cover art by iguana alana and @glowboyshawty
prod. han!can

swag epic song (han!can)

until u loveme
cover art by @vitaminn_vin on ig
inspired by feeluvsyou
shoutout lady gaga and glowboy cause hes glowboy

paparazzi

the saddest song ever made in the entire world ever w/ lost8

prod 2001
i wish you understood what i mean
i wish u rlly felt proud of me
i wish i had a home
let it go
the ppl that i know
never show themselves to me
i’m crying aching see
off a pill bitch i’m stuck in a dream
my head hurts i’m so deep
where do i go now
i can’t put my pants on
i cant do shit now
i feel like a moron
life is a headache
every fucking mistake
is haunting me so bad
wont u come hold me
tell me it’s okay
tell me i’m alright
plz don’t ignore me
i wait till the morning
but you do not text back
i feel so fucking stupid
why won’t u message me please

kill me softly please
when you speak will you speak slowly
do you love me like u say you’ll get me killed if i hurt you
why do you hurt me
please don’t ignore me
i ask you to calm down
you stay for a while
we drink until we pass out
draining me slowly
killing me softly
calm down
why are you shouting
fucking calm down
please just stop your whining
you tell me you’re stressed out
you tell me to calm down
but you are the one that
is causing the problems
why don’t you see that

wish u rlly

prod. @deadspyro 
baby
the stress inside my body 
it haunts me
cant sleep 
now alarming 
oh baby 
the stress inside my body 
it haunts me
i can’t eat now i’m choking 
i can’t breathe
i can’t see
what you want me to be
i’m too stressed 
i’m a mess
i can’t live
again 
i’ll come back
in my head
i’m a mess
did it again
i’m worthless 
can u help 
find purpose 
everyday just do it again 
i got a couple of friends 
i just wanna do the xan

baby we can leave the lights on 
to be
i don’t rlly care now
baby
i’m a little stressed out 
maybe
we can go back now 
baby
we can wake up now
to be
i’m just real again
baby i’m just in pain
don’t wanna do this again

why do i have to be me whywhywhyh

@jadegardn
(elliott smith cover)

(mckel)
haven't laughed this hard in a long time
i better stop now before i start crying
go off to sleep in the sunshine
i don't want to see the day when it's dying
she's a sight to see
she's good to me
but i'm already somebody's baby
she's a pretty thing
and she knows everything
but i'm already somebody's baby
you don't deserve to be lonely
but those drugs you've got won't make you feel better
pretty soon you'll find it's the only
little part of your life you're keeping together
i'm nice to you
i could make it through
but you're already somebody's baby
i could make you smile
if you stayed a while
but how long will you stay with me, baby?

(jadegardn)
because your candle burns too bright
well i almost forgot it was twilight
even if i think that you are right
well i'm tired of being down, i got no fight
you're wonderful
and it's beautiful
but i'm already somebody's baby
and if i went with you
i'd disappoint you too
well i'm already somebody's baby
already somebody's baby

twilight w/ jadegardn

brain to mp3 converter

f0110w w/ lil soda boi

prod @b07gem
cover art by my good friend ssnarge on ig

cool song

prod kaadota

are you my friend
i’m locked away
oh suddenly 
i’m scared to speak 
i’m alone baby
i’m scared to be myself
failing mental health 
baby

why’d you leave
are you my friend
i’m locked away
oh suddenly  
oh i’m changing 
i can’t do this
without you here
cant live like this
baby so clear
yeah

i saw you there
you took me away
faraway from here

put it behindme

[mckel]
what the fuck
oh my god
yeah

i just got the swag in the club pourin up 
what the fuck you sayin bitch roll another blunt
oh my fucking god i just roll another blunt
oh my fucking god bitch you rlly fucking suck 
oh my god what fuck pourin up 
at the party and i smoke another blunt
said you hate me but you rlly fucking suck
yeah you love me yeah you’re pouring up a cup 
oh my god fuck what the fuck hurry up
you rlly suck oh my god what the fuck 
oh my god at the party pourin up 
hate this place hate my face rlly suck

