can’t fight
I scream out
Hoping for some silence 
Therapy in a month
still stuck in the riots
——
Ain’t no quick fix
no magic in a bottle
Every step forward feel like 
I’m going full throttle
Fighting with my mind
it’s a war I never chose
But I’m still standin’
even when the door’s closed
No quick fix
no shortcut to be found
Still lookin’ for peace 
on battlegrounds
I’m broken’
And bent
but I ain’t out
This pain got a purpose
I guess I’ll figure it out
——
I ain’t weak
I’m survivin’ with a mind on fire
Tryna build a future 
from a world of barbed wire
Friends don’t get it
they say “just be strong”
But strength ain’t that simple 
when the nights feel this long
I write rhymes in my phone 
just to cope with the pain
Ink bleeds truth
not lookin’ for fame
One day at a time
that’s the only path
Still breathin’
still hopin’ 
That this storm will pass
——

A Glimpse of My Thin Line of Optimism

Lyrics: 

[High pitched]
Her eyes
Her eyes

——

I see the light in the shadows
peace in the rain
Beauty in the struggle
growth in the pain
Even in the darkness
I ain’t ever alone
Found home in the hurt
made the silence my own
I rise through the darkness
heart full of flames
Turn scars into maps
never hid from shame
Truth in the tears
gold in my grave
I see the beauty
in the dark in every way

⸻

I walked through the fire
but it taught me to breathe
Ash on my soul
but I rose from beneath
Night got cold
but the silence was deep
Found a voice in the void 
where the lost ones speak
—
Pain ain’t a prison
it’s a path to light
Grew from the cracks 
like the moon in the night
I saw stars 
when my world went black
Beauty in the breakdown 
I ain’t lookin’ back.
—
Lessons in the lows 
that the highs never taught
Truths in the wounds 
that the lies never caught
I ain’t broken
just been through the test
Now I wear every bruise
like a mark of finesse

⸻

I see the light in the shadows
peace in the pain
Beauty in the struggle 
growth in the rain
Even in the darkness
I ain’t ever alone
Found home in the hurt
made the silence my own
I rise through the darkness
heart full of flames
Turn scars into maps
never hid from shame
Truth in the tears
gold in my grave
I see the beauty 
in the dark in every way 

⸻

Made friends with my demons
danced in the storm
They tried to break me
But I was already reborn
So let the sky fall
I don’t fear the collapse
Been buried alive
now I thrive through the cracks
Darkness ain’t death
it’s the space where I shine
Found beauty in the shadows
And I made that pain mine

Beauty In The Shadows

Lyrics:


[Hook/Chorus]
I’m easy to love
hard to forget
Hooked from the jump
Got no regrets
Heart on my sleeve
soul in my step
You know I’m for real
This what you get

I’m easy to love
just hard to replace
They keep runnin’ back
can’t keep up the pace
Give ’em that spark
that vibe
that grace
I’m the mood
I’m light in the dark place

⸻

[Verse 1]
Yeah, smooth talker
But I back it with action
Loyal to the core
no time for distractions
Built from pain 
but I shine with passion
I’m the calm in the storm
your main attraction

Late nights
deep talks
no masking
Got depth in my soul
not just flashy
I ain’t perfect
but I own my flaws
Still they fall quick
no pause
no laws

⸻

[Verse 2]
Told her don’t trip
I’m solid like gold
Put trust in me
I won’t fold
Give more than I take
that’s facts
Ride for you strong
no strings
no acts

I don’t chase
I attract
it’s a blessing
But love’s not a game
it’s a lesson
If you with me
you with the best
I’m peace
I’m fire
I’m all the rest

⸻

[Bridge]
They ask why it feel so right
Like we known 
each other all our life
That’s what happens 
when you real with love
When you give
not just take
that’s enough
that’s enough 
that’s enough 
that’s enough 
Yea
⸻

[Chorus - Final]
I’m easy to love
hard to forget
Hooked from the jump
Got no regrets
Heart on my sleeve
soul in my step
You know I’m for real
This what you get

I’m easy to love
just hard to replace
They keep runnin’ back
can’t keep up the pace
Give ’em that spark
that vibe
that grace
I’m the mood
I’m the light in a dark place
Yea

Easy To Love

Lyrics:

[Malxcxous] (Attack mode)
DID YOU MISS ME?
AHAHAHAHAHAHA!

