Malxcxous Intent

Song chosen at random for the “Malxcxous Intent” Album

Lyrics:

Days go by
I’m struggling 
between death and life
Gun to my head 
too many times
I’ve thought about pulling the trigger
Been so close I felt the lights flicker

Yea baby I been tryna die
Nothing ever going right
Seen a text from my ex 
Felt like shit a thousand times

And I know you want me out of your life
But I’m feeling like erasing myself tonight

appearance of my persona
Matches the hurt behind my eyes
Heart been feeling dead 
This one’s different from the other times

And I’m just tryna drown it all out for a day
Don’t want to show you any of my pain no

Days go by
I’m struggling 
between death and life
Gun to my head 
too many times
I’ve thought about pulling the trigger
Been so close I felt the lights flicker

(Right Ambient)
Been so close I felt the lights flicker

(Left Ambient)
Been so close I felt the lights flicker

Days go by
I’m struggling 
between death and life
Gun to my head 
too many times
I’ve thought about pulling the trigger
Been so close-
Been so close-
Been so-
Days go by
I’m struggling 
between death and life
Gun to my head

Days Gone

Lyrics: 

Tired of reaching out so now I stay low key
Living in a ghost town in my mind 
God telling me to take my time 
Devil inside tryna take my eyes 
So I only see pitch black

But I don’t want to have suicidal thoughts in the Cadillac 
Mood switching like you been flipping a light
When I travel a to b I stay out of sight 
Cause there isn’t a night 
where I don’t wanna be alone
Inside been feeling like I have to atone 
For they way I’m being treated
That’s why I’m grippin’ the chrome
Mistake my silence for patience
But I’ve just kind of been waiting 
I can see that everything’s about to implode 
Just waiting for the fuse to light 
So I can explode 
Cause I ain’t going out without no damage
I’m going catastrophic no healing 

Don’t worry for me anymore 
Cause there’s no saving me 
Life’s been on a tight rope 
And I swear it’s getting thinner

You ain’t ever heard me talk about anything realer
Then this shit, why do I have to be stuck in place feeling like shit
While she gets to reap the benefits of her own destruction 
Meanwhile I’m sitting at home plotting on myself 
With my smith and Wesson 

I’m only getting closer to the edge 
Only getting closer to the edge 
Only getting closer to the edge (edge)

And I’m Getting Closer To…

Lyrics:

Stuck in my ways 
Stuck in illusions 
Been fighting for days
It’s been abusive

Been hiding my pain 
Been acting clueless
Fight through the day
Just to be reclusive

And I’ve been stuck 
Going round and round 
Round and round 
Round and round 
Used to say that
Nothing could ever 
Hold me down
Hold me down
But things have changed 
While I’ve been writing down 
Words from my mind 
Decipher the code 
Just to make a song 
That they’ll never find  
That they’ll never find
That they’ll never find

Lately I’ve been out of control
Telling people that I sold my soul
But I just want them to leave me alone 
Cause no one’s there at night 
when I’m gripping chrome
No one there to save me 
And I’ve been stuck 
Going round and round 
Cycling through the chamber 
Hoping to fire a round 
Through my fuckin brain 
They saying I’m insane 
But put simply 
It’s just that some things have changed 
I used to have love but I lost it all
Used to beg for attention 
While she tore me apart
Every waking minute 
I put everything on hold 
Just to see if she even loved me anymore

I’m spiraling 
Going round and round 
Wonder if in the end 
I’ll just start to sink down 
Straight to hell never go to heaven 
Wondering if it’s cause I shot myself 
With the Smith and Wesson 
Guess I should’ve watched the clock 
Cause I knew my time was running out 
Didn’t realize 
That I had to fight a bout with myself 
Didn’t see the pure destruction 
Say she wanted change 
But confused me straight to corruption
Confused me straight to corruption

I’m Spiraling. (Round & Round)

Lyrics: 

Sit on the edge of tomorrow 
Constantly live in my sorrow
Sink in the ground
While I’m coming down
Accepting everything 
I’ve been blessed 
Now it’s gone away
I know that I’m okay
Now

Don’t know why you forsake me
My brains been erasing 
Everything inside
I know you want to see me suffer 
Well I want you to hop on for the ride
Cause I’m done holding back 
If you want to attack 
I’ll match every figment of your energy 
But the catch is 
I won’t bounce back.