[feeluvsyou]
im so high but its really not enough
we can take percs until we're throwing up
baby ill tell you anything you wanna know
i get high so alone in my room

baby tell me what you wanna do
pouring wok till we turn blue
dancing in a dark room
baby this is nothing new
you can tell me what you wanna do

baby tell me what you wanna do
pouring wok till we turn blue
dancing in a dark room
baby this is nothing new
you can tell me what you wanna do

baby this is nothing new
pouring wok in a dark room
baby whatchu wanna do
baby this is nothing new
you can tell me what you wanna do

mckel x feeluvsyou -エチゾラム

life is a game in which i am a failure

prod @benjithemachine
i miss you more than anything fee i love you so much

oh my heart
are you there for me?
are you lost
plz take hold of me

been in the scriptures that painted the walls 
can’t live like this it’s too hard and i fall
at night 
i cry
lost my best friend in this life i can’t stand it
i just take drugs and i can’t ever manage
to better myself
to better my health

maybe another pill will help me
maybe another oxy with codeine
i just can’t take this im zoning out 
make me feel better now 
living this life
without you by my side 
we were gonna see eachother
we were gonna film together 
we were gonna-
hang out with you in the darkest of days
hang out with you when i feel like decay
hang out with you
i just wanna talk to you again 
lost in the cracks in the wall i can’t stand it
lost my good friend and i still cannot manage
to better myself
god am i failing at help

i just wanna talk to you again

@pinkfuneral
[mckel]
you had my back, you understand 
what make my heart 
you broke my hand
oh life to me, is only pain 
you’re in my heart, i overthink 
oh it’s just peace to me, awfully 
broke me so bad, cut on my hand
awfully, oh misery
i can’t live easily baby
off of my hand
i take the knife, i take a pill
i end my life

[pinkfuneral]
why must christmas be so sad now
oh i walk around with my head down
christmas dont feel like its christmas without u
oh i wanna wrap my arms around u
my hearts filled with sorrow tonight
i look outside i dont see christmas lights
nah

[mckel]
you understand what we could be
you take my heart, crush it i bleed
you did my heart in, oh i’m broken 
oh misery, oh baby please
you’re in my head, so easily
i feel the dread in my chest, it hurts in my head
i can’t live like this, it hurts in my chest
oh, baby i can’t, baby
so sleep on me 
tell me, you see
oh i’m hurting 
oh i’m broken, can’t take it

miserable christmas w/ pinkfuneral

prod fly boi yoda

shawty call me like i’m lookin for a fried egg
disrespect me and you disrespect my stance
i can’t do this i’ll amount to nothing
i can’t understand lookin for a check plz
got a fried, egg in my pantry
you don’t understand what you said lookin at me
you don’t rlly care cuz i got the bag
you don’t rlly care cuz ur going out sad
love is fake to me, every jewelry
i just can’t see ur just fake to me
can’t live like this, fried egg in my eyelids

you said you care for me but you rlly don’t
ur nothing to me, you disrespect my home
i can’t take this life i just wanna die
i can’t take this pain, i’m too dead inside
to see you
i just cant remember seeing you
i just carry this, a fried egg
i just need to cook in my stand

about you and i’m coming down the hallway
but you look at me and comin out like fridvy
but ur so sad you just disrespect me
you don’t understand, comin for the money
fried egg recipe in my wallet
i take everywhere and you know i got a pocket
i call you, gotta call you gotta die soon i’m gonna die soon
i miss my friends i miss my family
i got fried egg to keep me company
i cant do this i can’t live this life
pain is deep inside of my eyelid
and i can’t live like this
feel the pain in my eyelids, you’re just so mean
cut and i bleed

fried egg

i hate bugs

prod jolst x thislandis

i’m right back where i’m supposed to be-be
yeah
i don’t need like nobody yeah
got my bros by my side
i don’t need no life to live
i don’t need no love-love
i don’t have any shit to give to you-you
yeah you hurt me-me
when you left me-me
oh i’m burning i’m burning again

i’m right back where i’m supposed to be-be ah
i don’t have like nobody again
i lose everybody when i’m faded off a xanax bar-bar

