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Lyrics: 

Sitting here in fear of myself
Thinking back I can’t deal with my health
I been dying for a long time
I Can’t remember when I smiled 
Where’s the sunshine

Been feeling sick lately
I quit the drugs 
But I want them to save me 
I’m running out of ways to end the pain 
I know it’s temporary 
But it’s better than to escape 
Permanently
That feeling alone 
Is eating at me 
Hurting me 
When I’m alone 
By myself 
No one to call for help 
Kicking back thinking who the fuck can help
Stuck in a trance staring at the ceiling 
Waiting for a way to advance 
MOVE FORWARD 

But I keep looking back
All the smoke around me 
Make me wanna relapse 
Fall back into habits 
Ruin my life 
Yeah I might crashhhhhh out 
Go from doing small time drugs 
To getting promoted now 
I’m moving up
Along the way meet H 
Put her in my arm 
Maybe fuckin escape
Pain is un-wavered  
I’m Sinking deeper 
No taper
I don’t wanna save myself
And I ain’t weaning off 
I’m going head first 
No bitch you can’t save me 
from myself 
I know I can’t backtrack 
from the road to hell
I can’t even stick around 
long enough 
To start feeling well again
I can’t fucking understand 
It’s like I’ve been fated from the beginning 
To fast track to the end 
Now It’s all I think about 
And I know myself too well
But this time there’s no way out
Only one path to walk 
And I gotta move forward
Maybe it’ll get better 
But I fuckin Doubt it 
But I don’t wanna be 
stuck in my head 
Any longer 
No more 
No more

Relapse

🔥💀🔥

Lyrics:

It seems like every fear 
I have becomes personified 
I bring my demons to life 
Manifesting shit I never want 
With ease
Still doing as I please 
But I’m on my knees 
Begging and pleading 
Still searching for another reason
Waiting for the last straw
Knowing that will 
Be the one thing 
To make me end it all
Been waiting for a while 
Yet all I can do is smile
That’s why I’m malicious 
And I can claim that 
for a while I was happy
Seeing all the bridges built 
Just to see em all collapsing 
Seeing everything crumble 
around me
Wonder if I should’ve 
Stopped the world 
I see my destination 
Got failure all around me 
Nothing but sorrow and grief 
surrounds me
But to release some pain
Anger fueled 
I’m rowdy 
Looking for my 13th reason
Writing this song 
Like it’s the finale of the season
Waiting for every bit of treason 
Seeing the snakes around me 
Recognizing everything 
It seems so profound 
Yet always simplistic 
Bitches call me sadistic 
But I say I’m Malxcxous
That’s why I named myself 
This shit 
Take me deeper into the mist 
Drown me in the depths of every pit
Bitch

Spawn

11th Track as well as the final for the album.

This one is my favorite💜

{P.S. I’ve already started working on a new album and it’s way different from what you normally would expect.. stay ready, be waiting.}

Lyrics:

I’m saying fuck it
I’m saying fuck it 
I’m saying fuck it 
I’m saying fuck it

Fuck it all 
I been tryna put a cease and desist to my feelings 
Think daily about the art 
I could create on the ceiling 
I feel like I’m bleeding constantly on the inside
I been tryna burn my ties
I got this slow burning candle 
And it’s consuming all of your lies
I had a big heart 
But I think you have destroyed it 
I’m either tired of feeling 
Or sitting in the void and
Feeling avoided
Must destroy myself 
It’s the only way out to this hell 
Fuck everything 
Let me just decay
I gotta let go 
completely 
to really let go 
If ya know what I mean…

It ain’t just a fuckin dream
Because I live through it all daily 
Stuck in reality 
Couple bottles may save me
Or they may increase my problems 
Only one way to solve em..
Order more bottles
Order more bottles
Order more bottles

Fuck It/Order More Bottles

Glitchcore Baby💜

Lyrics:

It all makes sense now
Put a filter over my eyes
Let me be obsessed wow
Pure beauty baby
I got hearts up in my eyes
Pink and blue sky 
Cotton candy dreams 
Come and see me 
tonight when I dream

I’m trying to get over you
But every time I see you 
I fall back into the same old trance
It’s like I’m skydiving in my heart 
But I can’t land 
I know how I’m going to suffer 
when I see the end