[Hook/Chorus]
These violent thoughts, they don’t let go
They march in line, they want that smoke
No peace in my mind, just fires and foes
It’s a war inside — let the blood flow cold

[Verse 1]
Pulse like a war drum, bangin’ in rage
Been locked in this mind like a beast in a cage
Every step I take
shadows follow me close
Every breath I make
hear the devil toast
—-
I ain’t scared of hell
I’ve been down that route
Where the angels cry and the killers shout
Sleep is a myth
I rest with my eyes wide
Plotting my revenge under pitch-black skies

[Hook / Chorus]
These violent thoughts, they don’t let go
They march in line, they want that smoke
No peace in mind, just fire and foes
It’s a war inside — let the blood flow cold

[Bridge]
Say a prayer, but the gods don’t hear you
Just echoes of hate in the smoke and fear
You- Tried peace, tried love, but they just fed the flame
Now I walk with ghosts who forgot their own names

[Outro]
So if you see me in the calm
You better run like prey
‘Cause a storm like me don’t fade 
it slays
One spark
one word
and I break that chain
Let the violent thoughts speak 
let ‘em bathe in pain (x4)

Reign in blood YEA (x4)

CARNAGE 2

Lyrics: 

Murda murda
I’m bout the fucking murda
That psychopathic Killa
Triple 6 I’m a sinner
Don’t hold me down 
Got the angel of death on my back
Caffeine and nicotine 
Taking off the edge
——
Now run it back
How fast can you pull the hammer back?
Yeah you know I’m in attack mode
I’m a maelstrom from psychotics
And I swear I got no options 
Psychiatric patient 
They just want me for my profits
You don’t give a damn
About my monumental stack of problems
Blanket diagnosis 
They wanna keep me at the bottom
Funny how I’ll kill ya and think nothing about it 
Got a couple screws loose
And I lost the screwdriver
——
I’m twitchin’, 
vision flickin’, 
seein’ red in the mist and
Voices in my head sayin’ 
load another clip
Yea
Grim reaper ridin’ shotgun
swervin’ in the hearse
Every bar a body bag
I’m layin’ down a curse
No peace
just war
got a razor in my grin
Feastin’ on the pain
yeah, I’m baptized in sin
Midnight creepin’
blood drippin’ off the chrome
I ain’t never goin’ back
hell’s where I call home
——
Black cloak draggin’
I’m stalkin’ through the static
Carvin’ pentagrams in flesh
rituals get graphic
Graveyard shift
I’m diggin’ deep in the dirt
With a smile on my face
while your soul gets hurt
Hear the screams echo
I’m laughin’ with the crows
——
Sippin’ blood from a chalice 
while the full moon glows
Skin mask stitched
I’m the butcher of your dreams
Chains clank in the dark
split your silence with a scream

Malevolence > Silence

Lyrics:

Memory slippin’
like water in my hands
Blank stares
Feelin’ lost
I don’t know where I stand
Panic in my chest 
like a beast that never sleeps
I smile in the mirror 
but inside I just weep
—
Voices in my head 
got me questionin’ the truth
Did I say that
Did I do that
Can’t find the proof
Every second’s cloudy
past is like a myth
I’m drownin’ in the silence
can’t catch my drift
Woah

——

My mind gone
I can’t rewind
Tryna find peace 
That I’ll never find
Every thought a battlefield
Another breath 
Yuh
another shield
—
My mind gone 
I walk alone
Feelin’ trapped in my own warzone
I forget the day
I forget the face
But the pain don’t ever 
get erased
No

⸻

Paranoia got me lookin’ over 
both my shoulders
Even when it’s calm
feel the weight like boulders
Eyes wide in the dark
but my vision ain’t clear
Feel like somethin’s lurkin’ 
but it’s just my fear
—
Depression on my back 
like a shadow in the rain
Writin’ rhymes 
just to bleed out the strain
I don’t need a stage
I need a place to scream
Somewhere they don’t call my trauma 
just a dream

⸻

My mind gone
I can’t rewind
Tryna find the peace 
That I’ll never find
Every thought a battlefield
Every breath 
another shield
—
My mind gone
I walk alone
Feelin’ trapped 
in my own zone
I forget the day
I forget my face
But the pain don’t ever 
get erased

⸻

Time slips by
And I’m just tryna hold on…
To who I was before 
I broke and went gone…
They say it gets better
but it’s just takin’ too long…
So I bury my truth 
in the beat of this song…
I don’t know where I been…
But I’m still here.
Still writin’.
Still fightin’…
In all my tears..
——
I’m still trapped 
I’ve been stuck on the inside
Clouded judgement 
Next to the memories that I can’t find 
Everything I know is 
slipping through my finger tips
I can’t stand to watch this anymore…
I’m trapped inside my skin
Need an escape 
Need a way 
for the world 
to come back to me 
—
Need a way for the world
To come back to me

Faded Memories [Prod. SPHYNX]

Lyrics:


My willingness to live has been erased
I find no happiness in anything 
So pray that I won’t die as soon as you leave
My memory continues to fade
The more you cloud up every vein of mine
You told me to move on yet I still tried 

LOVE DOESN’T FADE
IT’S ONLY SIDELINED
BLOODBATHS IN MY MIND 
IM NOT TRYING TO DECLINE
THINGS THAT ENTER MY PSYCHE
SOMETIMES THEIR OUT OF LINE
BUT I’VE STILL GOT PLENTY OF TIME 
TO RESUSCITATE ONCE MORE

The hobbies that I’ve tried to keep
Are the same things making me weak
And I’m waiting for a lobotomy
But for now I’ll just count sheep
Fuck I can’t sleep!
My mind is clouded by every vision of you 
I can’t escape!!!
I can’t escape!!!

