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lust #2

are u mad @ me?
baby dont be plz.
I been smoking weed.
feeling dead as i can be

I got my own demons 
Baby I can see them 
Smoking blunts in bed
I don't wanna be dead

Im scared of losing u
I dont wanna be a tool
I take drugs to cope 
But i just look like a fool

And im reaching for you 
But your not there
And im crying for help 
But no one cares
I wanna be in your arms 
Hold me 
While we fall apart
Always tripping off my bars
Baby you know your a star

Smoking Blunts In Bed

@emorave @45avast 
https://sptfy.com/6hFY

i've got used to it 
nothing helps us breathe
playin hide and seek
still in search of me 
u just wanna cut me into small pieces
nosebleed hittin tho u know u cant miss it 
u just wanna cut me into small pieces
nosebleed hittin tho u know u cant miss it 
did you find what you were always looking for
if i go numb im gonna see you at my doors
my circle closed 
so many things youd want exposed
it doesnt matter im still loosin all my hope
is it the best of you
forever chasin things youll never have
you make me feelin blue
crashed my soul and said thats all for now

i cant handle it no more
i cant stand it anymore
i cant stay here anymore
feel the panic reach my core
i tried to leave they wont let me
feel my breath getting heavy
i think im not ready
i need you to set me free
just let me be
grinding my teeth
i-i lost my lead
digging holes so deep
im so dissociated
cant think and i cant save it
stuck in my head i hate it
stuck in my bed life wasted

spotify !

hide & seek +emorave (avast)

@feeluvsyou - sharkcards ft zeija *PROD ZEIJA*

What Do U Say +Pinky *soundcloud exclusive*

it took me 20+ versions to get this

produced/mixed/written by me
cover art edited by @venusrose4u

🠟 lyrics 🠟

conceal my heart
cant trust another soul
to pull me out 
i think i need to find

how to 
make this my own
create a home
without a hand to hold 


i swear this is my final plea
to find a love whose fine with me
these wounds create a 
timeless piece
of
whats inside this mind that keeps me

painfully awake at night 
in this 
drab and empty room of white
in this 
hole devoid of love and light
that i
dug myself into despite your

passionately held advice
telling 
me to find a fucking vice
that
doesn’t have to do with knives 
or 
sacrificing sections of me

ohh i was too late
but i see it now
can i fix my ways?
before i bleed out

conceal my heart
cant trust another soul
to pull me out 
i think i need to find

how to 
make this my own
create a home
without a hand to hold

plea

drums by @oldyungtoadsage, remaining production, mels / vox / mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying 

Pain
Abbreviated
I burn what i grow
Till its all the same to me

All these fucking games
that they play are lame to me

please talk real
all these bitches fucking sound the same to me...


ill cut you out if you suppress me

all the blood means = growth
++more stress please

i just wanna get these words of my chest please 

step out
from depression 
like i bested it

its my craft 
i invest in it

my hearts not pure
you tested it,
so u know

i strike down
what's best in me

i cut down and rebuild 
what's left of me
on my own 

shawty keep on texting me
u can try 
but u wont see the rest of me

no no no 

my swag so heavenly 
i don't take no pills 
match my energy 
no, u wont

I sensed that something here was different 
I felt like something here was wrong
But i don’t have a way to fix it
My only vices are these songs 

And when im wounded,
will you kiss the spot that hurts 
or is it wrong for me to ask?

for me to ask???

I cant stop thinking of your skin on mine 
but the only view i get of u is online 

i think i need to fucking go outside
cuz its been a while
and im fucking dying

impure

- featuring [@daybat aka spiral]  | (second verse)
- produced by [@mothshonor aka ami4evr]
- additional production, effects and mix by me

🠟 lyrics 🠟

[ first half : @sprigtek ]

Hanging on for something 
u believed that i had

But my hands are closed noww..

you took my heart from me

i didn’t have what u wanted

still u took a part that i need

you’ll never give it back, be honest

i don’t even want you to now

i dont want you to
noowww...