Tell me it isn’t fucking true
I don’t think in this lifetime 
I’ll ever get over you
Even if only get one text
Makes My heart go a flutter 
Butterflies in my body 
Make my mind wonder off

I think I’m stuck in this
Love paradise
I can’t even see you tonight 
Maybe it’s paralysis 
Babe I must be dreaming 
Every thought of you 
Got my mind screaming 

Why oh why
Can’t I make up my mind 
Why oh why 
Am I wasting my time
Why oh why
Am I still in love 
It’s been so much shit 
But I’m praying to the heavens above

Maybe I’m naive 
Maybe I’m feeling nothing 
Maybe it’s a lie 
And maybe I’m made for no one
Maybe it’s a lie 
And I’m made for no one

My Heart (Is Broken)

More Glitchcore!!! 💜

Lyrics:

I been fading fast
You been running through 
my mind like the flash 
Still trying 
To keep it together

Still striving to do better
But my mind been under the weather

Got dark clouds surrounding me 
Feel the darkness taking hold of my heart
Recently I got a spark 
But it died so fast
Now I’m low key falling apart
I know you see the hurt in my eyes 
I’m kind of waiting for someone to save my life
I don’t know where I’m going now
Thinking bout putting myself down

I’m hanging on the edge 
Gripping on life 
Struggling everyday 
Just to sleep at night 
Put a film over my eyes
Tell me it’ll be okay 
If the worst thing happens 
Please just don’t hate me
Don’t hate me

I been fading fast
You been running through 
my mind like the flash 
Still trying 
To keep it together

Still striving to do better
But my mind been under the weather

Got dark clouds surrounding me 
Feel the darkness taking hold of my heart
Recently I got a spark 
But it died so fast
Now I’m low key falling apart

I’m low key falling apart 
Low key falling 

I’m hanging on the edge 
Gripping on life 
Struggling everyday 
Just to sleep at night 
Put a film over my eyes
Tell me it’ll be okay 
Tell me it’ll be okay

Fading

Lyrics:

Bitch I caught a cold case
Skating through my membrane 
Going insane 
Psycho

Been saying that I might blow
My motherfucking head off
Skating on a razor blade 
Down my fucking arm

I’m idolizing suicide
Cause I don’t give a fuck
Got a penthouse in my mind
Full of fucking murder

Blades & guns everything 
That could put a hole through ya
I’m loving every minute of it
Approching suicide 

Eternal bliss for myself 
Even if it costs my life

Drinking till I fall
Smoking till I can’t feel
Killing cells up in my body 
Tryna make me real 

Once again 
God would say 
all these things are sins
But I lost my will to care 
Like I lost my will to live

Cold Case

LYR!CS

(HOOK)
Now I’m waiting for some better days
Everyday still stuck in the same old ways
I am different yet I still feel fucking the same
I’m in my bag but I’m not okay

Now I’m waiting for some better days
Everyday still stuck in the same old ways
I am different yet I still feel fucking the same
I’m in my bag but I’m not okay

(VERSE)
Suffering from BPD can somebody help me
I feel like different people split personality
No need to sing a melody just to tell you how I feel
I think that I’m crazy feels like nothing is real

God I hate who I am I don’t ever feel enough
Living in my head things are getting rough
I’m way to soft even though you think I’m tough
Every fucking day feeling like I’m dragged through the mud 

(HOOK)
Now I’m waiting for some better days
Everyday still stuck in the same old ways
I am different yet I still feel fucking the same
I’m in my bag but I’m not okay

Now I’m waiting for some better days
Everyday still stuck in the same old ways
I am different yet I still feel fucking the same
I’m in my bag but I’m not okey

BETTER DAYS (prod. clozz x sorrow bringer)

her words kill  sir this is a cutthroat fashion ICE MIXX

Yeah I know that

 you hate me 

But I been missing you bad 

And I feel crazy (crazy ) 

And I Know You wanna save me 



But I been fading out 

Isn’t me lately 

(Latey)



Is it too late for me to tell you

That you were right all along 

And I just failed you 



It’s Cause I feel sick and I’m anxious 

I feel I’m running out of ways to escape this 



Maybe it’s the same shit 

That you’re facing 



I know it’s not me cause I’d never leave you waiting up



And I hate this 

I can’t take it 



Cause I been lyin’ to you and I’m just fake as fuck 



Yeah I know that you hate me 

But I been missin’ you bad and I feel crazy 

And I know you wanna save me 

But I been fadin’ out isn’t me lately 



Yeah I know that

 you hate me 

But I been missing you bad 

And I feel crazy (crazy ) 