I wanna fly free
No more suffering
Spread my fucking wings 
White or black
Heaven or hell
Either way I’ll be okay
No more pain
No more stress
All it’ll take is my death
I’ve heard the screams
I’ve heard the cries
But it doesn’t even scare me on the inside
I hear voices
I see things 
Slowly becoming crazed
Now I’m only
On the verge of death
on the edge of tomorrow 
-
On the verge of death
on the edge of tomorrow 
-
On the verge of death
on the edge of tomorrow

The Edge of Tomorrow

Lyrics: 

Depression it ain’t getting better
Found clarity in stormy weather 
Fuck change ain’t nothing wrong with me 
I’ll just continue to sever 
My fucking bonds 
That hold me to this life
Scars down my arm
I’ll make a couple more tonight
Fear in my heart 
I’m going too deep now
Feel the tidal waves crashing 
While I sink down

Too many different things up on my mind 
going supersonic
Drugs don’t hit the same anymore 
unless it’s that chronic 
I don’t have no shame anymore 
No I fucking own it 
Turn myself into a demon 
Cause I know y’all see me bleeding
No one helping me pick up the pieces 
Damage everywhere my ears are still ringing 

Heart broken and I’m speechless 
Can’t find reason to conversate 
Lot of y’all left me in my darkest times 
Maybe it’s cause you’re wondering when I’ll die 

It’s not a surprise 
When it’s all I idolize 
Any figment of my imagination 
Usually includes suicide

Why do I smile when I know I’m fucking hurting 
Why do I lie when I see it isn’t working 
Why do I hide when it could fucking save me 
Why do I cry when my feelings 
always enslave me
always enslave me
always enslave me
always enslave me

Depression it ain’t getting better
Found clarity in stormy weather 
Fuck change ain’t nothing wrong with me 
I’ll just continue to sever 
My fucking bonds 
That hold me to this life
Scars down my arm
I’ll make a couple more tonight
Fear in my heart 
I’m going too deep now
Feel the tidal waves crashing 
While I sink down

Deeper & Deeper

MOTIVATION(prod.painhunter)

They don’t give af , BTW I have a new album coming out

Yeah I know that

 you hate me 

But I been missing you bad 

And I feel crazy (crazy ) 

And I Know You wanna save me 



But I been fading out 

Isn’t me lately 

(Latey)



Is it too late for me to tell you

That you were right all along 

And I just failed you 



It’s Cause I feel sick and I’m anxious 

I feel I’m running out of ways to escape this 



Maybe it’s the same shit 

That you’re facing 



I know it’s not me cause I’d never leave you waiting up



And I hate this 

I can’t take it 



Cause I been lyin’ to you and I’m just fake as fuck 



Yeah I know that you hate me 

But I been missin’ you bad and I feel crazy 

And I know you wanna save me 

But I been fadin’ out isn’t me lately 



Yeah I know that

 you hate me 

But I been missing you bad 

And I feel crazy (crazy ) 

And I Know You wanna save me 



But I’m fading out 

Isn’t me lately 

(Latey)



Is it too late for me to tell you

That you were right all along 

And I just failed you 



It’s Cause I feel sick and I’m anxious 

I feel I’m running out of ways to escape this 



Maybe it’s the same shit 

That you’re facing 



I know it’s not me cause I’d never leave you waiting up



And I hate this 

I can’t take it 



Cause I been lyin’ to you and I’m just fake as fuck 



Yeah I know that you hate me 

But I been missin you bad and I feel crazy 

And I know you wanna save me 

But I’m fadin out isn’t me lately 
#postpunk
#indierock
#alternativerock

UhateMe (Prod. DrDeagle)

Lyrics:

Flies in ya throat let my parasite infect ya mind Lies being told to better spit the truth im grippin spines 
White in ya nose i can see tweakin bout some lines
Open up this flight dutt pack lil bitch u kno im getting high 

I broke the roof off of this hoe 
Tie that noose around ya throat 
Feeling shady its just the money tree i planted long ago 

Never lack i watch my back with all the eyes i pulled out slow 
Yung sly cooper u cant see me creepin sneakin thru yo home

Grip my 45 
Lost so much sleep many nights
Sacrificed my sleight of hand i cock it back and blow my mind 

Cutting me deep all those times that you lied 
Talkin to god but he never replies 
Feels like im losing my faith and belief in myself and i dont kno where else to reside 

If you want it then lets get it homie bust a bitch up on eem

Better focus on the mission so we get our paper money 
See my dick under the mistletoe u better kiss up on it 
Boy ikno u never kicked a door quit cappin in yo phonics 

No i dont need more bitches i need riches in my business 
dividends so goddamn high u need a accountant just to finish 
I dont care about my image if it don’t fit it in the picture
All u rappers worried bout a trend im counting up these digits

Grip my 45 
Lost so much sleep many nights
Sacrificed my sleight of hand i cock it back and blow my mind

Flies in ya throat let my parasite infect ya mind Lies being told to better spit the truth im grippin spines 
White in ya nose i can see tweakin bout some lines
Open up this flight dutt pack lil bitch u kno im getting high

FEEL THA SAME - bumboi w autrioly (prod. bumboi x autrioly)

Styx

“Diamonds” is a smooth, jazz-inspired reflection on rising above the noise. While the world chases cars, fashion, and fame, Jai Winter drifts in a calm groove, grounded in prayer, fasting, and love for God. A chill soundtrack for anyone choosing peace and higher purpose over distraction.

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LIKEAHELICOPTER (prod. by lim0)

Something Beautiful And Terrible (Prod. Dvrkangel & Houndrel)

EYESORE

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