i’m right back where i’m supposed to be-be
yeah
i don’t need like nobody yeah
got my bros by my side
i don’t need no life to live
i don’t need no love-love
i don’t have any shit to give to you-you
yeah you hurt me-me
when you left me
oh-oh i’m burning i’m burning again-gain
i’m right back where i’m supposed to be-be
yeah
i don’t need like nobody yeah

ah-ah-ah
i don’t need like nobody ah
only need myself to live in this world of creation
faded off a pill when this life is frustrating ah
oh i’m burning i’m burning again
i’m right back where i’m supposed to be

i closed my eyes and saw mckel

pocket pc

prod @corpse-disposal

i don’t smoke loud i just need some percs in my mouth tonight 
i just pop a xan then i feel alright 
i can’t leave with you tonight
i can’t leave with you tonight

so what? i haven’t had a perc in so long 
what’s wrong? i just wanna sing you a song
all alone i get high as a kite smoking alone i’ll be gone by the night- gone by the night 
smoking alone i’ll be gone by the night

i don’t smoke loud i just need some percs in my mouth tonight 
i just pop a xan then i feel alright 
i can’t leave with you tonight
i can’t leave with you tonight

so what? i haven’t had a perc in so long 
what’s wrong? i just wanna sing you a song
all alone i get high as a kite smoking alone i’ll be gone by the night-gone by the night 
smoking alone i’ll be gone by the night 

i don’t smoke loud i just need some percs in my mouth tonight 
i just pop a xan then i feel alright 
i can’t leave with you tonight
i can’t leave with you tonight

so what? i haven’t had a perc in so long 
what’s wrong? i just wanna sing you a song

so what

disc of sorrow

the most beautiful song ever made w/ xxcrush

prod @corpse-disposal
w/ @xxcrush

@monocryy
and im- and im sad only
and i cant hold me
and i need you here 
and i need you here my dear
and im sad
all i do is hurt myself it’s rlly bad
i just threw my fucking life all in the trash
oh, so bad
so sad

and im- and im sad only
and i cant hold me-hold me
and i need you here 
and i need you here my dear
and im sad-sad
all i do is hurt myself it’s rlly bad-bad
i just threw my fucking life all in the trash-trash
oh, so bad-bad
so sad-sad

forgive you 
for anything, yeah 

@xxcrush
& I might do a random act of kindness 
Blow my brains all on tha floor
Blood all on the bathroom floor
Bathroom tiles 
holy worship me like why I’m vile
lore written down like tha bible 
Woah woah
Turn up like woah 
Wanna L o t r g f like woah
 she play wow
Woah is me wow 
I’m Not posted ina background
In the stage light w my slasher movie cast 
Haunted campground
Watch ur backkk 
It’s a Fiction text for the camera
 she wanna make out behind the set 
Why I don’t need a answer
leave me to wonder ya I like to wonder
Shawty eyes red & black
and my heart black & yours red
Angel in the mirror & I’m right next
Looking back
Shattered glass Shattered memories 
Silent hill still like im obsessdd with 2013
Ya I’m so so I don’t know why I do this

into the trash w/ xxcrush

@prod-plxce

all i do is i think about you
all i do is i think about you
all i do is i think about youuu-

what we could’ve been
what we could be 
now im all alone and im parked in the benz
and i hate my life right until the end
you can call me 
you can be my friend 
when you call me 
when you’re feelin bad, feelin lonely 
and im so sad and lonely
i can’t do this im sorry 
i need your life
into my heart
my soul is dead, im wrong again 

need the oxy percy
better off without me 
i don’t need you healthy 
baby girl im sorry 

yeah my heart is a stereo 
and it beats for you girl lemme know 
and i need your phone on me
girl i’ve been feelin really lonely 
and i need your love i need cashapp badly 
i need you and the fuckin perc and xannie
and i need your love i need cashapp badly 
i need you and the fuckin perc and xannie
i need- i-i-i-i need
i-i-i-i need your life into my heart 
im wrong again 
im wrong again

think about you

prod @corpse-disposal
w/ @whyhaze

@monocryy
you’re better off without me
im a lost cause i promise

i feel tired every night 
no no no it’ll be just fine 
i don’t want you to worry 
swear to god i’ll be home in the morning please

i feel tired every night 
no no no and i swear it’ll be just fine
and i always fuck it up 
i know you try to call and now i always hang it up 
i always hang it up

i feel tired every night 
no no no and i swear it’ll be just fine
and i always fuck it up 
i know you try to call and now i always hang it up 
i always hang it up

and i know it’s hard to trust 
cause i always mess it up 
i feel tired every night 
no no no and i swear it’ll be just fine