And I Know You wanna save me 



But I’m fading out 

Isn’t me lately 

(Latey)



Is it too late for me to tell you

That you were right all along 

And I just failed you 



It’s Cause I feel sick and I’m anxious 

I feel I’m running out of ways to escape this 



Maybe it’s the same shit 

That you’re facing 



I know it’s not me cause I’d never leave you waiting up



And I hate this 

I can’t take it 



Cause I been lyin’ to you and I’m just fake as fuck 



Yeah I know that you hate me 

But I been missin you bad and I feel crazy 

And I know you wanna save me 

But I’m fadin out isn’t me lately 
#postpunk
#indierock
#alternativerock

UhateMe (Prod. DrDeagle)

$UICIDEBOY$ Feat. Yelawolf & Bones - World Gone

Produced by @sorrow_bringer
Covery by @ sagabjorneback on Instagram
Follow me on Instagram @ deadnorthkv

[Lyrics]
Push it all back, mane, don't get it twisted 
I've been consistent sipping on some that got me feeling lifted 
I've been committed, to kill em all kill em all 
Mane I've been addicted, now watch us ball watch us ball aye
Underground, you know we don't fuck around
Try to test few too many times you'll end up in the ground
On me I will make it happen
Piss me off wake up the kraken  
Pull up to your door "what's cracking?"
Bust the shit then I get to smacking, aye

Let the base slap like I'll slap your face, damn disgrace
You aint doing shit, you a fucking waste of space
Now, please come tell how I should do it
You don't even know, I fucking knew it
Cause you trynna sound like somebody else
And want to blow up shit aint making any sense, okay

But you know me, K.V, I be creeping your dreams
I be that night demon feeding of your fears
You know it, that feeling getting stronger
Till you give up can't last no longer 
Say your final goodbye, cause it's about time
Pull a gun then I load with my emotions
Got you sliding around like lotion
I pull up what's the commotion 
Got y'all talking like it's slow motion
Where the fuckboy at?
Got some bullets with that
Aiming at his head, then I make it blap, what

Underground, you know we don't fuck around
Try to test few too many times you'll end up in the ground
On me I will make it happen
Piss me off wake up the kraken  
Pull up to your door "what's cracking?"
Bust the shit then I get to smacking, aye

Push it all back, yeah
I've been committed
Now watch us ball, what
Pull a gun then I load with my emotions
Got you sliding around like lotion
I pull up what's the commotion-motion, aye
Where the fuckboy at
Where he at, where he at, where he at

Push it all back, mane, don't get it twisted 
I've been consistent sipping on some that got me feeling lifted 
I've been committed, to kill em all kill em all 
Mane I've been addicted, now watch us ball watch us ball aye
Underground, you know we don't fuck around
Try to test few too many times you'll end up in the ground
On me I will make it happen
Piss me off wake up the kraken  
Pull up to your door "what's cracking?"
Bust the shit then I get to smacking, aye

PushItAllBack (Prod. Sorrow Bringer)

it’s the lord of the pines, Im a freak in disguise 
life going fast, life flash brfore my eyes
devil on the mind other foes by my side 
damaged so hard I can’t even feel right 
fog on the fields when I wake up in the morning 
I can’t stand a normal life nah that shit so boring 
Gotta glow up, blow up before I rage quit 
every single day I have to shapeshift
I blow a bag, in the trap then I rap
I know you do the same but you wack
moitivation low, y’all can’t accept 
y’all are just allergic to the facts 
you shoot yourself now you gotta face that
We don’t compare and I know you hate that 
I know what I can, so where my cash at 
I’m yung nick drake of the sad rap

smoke a cig, pop a bottle, fill the hole in my chest 
they stressing bout things that I couldn’t care less
Bitch I'm sick till the end, I wonder what comes next 
I don’t care no more who once just left

shapeshifter (prod. skeleton in clothing)

Suicide Boys Antarctica Slowed

Zillakami - Yellow Piss (Slowed + Reverb)

This is the legacy I’m leaving behind. 

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Cold Case

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