LOVE DOESN’T FADE
IT’S ONLY SIDELINED
BLOODBATHS IN MY MIND 
I’M NOT TRYING TO DECLINE
BUT I’M RUNNING OUT OF TIME
CAN I PLEASE REWIND?
PUT MY LIFE ON PAUSE 
SO I CAN SETTLE THE SCORE

I smile when I’m away
Because it’s distracting 
But as soon as I’m back home
I feel it all collapsing
I’m in the eye of the storm 
That we created 
But as soon as you left 
It became a void 
And now I hate it..

Love Doesn’t Fade

Lyrics:

Mind on fire and I’m burnin’ both ends
Life on the edge
I don’t need no friends
Smoke in my lungs
tabs melt my brain
Drift through the void just to feel no pain
Rush or rust 
I don’t do no sleep
Chasin’ death like it owe me peace
Crush them pills
sip that sin
If I see dawn
I’ll do it again
——
Heart beat racin’
mind misplaced
LSD lace got me feelin’ displaced
Nicotine fiend
lungs full of rot
Tryna find peace in a place God forgot
Pop me a script 
don’t ask what it is
If it numb my soul
then it is what it is
Weed got me floatin’
liquor bring rage
Still ain’t escaped 
From this self-built cage
(WAH)
I jump off cliffs 
just to feel alive
Adrenaline highs 
where my demons thrive
Void in my chest 
that I fill with the smoke
Friends said chill
And I just said
“Nope.”
——
I ain’t scared of the reaper no more
He sittin’ shotgun 
when I crash through doors
Life too slow
I press fast-forward
Hell ain’t hot 
when you’ve been there before
——
Flashbacks twist like a Rubik’s curse
Thought I hit bottom
then I found worse
Doctor say slow
I say not yet
I ain’t tryna feel 
what I might regret
I see colors drip from the walls
Demons laugh 
when the last tab falls
Bottle to the lips
middle finger to the sky
If tonight’s the last night
I won’t even ask why
——
I got scars that don’t bleed
Thoughts that don’t leave
All these thrills just sedate me
Every high trying to erase me
Can’t stop now
I’m too deep in
Soul been gone
all I got’s this grin
So I ride that wave till the lights go black
And if I don’t wake then I’ll just play this back
And if I don’t wake 
I’ll just play this back
Yea yea yea

So Many Vices

Lyrics: 

You ever seen fear run?
That’s what happens when death sees me comin’.
I don’t wait on fate—I walk it down.
Let’s go.
⸻
I ain’t runnin’ from the reaper
I been chasin’ that b***h
Dressed in black like the smoke 
From a full-clipped wish
Every step got weight
every breath like fire
Death gonna freak 
When I’m in that all black attire
——
Blood in my boots
grin full of grief
Made peace with the pain 
like I signed a new lease
I don’t cry in the dark
I stalk through the flames
With a blade in my voice 
when I speak my own name
——
Took L’s, 
took losses, 
buried my pride
But I ain’t never been the type 
to lay down and die
I want smoke, 
I want static, 
I want that crown
My gun automatic 
If death got a throne
I’ma walk it down
Made it fancy took em’ out with the chrome
Ah’ ah’ ah’
Made it fancy took em’ out with the chrome
Ah’ ah’
⸻
I walk it down
don’t blink
don’t shake
Don’t think
If the devil wanna dance
I’ll control the ring
No light
No guide
No path I’m going down
I made my own 
Made em bleed out with my sound
(WAH)
I walk it down
I ain’t beggin’ for peace
I came to eat pain 
and leave the feast
Ain’t no backin’ off
no turnaround
If death take a step
I’ll walk him down
If death 
Take
A
Step
I’ll walk him down
I’ll walk him down 
I’ll walk him down
⸻
Fangs out
soul raw
Taking over
My reflection ain’t human
it’s somethin’ more
It’s the look of a beast 
that’s been starved too long
Now I bite through my pain 
just to prove I’m strong
——
I don’t flinch at the casket
I stare like a drone
Like, You came for me? 
Shoulda left me alone
I been fightin’ since birth
Playing with trap since youth 
So I’ll spit in the void 
Just to show I’m ruthless
——
Ain’t no savior
ain’t no rest
Just smoke in my lungs and steel
in my chest
Tell death, 
“Lace up, meet me now”
’Cause I ain’t slowin’ down
Yeah mane, I walk it down
Yeah mane, I walk it down
⸻

Walk Em’ Down

Lyrics:

