Lost and Found

Plans made, unfulfilled
For a life not lived
We dared to believe it was real
But it wasn’t to be for us
What we grasped for a moment turned to dust
Fleeting perfection, swiftly crushed
Now I survive, because I must

What do I do with the pain
To live life again
To remember is hard
To forget is even harder
We’re together alone
I cry but you won’t
I’m weak and you’re strong 
But who will fall the hardest?

Do you remember before
The darkness came to call
And took away the dream
Now I yearn for those days
To not know, not feel this way
To be ignorant, to be free
To unsee what I have seen

What do I do with the pain
To live life again
To remember is hard
To forget is even harder
We’re together alone
I cry but you won’t
I’m weak and you’re strong 
But who will fall the hardest?

Please listen to me
I’m here and I need you 
We’re different I know
Let me in and I’ll show you
Love can exist with pain
And weakness is a strength
Together we’ll find
I’ll ease your hurt and you’ll ease mine

What do I do with the pain
To live life again
To remember is hard
To forget is even harder
We’re together alone
I cry but you won’t
I’m weak and you’re strong 
But who will fall the hardest?

Who Will Fall?

I don't know how I feel
I should be happy, but I'm not
The slight wasn't real
I know you simply forgot

But why am I not in your field of vision
Why am I not all you see? 
And why does confusion 
Play a part in how you feel?

Time to leave
I can't mean less to you 
Than you do to me
Can't you see
Your indecision set me free
No need for apologies
It's time for me to leave

It's nothing that you did
At least not intentionally
Your focus drifted
Too far away from me
It's plain to see 
That the cracks were present
Right from the start
But I didn't care to see them
I was following my heart

Time to leave
I can't mean less to you 
Than you do to me
Can't you see
Your indecision set me free
No need for apologies
It's time for me to leave

Don't feel bad
There's nothing to forgive
But I deserve so much more
Than you can give

Time to leave
I can't mean less to you 
Than you do to me
Can't you see
Your indecision set me free
No need for apologies
It's time for me to leave

Time To Leave

The beautiful string quartet parts on this track have been skilfully created and arranged by the talented @markluto. 

Incomplete

All fab guitar and bass tracks provided by @rosarius (guitar) and Bruce (bass). 

Verse 1:
Not deep and meaningful just real
A chance is lost to tell you how I feel
As I cover up the gaping hole you miss
My smile is just a curving of my lips

Pre-chorus:
The great pretence
My last defence
You see I'm hiding
And every day
Is a chance to say
Please come and find me

Chorus:
And I'll open up a crack
Let a little sadness out
Not enough to push you back
Just enough to show you what I'm all about
Look in my eyes
And you will see this time
You knew me only half as well as I knew you

Verse 2:
As I carry out my daily work by rote
The date passes yearly without note
A testament to being in control
You assume the loss it, took so little toll

Pre-chorus:
So bloody hard
Not to discard
What won't define me
And every day 
Is a chance to say
Please try and find me

Chorus:
And I'll open up a crack
Let a little sadness out
Not enough to push you back
Just enough to show you what I'm all about
Look in my eyes
And you will see this time
You knew me only half as well as I knew you

Open Up a Crack

I heard your news today
Felt your world peel away
And your heart was crumbling fast
I wish I could tell you it won't last

I was there 
Right between darkness and despair
And everywhere I looked, I saw what I'd lost
Taken for granted at so little cost

Chorus 
Hold those memories close
That they're all you have hurts the most
Specks of time, magnified, playing like a movie
Inside your mind
Playing like a movie, inside your mind

I can tell you this my friend
Slowly the pain becomes a little less
It never leaves, it deserves to stay
You won't give her rightful place away

Chorus 
Hold those memories close
That they're all you have hurts the most
Specks of time, magnified, playing like a movie
Inside your mind
Playing like a movie, inside your mind

Step by step by step by little step
Every day you grieve leaves one day less
Lean on me, and I'll lean on you
And maybe together, we'll both get through

Hold those memories close....

Hold Those Memories Close

Well is dry, nothing’s inside
Curtains drawn nowhere to hide
But if you didn’t know, you’d never guess
Love is gone, it’s gone so far away
Try as you might, won’t make it stay
So why not try a little less

You’re a master of perfection
In all but my affection
I’m not a prize that you have won
Love’s a seed that you must sow
And starved of you, don’t you know
I’ll turn away from you towards the sun
Towards another someone

You’re used to life served up on a plate
No need to try, no need to wait
That silver spoon worked such a treat
But I am not your given right
I’m not employed, I’m not obliged
And I can walk away and not miss a beat

You’re a master of perfection
In all but my affection
I’m not a prize that you have won
Love’s a seed that you must sow
And starved of you, don’t you know
I’ll turn away from you towards the sun
Towards another someone

Want me to stay?
Think that you can change your ways?
But it’s already too late
I don’t believe that there’s anyway you can save us

You’re a master of perfection
In all but my affection
I’m not a prize that you have won
Love’s a seed that you must sow
And starved of you, don’t you know
I’ll turn away from you towards the sun
Towards another someone

Master Of Perfection

Not fair, I shout inside my head
As I hear your news and sense your dread
The harder you try to fake the ease
With which you throw your words at me
The stronger my muscles tighten

The battle ground was laid before
You took your stance with ever more
Than the dignity that I can find
I'm mute of words, blank of mind
Cos I am really frightened 

We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here

Every path will be paved
With all our love that we can save
For every encounter, every day
We get to hold your hand and say
We'll walk this road beside you

But that won't help to ease the pain
That grows in force as it turns again
To ravage you and all you've built 
While those who thrive are wracked with guilt
Cos only luck divides us

We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here, we are here
We are everywhere you want us
Anytime you need we'll take your lead
We are here

Every Path

Don't be afraid
Put aside that fear
As the cloudiness comes
I'll be right here
I'll hold your hand
I'll take your weight
Just lean on me
As we wait...