[ verse 2 ]

mind goes static 

i control the mix like magic

bad shit happens
when ur passive

part of me knows that im trash 
thats why u like to laugh me off

please im begging u to stop

hold my blade two inches off

hesitate to let it drop



all those times you said im worthless

all those times you said that im worth it

i just wanna find my purpose 

acting like
you never said
those things at all?

always hurting 
wishing i could fucking 
clear my mind

clear it of you
and leave your face a couple miles behind

[ verse 3 / outro : @daybat /spiral ]

you wanted more from me
but i can’t see the light like i used to 
will you give me something i’m used to
something that hurts
show me my worth
none of my thoughts look so pretty on paper
my body’s a prison and i can’t escape her
trapped in myself
i’ll envy someone else
i’m not your friend i don’t like you
search the mirror until i find you

passive >|< + spiral

share the stars [dgtl]

haloes & hellfire

haloes & hellfire (feat. pradaaslife)

mixed by @buffalobang

it’s on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/5jP3och2akqRjLSBQ4fPxn?si=BPbnDq-OTBWJw5oTsHRwzw&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A48HE1YojtJkWYMAx7H3AeA

melancholy

guitar by @gl0wrm, drums split, all other production and mixing by me

cover art also by me

lyrics

[ intro / chorus : @sprigtek]

i think i turned 
bad
i
said
it wouldn’t take long
thats
why 
you’re turning your back
i 
knew
you’d be gone

do i get inside your head
too 
much
will you regret 
me
this once?

kept up by these 
thoughts 
that 
i cant outrun

[ verse 1 : @sprigtek ]

almost dead
but u breathe your light into me

i fight what i feel
when it gets to me

i send awful chills
down your spine
when i say
i’m the downhill descent
in your life

tell me what
are you trying to get from me?

looking close
as u wait for the death of me

u should know, 
if u stay you’ll get sick with me
then get sick of me

[ verse 2 : @gl0wrm ]

wish I felt nothing
watch it fall away
I say something
Im waiting for the day
u dont notice
and idc at all
I can’t show this
At all 
I wish I felt nothing
watch it fall away
I say something
Im waiting for the day
that u dont notice
and idc at all
I can’t show this

cover up my eyes
when im with u a part of dies
I see u from far away
I got nothing I even wanna say
u dont notice shit
fall back and breath thru it
I see u from far away
I got nothing I even wanna say

[ outro / chorus : @sprigtek ]

i think i turned 
bad
i
said
it wouldn’t take long
thats
why 
you’re turning your back
i 
knew
you’d be gone

do i get inside your head
too 
much
will you regret 
me
once?

i see something u dont wanna know...

[ end ]

downhill + gl0wrm

@capoxxo 
prod. @dreamcache

lyrics:
i just think its kinda funny how i woke up feeling fine
then i put my clothes on backwards and travelled that way in time
falling in between the cracks and hitting u up for a ride
giving it all up for u im leaving everything behind
would it b too much to ask to tell me how u truly feel
or am i just such a mess that u dont want me in ur reels
i cant look at my reflection cuz im not tryna get killed
yeah the time it moves so quickly but with u its standing still

theres times when i go blind
u should kno that i still try
give it every part of my life
i guess thats what im here for

o, i know, it calls
i wont pick up the phone at all
i heard u talking down
that hurts my soul
what should i do now
oh no, lets go

im riding it out
i writing it down for u
whenever u need me i got u
dont look good w that dude
hes cheap like sum fast food
like bro..