Born a menace
didn’t ask to be iconic
Now I’m public enemy 
for breathin’ too tonic.
Woke up, chose peace 
still caught a thread
“Why his face look like he wish he was dead?”
——
I just walk in
and the vibe goes south
They write think pieces 
cause I opened my mouth
They say
You’re problematic
And I think that may be true
But I’m still put on a smile
Even when things are blue
——
Posted a pic 
Now the oppositions out to get me
Thinking it’s about them 
When I murder my feelings on a beat
Most things are satirical
That’s why I love being lyrical 
Even when I am nice 
bitches treat me cynical
Ha-ha-ha
I think it’s funny when I post 
People either think it’s about them
Or they treat me like a ghost
asking where’d I go 
When I go ghost
Bitch I don’t wanna be home
Everybody treats me like an outcast 
Hoping that I won’t relapse 
But when those feelings come back
It’s bottle after bottle
Pill after pill
Staying up at night 
Cause I can’t fucking chill 
Losing my mental battle 
going into psychosis 
Only freedom from this hell
Is a ton of overdoses
And I’m still fucking loaded
Up to the gills 
Like a fish outta water
And I pop a seal
And I’m coming back
Slaughter after slaughter 
Wait woah I need to fucking chill
I’m going too deep now
It’s getting darker 
To the point I can’t see now 
Demons they got a grip on my heart
And they love to hear me sing 
About suicide 
It’s everything I glorify
And surely I’ll find 
That it’ll all be to my demise 
When I fucking cut too deep 
no one will save me 
I’ll be too far too reach 
Burning eternal 
Where my bars cook infernal 
I could be a prince of death 
I may be 1 of 4 
And if I’m choosing wrath 
Then I’m going straight to war 
Doesn’t matter where I go 
Either way that’s right
I’m find a way to end it 
But only on my own time

Rage Baiting Since 2001

Lyrics:

This ain’t a phase
this is fate in disguise
Blade on my lap
got the heat on my thigh
Whispers of murder 
just dance in my head
I write love letters 
With iron and lead
Twist of the wrist
now my gun starts to sing
Chrome got a voice 
when the .40 go ring
I don’t just dream it
I do what I said
My fascination 
got a body count thread
——
Polished the blade 
like I’m prepping a bride
Mirror reflections 
of red in my eyes
Every knife in the drawer 
got a tale untold
And the Glock got a grin 
like a monster in gold
I ain’t twitchy
I’m patient
surgical calm
But the silence breaks quick 
when I open my palm
——
One pull
one swipe
let the canvas scream
I turn murder to a moment
sharp like a dream
——
Blood don’t bother me
it’s part of the calm
Like a verse in the dark 
where the lost belong
——
Heart full of static
mind like a maze
And the steel’s my compass 
through crimson haze
I ain’t just loud
I let actions preach
Leave sermons in blood 
on a backstreet scene
Karambit curve 
like a predator’s grin
And the SIG never lies 
when it sinks through sin
I move like a ghost 
with a blacked-out creed
Where obsession meets justice
and vengeance feeds

Gun Metal Sickness

Lyrics:

I was hellborn
Flames in my veins
Raised in the dark
broke outta my chains
I don’t want peace
I want reign
So kiss the crown or drown in pain
——
Lucifer laughed when he saw me ascend
I’m the villain’s villain
the devil’s best friend
I spit in the sky
made lightning bend
Tore wings off of angels 
just to find a trend
No filter
no leash
I’m a beast off the meds
Turn gold to rust with the thoughts in my head
Got ops in the shadows
prayin’ I’m dead
But I thrive in the black 
where the cowards fled
——
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?
You want smoke?
—
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?
You want smoke?
—
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?
You want smoke?
—
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?
Who want smoke?!
——
They want me censored
Want me to fall
But I write my name in blood 
on the wall
I’m the nightmare 
sleep won’t recall
In the mirror smilin’ 
when empires fall
Snakes in suits 
wanna dance with the curse
But I’m poison laced 
in a sick universe
Soul’s too cold
heart too immersed
I was built for war
now watch me burst
I’m going supernova
Somebody better call a hearse 
—
I’m going supernova
Somebody better call a hearse
—
And when I die
light the fire
let it burn high
Ashes rain down
cover up the sky
——

Hellborn

Lyrics:

Yeah I’m feeling evil
I might stunt like knievel
I got some things I’d like to invest
But I’m frozen cold sub zero 
Body becoming blue and black
Color of a bruise 
Feelings of a heart attack
pressure in my veins 
Drowning in this silence
can’t escape the pain
Lost inside my mind
thunder crackin’ like the rain
Thoughts runnin’ in circles
like I’m locked in a chain
[YEA]
Battlin’ these demons
but they already know my name
[HAHA]
(Defiant)
Still I lace my boots
marchin’ through the flame
Built from all the hurt
now I weaponize the shame
Scars on my soul
but I wear ’em like a badge
Turned every loss into 
lessons I could stash
Seeing the light now
Like I tossed a flash
Now I spit the truth
And it cuts deep like a gash
Voices in my head said 
I’d never break free
Now I’m breakin’ mirrors 
just to find the real me
Pain in my chest
but I breathe through the smoke
I was hiding the pain
Now I’m burning the cloak
——
They say my lifes a joke
But I already know
That’s why I reinvent my hurt 
You lost for words?
You should’ve known 
That I’m the master of self destruction
I’m showing new signs of early deaths
And comatoses
Overdoses
Reaching for an all new time high 
People used to plead for me to stop it 
But I’ve weaponized my pain 
So now I got a new rocket 
Bout to blast 
Then blow up
Like my my life isn’t on the ballot
Fuck it all
Cause bitch we godly
We won’t ever die 
As long as our voice is out there
Even when I’m ashes 
Don’t resurrect me