The years pass
The tables turn
From a life and love
That simply were
No question marks
The lines were straight
They’re crooked now
As we wait...

Like an old film reel
The images float
Past my eyes
And that lump in my throat
Makes me tighten
My hold on your hand
My cries I swallow
My tears I fan
As we wait...

Bring me back
To an airy day
Paddling in
In the incoming waves
Trousers rolled
To knees exposed
Laughter loud and
Water cold
Hand held tight
As we jumped each time
The tide pushed us
Back in line
I close my eyes
I hold that thought
As we wait..

And I promise you
I won't love less
Won't loosen my hold
Through the cloudiness
My hand in yours
Your cushion my shoulder
It's simply time
We all must get older
Don't be afraid
I'll be right here
As we wait....

As We Wait

I am numb
I’ve forgotten how to feel
I have become
An impenetrable shell of steel
I won’t succumb
To their appeals
They beat their drums
But I will not reveal

What goes on inside my head
I won’t be drawn, I can’t be read
And I have no more tears to shed 
My oath is etched upon your grave
I won’t let go, I won’t be saved

I am alone
It’s best that way
I ignore the phone
I have no words today
If they think that I’m not home
Maybe they’ll go away
Cos they just want to know
What I cannot say 'bout

What goes on inside my head
I won’t be drawn, I can’t be read
And I have no more tears to shed 
My oath is etched upon your grave
I won’t let go, I won’t be saved

My words are only mine to hear
I made a promise I will keep
I close my eyes and you’re with me
For now I've everything I need

What goes on inside my head
My vision’s dull, my passion’s dead
I have no heart, I’ve stone instead
My oath is etched upon your grave
I won’t let go, I won’t be saved

No More Tears

For Eva...

All your life I've had my hand on your shoulder
To guide you on your way and catch your fall 
And now that you're that little bit older
I know it's time for you to walk alone

And I'll hold on tight as I let you go
I'll burst with pride but you'll never know
I'll play it cool, won't let it show
You're my fearless, independent soul

I remember the first time I held you
The months I'd waited couldn't have foretold
The feelings that overwhelmed me
You took my breath, you took my heart, you took my soul

And I'll hold on tight as I let you go
I'll burst with pride but you'll never know
I'll play it cool, won't let it show
You're my fearless, independent soul

Fearless

I smile at you and all you see
Is darkness surrounding  me
And all this time I'd thought I’d hidden it so well 
I can’t understand how you could tell

But I won’t talk about it 
I won’t let you under my skin
I won’t talk about it 
I’m never gonna let you in

You sit with me when you see I’m alone
Why do I recoil at the kindness in your tone
I know that you’re convinced I need to share
But listen to my silence if you dare

Cos I won’t talk about it 
I won’t let you under my skin
I won’t talk about it 
I’m never gonna let you in

Listen won’t you listen 
You might not always be right
Don’t assume that my position
Didn’t come without a fight
It’s with reason that I push you
Out of mind and out of sight
Sometimes the deadliest of flames
Are the easiest to ignite

I won’t talk about it 
I won’t let you under my skin
I won’t talk about it 
I’m never gonna let you in

I Won't Talk About It

There are no words that I can say
To take the pain away
I write a phrase and hit delete
I write again, and then repeat

What do you say to someone who's lost everything
What do you say when there's nothing left to fight
I want to scream but there's no one to scream at
There must be someone to blame, right?

You turn to me for comfort and strength 
And I fail to give you what you expect
Soothing words turn to dust on my lips
Consolation I cannot give

What do you say to someone who's lost everything
What do you say when there's nothing left to fight
I want to scream but there's no one to scream at
There must be someone to blame, right?

Those who say everything happens for a reason
Should stay the hell away from me
Cos in a world full of madmen and villains
Why take the gentle and let the monsters run free

What do you say to someone who's lost everything
What do you say when there's nothing left to fight
I want to scream but there's no one to scream at
There must be someone to blame, right?

What Do You Say?

I'd go anywhere in the world for you
I'd abandon best laid plans for you
Maybe do the things I thought I couldn't do
To be with you

I'm like putty in your hands
I relish your demands
And welcome every feeling you invite 
I'm enthralled and I'm transfixed
Love never felt like this
So maybe this time we got it right

I'd go anywhere in the world for you
I'd abandon best laid plans for you
Maybe do the things I thought I couldn't do
To be with you

I told you once in a flash of truth
I love the bones of you
With such intensity it almost hurts
And I still feel the same
I'm like a moth to your flame
And I don't care if I burn

I'd go anywhere in the world for you
I'd abandon best laid plans for you
Maybe do the things I thought I couldn't do
To be with you

Be With You

All songs on channel are original and copyright of Karen O'Mahony (c). 

You'll find me also here in my collaboration project with Johan Alm https://soundcloud.com/ashesfordreams

Lost and Found

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