The Upload

produced by @sprr00w + @craves <3
written recorded and mixed by me 

as of making this I'm not doing good

🠟 lyrics 🠟

i wish that i could say
that im at my worst

but i know you’re here too


took my mind to a place
where i can hide my pain

so i can fucking hear you


and when you’re done
i turn my phone off
so i can disappear 

u dont wanna know
the things i do to cope
when ur not here


so don’t you worry your 
little head

im all ears for you 
as i should be

ill keep lying and saying
that im fine

until your problems
eat
away at me



time we get away from here
and see a place that doesn’t rain 

its time to say goodbye to home
cuz all it brought us both was pain 

its time for us to vanish 
in a way where they ask
are we sane ?

its time 

for us to walk alone


ill go left and you go right

ill go dark and you go light

ill accept while you deny

and say im not a waste of time


ill go left and you go right

ill go dark and you go light

ill accept while you deny

and say im not a waste of your time

i wish i had more to give

prod 2001
i wish you understood what i mean
i wish u rlly felt proud of me
i wish i had a home
let it go
the ppl that i know
never show themselves to me
i’m crying aching see
off a pill bitch i’m stuck in a dream
my head hurts i’m so deep
where do i go now
i can’t put my pants on
i cant do shit now
i feel like a moron
life is a headache
every fucking mistake
is haunting me so bad
wont u come hold me
tell me it’s okay
tell me i’m alright
plz don’t ignore me
i wait till the morning
but you do not text back
i feel so fucking stupid
why won’t u message me please

kill me softly please
when you speak will you speak slowly
do you love me like u say you’ll get me killed if i hurt you
why do you hurt me
please don’t ignore me
i ask you to calm down
you stay for a while
we drink until we pass out
draining me slowly
killing me softly
calm down
why are you shouting
fucking calm down
please just stop your whining
you tell me you’re stressed out
you tell me to calm down
but you are the one that
is causing the problems
why don’t you see that

wish u rlly

ty 3k 0_0
https://twitter.com/lostmyescape

regret

@diligencexs
in the end

https://open.spotify.com/album/6flSgOHm06B7tSvYE2lij2?si=ZNjo5z1sSg64dhohnA-pcg

light

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YhuPb84I7ek
MUSIC VID BY @dullgirl

runnin in circlez til im
lozt in da forest
but u still loop in my head wen im
out of storage
wake up evryfuckin dayyy
feelin lik a tourist
i hold myself in my armz
babie no1 ccan hurt uz

uhhh
i i i iuhiiihui i wuz gonna uhhh
drdr i i i uhUh i wuz gona azk 4 directionzzz but
u don look lik u kno where ur goin eithr ;]

a a aAaA aaah aahhh

ku do jesh sot? (where will u b 2nite?)
ne qielli o ne tok? (in da sky or on da ground?)
me ke do jesh sot? (who will u b wid 2nite?)
me mua o me zot? (wid me or wid god?)

lost *MUSIC VID IN DESC*

:(

So I'm fading away
Yuh
Like that is insane
You're fading away
I'm nodding okay
So high in my bedroom
Leaned in and I just wanna kiss you
Pop percs I'll be crying in the bathroom
I'm dying but I don't wanna hurt you
I wish you came around
I wish you wouldn't frown
All these places we could go
But you left me all alone
Tell myself that i don't miss you
Tell myself that i don't need you
Hate the fact that i can't see you
Hate the fact that i can't kiss you
I'm crazy for your love
I'm crazy for your love
So I'm fading away
Yuh
Like that is insane
You're fading away
I'm nodding okay
So high in my bedroom
Leaned in and I just wanna kiss you
Pop percs I'll be crying in the bathroom
I'm dying but I don't wanna hurt you

feeluvsyou - hurt u ft senses

feeluvsyou - why does no one listen

capoxxo x oaf1 - wow [+pvscale]

the most beautiful song ever made w/ xxcrush

i’ll never i’ll never
i’ll never be myself and i 
i’ll never i’ll never
i’ll never be my myself and i
i’ll never i’ll never
i’ll never try so hard that i
fall down fall down 
and i can’t speak until i die
ever whatever
and i can’t speak until i die 
whatever whatever
give me one reason to try
ever whatever
i need reason to live life
whatever whatever
too many reasons say goodbye

oh my god i really hate it that i’m fucking this up 
and i really fucking hate it that i messed it all up
oh my god and i hate that im still fucking up
oh my god i still hate that i am fucking up 
i’ll never be happy with anything that i see in the mirror ah
i’ll never have anything that i want
i’ll never be your hoe
i want hrt

mckel - diy hrt [prod. mckel]

prod takuori

Well I guess you're dead to me
So suffocate
My soul will break
So hide this day
Hold me while he's next to you

Smoking on cigs in the back of the bentley truck with my heart messed up
Tryna see where I went wrong, see where I messed up
Got a flask in my jacket
Pour a four in a attic
Brand new benz, you're an addict
All these stacks, these rack on me
Play it cool, you ain't gotta leave
Ass looks good in the prada jeans
Just admit you're a wannabe
How much do you mean to me
What did you want to be in this life

Everything you've said
All the books you've read
All the words unsaid
Hate me when you're dead
When there's bullets in your head
And there's a sieve that drains your blood in this life

guess youre dead to me

pleading with him, bleeding within

* https://youtu.be/-0Sa8gvw1TU?si=tczMIyuMM-Br7Rnf *

(produced by me)

spirit comes to us through neurosis - you will be okay

- love chanel

pleading with him

Prod. mckel
https://soundcloud.com/monocryy

mckel - when did life hurt this much

She asked for something real. Now we're both in trouble.

"Can't Look Away" is a slow-burn dark R&B confession - what happens when the gaze locks and neither of you can look away. When there's a word you're both not saying because you know what happens when you do.


© S R A 2025 | Produced with Suno.AI

wish u rlly

mckel

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