void

LARain (2017-2018?)

1 life dont live too cautious
woke up 2 ur text now im nauseous
3 strikes our tru st we lost it
.45 to my head then i pop it

prod @casualaffairs
cover photo: @/e1or4 on insta

fuK u lol

prod. towerz, Hanz
visual: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=euwRr7Ezi5o

𝘶𝘯𝘥𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳

DISDAIN

Kanye West + Miley Cyrus - Everybody Wants To Rule The World / Blackkk Skinhead Demo

verse 1 hollow hart
been prayin to the sky
i dont even know why
i try and talk to god
but he never reply
been gettin so high
feelin like imma die
but i love takin drugs
yeah they make me feel alive
i been lookin for someone to heal the pain inside
baby i just need u to be right here by my side
if i pulled up in that coupe, is u gonna slide
baby are u gone be the one thats gone fuckin ride
till the day we fuckin die i need u right by my side
baby girl we can get high, all night in the moonlight aye

verse 2 LoveHatesSaiah

I need you by my side,
romantic homicide,
dont lose control
take your pain out of your heart
and jump off the boat
love like the titanic 
gotta stay afloat
baby i hope if i die today
baby wrote u a note
love on fire and i cant let it go
world is liar
lovehatessaiah
we get defeated 
like david goliath
demons are quiet 
and love is a riot
demons are quiet
and love is a riot



by my side w/ LoveHatesSaiah prod. pyctur

Lyrics:

I’m 24 but I feel like I’m 80
Mind heavy like bricks
every thought tryin’ to break me
Woke up to chaos
OCD on repeat
Washing hands 
thoughts spinning
can’t find any fucking peace
Depression hit like a train with no brakes
Smile fake
soul ache
every move I make
Bipolar highs got me 
flyin’ through the stratosphere
Every week
I’m in bed
drowning in all my fears
——
Ain’t no quick fix
no magic in a bottle
Every step forward feel like 
I’m going full throttle
Fighting with my mind
it’s a war I never chose
But I’m still standin’
even when the door’s closed
No quick fix
no shortcut to be found
Still lookin’ for peace 
on battlegrounds
I’m broken’
And bent
but I ain’t out
This pain got a purpose
I guess I’ll figure it out
——
Personality split
feel like I’m five people
Can’t tell what’s real 
when I’m facin’ the evil
Schizo-affective 
got me talkin’ to the shadows
Hallucinate hope
then fall in the gallows
Anxiety creepin’ 
like a thief in the night
Can’t breathe
can’t move
can’t sleep
can’t fight
I scream out
Hoping for some silence 
Therapy in a month
still stuck in the riots
——
Ain’t no quick fix
no magic in a bottle
Every step forward feel like 
I’m going full throttle
Fighting with my mind
it’s a war I never chose
But I’m still standin’
even when the door’s closed
No quick fix
no shortcut to be found
Still lookin’ for peace 
on battlegrounds
I’m broken’
And bent
but I ain’t out
This pain got a purpose
I guess I’ll figure it out
——
I ain’t weak
I’m survivin’ with a mind on fire
Tryna build a future 
from a world of barbed wire
Friends don’t get it
they say “just be strong”
But strength ain’t that simple 
when the nights feel this long
I write rhymes in my phone 
just to cope with the pain
Ink bleeds truth
not lookin’ for fame
One day at a time
that’s the only path
Still breathin’
still hopin’ 
That this storm will pass
——

A Glimpse of My Thin Line of Optimism

ill give u all i have
till im bones baby
blow me away
in the wind 
till im gone baby
im just a memory
yea imma fade away
just like the pills under my tongue 
yea they fade away
im gettin high today
ill end my life today
grab the knife 
make the slice
ill pay the price today
everybody knows
what i be on
im poppin pills 

im sippin henny
imma overdose

so 
baby fuck on me
yea
baby fuck on me
when you tell me 
that you hate me
thats so comorting
cause I hate me too
ur not the only one
im just so fuckin numb
I hate this life this shits so dumb
yeah
im just so fucking done

I swear im just so fuckin done

ill give u all i have
till im bones baby
blow me away
in the wind 
till im gone baby
im just a memory
yea imma fade away
just like the pills under my tongue 
yea they fade away
im gettin high today
ill end my life today
grab the knife 
make the slice
ill pay the price today
everybody knows
what i be on
yea baby im way too gone

bones

Lyrics:

(Harmonize)

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

Thoughts moving fast
Heart moving slow
Hate the light 
So I stay in the cold
Darkness
Is where my feelings never show
I can’t breathe 
So I move in code

(Harmonize)

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

Bitch I’m tryna make it right
Tryna live it up right
But I can’t sleep at night
I must be stuck in the afterlife

(Harmonize)

Afterlife

Lyrics:

I’m out here waiting for you
I know dreams don’t come true

Accidentally sedated
X2

I’m out in the car don’t go away
I catch what you throw away
Ideas pilling up
Spilling out from the hole in my head

From the hole in my head

Still reaching out
Why can’t I keep it out
The feeling died 
Memory still keeps them alive
Time for a lobotomy
I’m done with this
Analogy

We’re falling out
Could you pick us up
I still fought
You weren’t the only one
Go ahead and leave me alone
That’s how I’ve walked through life 
All along
All along

I’m out here waiting for you
I know dreams don’t come true

Accidentally sedated
X4

I know it’s hard to be alone 
But it ain’t nothing 
I haven’t done before
The rain’ll keep pouring 
And everyone will ignore me
My fucked up existence 
I should’ve been done before
I didn’t listen
I didn’t listen
I didn’t listen
I didn’t listen

Waiting

This is the legacy I’m leaving behind. 

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A Glimpse of My Thin Line of Optimism

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