@whyhaze
I promise i’ll be fine 
everything’s alright when i close my eyes
promise i’ll be home by the morning 
honestly idk where im going
and we be getting high
doing drugs in the back
i love it when i feel like that
i want u but u make me feel so bad
fuck it blow a rack
i love to pop tags
i just need half a pill to go to sleep
i’m so tired every day of the week
i’m so tired of this agony 
i woke up again
U still not next to me

@monocryy
i don’t smoke loud i just- 
i just need another percy a percy
and i always mess it up 
percy a percy 

i don’t smoke loud i just need uh percy in my mouth tonight, mouth tonight 
pop a xan then i feel alright feel alright again

no no no w/ whyhaze

prod @xxnyck420xx

god im so fucked
oh my god 
i’m so fucked
oh my god
im so fucked
oh my oh my

oh my god
i love you more than anything i need you in my life 
i’ll never fuck it up again i swear i’ll try 
i swear ill do everything that you fucking want 
i’ll be the better man for once in my life
i won’t fuck it up 
i won’t fuck it up this time
i swear to god i won’t fuck it up i’ll do right
i swear to god i’ll make the right decision right 
i won’t make any mistakes in this whole life

i hate it bad i hate my life 
i fucked it up
it’s so bad i know you’re fucked up and can’t trust because 
of me, 
i fucked 
you up
my brain it bleeds

i hate my fucking life 
i do it all the time 
i fuck up everything
no matter if i try
everything i do
ends so fucking bad
oh it’s a hardship everyday my life is bad

oh my god 
i love you more than anything i need you here with me
i won’t fuck it up again i swear i’ll be 
the man you want 
in your life
i’ll be the perfect little man wife(laugh)

i feel like me again my existence is suffering 
i live my life a fake person doesn’t that mean something
i lie to you i lie to me like it means nothing 
i lie to you i lie to me and fuck my life i be
isn’t that 
isn’t that something you want pills and you’re talking bout funny 
isn’t that 
and you take shit from me isn’t that what you do you dummy 
do you think 
do you think im really stupid 
i will fuck my life just in person 
do you think 
do you think i’m really stupid 
do you think im fucked up clueless 
isn’t it a little bit fucked up to do this
is it a little bit fucked up to do this 
screw this
you live like crazy 
chznxbxbxb 
i swear to god everybody hates me

isnt that something

prod @corpse-disposal
w/ @xxcrush & @inssekt

[mckel]
and i swear-
and i swear that if i fuck up i won’t come back 
if you hate me then thats it man 
i promise i can be better man 
you wont look at me like awful man 
i promise ill make it different 
i cant change anything dead on the pavement
bad days are coming i feel it i feel it
i cant do anything cant make a difference 
fuck it all fuck it all don’t wanna feel it 
cover my mouth i can’t scream i can’t hear this 
i cannot handle this
i cannot handle this
fuck up my life leave me dead on the pavement 
dead on the pavement
it’s what i deserve man
dead on the pavement 
it’s what i deserve man
dead on the pavement
dead on the-
dead on the pavement 

[xxcrush]
promise that this real life
I don’t feel alive 
But this alright
Promise it’ll be okay
Sorry if it so backwards
Wanna be a actor 
U could prolly guess my password
Stuck in my head like my favourite song
Like my favourite obsession
Im pretty sure this could b heaven 
I’m so fucking high that I can see heaven
Heaven heaven heaven
I already said these rhymess 
let me practice these lines For the thousanth time

[inssekt]
Drop a pill and forget
Remember what u said u again
I can’t get back that feeling
But I swear this time I feel it
I take one more n I up the dose
I take 2 more cus I hold I close
I never wanna let u go (too much)

Look into my eyes
Telling I’m just fine
Tell I’m not dying
Dying
Dying

mckel

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