Profit From Being Demonic

Lyrics: 

I been battlin’ storms
 in the corners of my skull
Where the silence louder 
than the outskirts of the city at night 
Every smile fake
like a mask on a ghost
I been tryna float
but depression always doin’ the most
——
Panic in my chest 
like it’s tryna break free
Voices in my head 
playing symphonies off-key
Trauma got a lease 
in the loft of my mind
And every damn night
——
Replay then rewind
(Repeat x4)
——
No rest 
I don’t dream
I just relive pain
Scars on my soul
but they hidden behind my shame
I’m the war and the soldier
Always tryna do right
But I’m tired of the battle
I’m still losin’ the light
——
I’m on the edge of me
watchin’ it all fall,
Every mental break 
like a crack in the wall
If I disappear
just know I tried my best 
But the chaos in my head 
never let me rest
——
It’s my rise and my ruin
my truth and my death
My mind’s the weapon
and I’m the last breath
Don’t cry for me
just speak my name 
I lived in the fire
now I’m free from the flame
——
Borderline thoughts 
with a bipolar spin
Mood swingin’ like a pendulum 
breakin’ the skin
ADHD brain tryna run from the void
Thoughts going lightspeed
——
It’s a thing I can never avoid 
(Repeat x4)

Expiration 2K25

Lyrics:

Devil put a filter over my eyes
Now I only see gray
All the colors have been fading out
Slowly I watch it wither away
I feel my existence 
slipping through the pain
I used to see the colors bleeding
Now it’s only my blood that’s seeping
Used to have imagination
But I got lost inside the feelings
——
That the old world brought
I know I don’t belong here
But I was still taught
Knew I was going to suffer
Just didn’t think that it would be this much
I’m begging for release
——
Can someone take my spot?
Can someone take my spot?
Can someone take my spot?
Can someone take my spot?
——
Used to have sympathy 
But I became too soft
Everything used against me 
She must’ve been a cop
No way I’m wrong in what I was feeling 
All the signs pointing forward 
But I ain’t moving 
I know for years 
I’ll be hurting on the inside
——
And I hope your happy 
Cause I know you take pride
Knowing I’ll be hung up on you 
Until the end of time.
Until the end of time…

The End

Lyrics: 

My confidence got a meter and I gotta refill it
Sitting wondering if I should take a bullet
Used to be selfless but now I be taking 
Used to love but now I’m just faking 
You wanted a chance now ima break it off
You losing respect for yourself and why
Just cause another hoe gave you attention
You self loathing but don’t even try
Some of these days I get tired of watching 
Shit I think ima gouge out my eyes
———
I got respect for the few 
who sticking around me
She said that ima spend my whole life 
in this county
But here is where I got 
my whole family around me
You wouldn’t understand cause 
half of your fam got a bounty
I’m tired of you messing with my head
I’m constantly just feeling dead
Fight or flight when I’m around you
I’m fucking paralyzed
———
Everyone loves you 
It must feel like paradise
I’m stuck in self hatred 
And I’m still tryna compromise
You think you know me 
But shit must be warped in your eyes
I’m smelling gas and I’m seeing lights (wow!)
Prepped and ready for a mental breakdown 
Try to leave to cool off but 
you wanted to slow me down 
Just stop and wait till I come back around
(Short pause)
I’m tired of replaying these 
memories in my head
You’re never coming back 
So you might as well 
be dead
Be dead
Be dead 
Yea
———
GET OUT!
GET OUT!
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!
GET OUT!
GET OUT!
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!!
GET OUT!
GET OUT!
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!
GET OUT!
GET OUT!
GET OUT OF MY HEAD!!!
———

GET OUT OF MY HEAD

Lyrics:

Once again I’m back with a deathwish
Swear I want my body to be headless
Swerving lane to lane don’t test it
Falling in love with the drugs 
Cause they love me back
Fuck all the fake bitches 
You can keep em back
I got the devil in my corner
And he wishing me luck with love 
—
Yuh
—
Now my heart’s cold
I don’t feel a thing
Even pain got bored
stopped visiting
Eyes red
voice dead
I’m a ghost in the flesh
Got a blade in the bag 
and a cross on my neck
—
Lungs full of smoke
tryna silence the screams
Tryna die in my sleep 
so I wake up in a dream
I ain’t scared of the dark
I invite that bitch
Cause every night I sleep
I pray I don’t switch
—
Back to demon mode 
steady speakin’ in curses
I ain’t sayin’ goodbyes
I’m releasing the hearses
Thoughts of death loopin
daily like a broken tape
Paranoia in my skull 
And I always let it twist my fate
Oh no 
Oh no
Now let me open the gate to hell
Where I sit and reside in a cell
Cell 
Cell 
Cell 
—
Yeah I’m just kicking it back 
Can’t you tell? 
Born the ruler. I’m the king of this hell
When they say “demon time”
That’s my time 
I walk the flames
leave the weak behind
Crown of thorns
but this throne is mine
Now I’m capitalizing 
Rising high in the kingdom of crime
(Wah)
I used to think that it was all fucked 
But now I’m embracing 
No more static in my mind 
I fucking erased it
—
Nah I ain’t gonna chase it 
This psychosis of mine 
Gotta go
I love the dark 
But someone gotta turn on the lights 
Before I blow
I’m about to get hotter than the sun
I’m going supersonic
My lungs laced with chronic
I can feel the spark in my soul
Becoming demonic
Someone save me 
Before I am death 
incarnate