just dont forget
u know that i got u im holding u down
im sorry i suck
and i cant tell wats happening with u right now

its the only thing i never could lose
i admit it that im wrong its true
i dont rly kno what else i could do
i can only see myself with u
and u kno u can have whatever u want
and we havent shared a thought in so long
i should go but i would rather just not
i mean every word i said in this song

blind w/ capoxxo

baby i’m always in the wrong
the entire song
baby i’m always in the wrong
i’m never right i’m gone
baby i’m always in the wrong
your head turn right i’m gone
baby i’m always in the wrong
all i do is hurt other ones

you don’t mean anything to me
all i do is make you bleed
i know you hate me please
suffer as i see
all i do is make you suffer
pills i take oh brother
i got xannies inside me
i can barely speak to you
i’m so lost and confused
i cannot speak to you
my heads screwed

misery, oh baby please
confide in me
i suffer, i suffer oh baby please

baby i’m always in the wrong
the entire song
baby i’m always in the wrong
i’m never right i’m gone
baby i’m always in the wrong
your head turn right i’m gone
baby i’m always in the wrong
all i do is hurt other ones

you don’t mean anything to me
all i do is make you bleed
i know you hate me please
suffer as i see
all i do is make you suffer
pills i take oh brother
i got xannies inside me
i can barely sp-

always in the wrong [prod. mckel]

>lyrix<

it was already perfect
yet i think i'll destroy it
nothing evr has a purpose
i still let myself enjoy it

rowing 
downstream
she's glowing
without me
life's fleeting
don't get 2 attaached
i dream
of things i'll nvr have

rain
watch u go away
ur a cloud another day
in the end i'm glad u came
x2

it was already perfect
yet i think i'll destroy it
nothing evr has a purpose
i still let myself enjoy it

living my life
counting $$ up
now i have enough
so i buy it
now it's 2 much
douse the stuff
n i ignite it
now i'm in luvv
now i'm here crying
give it all up
while the sun rises

rowing 
downstream
she's glowing
without me

*chops*

rain
watch u go away
ur a cloud another day
in the end i'm glad u came
x3

☁️clouds2rain🌧️ [dgtl]

Human

prod me

*lyrics*

no such thing
as a perfect ending
we go again
run it back from the beginning
im fading out 
in my succession
the next page
is empty

hold my breath
i put my hands up in the air
there's nothing left
and the ending wasn't fair
time passed
now it's so clear
rub my eyes, look back
n it's so clear
i was selfish
ig i nvr cared
thought i was helpless
forgot the ppl that were there
open up my eyes
n it's so clear
i took the fog from the sky
now it's so clear

i savor every moment
i hate to lose my focus
take things 2 make me forget
my brain is making a mess

hold my breath
i put my hands up in the air
there's nothing left
and the ending wasn't fair
time passed
now it's so clear
rub my eyes, look back
n it's so clear
i was selfish
ig i nvr cared
thought i was helpless
forgot the ppl that were there
open up my eyes
n it's so clear
i took the fog from the sky
now it's so clear

*entry4*

	there was someone
	there was something
	there was somewhere
	there was time
	but there was no reason
	and i still don't know

	but i will try again

8KUHD

credit 2 ayesha eortica
support her everyhere u can lov

ayesha erotica - emo boy

2007MYSPACEGIRL X 6snot - MYSPACE SHAWTY !

why have you not seen my tears gurl/ 

why have you not seen my scars/ 
read my lips bitch/ 
stop and listen/ 
broke my heart/ lifes so hard/ 
one by one/ 

im so tired of this/ 
this shit/
stop and listen/ 
im a dipshit/ 
all my fault/ 
i got trackmarks/ 
all on my arm/ 
i got scars/ 
all on my arm/ 
got sum tattoos too/ 
cut in the bathroom/ 
then i get sum tattoos/
suxx like vaccum/ 
gurl i wasnt that rude/ 
like r u dumb/ 

why have you not seen my tears gurl/ 
why did you not feel no fear gurl/
if you want we can disappear gurl/ 
say what you want but this is real gurl/
why have you not seen my scars/ 
read my lips bitch/ 
stop and listen/ 
broke my heart/ 
lifes so hard/ 
one by one/

always in the wrong [prod. mckel]

mckel 2