DEATHWISH 2

Lyrics:

Fuck I must be like 75 
Cause every fucking day 
I wanna die
Young and 24
But I’m paralyzed 
Look into the camera 
While I take my life
I swear the gun is like
A few inches away
Honestly there really ain’t a lot 
to make me stay
And I feel my grip loosening everyday
While I sit here and get high 
Tryna take more off my plate
I am just so desolate mane
Doesn’t matter where 
Cause I always got a razor on my neck 
(I’m talking like)
Idolize
Suicide
Cut your fucking throat
(yea)
Take yo life
End it tonight 
—
Shut the fuck up 
Demons fighting for control of my mind
Sitting on the moon while I’m fucking high
Missing you in my room 
At that time things were better in my life
Now I’m-
FUCKED UP
FULL OF DRUGS
CANT TAKE THE PAIN AWAY
SO I ATE A SLUG
FROM THE PUMP 
NOW IM BLEEDING OUT ON THE FLOOR
COUGHING UP
PINTS OF BLOOD
ITS ALL TURNING GRAY 
I CANT SEE ANYMORE
AND IM LIKE WHAT THE FUCK
AINT THIS WHAT YOU WANT
YOU RUINED YOUR OWN LIFE 
AND YOU BECAME DUST

Desolate

Lyrics:

I’ve been lost in action 
Mind been scrapped
And I’m trying to find a new way 
But I’m constantly getting distracted 
Thought that I could change 
But I lost my mind in passion
Been looking up at the lights 
Like I’m stuck in traffic 
Like I’m stuck in traffic 
Yeaaaaa
Like I’m stuck in traffic

Is this a cult transaction?
Everything that I’m drawn to 
Persuading me to take action
But I’m stuck up in my ways
X mentioned the law of attraction 
I been trying to find the meaning 
But I think I’m sinking down 
I’m becoming compact yuh
Violent acts that I’m keeping 
locked inside of my mind
If you really care just stick by my side
I’d do it all for you, I’ll put it all aside
I’m losing myself, I saw two stars collide 
And I thought that it was us 
But I’m still alone inside 
But in time I’m hoping we could reconvene
At another time 
And hopefully that’s the last time (for me)
———
Cause after that I’m done 
No more warmth from the sun 
Chains heavy, I’m throwing up
Losing hope, pouring up
Blind to feelings, don’t touch
You weren’t there, so don’t judge
If It’s empty then fill it up 
With the poison that kills love 
Heart cracked, I can’t seal it up 
Now I’m numb, I don’t feel at all
———

Traffic

(Remember all of my lyrics, are not always literal. Most lyrics have a deeper meaning.)

Lyrics: 

Used to get calls from my ex 
while her man was away
Shaking her ass but mad 
when I looked away
Now they both hate me 
But I’m laughing 
cause you’re all at arms length 
I could kill you all 
While there’s nothing in my brain
———
Dreaming everyday 
I swear I’m walking on a tightrope
knife in my teeth
Visions of my corpse rotting under 
cracked concrete
Would my fam even cry? 
Or just scroll past the post?
Fuck it 
leave me in the gutter
let the demons get close
I’m dangling 
one twitch and it’s curtains
Life’s a sick joke
and I’m done rehearsin’
Take my fuckin’ soul
let it rot in decay
I’m screamin’ to the sky 
KILL ME LIKE PREY!

———

I hear voices in the static
they whisper in code
Tellin’ me to split the mirror
watch my other side unfold
Shadows in my brain
playin’ games I can’t win
I laugh, then I cry, 
then I cut now I’m filled with sin 
Rooms spin 
every face lookin’ fake to me
Paranoia’s in control
now I talk to the empty seats
Scars on my soul
stitched with nightmares and rage
I ain’t sleepin’ 
I’m just locked in a blood-stained cage
———
They say I need help 
but I like the decline
Every breakdown 
brings me closer to being divine
Tick tock tick tock snap
Yea I’m losin’ my grip
[Laugh] (8-bit crusher)
YEAAA

No Mercy

Lyrics:

—
Nicotine flooding my system
I feel my blood slowing down
Too much energy in me 
So I’m still racing (harmonize)
—
Tried to put down the liquor 
But I went back to pick it up
Found my feelings in the cup
So I started mixing em’ up
Now I’m drowning in my feelings 
Never give it up 
This the only strength that I have 
Until I use it up
—
I can’t understand how things 
became so silent 
In the night walking 
I’m tryna find my peace now 
But my mind keeps becoming violent 
I can’t sleep now
I’m still walking down this path 
And it’s getting dark 
I used to have a light 
But I lost it at the start 
Of the 2 0 2 5
S U I C I D E 
I sign on the dotted line 
—
And then I tossed the lock and key 
Away (harmonize)
—
And then I tossed the lock and key 
Away (harmonize)
—
And then I tossed the lock and key 
Away (harmonize/higher octave)

Fortitude

Lyrics:

YAH, YEA, YAH, YEA
YAH, YAH, YAH, YAH 
YAH, YEA, YAH, YEA
YAH, YAH, YAH, YAH
YAH, YEA, YAH, YEA
YAH, YAH, YAH, YAH 
YAH, YEA, YAH, YEA
YAH, YAH, YAH, YAH
—
(Bass drop)
I’ve been tryna drown myself out
Got my feelings swirling round 
In the fucking fishbowl of my head
I think I’m better off dead
Time to cut em off yeah
-
Fucking up my body
Sabotage my mainframe
Make me a zombie
In the fucking lab 
Still tryna make a copy
In the backyard 
Gotta bury all the bodies
Ughhhh
-
Time consuming I know
I can’t handle anything 
that’s too slow (why)
I’m always going fast
Yeah I like the speed
Hyper active in my brain
Go beyond light speed 
Got the enemies behind me
Snakes all around me 
Diseases infesting 
Give a fuck if you got a question 
I’d rather just kill
Only harbor resentment
—
[Intermission]
(This entity is out of service)
(Please take your time and spend it elsewhere)
-
(Woah-woah-woah)
Been dodging all my feelings 
Bitch I want no contact
End your life with me 
Sorry were beyond that
Romeo and Juliet 
Just seems like a tag now
Love ain’t real 
Gods calling for the end now
Push my emotions underground like I’m dead
All I really wanted was a bullet to the head 
That’s what it feels like 
I just want it all to end 
Throwing everything away 
Just to never reinvent 
—
Psychosis got me micro-dosing
Hearing all these voices in my head
Got me thinking like 
I’m just a locomotive
These voices are conductors
Leading me to the edge 
Whenever I got a problem 
They just take over my head
My body becomes 
a hollow shell
Been hiding my destruction
It could overwhelm 
-
And even if I’m at the helm 
I could give a fuck about 
Your futile existence
It would make me laugh 
If you showed a little resistance 
Cause it’s all null and void 
I’m not something you can avoid no
Cause it’s all null and void 
I’m not something you can avoid no
Huh
—
(Bury all the bodies)
(Still tryna make a copy)
(Bury all the bodies)
(Still tryna make a copy)
(Bury all the bodies)
(Still tryna make a copy)
(Bury all the-)
(Bury all the bodies)
—

Drown Out

Lyrics:

Yeaaa
Yeaaa
Yeaaa
Yeaaa
Yuh yuh yuh
-
Running em down
Yeah I’m gunning em down
Hide underground
Stalk em like prey
I make no sound
Creep in the dark with a grin on my face
Blade in my palm, I’m not leaving no trace
Heartbeat steady, I feed off the chase
Death in the air, they can’t keep up the pace
Speed off fast when I hop in the wraith 
Can’t keep up appearances 
I am a ghost
Transparent lyrics
I leave ‘em untold 
Watch em get scared
they finna fold
Give no fucks 
Yeah I’m outta control
Switching my lane 
When they do the most
Stay by my side 
But beware of the cold
I got demons that ride
And they’re takin’ a toll
Can’t trust a soul
When your heart made of stone
I laugh at the pain
While I sit on my throne
Voices be callin’
They whisper my name
Told me to burn it all
Dance in the flame
Wonder why now
They want me to change 
I am Malxcxous
the Smxle on my face 
—
Yeaa
I ain’t got a halo
Yeaa
I ain’t got a halo
Yeaa 
I ain’t got a halo
Yeaa
I ain’t got a halo
—
Born in the shadows I walk through the flame
Name hold weight but I carry the blame
Never been holy I’m cursed with the aim
One shot kill put respect on my name
Scars on my skin but I never complain
Mind in a war I ain’t playin’ no games
Look in my eyes and you’ll see what remains
Just a lost soul that can never be tamed

Halo [Prod. Bxrgio!]

Lyrics:

Things ain’t the same
Everyday going through a change
Vision blurry
Going insane
Lines are merging
Go for the Kill
Sun burning hot 
Show me how hell feels
—
Red sign with 8 sides
They tryna stop me 
Evolutionary
Everything beyond me
What do I know 
I’m only 24
Things that I struggle with
No longer phase me 
Bitches come and go 
Heart will never stay the same 
See my feelings die 
While they walk out the door
Please keep hurting me
Yes please I crave it 
You’re driving me closer to edge
Wait till I fall and hit the pavement
All these bitches want love and loyalty 
Then when they wrong 
they finna take control of me
Don’t worry about it now 
Cause I’m a weapon
Honing myself 
Altering perceptions 
Want a way out 
Here’s a smith and Wesson
I could give a fuck now
All you fake snake bitches like look a hologram
Life ain’t the same to me 
And maybe it’s my insanity
But I ain’t coming back 
I don’t want your Grace so save it please
Falling farther than the limit of the map
Got bullets in the gun 
Now I’ll make the trigger tap, dance
No respawn, no chance to relapse, man
Brain matter scatter like a glitch in the matrix
Droppin’ in hot and I ain’t here to play tricks
Red dot on your dome like a UAV scan
Go ahead and trap it up like Kapkan
Taking out all your goons like I’m Batman 
Psychopath in solitary Patrick Bateman
—
Shhhhhhhh
I’m a ghost in the grass
Heartbeat silent 
Cylinder spinning 
Until I rack it 
Then blast
Boom goes the dynamite 
Kill you all in a night
No comms
no light
Creepin’ close with a knife
Death cam caught my sight
Mask on tight
I’m the last one you’ll see
Before the world goes white
-
Body count climbing, like a mountain of pain
I’m numb to the cries, I just dance in the rain
Hellfire in my veins, thoughts deranged
My mind’s a cage fight 
every second, feel the chains
Got a death wish inked on my sleeve
I don’t grieve, I believe in the art of the bleed
Cut ties like wires in a time bomb
Watch it tick down, till the silence gone
One breath left, now the lights go flicker
World war in my head 
with my finger on the trigger
Reborn a killer 
Stacking up the skrilla
Give a fuck about a bitch 
Unless her name Priscilla
Uh
Heart iced out, I ain’t feeling nothing realer
Blacked out whip, soul darker than a thriller
Pain made me vicious
now I’m moving like a sinner
Life gave me death, and I made it my dinner 
Pray for my foes, yeah they gonna need grace
I ain’t talking GPS when I relocate
If you ain’t talking money 
get the fuck out my face
Mask on, gloves tight
I’m evading the case

I’ll Never Stay Complacent

Lyrics:

(Harmonize)

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

Thoughts moving fast
Heart moving slow
Hate the light 
So I stay in the cold
Darkness
Is where my feelings never show
I can’t breathe 
So I move in code

(Harmonize)

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

(Harmonize)

Afterlife

(Beat-Switch)

Lyrics: 

Talk shit on me in private 
I’ll put you on fucking blast
Take your mask off
Man let the public see
The real you
Murderous views
Twisted psychology 
Mental instabilities
Got me living in isolation
My mind never coming back from the vacation
I’m still serving eternal damnation
Look to the stars 
Like I can fucking trace them
I live in duality 
One Half Demon
The other half is my morality 
Battling with myself while I’m facing this reality
Voices in my head keep on plotting my fatality
Laughing at the thought 
While they feeding my brutality
Skin crawling
Shadow hands grip my anatomy
Whispers in the dark
They prescribing my insanity
Blood on the walls 
Spelling out my final strategy
Chains on my soul 
But I cherish the depravity
Yuh
—
Drag me to the pit 
Where the nightmares sing lullabies
Torn flesh sermons 
Where the truth wears a thin disguise
I stare into the mirror 
But the demon is who I recognize
Who I recognize 
Baptized in the filth
Let my innocence fossilize
I’m never coming back 
I really gotta cut all ties
Bitch I’m never coming back 
Ima look in the dark
And stare into my demise
Is this a suicide manifesto
I don’t know 
I’m still guessing so
Call it what you want 
But I’ll never let it show
Bleeding on the page 
Just to let some demons go
Bury all my secrets 
Where the darkness grows
Turn my scars into weapons
Let the words be my ammo
They think they got me figured 
But through hate I change the flow
Clinging to my death
But “Life is beautiful”
Is what I show
Hoe

Shell Shocked

Clarity (Remix) Prod. Malxcxous_Smxle

Lyrics:

I’m out here waiting for you
I know dreams don’t come true

Accidentally sedated
X2

I’m out in the car don’t go away
I catch what you throw away
Ideas pilling up
Spilling out from the hole in my head

From the hole in my head

Still reaching out
Why can’t I keep it out
The feeling died 
Memory still keeps them alive
Time for a lobotomy
I’m done with this
Analogy

We’re falling out
Could you pick us up
I still fought
You weren’t the only one
Go ahead and leave me alone
That’s how I’ve walked through life 
All along
All along

I’m out here waiting for you
I know dreams don’t come true

Accidentally sedated
X4

I know it’s hard to be alone 
But it ain’t nothing 
I haven’t done before
The rain’ll keep pouring 
And everyone will ignore me
My fucked up existence 
I should’ve been done before
I didn’t listen
I didn’t listen
I didn’t listen
I didn’t listen

Waiting

This is the legacy I’m leaving behind. 

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